Disclaimer: I do not own any of J.K. Rowling or Stephanie Myer's characters. Although at times I will insert my own original characters periodically to move the story forward.

Warnings: Violence, strong language, mental health.

Author's notes: This is my first story and I welcome all reviews, please be kind and respectful. This story takes place just a few months after the Battle of Hogwarts and moves the Twilight timeline back to 1998. I am writing in the first person from Harry's perspective throughout. Enjoy!

Chapter 9- Memory Charms and Mind Tricks

Everything was started to get cold in Mr. Brown's English class the next morning, I even saw the classroom windows start to fog and ice over. It was then that I looked up at Mr. Brown, except he was a dementor. He started to move slowly towards me, I looked around and saw that I was alone in the cold dark classroom. All of the happiness was being sucked out of me as the dementor closed in on me. I saw its rotten hand reach out to me and it reached up with its other hand to pull back its hood exposing its featureless face. I pulled out my wand, but all I could think of was despair. I weakly tried a patronus charm as it slowly advanced on me intent on giving me its soul sucking kiss. The charm only succeeded in producing a weak puff of white vapor. When it touched me with its rotting dead hands and pulled me close to its face all I could do was scream.

I bolted awake screaming "EXPECTO PATRONUM!" I yelled causing a white vapor to appear in the darkness.

I hear the door open behind me and Sirius rush in. "Harry what's wrong?" He asked turning on the light to reveal that I was safely in my bedroom.

"Nothing" I said wiping sweat from my face and putting on my glasses. "Just a nightmare about my English teacher turning into a dementor and trying to kiss me after I failed to turn in my essay on time." I sighed with relief and stood up with a horrible crick in my neck from falling asleep at my desk on top of that fucking book that I hated so much.

Sirius placed a comforting hand on my shoulder. "This class is really getting to you if you have dementors attacking you." He said softly beside me.

"I would rather face one than that class" I said shakily, "Mr. Brown is kind and nice, but what he assigns us has a tendency to keep me up at night sometimes." I laughed softly, "At least the book isn't trying to duel me like the algebra equations did a week ago."

Sirius laughed softly, "Well take your potions and get dressed, you over slept and Bella will be here any minute."

"Oh" I said jumping at the time on my watch, "When she gets here let her know that Edward is taking me to school today."

"Edward?" Sirius asked curiously

"He came by to talk last night and he said that we're going public today, so he decided to drive me to school." I said furiously stripping and grabbing the nearest clean clothes that I could find.

"To talk?" Sirius said with a grin, "Any good dream fantasies come true?"

I smacked him hard on the shoulder, "Pervert."

"I had to ask" He chuckled as I laced up my shoes. "Wait you said that you're going public, does this mean that you guys are really an official thing?"

"Yup" I said downing my potions, putting my wand in my pocket, and shoving the contents of my desktop in my backpack. "Now I need to get down there and meet him if you don't mind."

I pushed past Sirius and ran downstairs taking the steps two at a time. I heard Bella's truck pull up and saw Edward's car waiting for me as I ran out the front door putting my coat on. "I'm going to school with Edward today." I said opening Bella's passenger door on her truck.

"Ok" She smiled, "See you at school."

She drove off leaving Edward and I alone outside in my front yard. As I turned to walk to the passenger door of his car he appeared at vampire speed beside it holding it open making my jump. "As long as we're alone I don't think we should have to hide who we really are." He said smiling as he waited for me to get in his car.

"Sounds good to me" I said getting in and buckling my seat belt. As soon as my door shut I heard Edward's do the same as he flashed around into the driver's side of the car.

"You need to apply your glamour" He said softly tracing the lightening scar on my forehead.

"Oh, thanks" I said producing my wand and tapping my scar applying the spell.

When I went to tap the 'I will not tell lies' scar on my right wrist Edward grabbed my hand. I looked up at him and saw his eyes grow wide. "Who did this to you?" He asked concerned.

"A former teacher at Hogwarts that the ministry sent in to keep me and Dumbledore 'in line' after I told the world how Voldemort had returned after the Triwizard Tournament." I said quickly applying the glamour to it. "I don't want to get into it right now."

"You'll tell me eventually right?" He asked softly

"Eventually" I said, "But for now school, and breakfast. I woke up late and am starving for once."

The whole way to school Edward held my left hand, I felt so calm and warm inside from his cold touch. I wish I could stay here all day instead of going to English class, but I knew that I would get all of the time I wanted with him after school so I consoled myself to let the be a prequel to look forward to something better.

When we got to school I had the largest butterflies in the world in my stomach. Edward appeared on my side of the car, I hadn't even noticed him get out of the car. He held the door open as I unbuckled my seat belt and stepped out of the car. I looked around and I wanted to melt into the parking lot, all eyes were on us with everyone whispering different things about either knowing deep down or being shocked that Edward Cullen was actually gay. Edward held my hand as we walk across the parking lot toward the cafeteria prompting more whispers and side conversations.

After I had eaten some eggs, bacon, and toast for breakfast in a hurry to avoid being late to my least favorite class to avoid detention Edward walked me to Mr. Brown's door. "Let me know how it goes." He said squeezing my hand as he walked off to his first class. I sighed at the loss of his touch, and the thought of FUCKING ENGLISH CLASS!

Edward met me at the door of all my classes to walk me to each of them. I was beginning to wonder how he even made it on time to any of his morning classes from them being so far from mine, but I guess being a vampire has its perks in that department. At lunch he piled my tray full of everything that he could find, paid for it over my extreme objections, and led me to our own table in the corner of the room. I decided to sit facing the room up against the wall with him facing me. I looked around and still saw that a lot of people were staring at us, it's like they have never seen two guys date before. I wanted to melt into the floor the whole time.

"Is anyone paying any close attention to us?" I asked wanting to melt into the floor.

"Yes but no" Edward said pensively, "Why?" I opened my coat to reveal my wand. "Wait…. and now."

I pulled out my wand and quickly cast the muffliato charm and put it back away as quickly as I pulled it out. "Now we can talk all we want about whatever we want." I breathed sighing with relief sinking down in my chair slightly.

"Was that a sound-proofing charm?" Edward asked

"In a way" I said poking at an apple with my right index finger. "It causes everyone around us to hear a faint, but indistinct buzzing sound making eavesdropping impossible."

"So an anti-eavesdropping charm then, you really are resourceful." He said picking up a chip and pointing it at me. "Now eat"

I sighed and sat up in my seat. "I'm not really that hungry" I said still noticing people staring at us.

"Don't make me have to feed you myself" Edward said with a serious look on his face.

I sighed and took the chip from his hand eating it. "I would let you, but I don't want to either die of embarrassment or have to obliviate the entire cafeteria."

"You really care what people think don't you?" Edward asked softly

"Ever since I entered the wizarding world people couldn't stop staring at me." I said eating another chip. "I was so famous that I couldn't go anywhere without people knowing who I was. I quickly made a loyal group of two friends that were my friends because of who I was as a person, not because I was 'The Boy Who Lived', and after that I quickly got used to the stares and pointing. It still bothered me quite a bit, but knowing that I had people that wanted to be around me because of me being me, not because I was famous for something that happened before I could remember stuff, made me able to just live my life easier. Now all I want to do is avoid prying eyes, and I can't now that I'm with the most available, but not available, hottest guy in the school."

Edward reached across the table and placed his hand on mine softly. "I'm sorry Harry, if I had known that it would be this hard for you then I would've waited some before I insisted that we go public with our relationship." His eyes and thoughts were nothing but sadness regret for doing this to me so quickly.

"Actually being so publically open up front is what we need to be." I said squeezing his hand. He looked at me with a mix of shock and concern. "If we tried to sneak around and wait then it would be a hundred times worse. I've never been to an American small town before, but I can read social situations from how I grew up. With how people are here sneaking around and waiting will only make it worse when it finally does come out, so it's best to just 'rip the band-aid off' as they say and fuck it, go for it."

Edward smiled at me, it was a concerned smile though. "I'd hate to see you be hurt by this."

"Trust me, after the year I got this" I pointed to the hidden scar he saw this morning on my right wrist, "I nearly went mad from all of the bullshit that was way worse than anything Forks high school can even think of throwing at me. Even though I have very deep insecurities, I still have a great deal of confidence in myself."

"What happened that year?" He asked interestedly leaning up on his elbows toward me.

"Do you read the wizarding newspapers?" I asked

"Sometimes" He replied

"Think back to the years 1995 and 1996, I know that has only been two years ago but try and remember what was in the papers concerning Hogwarts and me then." I said wringing my hands nervously.

Edward sat back, closed his eyes, and thought for a minute about what I had just asked him to try and remember. When he opened his eyes his jaw hit the table. "You had to go through all of that publically!" It was a statement of fact, not a question.

"Yes" I said, "And what happened out of public view was even worse than anything that the public version of what went on could even think of being. The teacher that had me carve this into my hand, come to find out at the end of the year, had sent two dementors to assassinate me using her position as undersecretary to the minister of magic. I had to go in front of the entire wizengamot to face charges of improper use of magic just for defending myself, I could've been expelled from Hogwarts and thrown in Azkaban if convicted for the bullshit charges. I had to suffer through constantly being called either a nutter, an attention seeker, or an attention seeking nutter. I was either shunned completely and treated like I didn't exist, or I was hexed behind my back. I kept having Voldemort trying to project memories, either true or false, into my I mind in my sleep to manipulate me prompting The Professor to work with one of my other professors, that hated me very much, to teach me occulumancy. I was shown a false vision by Voldemort of him torturing Sirius Black, my godfather who I have to pretend is my uncle Simon, prompting me to come to the ministry of magic to retrieve a copy of a prophesy that Voldemort and I share stating that he shall mark me as his equal (he did when I was a baby and killed my parents), and that neither of us can live while the other survives (Which means that I had to be the one to kill him). I thought that Sirius had died from going through the veil between life and death that the ministry of magic was studying in a special chamber in a special department. I faced off against Voldemort in a duel in the ministry lobby, that I nearly died in until Dumbledore stepped in and fought him off, when Voldemort left the ministry then the minister of magic and half of the ministry of magic saw that Dumbledore, The Professor, and I were in fact telling the truth and not insane like they had been making everyone believe. Then The Professor showed up in Dumbledore's office, to both mine and his surprise mind you, with a living breathing Sirius. The Professor had to check the future using his time machine to see if Sirius did or didn't have to die in order to not affect my path of smaller fixed points in time that led up to the big fixed point in time where I dueled Voldemort to the death. When he returned to Dumbledore's office he informed me that Sirius living had a neutral effect on the future, and that is the general gist of my 5th year at Hogwarts."

When I finished Edward looked like if he was human then he would've been crying his eyes out from just hearing me go through what I did that year at Hogwarts. "Holy fucking shit" He sighed trying to keep his voice from shaking. "Holly fucking shit Harry. Knowing that I can kind of see why you would want to 'rip the band-aid off' with making our relationship public, but fuck me you have been through a lot."

I hadn't even noticed that I had been crying the whole time until Edward reached across the table to wipe the tears from both side of my face. All I could think about was that I couldn't let him completely in, yet. If he knew all about me then he would run away from me as fast as he could. I looked into his eyes and was shocked by what I saw in his thoughts. He left Carlisle not long after Esme joined them and rebelled. He murdered people that did horrible things to other people to satisfy his bloodlust. Murderers, rapists, serial killers, child molesters, he killed and fed on all of them. He finally returned to Carlisle as the 'prodigal son' and rejoined his lifestyle of only feeding on animals. He had nothing but fear and loathing for himself. He thought about how broken that I was and how he wanted nothing more than to protect me from him. "I didn't know how fucked up you were until know." I said reaching out and grabbing his hand, holding it tight like he would slip away like sand running through my fingers. "I mean, killing those people that were like that. I only know one other person that has to live with that kind of thing, and it's hard, really fucking hard."

"I thought you wanted to get to know me without reading my mind." Edward stated trying to move his hand, but causing me to tighten my grip on it.

"I realized that if I really want to get to know the real you then I have to be willing to look deeper." I said sadly, "I'm sorry that I look into you without you being able to look into me, but I can't lower my occulumancy. I've tried ever since I perfected it, but I can't. The only person who can pierce my mental wall is The Professor."

Edward sighed, "The Professor, I've known him for quite a while. He was there when I was turned; he was even there for me when I did the things that I did. If he even did anything close to what he did for me with you then I know that I guess that I don't have to protect you from me. Not being able to read your mind is the most frustrating thing that I have ever been through, but The Professor would not have trained you to be un-readable if he didn't have to." He smiled "At least I know what everyone else goes through when I'm the one doing the mind reading all the time."

"Can you read The Professor's mind?" I asked curiously

"No" He said sadly, "No one can, he is the most powerful person in the world. He can do things with his mind and body that even the most powerful people on Earth can only think of dreaming about."

I laughed; I had known his answer before I had even asked my question. The Professor was an immortal inter-dimensional time traveler that was nearly three and a half million years old. He is also like a father to me, the prophecy keeping him here in my universe until either Voldemort and I died was what prompted him to train me, but I guess he thinks he still has things to teach me which is why he sticks around now that he can leave at any time. The only reason I asked my question was to see Edward's reaction to it. His reaction was one of defeat in being bested at mind reading, and as an obvious duh at the same time; The Professor just had that effect on people.

I heard the bell ring making me want to cry from our conversation being cut short, at least I had one class with Edward. "Do you think that Bella will swap seats with me in Biology?" I asked sadly not wanting to leave Edward's company.

"Maybe" He said as I dumped my tray in the bin. He had a hopeful look on his face as we walked to class.

"Hey Bella can we switch partners?" I asked hopefully when I arrive in the classroom.

"Um" She thought for a minute, when I pushed past her shield I saw how she was apprehensive about sitting with Mike.

"Please" I pleaded, "I can talk to Mike if I have to."

"That would be great" She said relieved

I walked up to Mike and tapped him on the shoulder. "Hey can you take Bella as a partner?" I asked

"Why?" He asked curiously

"You know why." I said pointing at Edward

His eyes showed understanding and he grinned slightly. "Sure" He said, his thoughts were turned toward getting to sit next to his crush although he had started to date Jessica.

I decided to try something that The Professor had taught me. I waved my hand channeling energy through it toward Mike. "So you're just friends with Bella, nothing more?"

"Yeah I'm just friends with Bella, nothing more." He repeated like a parrot, his thoughts showed that I had been successful in influencing his thoughts. His thoughts also showed that he was now completely un-attracted to Bella, and fully focused on Jessica. The Professor has taught me well, making me smile at the thought.

When I walked back over to Bella I told her that she had nothing to worry about from Mike. "It is the witching hour then." She said grinning at me taking her seat next to Mike, and I taking my seat next to Edward.

"The Professor has taught you well." Edward grinned at me.

I spent the entire class just enjoying the feeling of holding Edward's hand under the lab table as Mr. Banner droned on and on about what the fuck ever he was teaching about.

When I got to gym class my whole day took a turn for the worst, because of Arnie. He taunted and called me a fairy again in the locker room, but what hurt me the worst wasn't him taunting me; it was him calling Edward 'Gayward' making me want to curse him into the fucking ground. All throughout class he would try and get me out in dodge ball, but I only succeeded in nailing him in his big fat bollocks.

In the locker room after class he kept trying to rile me up. "Fuck you Arnie" I said boredly as I changed out of my running shorts and into my jeans.

"You'd like that wouldn't you Fairy." He taunted me

"Just fuck off" I said standing up to go, "I kicked your ass once, and I'll do it again, now fuck off and leave me alone."

As I walked past him he tripped me causing me to hit my head hard on the bench behind him. I felt the hard bench connect with my eye causing me to tear up and hold my face in pain. "Oh, sorry Fairy I didn't see you there, you really need to be more careful." He said smugly causing his gang to laugh like a pack of hyenas. I slowly pushed myself to my feet, grabbed my bag, and pushed past them and out of the locker room.

When I came out of the locker room I could hear Mike telling them how to go fuck themselves as he came out of the door into the gym. "Don't listen to that fat sack of shit Harry, he's just sad that he didn't get any love as a child so he had to take all of his frustration out on a bag of Doritos."

"You're right" I said rubbing my hurt eye, "How bad is it?" I knew that Edward would be furious with Arnie, hopefully I could talk him down from killing him.

"It's not good" Mike said as we walked out of the gym.

"What's not good?" Edward asked as we came outside, as soon as he saw me I saw him start to shake from rage. "What happened?" I could tell that he was on the verge of secrecy laws be fucked.

"Arnie tripped me and I landed head first on a bench." I said sadly, but truthfully. "Come on let's go."

Edward refused to move, "I think I'll wait a minute."

When I looked in Mike's thought he could tell just what I knew was going to happen, except he didn't know exactly how strong Edward was. Arnie came walking out of the gym flanked on either side by his gang. "Edward it's not worth it." I pleaded grabbing his arm, "Please don't"

He pulled his arm out of my grip and walked up to Arnie. "Oh hey Gayward, are you done kissing you're boyfriend's boo-boos?"

Edward grabbed Arnie by the throat and slammed him into the wall holding him a few inches above the ground. His goons tried to stop him, but when Edward let out a growl like a wolf hunting its prey they quickly cowered away in fear. "My name is Edward" Edward snarled pressing on Arnie's throat, "And my boyfriend's name is Harry, got it. It fact, if you ever lay another hand on him then I will rip your head off and shit down your neck you fat piece of fucking shit. Do you understand me?" He slammed Arnie's head against the wall while still choking him. "Do I make myself clear?" Edward's eyes were narrowed into slits as he fought the urge to tear Arnie's head off, and then Arnie pissed himself bursting into tears. Edward slammed Arnie's head into the wall again and dropped him to the ground gasping and crying for air. "What is my name you fat fuck?"

Arnie coughed and spluttered for air "E.. Ed..ward" he choked scared out of his mind.

Edward put his foot on his chest, "Bullshit, I can't hear you."

"Edward!" Arnie gasped sobbing uncontrollably

"What is my boyfriend's name?" Edward asked pushing on Arnie's chest with his foot causing him to scream in pain.

"Harry!" Arnie screamed

Edward picked him up and placed him in a sitting position wrapping his hand around his throat squeezing it tight. "If you ever forget our names and call us by anything else I will gouge out your eye balls and skull fuck you." He hissed inches from Arnie's face, "Now what are our names?"

"Ed..wa..rd and… H..arr..y" Arnied chocked against Edward's grip.

"Bullshit, I can't hear you, sound off like you got a pair you fat fucking piece of human shit." Edward yelled inches from Arnie's face.

"Edward and Harry!" Arnie screamed barely able to speak from Edward's chokehold.

Edward released him, "Don't you ever forget it." As Arnie collapsed on the ground choking and coughing Edward kicked him in the stomach hard enough to cause him to vomit, and then kicked him again for good measure causing him to go into uncontrollable dry heaves. He looked at Arnie's frozen gang who had also pissed themselves. "Why are you and this lard ass piece of human shit still here?" He hissed

They grabbed Arnie as he continued to dry heave and scurried off like the rats that they were, one dipshit under each of Arnie's arms barely able to hold his fat ass up tripping over themselves to put as much distance between them and Edward as possible.

I saw Mike collapse to the ground and start to hyperventilate, he almost threw up. "Holy shit" He gasped, "Holy fucking shit, you just… you…"

I ran over to Mike and put my hand on his shoulder. "Are you ok?" I asked concerned

Mike breathed deeply and exhaled. "You're not human!" he choked out looking at Edward.

I decided to try another energy mind trick on him. "You're going to ignore what you are registering as abnormal about Edward." He repeated what I said, "He just had an adrenaline rush like I did last time I dealt with Arnie." He repeated what I told him, "You're going to calm down, go home, and relax."

"I'm gonna go home and relax" Mike repeated calmly giving me a bro-hug and saying goodbye.

"Arnie!" I exclaimed, "where is he?" I asked frantically

"Why?" Edward spat

"If Mike is thinking those things then you know that fat fuck is too." I said on the verge of a panic attack. "I have to modify his memory to make him over look any supernatural elements."

Edward looked at me and showed me where Arnie was in his thoughts, I disapparated from where Edward was and apparated where Arnie was. I pulled out my wand and did a memory charm on him and his friends to make them overlook any supernatural elements that they thought they saw making them think that Edward just had an adrenalin rush like I did the time that I hexed the fuck out of him, except I left things where he was so scared of Edward that neither him or his gang would ever think of crossing him or me just to make sure that Edward and I didn't have to do anything like this again.

When I apparated back to where Edward was he was collapsed on the ground hyperventilating and dry heaving. "What have I done? What the fuck have I done?"

I knelt down beside him and put my arm around him comfortingly. "Don't worry, I took care of it."

"I'm a fucking monster Harry" He choked sobbing

"It's ok" I said rubbing his back soothingly, "We're going to be fine, like I said, I took care of things."

"I can't lose control like that" He choked, "I nearly killed him. I just thought of how he hurt you, and I wanted to make sure that he would never lay a hand on you again."

"He's definitely learned his lesson" I said softly, "My memory charm made sure of that."

"You don't need someone like me in your life." He sobbed on the ground.

"Nothing you can do will scare me away." I said softly as I continued to rub his back. "I love you Edward, monster and all."

"How?" He sobbed louder, "How can you love someone as horrible as me?"

"Because you feel remorse when you lose control" I said softly, "You are what you are, but you fight everyday so that you can be who you want to be. The only true monsters are those that lose control and enjoy it."

"But what if I enjoyed doing that to him?" Edward sobbed

"You and I both know that the only reason that you might have enjoyed that was because you felt the need to protect me as your mate." I said softly, "You had to assert your dominance as my protector. I've face a true monster before; he did what he did for the sheer pleasure of feeling people's pain just to hear them scream. You only did what you did to that fat fuck because of the urge to protect me. That means that you did what you did out of love, not out of pleasure."

Edward slowly sat up and collapsed into my arms. When I looked into his eyes his thoughts showed me that he understood that I was right about everything that I said. "I love you Harry" He said softly into my chest.

"I love you too" I said kissing his forehead, "Now let's go, Sirius is probably wondering what dirty things I have gotten into with you."

Edward laughed softly, "I guess we could go for a roll in the mud over there in the grass."

I smiled, "At least you have a sense of humor to go with your good looks."

That night after dinner I turned in for bed early, Edward had planned to meet me at my window. I had just changed into my pajamas and was sitting at my desk working on my essay for in the morning when he knocked on my window.

He rushed in at vampire speed and appeared on my bed, I pointed my wand at the window closing it against the chilly air outside. "Give me a minute" I said scratching out a few lines on my essay, I knew that I would have to re-write the whole thing but I at least tried to get the rubbish whittled down.

Edward yanked my essay from under me and held it up starting to read it. I tried to reach for it, but he was quicker. "You have a good thing going on, but you need to have more confidence in your writing skills." He said setting the paper back down on the desk, "I would do it for you, but my handwriting is different than yours so unless you have a typewriter handy then you have a lot of copying ahead of you." He had a sad look on his face probably thinking about how it would take me all night to redo my essay.

I pointed my wand at my pen and transfigured it into a typewriter. "Please" I pleaded, "I hate this class so much and really need to get this done. I really don't care if it passes, but I need it to at least be something that I can turn in."

"Sure" Edward said setting down at my desk. The typewriter kept jamming from how fast he typed so I had to use a couple of charms on it to make it keep up. After a few minutes he had finished and I read what he had wrote, it was good enough to pass without being too obvious that he had done it for me.

"Thanks" I said transfiguring the typewriter back into a pen, I then used magic to copy what he had done into my handwriting on a separate piece of paper and stuffed the finished copy into a folder that I put in my backpack.

"Why didn't I just handwrite it then if you were going to do all of that?" He sighed.

"Because you asked for a typewriter." I said grinning and setting down on my bed. "Sit with me?"

He sat down next to me and I could feel my heart pounding in my chest, I was so close to him. I looked up at him and thought of how all my dreams about him were finally coming true. He leaned his head down to mine where our faces were inches apart. When our lips touched I felt a strong jolt of electricity causing me to want more. His lips parted, mine did to, and then it hit me that I didn't need to go this far with him yet no matter how much I wanted to. I pulled away and moved away from him on the bed. "What's wrong?" He breathed softly making me want to kiss him even more.

"I just can't right now." I said as my heart tried to pound out of my chest and my whole body felt like it had been set on fire. "I've wanted this for so, so long, but I'm just not ready for it like I thought I was."

He gently ran a cold finger down my cheek making me get even hotter. "It's ok Harry" He said softly, "I don't want to do anything to make you do anything that you don't want to do, so if you're not ready then that's ok, I can wait until you are. I have all of the time in the world."

"Really?" I asked looking at him softly

"I've been a virgin this long" He said sadly, "I can wait a little while longer."

"You've never had sex?" I asked not believing what I was hearing, "In your whole one hundred years that you have been alive, not one sexual experience?"

"No" He said sadly, "I have been confused about what I really was attracted to for so long, and then when I was finally honest with myself about my feelings I never got to act on them. Emmett would always tease me making me feel worse about myself. I always felt that I would spend the rest of my life alone; I never dreamed that I would actually find my true mate, let alone someone as…."

I traced the side of his sad face with my fingertips interrupting him, "Broken, fucked up, beyond loving."

"As broken as me" He said holding my hand softly

I sat there with his hand in mine for I don't know how long just taking in all that we had said to each other. I had only had one sexual relationship in my life, and he hurt me so bad I don't know how I could ever move past him. Draco… with his soft lips and platinum hair, to his warmly cold grey eyes, he really made me feel something for once, but then he took it all away when he gave in to Voldemort. I tried to help him, to save him even, but he turned his back on me. I'm so scared to actually give myself completely to someone like that again, especially considering that if I did with Edward then I would be his first time ever. I don't know if I can do that to him yet, he means too much to me.

"What are you thinking?" Edward asked softly

"What did your family think about what happened today?" I asked quietly wanting to change the subject.

"They weren't too happy about it" he sighed stroking my hair softly, "Especially since Alice had told them before I got home."

"How did Alice know?" I asked confused

"She's a seer" Edward explained softly. "I explained how you took care of everything and they calmed down, in fact they want to meet you."

I pulled away from him and looked at him confused, "Meet me?"

"I have been keeping them away from you until the time is right" He said tracing my lightening scar with his finger, "What do you say?"

I thought for a minute and decided that I might as well, with Alice being a seer then she probably had an idea worked out of when I would agree to finally meet them. "Sure" I said, "How about after school tomorrow?"

"Sounds good" Edward said softly cupping my face in his cold hand. "Now it's time for bed, unlike me you actually need sleep."

I groaned sadly not wanting this moment to end. "Only on one condition" I said with a sigh, "You agree to stay with me all night."

Edward smiled, "Sure"

I curled up under the covers with Edward and felt at peace, until I started to shiver from how cold he actually was. He protested, but I just grabbed my wand and cast a warming charm under the covers making me more comfortable. As I sat my wand back on my nightstand I yawned and curled up against Edward drifting into a dreamless sleep for once in so long, I was finally at peace for the first time in forever, and I never wanted to leave this feeling as long as I lived.