I am so sorry for the long wait. I have had a few family medical issues going on. My grandma had a stroke, my dad had a mild heart issue. Then my cousin passed suddenly from an aneurysm. So, I have had a lot to deal with. Hopefully, I will be able to update more often now. Thank you for sticking with me. I do not own Sons of Anarchy or its characters, Kurt Sutter and FX does.
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Later that afternoon the guys were in church discussing the new runs, as well as what is going on with the Mayans and Irish "the Mayans, are pushing against the ports in Stockton. We have shipments coming in from the Irish. While need to do some overnight protection details, I'm thinking two guys at a time. Tonight, I want Jax and Opie." Clay said as he wipes his brow to get rid of the sweat that is rolling to his eyes.
"Clay you ok, man?" Tig asked noticing the sweat pouring from Clay's brow
"Yeah, I'm good. It's just hot in here," Clay responds hoping everyone buys it, knowing it's from the pills he just took. Tig nods not sure if he should believe him or not because it's really not that hot in here.
"Ok, one last order of business, we have Hap and Koz that want to make the jump to Sam Crow. On behave of all of us we would be glad to have you guys. We will vote this next church.
"Ok, I think we are done with church, Jax and Opie head out to Stockton port in three hours," Clay said
"Ok Clay" Jax responded wondering if Clay if fine, he noticed the sweat that Tig mentioned but Tig said something first. "last thing before we are done, McGee called from Belfast, I may need to head out there for a bit. I'll keep all updated.
"Anything we need to be concerned about?" Jax asks as he lights a smoke.
"Just making sure things are running smoothly," Clay said avoiding the actual reason. Jax nods "who you taking with you?" Clay looks at him "Not sure yet."
With the bang of the gavel, all the guys get up and leave. "hey Tig give me a minute." Tig nods "I know you and Koz have you some long-standing issues, but you need to fix that shit. Hap and Koz would be great assets especially with the Irish deal we have going on."
"Sure thing boss" he turns and walks out. Tig finds Koz and points to him "you and me the ring Friday, then this shit between us is even got it?" Koz stares at him wide-eyed for a moment then "got it. But know I did drop that shit a long time ago." Tig grunts and walks away
Chibs and Bobby are sitting at the bar just watching the interaction with Koz and Tig "aye, you know what that shit is between those two is about?" Bobby shakes his no "No, but its been going on for a long ass time. maybe a chick." He finishes and takes a drink of his beer.
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"Op, you want to come over to Tara's for dinner she invited you and Donna, figure we could get a good meal before we start this overnight shit.?" Jax asked as he and Op walk to their bikes. To head over to Tara before they start the protection shit tonight. "sounds good man, see you there."
Jax arrives at Tara's house a little while later. Jax sits there for just a few moments admiring the house he could see living here, maybe even having a kid. Shaking his head what the hell am I thinking? since when have I had thoughts about this. I would never be a good dad. What kind of life would he have when his father runs guns for a living? But maybe one day. I could if the club could start looking into legitimate businesses it would be less dangerous. like Donna's coffee shop or Lumpy's gym. Drawn out of his thought by the front door opening, looking up he seeing Jess looking at him strangely before asking "you going to stay out here all night" laughing to himself "just thinking." Getting off his bike walking into the house. He stops and kisses her on the cheek "hey darlin."
"Smells good in here, where's Tara's?" Jax asks "Thanks we are making fajitas, are Donna and Opie coming for dinner?" Jax just nods. Walking further in the house to the kitchen Zeus notices him first, he just jumps up from his bed to greet him. Bending down to pet him Jax laughs as Zeus stumbles a little on the tile floors. "Hey buddy, you been a good boy for your mama today?" looking up sending Tara a wink who standing by the stove. "hey sweetheart" giving her a quick kiss "hey, dinner almost ready." Nodding Jax gives her another kiss "mind if I take a quick shower?" she nods "That's fine you know where everything is right?"
"I got it thanks babe" walking to the master bedroom. Striping down, once in the shower he lets the hot water take over his body. Leaning his head against the tile wall. Wondering about the church meeting earlier. Clay is acting really fucking suspicious. Jax is also thinking about ideas to get the club out of guns but first thing is to figure out what the fuck is up with Clay, he knows Tig noticed it as well, but he is still not sure if he can trust Tig with his concerns yet.
"Jax, dinner ready. You ok in there?" Tara asks from the bathroom door "yeah, just enjoying the hot water, I'll be right there" getting out of the shower drying himself off, and dressing. Dinner went well Op and Jax explained they would be gone a few nights a week for clubs' stuff. Donna was not very happy about it but kept it to herself for now. Donna decided to stay at Tara's and Jess's for the night because when they start at the hospital, they won't have many days or nights with all three of the girl together.
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The girls spent the evening swimming, drinking, and laughing. They called Gemma to see if she wanted to join but she had plans already, she was making a nice dinner for Clay, so they could have an evening together since they had not spent a lot of time together.
"Hey Tara, what's going with you and Jax?" Jess asked, "he's been over a lot." Tara looked at her and just shrugged her shoulders "nothing really, we are having fun, I guess we are both not ready to go there yet, but we did talk about it earlier today." She looks down at her hands thinking how she is going to word the next part so they would understand "I kinda told him I was ok with him getting blowjobs on the road but never here in Charming, I just think he is not ready to give up the girls and I guess that's why I said it, but now I am thinking that I am fucking crazy, what kinda women does that make me? Am I freaking crazy? Part of me is scared to ask him to give them up, then for him to decides he can't handle being with just me. I mean have seen some of those girls, they are pretty hot. I mean have you seen them?" laughing to herself when she finishes her rant.
Donna laughs out loud "sweetie, you are not crazy. I can understand what you're thinking but, how long can you see yourself being ok with the situation? I know I would kill Opie if he ever did that but first I cut his dick off." Laughing at the look on Jess's face with the last part she said. "Personally, I would ask myself if you can really be ok with him getting blowjobs?" The look Tara gives her everything she needs to now "you see that look right there says I would beat the shit out of any chick the even looks at him." Donna nods "and you are much hotter then any of those chicks, simply because you are successful, beautiful, smart and you're not a whore like they are, you don't open your legs for just any guy around." Tara smiles brightly at her comment "your right, Thanks." She hugs Donna
"I have to agree with Donna, Tara you don't want to diminish yourself you are smart, beautiful, and way hotter than any of those chicks. You are not one of those whores at the clubhouse. So, you really should not be ok with it. Plus, if you say it's ok now then what happens if you and Jax have a fight later on in your relationship and he goes running to one of them to alleviate some stress because he thinks it is ok to get a blowjob or even something more. All because it was ok now." Jess says looking at Tara
"I know your right. Part of me is still insecure because of before, but I'm working through that. Jax is helping a lot with that. I feel safe and wanted. Not like Josh made me feel." Tara finished not realizing she said his name. The look of confusion on Donna's face told her she will have to explain that part of her life.
"Who is Josh?" Donna asked. Tara sends Jess a look to ask for help. Tara gets up "I'm getting another drink I'm going to need one for this story. You guys want anything?" Jess and Donna nod their heads yes.
Tara walks into the house and stands by the sink thinking about how much she is going to explain to Donna. They are friends but is she really ready to let it all out there? Will Donna tell anyone else, Opie maybe? If she does then will he tell Jax? Jess knows most of what happened but there are still things she had not even told her about. Like the extent of the abuse that led to the miscarriage she had when he beat her after finding she had gone to an abortion clinic. Pulling herself together she returns with their drinks.
"ok, so before we start, Donna you are my friend, I value that so much but, what I am going to tell you has to say between us." Donna nods at her "It was a painful time in my life. I was dealing with the death of my mother. She had been there for me for everything. I was not in a really good spot when this all started, I just wanted to feel something at the time when I meet Josh." So, can you keep what we talk about private and not tell Opie?" Donna looks at her and thinks this must be pretty bad if I can't tell him, but this is my friend, she is choosing to confide in me, it has been a long time since I have had a type of friendship like that. "of course Tara you and Jess are my best friends I won't say anything to anyone. It must be pretty bad though huh?" Tara just nods.
"Josh and I met at a coffee shop shortly after my mom died. I was on my way to work. When I turned around and ran into him, spilling my coffee all over him and myself included. We laughed about it, he offered to buy me another coffee, I let him." Tara takes a deep breath and continues "a couple of days later I seen him again at the hospital visiting a friend of his. We got to talking, the conversation came easily, so he asked me out I said yes. We started seeing each pretty regularly after that, it wasn't till six months in that I went out with Jess and a few coworkers to a bar for a girl's night, he shows up around 11 pm. I am thinking, how did he know where I was, I brush it off because he said he was there to meet some friends no big deal. So, I go home with him that night. Once we get to his place, he became angry and grab my arm hard enough that I had bruises the next day. He starts yelling at me for not telling him that I was going out. Then he starts rambling about how if something happened to me, he is not sure what was he going to do. Then he proceeds to tell me that if I go out again without letting him know where I was then he is not sure what he is going to do to me. I was just too stunned that he had grabbed me that hard to even process what he was saying so I just nodded in agreement. By the next day, he apologized for grabbing me, saying he will never do it again he was a little drunk and upset. At the time I could understand what he was saying and dropped it." Taking a drink of her wine trying to control her emotions for the next part. But before she could Jess grabs her hand in support.
Jess starts the next part to give Tara a break "I had noticed the bruises and asked her about them she said she hit a door, but I knew it was a lie. I could see the finger marks but, I let it go telling myself I would keep an eye on her and step in if needed. I wish I had done so at that point instead of waiting. I am so sorry Tara; I wish I would have stepped in sooner." Tara looks at her then gives her a big hug whispering in her ear "it's not her fault."
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Jax and Op arrived at the port for the night. Walking around making sure everything looks alright. "So, how are you and Donna, any luck on the baby-making?" Jax asked smirking at Opie. "nothing yet man, but we are still trying. I'm just, I don't man with the fucked up shit we are dealing with, between the Mayans and the Irish, I'm not even sure now is the right time, you know?" Jax just nods thinking about what his best friend just said. "I get man, I've been thinking about this Clay thing, it just doesn't make a lot of sense, him putting this club in more dangerous situations then what's needed. I mean how are we gonna handle these types of weapons long term. We can only do so many toy runs to cover up what we are doing before someone gets suspicious." Pulling a joint out lighting it up taking a few hits then passes it to Op.
"I don't know man but will figure it out." Jax nods at him. The rest of the night went smoothly. Jax and Opie split up the next morning to get some sleep Jax ended up back at the clubhouse not wanting to disturb Tara. Besides he has been spending a lot of time there, some time apart will be good for them besides when she starts working they won't see a lot of each other.
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Gemma just finished dinner waiting for Clay to get home to eat, wondering what's taking him so long it's later than normal. Knowing they don't have any runs, and Jax and Opie are doing an overnight for the club. She had planned this for tonight because things have been crazy, she just wants to reconnect with her husband. They have been drifting apart, she is not sure why. Her mind starts to wonder. She can't help thinking he is having an affair and not just the normal road pussy she knows he gets but something more with feeling and shit. She is broken out of her thoughts when he walks through the door.
"Hey, baby smells good in here. Sorry, I am late club shit ran late. I am going to take a shower, then meet at the table." Giving her a quick kiss as he walks away. "ok, meet you at the dinner table baby glad your home to enjoy the dinner, I made." Clay nods "can't wait." Gemma looks at the clock he is an hour late. Shaking her head of her earlier thoughts while repeating he is not cheating on me over and over in her head. I mean come on, there is not a woman out there that can handle this life better than I have for the past 25 years.
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As Donna looks at Tara and Jess hugging. She is wondering how much worse this can get. "anyways, I continued seeing him, things were ok for the next month. Then one night I was late getting home from work. Jess was working the late shift anyway when I got home he was waiting at our door looking mad, I greeted him with a smile then became worried when he didn't say anything as I let him in. I got worried, and I should have been, because as soon as the door was closed he grabs me by my hair and hits my head against the door, hit me in the stomach then dragged me to the bedroom and raped me I keep telling him, no but it did not matter. Once he was done, he made take a shower before he left. When Jess got home, she took me to the hospital. I told the police, but they did not believe me, they said there was no DNA to tie him to it, plus I was dating him. They took the report but did nothing about it. I kept calling but they always said they did not have any leads. After that, I avoided him at all costs. That only worked on for about a month before I saw him again. He was angry he asked why he hasn't seen me? I told him I was working, then I told him we needed to break up he took it better than I thought he would. I didn't see him for about two weeks that is when I found out I was pregnant. I didn't know what to do at that point but I knew I did not want to have his baby so I scheduled an abortion, it was two days before my appointment. that when he showed up at our house while Jess was at work, he forced his way into the house he started yelling about how I could I get rid of his baby, calling me a whore and much worse than that. He beat me kicking me in the back, legs, and stomach. He spits on me before leaving pink roses next to my body and walking out the door. Needless to say, I never needed to go to the abortion clinic appointment." Tara finishes with tears streaming down her face trying to catch her breath. "after that Jess took me to get a restraining order but I had trouble with because he worked for the ATF and nobody would believe me, but I did finally end up getting one."
"oh my god…. Tara, I'm so sorry" Donna said crying along with her. "has he left you alone since then?"
"shorta" Jess responds
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Please let me know if you want to see anything happen with this story or have any ideas you want to see with Happy and Jess or even Clay. Also, do you all want Tig to be on Jax side more than Clays? Again, thank you all very much.