The days of this pregnancy was going by so fast Miranda barely noticed that she was pregnant. Sometimes until been rubbed her stomach or tuck ask her something about the baby she kind of forgot.

She didn't know why she wasn't feeling the connection between her and her baby yet but it was starting to bother her.

with tuck she had felt love for him as soon as she found out that she was pregnant but this baby was a little bit different. she loved her but something was off

Miranda was at work and she was feeling a little bit down she was supposed to be enjoying this pregnancy but it was far from enjoyable. she wanted to feel the flutters in the butterflies is she wanted to be excited. but she wasn't.

she decided to go to the nursery and look at some of the babies that were on the Peds floor.

" hey bailey" Arizona said "How is pregnancy treating you"

Miranda wanted to lie but she decided against it " honestly Arizona I will be lying if I said I was doing good"

" well bailey what's wrong'

" I'm just not feeling this pregnancy Ben and tuck are so excited but I just can't get into it"

" I came up here to see if looking at the babies would help"

" well when did you start having this feeling"

" honestly I've had it since I've known but I just didn't let it show because it wasn't that bad but now-"

" Well have you told Ben"

" no I haven't because just a couple of weeks ago I was telling him about how was scared to move in with him"

"So you just arent going to tell him"

"I mean i am...eventually. I just dont want to make him feel bad"

Callie walked up

"Make who feel bad"

"Bailey says shes not really feeling this pregnancy"

"Awe honey have you told Ben"

"No she hasnt and she doesnt want to'

"Well why not"

"I dont want to hurt his feelings"

Arizona got paged

"Bailey talk to him it may help"

"Fine"

"Call me tell me how it goes"

Some days later Miranda and Ben were at home alone they had just finished dinner and they were going upstairs

"Wait Ben"

"Yea"

"Can we talk"

"Sure'

He walked back downstairs to the living room and sat down

She sat down next to him

"Ok whats up"

"Umm i dont know"

"What do you mean"

She decided that shee was just say how she felt flat out

"Im not excited about this pregnancy Ben"

She saw his face drop and instantly felt bad

"Oh well ok. What does that mean'

"I wanted this pregnancy to be the one with all the fun memories and the butterflies and such but i just dont feel that"

"I mean is it something I did"

"No honey you've been amazing"

she grabbed his face and rubbed the side of it

"I honestly don't know what's going on and I really really really want this feeling to change"

Ben thought for a second and he had an Epiphany

"Miranda baby is it because you're scared"

They had talked about having babies a couple of times before she got pregnant and every single time they talked about it she mentioned that she was scared that it would all blow up in her face again

"There's nothing to be scared of having amazing husband that I know will support me through everything, I also have an amazing support system of friends and family"

" well the last time we talked about pregnancy before you got pregnant you said that you were so scared of it blowing up in your face"

"Well yea that and…" it was all starting to come to miranda

"When tacos born his father got into a car accident and was getting surgery while I was giving birth I had to give birth all by myself and it was so traumatic"

" then on top of all of that after he was born Tucker decided that he would like to stay home and take your birth child and then blame me for our family falling apart but I wouldn't have had to work so many hours if you would have never quit his job"

" one day Tuck got hurt a bookshelf fell on him and Tucker blamed me for everything"

" and I just want don't want to go to go through that again"

" Baby you do know I would never do you like that right, even if you didn't spend as much time at home I would never throw it in your face because I know you have goals you would like to accomplish"

" And when I said I loved you that didn't mean conditionally I love you no matter what"

" And if all of this is about the other night when Tucker had to drop Tuck off baby don't worry about it I know that it feels so bad but Tuck is fine he's in good hands.

" He has an amazing mother and an amazing soon-to-be stepfather we got him he won't lack anything"

" maybe a little bit of love from his father but if I have anything to do with it he'll never even realize it. I love you guys so much and I would do anything to keep you all happy"

Ben's statement made Miranda's heart so full she was so glad she picked him to do life with.

Naomi kicked and Miranda's whole body was filled with love for the little girl

The biggest smile appeared on her face

She grabbed Ben's hand and placed it on her stomach

Ben felt his baby kick and almost cried

He looked at Miranda in her eyes

"I think that we should have sex right now it feels … right"

"Boy" she pushed his shoulder

"But since its on the table" she climbed on top of him

"I have been a little sexually frustrated lately"

"Well let me ease some of your frustrations" Ben said while taking her shirt off