Sorry it took me so long to update this story. Part of it is because I was working on getting my Month of Marina stories done, but the other part is that is story is incredibly emotionally draining to write because I'm pulling from my own life. TW: Suicidal Thoughts
Maya took a deep breath, getting ready to go run when Amelia walked up to her.
"Hey Maya," the doctor said, startling her a little.
"Oh, hey Amelia," Maya said, smiling a little, "How are you?"
"I'm good," Amelia said, bouncing a little as Marcus fussed in her arms, "Just about to drop this little man off at daycare and them I have to work. How are you doing?"
"I'm…" Maya started, then remembered Amelia knew everything that was going on, "I'm… making it through. I don't know, you know?"
"I understand," Amelia said, nodding as she put a hand on Maya's shoulder, "I know we're not super close, but if you ever need me, I will be there for you."
"Thanks," Maya said, not totally sure why her eyes were filling with tears.
"You are going to make it through this Maya," Amelia said, "I know it doesn't feel like it now, but there will be a day when it's not as bad as it is today."
Maya nodded, blinking a few times.
"I've gotta get to work," Amelia said, "I'll see you later."
"Bye," Maya called, waving as Amelia walked into the hospital.
She then found a bench, stretching a little before she started running. Maya ran for a long time, just trying to clear her head.
Unfortunately, she wasn't pay attention to where she was running and she tripped on a cracked piece of sidewalk. Her ankle that she had sprained before the Olympics twisted as she fell. She luckily caught herself with her hands, taking a deep breath before trying to get up. As she put weight on her ankle, she felt the tell tale pain that happened when she twisted her right ankle.
"Damn it," Maya cursed, tears springing to her eyes. She started limping home. She made it about half way before she just sat down on a bench, her ankle killing her. She just started crying, everything feeling way too overwhelming.
She had been sitting for about fifteen minutes when a car pulled up in front of her. Maya didn't even look up until someone walked up to her. She looked up and saw Vic standing in front of her.
"What's going on?" Vic asked, sitting down next to her.
"I tripped and twisted my bad ankle," Maya said, "And I don't know…"
"Well, you are in luck," Vic said, "Travis and I were just heading home so we can give you a ride. Do you need me to go get him so we can carry you?"
"No," Maya said, laughing through the tears that were still streaming down her face, "I can walk."
"Come on," Vic said, standing up and offering Maya her hand.
The blonde took it before Vic wrapped an arm around her, helping her to the car.
"What happened to you Maya?" Travis asked as Vic helped her into the back seat.
"I twisted my bad ankle," Maya said, wiping at her eyes.
"Ouch," Travis said as Vic climbed in the car, starting to drive toward their apartment.
The ride home was pretty quiet. When they got home, Vic and Travis helped Maya back upstairs even though she insisted she could do it herself.
"Go shower," Vic said as they got into the apartment, "I'll have ice ready when you're done."
Maya nodded, going into the bedroom and then her bathroom. She pulled off her clothes, groaning when she saw how swollen her ankle already was. She took a quick shower before going back into her bedroom, putting on a pair of shorts and one of Carina's sweatshirts.
She then pulled back the blankets, her eyes filling with tears for the millionth time when she saw clean sheets on the bed and the note from Carina. She grabbed the note, climbing into bed and putting a couple pillows under her ankle.
She picked up her phone, texting Carina and telling her thank you for changing her sheets and for the note. Carina texted her back, telling her she loved her and to have a good afternoon.
"I have ice and food," Vic said, coming into the room with a bag of ice and a smoothie. Travis came in behind her with a glass of water.
"Thanks guys," Maya said, getting the ice on her swollen ankle.
"Do you need anything else?" Vic asked, setting the smoothie on the nightstand.
Maya shook her head.
"Just text me if you need anything," Vic said as they left, "Like anything."
"Thanks," Maya said, smiling tiredly at her friend.
As soon as Vic and Travis left, Maya felt tears filling her eyes again. She just felt so defeated. Her ankle was throbbing, her head hurt, and all she wanted was to sleep forever. She felt like she was a burden to everyone in her life and she hated it.
She wasn't sure what to do so she just laid in her bed, staring at the ceiling as tears ran down her face. She got up, limping into the bathroom.
She stood there, staring at her medicine cabinet, debating what she wanted to do. She opened the cabinet, finding that the bottle of pills that had been in there for the past two years was missing.
A sob escaped her lips as she slid down the wall, realizing Carina must have taken them. She was suddenly hyperventilating and felt like she couldn't breathe. It was just then that Vic walked in to check on her.
"Maya," she called, not seeing her friend in bed.
However, she looked into the bathroom, immediately going to her friend's side.
"What happened Mai?" Vic asked.
Maya just sobbed, Vic holding her. A minute later, Travis walked in to see where Vic was. He gave her a confused look, but Vic just shook her head. He sat down on the other side of Maya, just being there.
Once Maya stopped crying, she just sat there, staring straight ahead.
"Can you give us a minute Trav?" Vic asked, knowing how Maya felt about telling other people.
He nodded, getting up and leaving Maya's room.
"Do you wanna talk about it?" Vic asked.
"I don't… I just…No," Maya said, shaking her head.
"Ok," Vic said, nodding, "Do you want to move? Or just stay here for a little bit?"
Maya just shrugged, not moving.
"Do you want me to stay?" Vic asked, still holding her friend.
"You can go be with Travis if you want," Maya croaked out.
"That's not what I asked," Vic said, "Do you want me to stay?"
Maya was still for a moment before nodding her head a little.
"Ok," Vic said, rubbing her back, "Then I'm not going anywhere."
They just sat on the floor on the bathroom for a good twenty minutes before Maya moved out of Vic's arms.
"Thank you," Maya said, wiping a few stray tears.
"You don't need to thank me," Vic said as they both stood up, "I'm your friend. This is what we do. Now, do you want to come out into the living room or stay here?"
"I think I'm just going to go lay down in bed," Maya said as they walked out of the bathroom.
"Do you want me to stay?" Vic asked as Maya climbed into bed.
"Travis is still here," Maya reminded her.
"I can go ask him to leave," Vic offered, "Or we can both come hang with you. We were just planning on chilling and watching movies this afternoon."
Maya shrugged, not particularly wanting to be alone, but also not sure she wanted to be with anyone either. It was beyond frustrating to her, and she almost started crying again.
"Can you stay?" Maya asked so quietly Vic almost didn't hear her.
"Do you want Travis to stay too, or do you want me to send him home?" Vic asked gently.
"He can stay," Maya said, rubbing her eyes.
Vic nodded, leaving the bedroom, returning a few minutes later with Travis.
"What did you tell him?" Maya asked Vic quietly as her friend sat down next to her in bed.
"Just that you aren't feeling well," Vic reassured her, "And that you needed some company."
Maya nodded, rolling over toward Vic as she put a movie on on her laptop. They spent the afternoon much as they had the day before, just in bed, watching TV.
"I'm gonna go make some dinner," Vic said around 5, getting up.
When she left, Travis moved closer to Maya, the blonde still just buried in the blankets.
"Whatever's going on," Travis said, "Just know that I'm here for you Maya."
"Thanks Travis," Maya said, sitting up a little, offering him a small smile, "It's all just a lot right now."
"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked, knowing they weren't super close, but wanting to open the door if she needed it.
"Not tonight," Maya said, shaking her head.
Travis nodded, putting his hand on Maya's shoulder. They just sat there together, watching a movie until Vic poked her head in.
"I've got chicken and rice ready," she said, Travis getting up and leaving as Vic walked over to Maya.
"Want me to bring you a plate?" Vic asked.
"I'm really not hungry," Maya said, shaking her head, "Maybe I'll get something later."
"Alright," Vic said, not super into the idea of letting Maya skip another meal, but knowing she wasn't going to get the blonde to eat if she didn't want to.
May just laid in bed, mind running about a thousand miles an hour. She wasn't sure how long it had been, but her phone suddenly buzzed.
She picked it up, seeing that she had a few different messages she had missed during the day. Most of them were from their A shift group chat and were about nothing, but also had one from Carina. She opened that one first.
To Maya: Hello Bella. I hope your afternoon has been alright. Just wanted to check in and tell you that I love you so much.
Maya smiled a little as she read the message, texting her girlfriend back, telling her that she was fine and had spent the afternoon in bed with Vic and Travis, purposely leaving out her injury. She also asked Carina how her day was going.
As she waited for Carina to text her back, there was a knock on her door.
"Come in," she called.
"Hey," Vic said, coming in with a bag of ice, "Travis just went home. I thought you might need more ice?"
"Yeah," Maya said, nodding as she took the bag, wincing a little when she saw how swollen her ankle was.
"That looks bad Mai," Vic said, eyes wide, "I don't think that's going to fit in your boot tomorrow."
"If I wrap it, it probably will," Maya said, shrugging.
"Can I get you anything?" Vic asked.
"I'm probably just going to knock out," Maya said, "I'm exhausted even though I literally did nothing all day."
"Do you want something to eat before you sleep?" Vic asked, not even sure her roommate had eaten anything all day.
"I'm not hungry," Maya said, shaking her head as she moved to get up to brush her teeth.
"Fine," Vic said, "But you are eating something tomorrow. Text me if you need anything tonight. Is Carina coming over?"
"No," Maya said, shaking her head as she moved to get up to get ready for bed, "She works until midnight or later. I'll see her in a few days."
"Alright," Vic said, "I'll see you in the morning. Goodnight."
"Goodnight," Maya said, "Thanks for everything today."
Maya got ready for bed before taking one of the pills Carina had left for her before grabbing her phone.
She had a message back from Carina, telling her that her day had been good, uneventful, and that she hoped Maya was feeling a little better than she had been earlier.
Maya texted her back, telling her she had just taken one of her pills and that she was going to sleep, telling her she loved her. Carina texted back right away, telling her goodnight and that she loved her too.
Maya drifted off to sleep, hoping beyond all hope that the next day would be a little better than this one.
There it was. I have some of the next chapter written so maybe an update soon? Let me know what you think or if there's anything you'd like to see.