Novel Covid Moon EPOV Chapter 9: Heaven and Hell, a twilight fanfic

A/N: Oh my god! So I moved back into my house, only to find that they hadn't cleaned well. There was soot everywhere. They broke my electronics, including my laptop(s) and iPad, and printer and my PlayStation. You get the picture. The home insurance people have done nothing. It's SO INSANE how BAD this year has been. My life is a cluster F*ck, living out of boxes.

My mom gave me my Dad's laptop, as I was cracking up from not being able to write. She only did that because he's unfortunately in hospice care right now. I don't know what could come next… Sharknado?

Anyway, it's been about three months since I have written anything, anything at all. I haven't had the tools, so that's expected. But writing is a muscle and mine are flabby so if the next few chapters suck… I'm sorry but I'll try very hard not to be super boring. And come back for edits whenever I get hit with inspiration.

A/N: Oh my god! So I moved back into my house, only to find that they hadn't cleaned well. There was soot everywhere. They broke my electronics, including my laptop (s) and iPad, and printer and my PlayStation. You get the picture. The home insurance people have done nothing. It's SO INSANE how BAD this year has been. My life is a cluster F*ck, living out of boxes.

Thanks for all the well wishes! They really mean a lot to me! I am trying to make the perspective shift of 1918 short. Because oh, there are so many untangled plot points to move on to.

We're jumping heads in this chapter. Bella and Vampire Edward Point of View he won't have a POV in this but to make life easier we will refer Human Edward as Masen.

Please read and review, let me know what you think of this path. I know it's a plot twist, but an important one. Ya know?

Stephenie Meyer is the owner of the Twilight heart. I am merely playing with her toys and put them right back where they belong, with her. I own nothing. No copyright infringement intended.

Heaven and Hell.

(BPOV)

I could feel my pulse throbbing because of abject terror. My breathing was audibly faster.

"Are you ready for this?"

"No. What if they don't like me?"

"Don't be ridiculous, they'll love you!"

"I've heard that before," I muttered to myself.

"Huh?"

Okay, Edward almost heard that. I laughed and then frowned. I didn't know how long I should continue to kick him in the balls with my passive aggressive karate. Edward Cullen is a masochist and punishes himself far more than what he deserves. I felt green eyes piercing me; I felt like I was talking to him for the first time. The smoldering eyes must have been a trick he had as a human.

"Nothing," I winked "I just got lost in my thoughts. I'm counting on you to make sure they like me."

Edward bobbed his head in agreement but whispered in my ear, "I won't need to do that. Your charm comes naturally. But don't worry IF you somehow need a rescue, I'll be there."

Electricity coursed through my body, turning into sadness. This just didn't seem right. I know better than to stray from gut feelings, now.

"I know you will."

(VEPOV) (Vampire Edward's Point Of View)

Bella nodded slightly, affirming his words, but she looked away wistfully, as she had been the entire time. My human 17-year-old self was too busy freaking out himself to notice how many times Bella looked behind her, scowling just as she always looked, but I felt her looking at me, and I suspect she does too.

But this wasn't Bella.

Yes, my Bella was in there, that was without a doubt Bella inside but not on the outside.

No, that wasn't Bella. That could be her doppelganger. I have spent many a night inspecting and counting her freckles, absorbing every inch of her. Okay, not every inch of her skin, but enough to know Bella well. Not totally, this woman was not that girl. The woman was an inch taller, her hair more red than brown, luckily the same brown eyes, her bust a bit larger... If you didn't know her like I did, with my ability to see the changes, you wouldn't notice. I suspect Bella hasn't noticed that… yet.

What in the fuck is going on? This makes no sense! Could Bella as a human project her conscious into someone else? No, that made little sense. It was like this woman had everything she needed for this journey. That's why it was so easy to find her… how she'll be able to have enough money for the trip. Her lack of luggage suggested that I was doing exactly as I was supposed to. I wouldn't lose her at night after all.

As a human.

It slowly clicked; I knew what Bella was up to, I just didn't know how.

A human memory for us both.

Then questions and insecurities flooded my every thought, I didn't even follow the two into my house. Why am I jealous of myself? Is that cheating? No, because I'll remember it. Because this has to be supernatural and this has to be a gift of hers. Shoving vivid memories… or showing me something new. This both excited and unsettled me at the same time. Masen, my choice nickname for my human self; will probably screw it up with his values. Bella will feel rejected on both ends of the spectrum, human and vampire. I hate seeing her eyes water, turning her head away, speaking in a wobbly voice, suppressing the pain, denying that I hurt her feelings, every time I have to push her away.

I was so deeply confused. Part of me wished I could scream at him to not reject her. I could only hope that that urge will overtake morale. I didn't like this, but would this be the only time we could be together? Masen couldn't crush her skull or rip her in two like I can.

That was logical

Still hated the idea.

HATED IT.

Sex has been black-and-white issue my entire existence. I know Esme and Carlisle would invite old friends of theirs, hoping that they were my mate. We even moved to Alaska so they could play match makers out of extended vampire family. Kate got it, quickly. I wasn't Irina's type, but Tanya… well, we would not have ended up in Forks if she hadn't been so relentless. We had to leave.

I gave up on believing that there was that one out there for me. Not after seeing Rosalie and Emmett just fall in love as Esme and Carlisle did. Terrible circumstances, but they were bonded and would love each other until the end of time.

Then I met Bella. I didn't know it, or why I hated her so much for being so appealing when she owned me from the moment she looked at me. Apparently deciphering in her own way that I could read minds. Insecure enough to dismiss unraveling the thought. It all clicked when Tyler was on his way to almost killing Bella. It could not be her; she could not die that day. She would have a full and happy life, because I'd do anything to keep her alive, and fail spectacularly. I couldn't stay away from Bella; I can't be away from her again. It will kill us both. I didn't care if Tyler died.

She has no idea, and probably doubts that I have to fight urges all the time. She is a skilled seductress. It's been a while, but…

That asshole is going to have her before me!

I don't want the memory of it; I want the reality of it.

I shut my eyes, clinched my fits and took some unnecessarily calming breaths and walked through my parent's door. Weird. I had missed little. My mother was gushing over Bella. More so than I thought possible.

"You're the girl with the red ribbon! Dear god I thought I was going crazy! You're real, you exist. I've dreamt of this moment!"

She gave Masen a Cheshire cat grin.

"Oh, Edward doesn't believe in my goobily gook. He's such a skeptic!" My mom scolded.

A burst of laughter flew out of Bella's mouth. She promptly smacked her hand over it with a muffled, "I'm sorry."

Masen looked confused, but he was used to that. He didn't quite understand the instant comfort and ease she oozed with not only me, but my mother. Elizabeth saw something. This was a premonition come true. If she saw Bella coming, this was going to be a very interesting evening. Suddenly, I really missed Alice.

The sensation was novel to me. This wasn't in the plans. Masen suddenly felt like he'd known her for a century. He was off. He waited… I waited a century for her. When I first looked into the bottomless emotion shown through her expressive eyes. I knew without even speaking to her. I suppose this is the way it may have happened in the human world…

But this was different.

Because Jealousy is powerful

And I started thinking about if I was capable as I am now. There were so many ways I could hurt her. Yet…

Maybe I am capable. Maybe, just maybe, I wish she would turn the world to ash and come back to me.

My stomach knotted. I couldn't stop it if I wanted to.

The minute I thought that, Bella turned around again briefly, her eyes trained on something she couldn't see. There was another set of green eyes staring into me. No, not Masen. My Mother. It didn't take long for her to figure it out and laugh hysterically.

"Forgive me, Bella," she almost snorted, "It's just been such an interesting day. Would you like to freshen up before dinner?"

Oh no.

Bella's face turned bright red, and almost hugged herself, but put her head down saying, "I have nothing to freshen up with." Her shoulders sagged.

"I don't understand," Elizabeth cocked her head, still looking past the two right at me.

"I brought nothing with me. I have enough money to purchase clothing tomorrow. I haven't been here very long, so I asked Edward if he knew of a clean and safe place, I could stay…"

"I told her you would know, mother." Masen tried to scream a thought at Elizabeth.

"Well, Edward was right. You're staying with us. End of story."

I needed to use that more often.

or… Maybe not.

"I…" Bella stuttered, "don't want to put you out! I am a stranger!"

"You aren't a stranger, Bella," My mom winked, "please, I'd like to get to know the woman with the red ribbon, the woman my son seems captivated by."

Her cheeks warmed.

"I'd like to know that too," Masen admitted.

I couldn't help feeling grateful and smug. How could there be any doubt about our future? My family approved of her, loved her already; both of them. I loved her too. We weren't star-crossed lovers. I fated us to face these obstacles. To fail and succeed.

It became quite clear to me; I didn't want to spend my years with someone who will resent me for not wanting to change her.

Our love crossed time and space. This was the hope I needed. I could never do what I had after her birthday ever again, and I won't leave her until she tells me to, and I don't want her to. She's my mate… and we could only feel part of the enormity of finding each other when we are the same species.

Bella will be ready. I just need to figure out how to get the hell out of here. The uncertainty made me nauseated, and I don't think that's possible for a vampire.

"Why don't you go wash up and say hi to your father, he's feeling ill. I will be in the other part of the house taking care of him, I'm trusting her with you... I'm going to get Bella all set up."

Masen blushed and Bella laughed again, shaking her head as she walked up the stairs with my mother, talking like they were old friends. This was really nice to see. I don't want to see anything else. I followed Masen to look in on my Dad. I felt that synchronicity again. There was my dad, dying, and I must witness both of them pass before he changes me. I did not want Bella to stop that, She would live through what I did, but she wouldn't die. She'll be immortal, and that worry will never cross my skull again.

I like who I am now, and what I am now that I can see the difference. All the times we didn't listen to each other about our own worries and fears. We had a lot to work on, absolutely. If time and space cannot stop us, we'll work on us. If we can ever 'be us' again.

A/N: I know I know this chapter is such a tease! Yes, Elizabeth will have private time with Bella, and Edward (vampire Edward) I just needed to set that up. So, we can get Back to the Future!

I've missed you all so much! I hope to hear what you think so far. Sorry for the flabby writing muscles. Read and Review! Oh and the PM's I will definitely get to very soon. 2020 sucks!