It was a really brutal chapter last and this won't be any more pleasant. We will dive into what Ezra went through but it will be held on a T not M verizon. You can see it as a creepy halloween story. If strongly advise you to stay away if you are triggered by this and/or has been victim of sexual abuse. You all have my deepest sympathy.
Kanan felt it like his heart had left the body and had crawled below the floor. Ezra laid curled up shaking and seemed to be several galaxies away. Kanan wanted to help him but how? Even the smallest touch could turn out to trigger memories from his time there. As he sat with only an arm loosely around Ezra he wondered what to do as Ezra kept shaking. Many of Ezra's habits now made more sense than before. Ezra was very guarded when people touched him. He didn't want to have that and now he understood why. Oh how he hated that man no wonder Ezra reacted so strongly to that … man if he could even be called that. Yet right now he needed to keep it together and focus on helping Ezra.
"What happened?" Kanan said, dreading the answer.
They took me to the backyard of the building. That is when I got my … number" Ezra mumbled.
Kanan waited for more; he wasn't sure what he should say … what could he say?
"Then .. they took me to a room and … it began. There were so many people who came to see me. Men, woman, many different types of species. They say they liked me. Said that my eyes was so cute. They did … all kinds of things. So … many … so much …. so different types of it. I didn't understand much of it … I still don't" Ezra wisphered.
Kanan felt like he was falling through the floor. His anger was rising and he struggled to keep his emotions in check. To do this to another person was evil, to do this to a child was beyond evil and cruel. It was a horrible thing how could those people even sleep at night? How can you justify to do such things to a child? Kanan felt he almost had to force his anger down before he could continue.
"How did you escape?" Kanan asked softly.
"I managed to bribe one of the guards with a few trinkets I had stolen from the … clients. He put me out in a small backyard and gave me a horse shue. I got over the wall and ran all that I could. When he found out I was missing he went after me. I didn't know how to get around the port so he found me. There he beat me and said I was just a slave and I should get back to my master. Yet I rather die than go back so when he grabbed me I evaded him and ran. I went behind him and found a metal stick. I used it to hit him and he went down. After that I grabbed his remote and deactivated mine and all other chips that it could be used on. I hope they all got away but for me. I just took all his money and bought myself a ticket back to Lothal where I tried to forget it all" Ezra mumbled and curled together even more.
Kanan looked at him and there was such pain in his eyes. Ezra was not sure that he liked it. Right now he just felt like he wanted to crawl into a corner and disappear. He hated to talk about it. His skin was crawling and it felt like there was a pain in his more sensitive areas. It had hurt very much in the beginning but he got used to it. Suddenly the feeling was overwhelming and he leaned over and hurled on the floor. Ezra didn't notice that Kanan had moved over to him and brushed his hair aside and very gently tried to support him. Tears began to fill his eyes. He wanted it to rip all his painful memories of that period in his time out of his head and make them wanish. It felt like forever before he had the energy to even look up. Kanan was looking at him.
"Ezra I want you to know one thing. None of us will ever touch you like that. I swear that none of us will ever do such a thing to you" Kanan said softly and brushed his tears away.
Ezra wanted it to be true, he wanted it so desperately, he needed it to be true. That the crew would never force themselves on him in such a way. That touch was only meant to be friendly and nothing more. Ezra could feel how Kanan reached out for him through their bond and he felt how sincere it was. How much Kanan meant every word he was saying. That was when it dawned on him what Kanan had said … and how he felt for her. He felt her for her in a way he shouldn't. He had promised himself he would never be with another person that way again and he had broken that promise. He had felt for her. New tears began to fall from his eyes.
"Kanan I … I felt for her. I promised myself I never would never … I broke my promise" Ezra mumbled while Kanan looked confused on him.
"Who are you talking about Ezra?" Kanan asked carefully.
"Sabine" Ezra whispered.
Kanan closed his eyes and suppressed a groan. He should have seen that problem coming.
A/N There you go fokens. I have decided on a 3 part story. I know it is brutal but it is not that far from what you could find in our world sadly all though sold child slaves is often more for labour than for sex. Anyway I am sorry it is so dark and brutal these stories but it is the hard truth it is easy to do such a thing to a street rat. Who would even notice they are gone?