Chapter 15

Thursday passed in a blur. The short two hours they were able to spend together were more awkward than they'd ever been. Both wanting each other and holding the knowledge the other probably did too but neither could bring themselves to do anything about it. The hug goodbye felt like a promise and both left it with pink cheeks and high hopes. Kevin wished him luck for tomorrow, knowing he wouldn't see him until after the show.

Finally the day arrived. Kevin and Nazz met Marie at the door who'd already found Ed, Eddy, and May of all people. Lee had wanted to come but she couldn't skip out on work again and Eddy said he'd get the recording for her.

Kevin had bumped into Eddy, not having seen him due to his short stature and they'd started trading barbs, but both were too excited for Edd to put any fire behind them and it sizzled out when Kevin decided to start ignoring him in favor of scooping out the best seats in the house.

When the announcement for the start of the show came over the speakers they all sat, quiet and buzzing with excitement. While no one had ever truly announced the theme somehow it was known because much of the crowd was in theme with obvious punk looks.

The music started but it wasn't at all what Kevin was expecting. It was high and flutey at first and some monologue came over the speakers about black widows. It sounded educational, like a movie from the 50's and somehow that made so much sense for Edd. Educate while you entertain.

Edd had purposely hid his opening number from Kevin. He'd wanted at least some part of it to be a surprise so when the monologue to Black Widow started he knew some would be lulled into a false idea of what the show would entail.

Yes, the dangerous black widow is to be approached with caution, as the black widow's bite can cause death.

The stage was mostly dark, the curtains drawn and Tattiana stood in front of it, turned away. Her long dark wig was much longer then any wig he'd ever seen her wear and it was raised and hung around on string giving the illusion of giant spider legs.

The Black Widow s easily recognized by her coal black body and red hourglass marking

A spotlight came onto Tattianna, making her long translucent weblike skirt shine and the shiny red pleather corset giving her whole body an hourglass appearance.

She encases her victims with silk, and then kills with poison from her fangs

Her legs under the skirt were visible and looked long and smooth and the red heels, tall as any Kevin had seen her in before, made them look impossibly longer.

The male spider is not considered to be dangerous

Suddenly the music broke down and a beat thumped up and the curtains moved aside. Behind them was a giant rope web and two dancers dressed in sequins and wings, taking on the appearance of flies, were hanging on it. From the sides three other queens dressed as less elaborate spiders walked on stage.

Tattiana turned around and strummed her sleek black guitar. The dancers behind her moved in hyper-sexual ways but Kevin's eyes were caught on Edd. Tattiana's make-up gave her a sultry look and as she mouthed the words along she looked the very image of sex.

After the first verse the bass shredded and the crowd went crazy. The way Tattiana moved with the instrument was graceful and practiced, never once making a mistake or slip, even with such a long trailing skirt. The flies on the web writhed with the music and the other spiders mouthed along when the pre-chorus started, before they lined up behind their leader and their arms were only visible giving Tattiana the image of a many armed spider.

They moved from behind her as the next verse played and Edd locked eyes with Kevin and winked as he moved and swayed, the words as sensual and dangerous as Tattiana looked. Her bass slung to the side while it was unneeded and showing off the front of her sexy costume. She was wearing a breastplate to complete the look but Kevin's eyes were too focused on those sexy legs and the red gemmed garter holding those stockings in place.

So watch me close, as I unveil,

I'm stripping down, your face is pale-

At that Tattiana shed her skirt and kicked the air, bringing it down on the next line.

You are the heart, I am the nail

Kevin gulped. This was Edd. This was a visual representation of who he was using Tattiana to express what Edd felt he couldn't and Kevin realized the depth of his emotions for him. The crowd loved the song and was going wild and the success almost felt like Kevin's. He knew people would love it, would love him, the way Kevin did. Oh. He thought. Love, that's the word.

The rest of the show was as enthralling. The other songs went just as hard and the finale was grand. The smoke machines Edd had made had gone off and at the end Tattiana was raised over the web, it almost looked as if she had crawled up it backwards but that definitely wasn't the case in those heels so there was probably something that lifted her up. When the curtains closed for the night there was madness. The heavy metal had riled up everyone. Drunk people were yelling, but luckily it didn't seem like anyone was breaking anything.

When the queens came out, still in costume they were bombarded with money and pictures. When Kevin was finally able to break through the wall of people Edd was nowhere to be seen. Vic however spotted him and called him over. The rest of the group started taking pictures with the others but Kevin just wanted to see Edd. Nothing else mattered.

"Hey, Where's Tatti?" He yelled over the excitement.

"Backstage- this is all a bit much for her, go on back, tell Dave Vic sent you to check on her."

Kevin nodded and moved to the door they just left from and a short burly dude stopped him.

"Vic told me to go check on Tattiana- Edd." Kevin said. Dave looked him over and opened the door.

"Anything happens I know your face." He said. Kevin just nodded.

Kevin came up behind Edd, half dressed and looking more manic than he'd ever seen him. Eyes shiny and unfocused but a smile spilt his face.

Edd spotted him in the mirror and grinned wider, if it was possible.

"Hey there." Kevin smiled from the doorway, voice a bit husky from cheering. "You look good like this." He stared at the boy he just realized he was in love with through the mirror.

Edd's wig and cap was off and on the stand, his hair sticking out at odd angles. His make-up was still mostly on but he had just removed his false lashes. His heels had been kicked off and corset discarded but he was still in that sexy leather bodysuit.

Edd looked back at him through the mirror and rolled his eyes with a little laugh, still riding high on endorphins. "What, half dressed?"

"No, well yes. But mostly just happy." He gathered his courage and stepped forward. He put his hand on Edd's waist, and rubbed his thumb across the prominent hip bone. "Just, you." He whispered. Edd kept his eyes on Kevin's, surprised at the sudden confession.

Well maybe not so sudden, It had been a long time coming and they had been dancing around their feelings since Wednesday, maybe even all month.

There was a moment of silence as they regarded each other, Kevin asking permission to continue with his eyes. When Edd didn't move away Kevin took his final step into Edd's space. Keeping eye contact he dropped a kiss to Edd's shoulder.

Edd gave a small gasp at the electric contact. Kevin, spurred on by the little sound dropped another kiss, this time to the line of his throat, his other hand coming around to pull him against him.

"Kevin." Edd whispered, turning to look him in the eye.

Kevin took that opportunity to kiss his jaw.

"What are you doing?" He whispered, unwilling to break the moment by being any louder.

"I don't know." Kevin said eye's gravitating to Edd's painted lips, "Can I kiss you?"

"What have you been doing?" Edd breathed a laugh, and Kevin closed the gap, capturing the soft exhale.

It was soft and sweet. The last month of pining finally mounting and rather than a crashing wave it was like pieces finally coming together. They moved together slowly, every time they pulled away they couldn't stay apart, like magnets pulled by each other's polarity.

Edd's arms moved around Kevins neck. It was intoxicating. He moaned when Kevin licked the line of his lips, opening them up. His knees felt weak and Kevin's arms were the only thing keeping him standing. He leaned into the contact.

It was different then every other kiss Kevin had had. Edd was a little taller than him and he'd never had to tilt his head up, even if it wasn't by much. But mostly it was the affection. His previous make-out sessions were just about lust, and while there was a definite undercurrent of sexual desire, what led this kiss wasn't a need to claim but to express unsaid feelings.

"I need to change." Edd panted between collisions of their lips.

Kevin's hand trailed from the small of his back, up to the zipper tag. He kept it there for a moment to gauge his reaction.

Edd's eyes were half-lidded and he wanted to continue, but not where anyone could walk in. He bit his lip, the gap in his teeth was too sexy and Kevin kissed it.

"Not here. Come home with me?" He asked when they parted.

"Yeah?" He planted another soft kiss on the corner of his mouth.

"Yeah." Edd responded by moving his head more to more fully connect. "Can we take your bike?" He asked.

"You only like me for my bike." He laughed.

"Hm," he said leaning his head onto Kevin's shoulder. "I think I like the rest of you too." He felt so vulnerable saying it aloud. He'd never really gotten to this stage in a relationship and this wasn't even official yet.

"I like you too." Kevin held him before letting go so Edd could change.

"Actually, would you get the zipper?" He asked turning to show his back.

"Now you want me to." He chuckled and helped, but when he saw the bare skin underneath he couldn't breath.

Edd moved a sleeve off his shoulder and Kevin audibly gulped. "I think I should… wait outside."

Edd smiled his gap tooth smile and laughed as Kevin ran to the door.

The ride back felt supercharged, a current ran through them from where their bodies made contact. Edd held tight to Kevin, fully pressed against him, hands trailing dangerously close to his belt. Occasionally slipping lower at stops.

When they'd managed to get home they were both vibrating with anticipation. Once they'd extracted themselves from the bike and removed their helmets neither could hold back any more and they'd reconnected fervently. Mouths and hands finding purchase wherever they could.

"Fuck I want you." Kevin moaned between kissing Edd's neck. Edd for what it was worth was giving just as good as he'd got and he'd already made quite the mark above Kevin's clavicle.

"Hm. I think we should-" he paused to shudder when Kevin bit his earlobe- "g-go upstairs. Room. Bed."

Kevin would have to remember how much that affected him. In one smooth motion he picked up the thinner man and carried him to the door, Edd's legs wrapped around Kevin immediately.

"Eager?" Edd chuckled into the kiss and Kevin responded by pinching his ass. He laughed again until Kevin bit his lip and he groaned.

Kevin pulled Edd's key ring from his jacket pocket and unlocked the door. As he crossed the threshold he nearly tripped on the door jam. They both laughed but it devolved into breathless kisses.

As he shut the door Kevin pushed Edd up against it. The added leverage of the door gave Kevin the freedom to move his hands under Edd's shirt and his mouth to his long slender neck. He tweaked a pebbled nipple and Edd's head thunked back against the door.

"Want you inside me," Edd groaned, "Please."

"Fuck Babe. Yes." Kevin rutted his pelvis into Edd's. Their erections rubbed together through their pants and they both gasped.

"Bed." Edd whispered into Kevin's ear again before nibbling on it.

Kevin's hands moved back under Edd's legs to stumble up the staircase. He'd never been up to Edd's room so he wasn't sure where to go from the top of the stairs. Edd wasn't exactly helping, going back to sucking marks into Kevin's neck.

"First door. Left." Edd gasped when Kevin squeezed his ass to get his attention.

As soon as they'd made it to the bed Edd pulled off Kevin's shirt before pulling him down to cover him.

"Tease." Kevin said as he tried to extract Edd from his own shirt.

"Not a tease if I plan to put out." Edd's sultry smile gave Kevin a moment of pause. He was really going to finally do this.

"God you're sexy." Kevin leaned down and kissed him again.

"Mmm. Too much clothes, wouldn't you say." Edd pulled on Kevin's belt loops.

Kevin unbuttoned his pants but before removing them got distracted by Edd's pink nipples and placed his mouth over one of the peaked buds.

Edd panted and raked his nails over Kevin's shoulders. "Who's the tease now."

As he continued to suck and lick at the sensitive nub he pulled off Edd's pants. He pulled back and wiped his wet mouth with the back of his hand. Looking down at the beautiful man under him, finally naked.

"Like what you see?" Edd asked with a shy smile. He was trying hard not to cover himself.

"You have no idea." Kevin couldn't pull his eyes away from the body of the man he had been fantasizing about for what felt like so long. It was almost embarrassing how attractive he found his dick. Any possibility of him being straight flew out the window, not that there was any left.

"Your turn." Edd's eyes dropped to Kevin's jeans.

He grinned and stood to pull them off. Edd giggled and whistled as Kevin made a show of removing his pants and boxers. When he was finally nude he laid back over Edd.

"No fair, you got an eyeful." Edd said, pushing Kevin up so he could get his own good look.

He blushed. Oh . He wasn't sure what he was expecting but he was surprised at the thickness of Kevin's shaft.

"Everything okay?" He was suddenly worried at the open shock on Edd's face.

"Fuck you're gonna open me up." He gasped almost against his will.

Kevin gulped at the dirty talk. "Yeah?"

Edd reached to the nightstand and pulled out a strip of condoms and lube.

"How do you want to-"

"Fuck Double D I wanna finger you." Kevin didn't even let him finish his sentence. Ever since Alexander put the thought in his head he couldn't think of anything else.

The speedy reply made Edd gasp and the longing in his voice had Edd near shaking. "Okay."

Kevin sat back and pulled Edd's long legs open so he could see his furled hole. His mouth went dry, and he smeared the lube onto his fingers.

Edd watched Kevin stare at his opening, his nerves rose until he saw him lick his lips. Edd had to look away. It was too much to see Kevin, the man who he was sure just a week ago could never feel the same, look at him like he was the only thing he'd ever wanted.

When Kevin finally moved his slick fingers to his entrance Edd's legs were shaking.

"You okay?" He asked, his other hand rubbing circles into his thigh. He was pushing in one finger, working it slowly.

"Yes." Edd closed his eyes. "Feels good. You can add another."

"Look at me babe." Kevin started to add a second finger.

He opened his eyes just as Kevin thrusted his fingers all the way to the last knuckle.

Edd nearly screamed as his prostate was slammed into by complete accident.

"Woah." Kevin's eyes widened as Edd's back arched and he made the most wanton noise. He didn't think he'd be able to erase this from his spank bank for as long as he lived.

"Fuck, please Kevin. More." He gasped.

Kevin nodded and started trying to add in a third finger. The mildly pained face worried Kevin until he curled his fingers, his hand cramping from the thrusting motion and Edd was again gasping and moaning. He tossed his head from side to side.

Kevin kept rubbing his sweet spot, curling and uncurling his fingers as Edd's pretty cock started leaking into his stomach. His hole twitched around his fingers and he stared at the erotic sight. His own dick straining from neglect.

"I'm ready. Please, please, please. Need you." He was near delirious with pleasure.

Kevin never wanted to stop fingering him but even more he wanted to do whatever the man under him said. He thinks he'd jump off a bridge if Edd asked right now.

He rolled on the condom and lubed himself up.

When he adjusted their position Edd latched his arms around Kevin's neck and sealed their mouths together, swallowing his moan.

He slid in and they both went still trying to adjust. Kevin had to pull away from the kiss to take a deep ragged breath so as to not cum immediately, focusing on anything but the extreme warmth and tightness wrapped around him.

After he got himself under control he peppered his lover's face with soft kisses.

"Okay." Edd said softly, voice raw from moaning.

Kevin started shallow, going slow and savoring the feeling of being joined together like this.

"D, baby. What do you want?" He asked into his neck. The soft loving way he spoke made Edd want to bury himself in his arms and never leave.

He whimpered, "Fuck me."

Kevin grunted and couldn't hold back after hearing that. He thrusted hard, instinct winning out. Edds legs wrapped around Kevin fully as he was rammed into. His nails digging into the redheads broad back, every other thrust his prostate was hammered roughly.

Their breathing was labored. Kevin was nearing his end, he could feel himself reaching his peak but he refused to cum first. He reached down and fisted Edd's erection in time with his thrusts and moaning sweet nothings to him.

Edd tensed, his hole tightening around Kevin as his climax washed over him. Kevin gasped and finally spilled. His hips thrusted a few more times until he was overstimulated and shaking. They stayed like that, still connected, as they recovered from the most mind blowing orgasm either of them had ever had.

Kevin pulled out and Edd softly gasped at the feeling of suddenly being empty.

Kevin fell sideways next to him. He didn't want to stop touching him though so he pulled Edd onto his chest.

"I hope you realize you're never getting rid of me now."

Edd was more relieved then he could admit. "I wouldn't want to." He adjusted himself to feel more comfortable, resting his check on Kevin's muscular chest.

They laid together and every now and again Kevin seemed to become overcome with emotion and kissed wherever he could reach. Edd would lean up and they'd languidly kiss until they needed air and go back to just being together.

"We should probably talk about this." Edd broached after nearly half an hour.

"I was hoping all this kissing was clearing up how I feel."

"It is nice. But I think I need to hear it." Edd said he figured but it didn't stop him from feeling self conscious.

Kevin considered telling Edd what he'd discovered watching him onstage but felt like it might have been too intense too early.

"I was hoping that you'd consider being my boyfriend." He ran his hand up and down his back.

"When… did you start liking me?" He asked instead of answering. Kevin would have been nervous except for the look Edd was giving him.

Kevin gulped. "I noticed it after I found out you were Tattiana but Nazz made me realize I'd started actually having feelings for you before then. Probably when I found out you were gay. I started to really think of you, you know. Like it was possible."

Edd ran his hand up and down Kevin's muscular abdomen. "I started liking you when you told me how you felt about Tattiana." Edd started after a pause. "I was so jealous." He refused to make eye contact when he said it. He still had complicated feelings surrounding the connection of himself and Tattiana, even after everything. He figured it'd take a while to completely make peace with that.

"Why then?" Kevin asked. It managed to pull him from his thoughts.

"When you said that when you saw her you thought you could love her if you were given a chance… it was. I don't know exactly. I just never considered anyone could feel that way about me. And when you said that, even though you didn't know it was me, it was like for the first time I let myself believe someone could like me like that."

Kevin pulled Edd to him and buried his face in his hair and held him tight.

He longed to say he loved him but knew that it was too soon and even with how Edd felt it might be overwhelming.

"So, is that a yes?" Kevin asked.

"Yes." Edd said softly.

They stayed like that until the endorphins from the day wore off. They cleaned up and they fell asleep curled together.