Thank you for the kind reviews. :) Short chapter-wanted to write something because I'll be without wifi for a few days.

Alice

After I healed Sam, I slept for three days.

I did not have nightmares-I did not dream at all.

Sam is there when I finally wake up. Hair falling over his face, those intense eyes, his lips curved into a concerned little smile. He's been so worried, I can feel it.

My sweet Sam.

"Your sweet Sam? And your angel, right…?"

"Stop it", I flinch. Sam raises an eyebrow. "I'm sorry, it's Lucifer...I feel like I had some peace for just a little-hearing him again is triggering me."

Sam frowns. "Ali...I am so sorry. We will figure out how to make him stop. I swear to you."

He is so sincere, it breaks my heart.

I begin to reply, but the questions come: How did I heal him? Did I know I was capable of such a thing? How do I feel now?

I don't know how I did it, I really don't. I had no idea-I only know I thought I was going to lose him and my soul couldn't bear it. I feel alright now, save for Lucifer.

He asks what it felt like as I was saving him. I don't tell him too much, don't want him to worry, but if you imagine what death would feel like, I guess it'd feel like that. Like my lifeforce was pouring from me, into him.

I'd do it again in a heartbeat.

"Alice, I'm hurt. You'd sacrifice yourself so quickly for Sam. Why am I unworthy? Is it because I haven't given you a pet name? Because I can think of a few…"

I twitch. Sam takes notice. He is hugging me and thanking me for saving his life. He kisses my forehead. I know he can see me beaming over his comfort, and I don't mind. I never feel foolish with these men anymore. They are my home. They saved me.

I nuzzle him and he doesn't tense this time. His embrace tightens slightly. I smile and breathe him in-he smells of citrus and earth. I want to bottle his scent.

Although I'm wholly enjoying the moment, something tugs at me; the absence of Cas. I need him like air in my lungs.

Dean made a joke one day, calling us Edward and Bella. I cringed, but admitted to reading the books. I even indulged him and said I was team Jacob from the start, so don't give me too much shit.

The mention of Jacob made me think of Sam and I'm not sure why. Regardless, it's embarrassing.

"Oh my Dad, Alice. You're killing me with the Twilight references."

I groan. "We have to get him out, Sam…" I slink down onto the bed.

"I know. We will." He brushes his thumb over my cheek.

His affection for me is surprising. I don't fully understand it, I only know I return it. I've never hidden it from Cas, and I never will. Honest and open is the only way for me to be. And Cas knows how deeply I feel for him. He knows that he is my whole heart.

Dean brings in a tray of food-some grilled cheese and broccoli.

"I heard you were awake", he says. "Glad to see it, kid. Thank you for saving Sammy". He wants to say more, but leaves it at that.

Sam smiles up at him. "Did...did you actually cook something green?"

Dean shrugs. "Not exactly. It steams in the bag...she needs some nutrition."

"Thank you, Dean. I'm starving" I give him a hug. He returns it, holding on for longer than expected. He usually brims with masculine energy, but right now all I can feel is gratitude.

I know I've been unconscious, but I haven't seen Cas in three days and it's eating at me.

"Guys...can you get Cas?"

"I'm on it", Sam says. But my angel appears the moment I ask for him.

"What do I have to do to separate you two?", Lucifer questions. "I know it won't be easy. Luckily, I'm a clever guy."