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Welcome to level 10 of Jumanji... and yes I have decided to stick with that for the rest of the year before you ask. I had a lovely week away (and birthday) and now I feel creative again and I am hoping to write well again. October is the month when I want to get some good habits going and make the most of these last months of 2020 better than what has just been. Enjoy the update.
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Love Changes Everything-Part 7:
"I still long for a daughter," Narcissa said as she looked at her mother-in-law, "that dream will never go away I feel. It's always ben a dream of mine and no matter how impossible it is I fear that the dream will never go away and that hurts rather a lot. It just gets me down a lot and I just hate the way it makes me feel sometimes. It's a dream that I know will never come true and I get so depressed about it at times. I know you feel the same way Priscilla and don't you bother trying to lie to me."
Priscilla knew that Narcissa would know she was lying so she sipped her tea quietly, giving herself time to word her answer.
"Yes I did but there is hope for you and Lucius because in a way my dream to get a daughter came true when you married into the family. There is hope yes. Maybe it will happen one day. You just have to wait and see but it's something to hold onto when things get dark," Priscilla said and she watched as Narcissa sat back in her chair and sighed as she thought about what her mother-in-law had said.
"I… I just feel so lost at times and I just feel like I'm floating. I love Severus and Lucius and I know what I have to be but I don't know… I know I can't be with Severus but with all the arguing with me and Lucius it feels like I'm lost.." Narcissa said softly as she tried to explain her thoughts.
"You know what you need? A night with Lucius where you can both just focus on each other and find common ground again. You both have lost your way a bit," Priscilla said, "Lucius has been at the Ministry or with Eira and you have been raising Draco and feeling detached from Lucius and that is probably why you are feeling lost. You two need a night together and that will be tonight. Abraxas and I will have Draco and there will be nobody disturbing you. I still have a certain amount of sway with the House Elves around this Manor. Once you've been a Lady of the House you will always be a Lady of the House. Just remember that when you retire and Draco's wife is running the Manor."
"Priscilla I cannot ask you to look after my son for a night…" Narcissa started before Priscilla raised a hand to quiet her.
"I am not being asked… I am telling you that Abraxas and I will take care of Draco tonight. You and Lucius need time together and what you get up to is your own business," Priscilla told her, "but you and Lucius need this night to yourselves." Narcissa sighed and knew that she didn't really have a choice.
So after Priscilla had taken Draco away with her. Lucius and Narcissa had decided that they wouldn't get completely dressed up but they would dress well for the dinner that Priscilla had arranged for them.
"So what is this in aid of?" Lucius asked, "it feels like it was pretty quickly arranged."
"It was rather, only arranged at afternoon tea because your mother felt we needed it. We need to reconnect," Narcissa said softly as she looked at Lucius, "things aren't easy but not really having time together doesn't help either. We are meant to be married and yet we need to reconnect." Lucius nodded and sighed.
"Me keep going on about Eira hasn't helped has it?" he asked as he looked at her.
"No. I'm trying to not mention Severus too much and yet here you are mentioning Eira rather a lot," Narcissa said, "it's not very nice at all really," she said avoiding her husband's eye, "it upsets me more than anything. We are both just as trapped in this but shoving it in each other's face isn't really going to help."
"I know and I'm really sorry. We need to try and focus on each other," Lucius said as he looked at her, "you have to be my focus now and nobody else."
The small chat carried on and Lucius and Narcissa were soon in bed. They hadn't slept together but they were talking to each other.
"You should have told me it was bothering you and I'd have stopped," Lucius said as he looked down at her.
"Yes but would you really? You don't seem to listen to me when it comes to our lovers," Narcissa said as she looked at him, "I love you Lucius. You have found a place in my heart but Severus had it first but I do not push you or remind you about it because you would be upset."
Lucius remained silent as he thought about what his wife had said and he began to see the damage that he was doing.
"Do I really go on about her a lot?" he asked.
"You asked if she could come to the Ball because I invited Severus," Narcissa pointed out, "Severus is Draco's godfather so of course I would invite him. Eira has never come to one of our Balls before so why would I invite her other than the fact that you want her there? Can you see what I mean?" she asked as she watched him.
"Yes I can see why that would upset you," Lucius said, "the fact that I even mentioned Eira coming was wrong but see it as an opportunity in that I can prove myself to you."
"No Lucius," Narcissa said, "Eira never comes anyway so why start now? Don't you think we have enough issues as it is? See there you go again. Trying to find a way to convince me to allow her to come when I have said she's out of the country. You just don't listen!"
Lucius looked down at her before moving on top of her and pinned her down.
"I'm sorry OK? I can't help being drawn to her really just like you can't with Severus but I will take this night into consideration and listen. I will try and mention Eira less," Lucius said kissing her softly and she gave in. Despite the fact he annoyed her, she did love him and that was something she was trying to do no matter how hard it was.