I hadn't left Mystic Falls like I told Jenna. In fact, I was staying with Grace in the hospital for a couple of days. But it was my birthday and I had to go home. Not to say, Daniel showed up to the hospital drunk.
I was texting Elena and Jeremy every day. Elena told me that Stefan, Damon, and sometimes Vicki sat outside the house. To the public she was missing, which included Jeremy. I wish I didn't have to lie to him but if anything happened to him, I don't know how I would react. Jeremy told me that Vicki was yet to be found but somehow he kept out hope.
My thoughts were pulled back into reality when the taxi stopped moving and we were outside my house. "Thank you." I handed the taxi driver a 20 dollar bill and Daniel jumped out of the car.
"It's her birthday. She's finally sixteen." Daniel sang around the yard. I knew Damon or Stefan was watching because Damon's blue car was just a couple houses over, on the other side of the street. You could spot it if you knew where to look.
"Yeah, yeah." I placed my bag by the steps of the porch. And faced Daniel. He actually seemed happy and didn't look like the weight of the world was on his shoulders.
"Do you miss him?" Daniel asked and I knew who he was talking about. It's all Danny talked about nowadays.
"God no." I laughed a little to myself.
"I'm still in shock."
"About?" I walked up the steps and leaned on the pole.
"That you've been in Mystic Falls this whole time. What is Elena going to say? Do you think she's going to be mad at you?"
Great Daniel. Keep on talking. "No, because I'm not telling her and neither are you. Plus, it's easier to find in plain sight when you're less important."
"I wouldn't know." Daniel laughed and kept dancing around. "J come on."
"First, don't call me 'J'. I leaned onto the railing.
"Jessica. Come dance."
"Let's get you inside instead."
"But I want to dance." Daniel started to spin in circles. Luckily, my phone started to ring.
"Hello is this Jessica Gilbert?"
"Yes, it is. Who's this?"
"I'm from Virginia James Medical Center. We were just checking you got the paperwork you asked for. It should have been delivered yesterday."
"Um. Please hold." I put myself on mute and sprinted to the mailbox. I opened it and saw the packet.
I took myself off mute and spoke. "Yes, I did. Thank you." I hung up my phone and shoved it in my bag. Turning the packet over, I ripped off the top.
My feet led me back to the porch and sat down. Even though the packet was ripped open, everything scared me to read the papers inside.
I didn't wanna read in-depth just yet but just glanced over a couple of sentences of various pages.
"Come on Daniel. Let's go inside." I stood up and grabbed him by the arm.
"What's that?" He pointed to the papers in my hand.
"Nothing that you need to worry about." Leading Danny inside was easier said than done. He kept making a ton of noise. Although no one woke up. I let him sleep on my bed because I wasn't going to.
I changed into pj's and took Danny's shoes off for him. The papers laid on my desk, and I started to look them over. Before I knew it, morning had set in.
"Hey get up. We gotta go to school." I nudged Daniel after I had gotten ready for the day.
"No. I don't want to." He mumbled into the pillow.
"Danny, I haven't been to school in days. I gotta go."
"Ugh, fine." It took a minute or two but Daniel was ready for the day. Even though he was wearing the same clothes as yesterday.
"Here." I handed Daniel my skateboard once we got outside and I used my penny board.
"Happy Birthday." I heard Bonnie's voice and I looked at her while closing my locker.
"Thank you, Bonnie."
"Of course. This is from Gram's." Bonnie handed over a box with a bow on top.
"I'll open it later, maybe at the party."
"You know about the party?" Caroline said as she approached us.
"Sorry Care. I know it was supposed to be a surprise."
"It's whatever now. Can you make sure your brother comes?"
"Is there gonna be alcohol?" My bag was falling off my shoulder so I fixed it.
"Of course." Caroline's face lit up.
"Then I'll have no problem getting him there." I smiled at the two. "Bonnie wanna go to class?"
"Sure." We set off towards history. "So how was your trip?"
"Um… refreshing."
"Are you okay?" I bit back a sigh at Bonnie's question. Seeing how it was the main one everyone was asking me lately. I thought I was luckily saved when my phone started to ring.
"I'll let you get that." Bonnie pated my arm and walked into the classroom.
The caller ID showed Damon. Was I still mad at him? Yes but also no. It was exhausting trying to be mad at him all the time. Time decided for me and the call stopped. I placed my phone on silent and walked into the classroom. We still had been substitute teachers since Tanner's death. As the bell almost rang, Elena came into the classroom and caught my eye.
The expression on her face told me she was surprised to see me. The last time I saw her was when she and Stefan broke up the night Vicki became a vampire. I found her crying against the front door and helped her upstairs to her bedroom. I waited till she fell asleep and then stayed with Grace for a little.
Elena smiled at me and took her seat. History seemed to go by fast since there was no actual lesson.
"Hey." Elena caught up to me.
"Hey."
"Where have you been?"
'Lie Jessica.' The little voice in my head said. "You know here and there. I see Stefan isn't coming to school." Nice topic change.
"Um… I gotta get to class." Elena walked away faster than I've ever seen her. The day though didn't go fast. It seemed to drag on like no other. People told me happy birthday and asked me where Jeremy was but I didn't know. Damon tried to call again but it was ignored. I was walking home alone when my phone rang and the caller ID showed Vicki.
"Happy Birthday!" Her voice screamed through the phone. I knew that Damon and Stefan were listening in on the conversation so I chose my words wisely.
"Thanks."
"Why do you sound so sad?" I didn't catch onto that, Vicki seemed too.
"Sorry."
"Wow, Jessica Gilbert is apologizing. That's rare."
I didn't answer Vicki because my attention was caught to my mailbox. A red rose was taped to the side of it. Only one person did that, for my birthday. It was almost a tradition.
"Hello? Jessica are you still there?" She was ignored again.
I snatched the rose off the mailbox and looked around. My hands were so sweaty and my phone almost dropped out of my hand.
"Jess." I jumped and welp a little at the sound of my voice plus someone touched my shoulder.
"God damn it, Jeremy. Don't do that." I ended the phone call without saying goodbye.
"Sorry. Happy Birthday." Jeremy handed me a beautiful hand-drawn card with everything I loved on it.
"Thank you." I had been carrying Jeremy's gift around all-day in case I would see him at school. "Here's yours."
As he opened up his present, I spoke to him. "I know you kinda stopped but in the hope of you starting again. You'll be prepared." My twin opened his new drawing pad and all types of different drawing materials.
A smile crept onto his face and Jeremy pulled me into a long-overdue hug.
"I'm sorry I've been an ass lately." Jeremy spoke into my hair and I pulled away.
"It's okay. You've been going through a lot. Unlike Elena and Jenna, I believe it's okay for you to show some emotion. Lets me know you're human." I placed a huge smile on my face.
Jeremy smiled back and started to walk towards the house. "Oh, by the way, you have to go to the party tonight."
"But-"
"Forbes will call me if they find Vicki. I made her promise. So no excuses, if I have to go. You have to go." I passed Jeremy and went into the house.
"Jenna? Elena?" I called out.
"Elena is helping set up and Jenna is at a study group. She said she will be home later. Oh, shoot." I looked back at Jeremy and he was reading something on his phone.
"Everything okay?"
"Yeah, I forgot I was meeting someone."
"Jeremy, I'm serious. Party."
"And I'll be there." Jeremy came over and kissed the top of my head before walking out the door.
Once he left, I took off my shoes and jacket I was wearing for the day. Upon, entering my room I found a red dress with black high heels on my bed with a note from Caroline.
"I expect you to show up in this dress. Before, you say no, I'll make you change at the party into another dress and Nick won't let you leave the house if you don't wear this. Lastly, if you don't show up, I'll kill you." - Caroline.
Great. I sighed and looked at the dress. It would reach down to my thighs, probably a couple of inches above my knees. There was a cut in the side and it was off the shoulder. My head shook back and forth. Luckily, it had long sleeves.
My clock told me I had a couple of hours before the party started so I did different things around the house. Which included cleaning the kitchen, tidying up the house, and catching up on homework.
I took a shower before getting into my dress. Once my hair is dried, I straighten it and twist the front pieces out of my eyes. My makeup was all natural except for a wing eyeliner and red lipstick.
Not long after, I heard a car honk from outside. I walked into Elena's room to peak who was outside honking with the use of her window. Jeremy and Nick were standing outside.
"Damn girl." Nick said as I locked up the house and started to walk towards him and Jeremy. Jeremy just smiled and clapped at me and I hit his shoulder when I passed him.
The car ride was about 8 minutes and I zoned out for most of it.
"Ready?" My car door was open, showing Jeremy and Nick with both a hand out. I put on my best fake smile and used both their hands to get out of Nick's truck. After I let go, I held onto Jeremy for moral support and my other hand clutched the small handbag I used to hold my phone and keys.
Once we walked into the house, Caroline ran up to us.
"You're here!" She threw her arms around me and I spotted some people I knew from school, including Damon but I looked away quickly.
"Well, you did say you would kill me if I didn't show up."
"Come on, I wouldn't do such a thing." Caroline slapped my arms playfully and was called away.
"Okay, I'm ready to go home now." I turned around and Nick was behind me and Jeremy still held onto me.
"Oh, I don't think so. You made me come so I'm making you stay." Jeremy said to me and Nick took his side.
"Yeah, come on let's go do shots." Nick took my hand, breaking me away from Jeremy. I gave him pleading eyes but he shook his head and started to laugh.
"Two shots of Tequila please." Nick got the bartender's attention and started to pour the drinks. How he heard Nick was a mystery because it was really loud in whoever's house I was in.
The bartender placed the drinks in front of us and Nick drank he's with easy. Once, he saw I didn't take mine; he placed it in my hands and gave me a jester to drink. I did so with ease and placed the cup back on the bar.
"How do you do that? You didn't even cough."
"You forget I used to be drunk all the time Nick. It doesn't really affect me that fast."
"So more?"
"I have to pee." I said and Nick gave me a look like I was crazy. I just gave him a huge smile and walked off between people. When I entered another room I spotted Stefan talking to Damon at the back. Was anyone watching Vicki?
I didn't watch them for long because I saw Daniel walk right past them. Easily, I caught up to him and pulled him outside to where there was more party.
"What's wrong with you?" Daniel asked me and I kept my hold on him. I walked him and I back inside and upstairs.
"Oh my god! You're gonna ruin my shirt." Daniel ripped out of my grasp and moved more into the room I pulled him into.
"Did you do this?" I took out the rose from earlier and Danny's face fell. He walked towards me in quick steps and started to look over the rose like something was over it.
He held it up next to his head. "Jess I didn't do this. I swear."
"You swear?"
"I swear!" Daniel yelled at me.
"Danny. I can't. I'm not going through it again."
"No one said you had to." Daniel spoke calmly and I started to pace in my heels.
"I think he might be here." I stopped and looked at Danny.
He caught my eye before he spoke again. "He wouldn't Jessica. That's stupid. We made up the lie he moved. It would be a little suspicious of him if he just moved back."
"How can you be sure!?" I yelled at Daniel.
"I can't be!" Daniel yelled back at me and the bedroom door opened to show Stefan.
"Caroline wants to do cake." Stefan kept his eyes on me.
"Okay. Thank you Stefan. Can you tell her I'll be down in a second?"
"It's fine Stefan. We're done here." Danny moved past Stefan and out of the room. I took a foot forward to go after him but I stopped. He just needed some time to cool off.
"Boyfriend problems?" Stefan questioned which made me smile.
"Daniel's not my boyfriend. He's just my best friend. Plus, he's gay."
Stefan opened his mouth to say something but closed it again. We looked at each other at the same time and started to laugh. "Come on Stefan." I now moved past him and down the stairs. I made my way outside, where most people were gathered.
"There you are." Bonnie grabbed my arm and sat me down next to Jeremy. I looked at him with sorry eyes for making him wait for me. Everyone started to sing happy birthday and for a split second, I forgot about everything. My parents are dead, Grace brain dead, Vicki a vampire, Colin not in the hospital anymore, Daniel and me fighting. It felt okay until the song ended and everything came crashing back in.
Jeremy blew out his candles and I moved fast to blow out mine too. While everyone was clapping I looked around and spotted Elena. I gave her a sad smile and she seemed to understand why. I wanted my parents.
This was not the way I pictured my sixteenth birthday. I was supposed to be at home with my parents, twin brother, and sister. My guitar was supposed to be played while we all sang. Jeremy was supposed to be doing a drawing contest with my mother. An hour before our birthday was to be over, Daniel and Grace would come over with their parents and we would count down the minutes to their birthday.
But nothing like that would ever happen again. I would never see my parents again and that hurt. I head hung lightly and Jeremy pulled me into a hug right when the music started again.
"Hey, you okay?"
"Mm-Hmm." I broke out from the hug and now gave Jeremy a sad smile. "I don't feel like cake. I think I'm going to get something to drink."
Jeremy nodded his head at me and I started to walk towards the bar. I didn't get the chance to make it because someone pulled me to where other people were dancing.
"Jessa."
All breathing stopped but somehow I was able to talk. "Colin."
"Happy Birthday." Colin looked older and he placed his hand inside mine and put his other one on my waist trapping me from leaving.
"What? Not happy to see me?" I didn't say anything and Colin made my other hand be placed on his shoulder. I moved it off but kept my wrist there. My hand clenched together like a fist and I made my fingernails dig into my skin to draw blood.
It hurt like hell but Damon and Stefan would smell it and find the source.
"Come on Jessa, you can't still be mad."
"You almost killed me. I was your best friend." My voice broke.
"You seem a little ungrateful."
I dug harder into my skin.
"You like the rose I left for you?"
"I hate roses." I spat.
"There she is. Fiery little Jessica." Colin had a look in his eye I only saw once before.
"Excuse me?" Colin and I looked at the person to speak. For the first time, since I saw Colin, I felt like I could breathe again. "I would like a dance with the birthday girl." I unclunched my fist.
Colin seemed to hesitate at first but brought my unhurt hand up to his mouth and kissed it. "Have a good birthday." He walked off after that.
"You're bleeding." Damon stated.
I swallowed visibly and hid my hand. "I know. It was an accident."
"It didn't look like an accident. Who was that guy?" Damon asked and pulled me into the same way Colin had me but his grip was nowhere as tight.
"Um… he's… just… just someone who I don't like."
Damon gave me a slightly concerned look. "So you made yourself bleed."
"How else would you know that I needed you?"
"Oh, so you need me?" Damon seemed to change the whole mood and put a smile onto his face. I heard the songs change into a slow song and more people started to dance like us.
"Oh, don't let that go to your head, Salvatore."
"Mm-Hmm." Was his simple response.
"So where's Vicki?"
"In the basement." Damon spun me around with ease.
"The basement?" We swayed to the beat of the music.
"We have a cell down there."
"Oh. Good to know. Now I know where you can go if you misbehave again." Damon caught my eye and we smiled at the same time. Right there is where I became no longer mad at Damon. It was if everything else just faded away.
"You look breathtaking. If no one's told you tonight."
"You would be the first. Thank you, Damon." I smiled a real smile for the first time that day.
I saw Damon swallow something in his throat.
"You okay?"
"Usually, I'm asking you that." Damon put on his famous playboy smirk and I knew he was trying to change the conversation but he earned a look like I wasn't amused.
Damon glanced at my hand. The blood. When I looked at my hand I saw Colin watching us, he looked so mad. My body went stiff but my legs gave out.
"Jessie." Damon caught me waist before I could go anywhere.
"Sorry… my heels. Can you take me somewhere?"
"You can't leave your own party."
"Really?" I stopped dancing and took my hands off Damon. I reached inside his leather jacket and grabbed his car keys. "Watch me."
I started to spin his car keys on my fingers and moved towards the front door. A couple of people told me happy birthday as I walked past. I got outside and realized I had no idea where Damon's car was. I held up the keys and pressed the unlock button to find the car. It was down the street. My heels clicked off the porch and onto the sidewalk. The distance between me and the party grew and I wondered if Damon was just gonna let me steal his car.
I looked back at the party to see if he was following me but he wasn't.
"Boo." I turned around and jumped to see Damon in front of me.
"Don't do that." I hit his chest and he just laughed.
"Ugh." I moved around him towards the car. I got to the driver's side and he approached the passenger side. He started to undo the top. "No one drives my car but me."
"Tough luck."
"You don't have your license yet."
"I have my permit and if I drive with someone over 21, it's legal. Plus, aren't you like 100 something years old."
"And I look like an enteral stud." Damon had the top fully down.
"Shut up and get in." Damon did as he was told.
"If you hurt her in any way, I'll snap your neck." Damon leaned his head back on the head rest.
"Shut up and buckle."
"I can't die." Damon closed his eyes.
"Fine." I reached over and buckled Damon in. While on his side, I reached into the glove compartment and got a napkin out. My wounds had somewhat stopped bleeding but I still wiped the blood off and placed it inside my small purse.
From there I got buckled and moved the mirrors so I could see out of them. We took off down the street and I started to smile widely and laugh a little. I looked over at Damon who still had his eyes closed.
I made sure to drive with caution but also have some fun. After about 10 minutes of mindless driving, I decided to make my first stop of the night. It took another seven minutes to get there. The car pulled up to an outside flower shop.
"Jessica!"
"Shhh!" I turned off the engine and got out of the car. "I think he's sleeping."
Martha followed my finger towards Damon. "Damn he's hot. Wouldn't mind taking him home for some dessert."
I covered my laugh and walked more up to Martha. "Shhh, what if he can hear you?"
"Oh, honey. If you can hear me, I'm free every day for you." I placed my hand over Martha's mouth and started to laugh. She did so in return and I took my hand away.
Once the laughing died down I hugged Martha. "Not only does he look hot, but so do you. I'm not surprised he's with you."
"It isn't like that."
"Hmm, that's what they all say. What can I get for you?"
"Two white roses please."
Martha moved towards the roses and spoke to me again. "Thought you didn't like roses."
"I don't but I'm going to go see them." Martha handed me the roses. "How much do I owe you?"
"Girl, please. It's your birthday. They are on the house."
"No, come on Martha."
"I'm serious Jessica. I don't want your money this time. Plus you always overpay."
"Okay, fine. But close up shop. It's already dark out and I need you."
"Girl you're my regular. I'm not going anywhere." Martha pulled me in for a hug. "Happy birthday."
"Thank you." I pulled out of the hug and walked back over to the car. Damon still looked asleep. "And give that tall glass of water my number."
I laughed a little and placed the roses on my lap. The car came to life and we were off again. I made my way to the cemetery. Before getting out, I sighed a little, taking one last look at Damon. He looked so peaceful, so human. I turned off the car but left the keys in the cupholders.
"Be right back." I whispered to Damon.
Once my heels were off the pavement and onto the grass I took them off and held them on my other hand, without the roses. My hand knocked on the grave keepers' box and walked in the door.
"Hey, Jonas."
"Hey! Happy Birthday." Jonas got up and hugged me before sitting back down. "Get those from my wife?"
"Yeah. I made her close up though."
"She only listens to you."
I laughed a little. "Yeah. Do you mind if…" I trailed off and pointed at the cemetery.
"No, go ahead."
"Thanks." I left Jonas' office and walked towards my parents' grave. Jonas and Martha had been married for 50 years and since my parents' death they had become part of my life. It's funny. You lose people but still end up meeting new people as if nothing happened.
"Hi, mommy." I placed a rose on her grave. "Hi, daddy." I placed the other one on his and stepped back. My friendly black crow sat by their graves and I smiled at it.
I looked back down towards my parents. "Finally 16. Proud?" I gave a sad smile. "I'm sorry I didn't come earlier in the day. It's been a little crazy." I paused and was lost for words. "I never-." My voice broke. "I never thought this was how I was gonna spend my 16th birthday. I just wanna go home." My right hand moved up my left sleeve and I started to trace over the cuts on my wrist and I took a deep breath.
"Do you think I'm going to be okay? I'm really tired and… and… I don't wanna be alone anymore. I feel like I'm always standing in a room full of people but I've never felt so lonely. I... I just don't know anymore." I took another deep breath and decided this was all too much. My hands reached for the heels that I placed on the ground and started to walk back to the car.
I said good night to Jonas and approached Damon's car. He was in the driver's seat and was playing with the radio.
"Where to?"
"Home, I guess." I buckled back up and placed my heels on the floor of the car. We didn't talk but listened to the radio. My mind was definitely in a different place tonight. My feet were hurting from the heels and I started to rub them. I was doing the same action when Damon parked down the street from my house.
Damon was on my side of the car before I could open the door. He held out his head and I shook my head no and got out without any help.
"Close your eyes." Damon was still in front of me. "Don't argue. Just close your eyes."
I did as I was told and felt the wind against my face before being met with warmth.
"You can open them now." Damon said sassily. I opened my eyes and I was in my room. Damon laying on my bed looking at me with a huge smile.
"Did you just super speed us into my bedroom?"
"Maybe." Damon picked up one of my pillows and started to hug it.
A smile was on my face but my head shook no. I walked over to my dresser and pulled out a pair of PJs. I gave Damon a look and he gave me a sexy one back.
"Look away." A said with a smile.
"And miss the show?" He asked with fake shock.
"Damon!"
"You're gonna wake up Jenna."
"And I'm going to kill you."
"You're no fun" Damon turned onto his stomach and placed his head into my pillows. I changed quickly just in case he got any ideas.
"Okay," I said and he turned back on his back. I got a bra on but a tank top was covering it up with pink flannel pants.
"You couldn't give me anything?"
"And where's the fun in that?" I sat next to him.
"Oh before I forget. From the newbie." Damon handed over $20.
"Newbie?" I asked and took the money.
"Vic or whatever."
"Vicki?"
"Yeah, yeah."
"Damon, she has a name. And you can't go around turning everyone into vampires."
"Watch me." Damon locked eyes with me but I looked away fast.
"No compulsion Damon. I don't want that." I moved a little away from him.
"I wasn't compelling you. But if you're seriously worried about it…" Damon sat up and reached into his back pocket to take out a black box. He opened the box and it showed a silver bracelet with a locket of some kind.
"It's beautiful." I touched it inside the box.
"It has vervain in it. It's so no vampire can compel you." Damon took out the bracelet and made sure not to touch the locket. "Also vervain can hurt us so don't touch me with it." Damon placed the bracelet on my wrist but held onto my hand.
Like second nature, our eyes locked into each other. I took this moment to mess with Damon. I pulled my hand away and made the locket touch his skin. It burnt him a little but he quickly recovered. I started to laugh and he looked at me like I was crazy.
"I'm sorry but your face when it touched you." I made the same face he did when it touched him and laughed even more. Another smile played on his lips. After I stopped laughing I plopped back against the pillows and faced Damon. He laid back as a yawn escaped my lips.
"Mmm." I closed my eyes and got comfortable. "Will you stay here till I fall asleep?" One of my eyes peaked open at him and he nodded. It went closed again. In moments I was asleep.
When Jessica was ready to sleep, it took her no time. Within 3 minutes she was dead asleep. Tonight with her hair straight she looked so much like Maria. It was a little scary. I reached over and turned off her light. You could still see somewhat in her room from the moonlight shining in from her window.
I knew that some part of Jessica was sad because her parents died but I had no idea that she cut herself. I didn't even know where to start helping her with that. I wasn't supposed to know but I had used the crow. I should have eaten it when Jessica came over to the house.
Peeking at her wrist you could somewhat see the cuts but it was hard in this light. The marks from tonight were in her palm still. The bleeding had stopped. But who was that boy? Why did Jessica need saving? I'll give her points for attracting me with blood. Her blood was so good. Like my own personal blood bag.
She sighed in her sleep and moved a little, causing hair to fall into her eyes. I missed her curly hair and not the hair that made her more like Maria even though they were polar opposites. Just like Katherine and Elena. I lightly moved the hair out of her eyes and heard the front door open. No doubt the other Gilbert siblings.
Something weird happened. I didn't want to leave her. She was asleep yes, but what if the footsteps I heard were actually that boy. I sped into her closet but left the door crack. Jeremy and Elena walked in. Elena placed a box on Jessica's nightstand with a happy birthday card. She hadn't given her sister a present yet? Jessie's twin took one of her blankets at the end of her bed and threw it on her.
The two walked out of the room and went into their own. After I knew they weren't going to come back, I stood over Jessie again and kissed the top of her forehead. I made my way to her window but a creaky floorboard stopped me. I rocked back onto it to make sure I did that and I did.
Sneaky. I lifted it up and it had various things in it. A friendship bracelet, a photo of Jessie, Jeremy, Daniel, another girl, and the boy from earlier. A pile of notes addressed to Jessica, and other things. What caught my attention was the package Jessica took out of her mailbox early this morning. She had just come back from her trip and someone had called her.
I couldn't hear that well because her best friend was singing and being annoying. I read the first line on the first page.
'Notes and study on Colin David Roberts, during his stay at Virginia Medical Center.'
'The mental hospital? Why does Jessie have this?' I decided to take it for myself and find some things out.
ik ik. i haven't updated in a long while. life got crazy so fast and i kinda lost inspiration. but i'm back, next we are back to the actual episodes. i thought that we needed more damon and jessie scenes.