Honestly, I want to take this story and delete the whole thing and erase it from my memory, but a lot of people have this thing bookmarked and are still commenting on it. And I don't believe in letting down people Because I lost interest. I don't know what my original vision was for this story, but I'm cringing as I go back and reread it, and the first half of this story.
A good chunk of this chapter was written years ago, you can tell the quality of my writing improved as well as Harry's speech. I don't want to do baby talk anymore. I honestly don't know where To even go in this story, my muse had fled. If you have ideas what you want to see in this story, leave a comment below and I mean that. I don't believe in abandoning my stories but I dont want this one to die a slow painful death. This one has one chapter left.
When Harry woke up he was in a car seat in the back seat of a car. He could see Sirius and that man he remembered as Moony in the front. He shifted in his seat as he looked out the window, unsure of where they were taking him. He wiggled as he tried to reach down a hand to hold his crotch but the car seat buckle was in the way. He whined, unsure of what to do now, he always had to go potty right after his nap.
"Oh Harry's up, did you sleep good kiddo?" Sirius asked cheerfully.
Harry nodded, wanting to say something. He knew Sirius would want him to speak up but years of training at the Durselys had him silent. He whined and squirmed more because right now he felt like he might have an accident.
"Alright there Harry?" Sirius asked in concern as he turned to look at the child.
"I hafta go potty," Harry whined out as he tried to grab a hold of himself.
"Um, you do?" Sirius asked dumbly as he looked at Remus. "Can you pull over somewhere?"
"Yes weally bad," Harry said urgently.
"I'll pull over at the upcoming stop," Remus promised.
"Harry, Moony is gonna find a place for you to go, so just try to hold it as long as you can ok?" Sirius explained carefully.
"I don't wanna wet mysewf, I a good boy," Harry sniffled as his bladder spasmed.
"Of course you're a good boy kiddo, but we all have accidents sometimes," Sirius said gently before turning to Remus. "Pull over now,"
"There's nowhere to pull over, all there is just open grass," Remus replied.
"Siwius I gotta pee-pee now!" Harry cried out tearfully. "I'm gonna potty on mysewf," he said as his eyes filled with tears.
"Remus he's only 5, he'll pee on the grass." Sirius said finally knowing the little boy would be devastated and probably have a setback for having an accident. He found himself breathing a sigh of relief as the car got into the exiting lane. "Hold on for just a few more seconds Harry, and you can go potty," Sirius promised.
Harry sniffled as he tried to hold on a little bit longer as he could feel the car slowing down. He felt his bladder leak and he gasped, trying not to have an accident. He started crying softly as he felt his bladder let go and warm liquid fill his shorts. He choked on a sob as it ran down his legs and into his shoes. He was such a baby! He felt the car slow down before stopping and soon Sirius was opening his door, but it was too late.
"Just a little bit more kiddo and you can go potty," Sirius said as he climbed into the back seat, having not seen the accident.
Remus stilled, as the smell of fresh urine filled the car, keeping his gaze to the front. He knew right off the back what happened, and in a little bit Sirius would too.
"I don't hafta go anymowe," Harry wailed.
"What do you mean? How do you just not have to go any…oh fuck," Sirius said as he had moved to unbuckle his seat belt and found it wet among other things.
"I sowwy," Harry cried turning his face from the man in shame.
"Hey it's ok kiddo, it was an accident. Remember how I said everyone has them?" Sirius said.
Harry nodded turning to shyly look at the man. "I not in twouble?" He hiccupped tearfully.
"No, you will never be in trouble for an accident. Do you want me to clean you up?" Sirius asked soothingly.
"Uh huh, I'm gwoss," Harry replied nodding eagerly.
"Want to see some magic?" Sirius asked carefully. He was trying to wean Harry onto magic being real. He couldn't hide it as they were all magical and Sirius being a pureblood had never dealt with muggle things so it was a change for them all.
Harry nodded bashfully, his eyes bright with excitement and tears.
"Okay," Sirius said before waving his wand and spelling Harry and his car seat clean.
"I'm cwean," Harry said excitedly.
"Yup," Sirius said grinning.
"I wove magic," Harry announced as he was now dry and feeling better.
"I'm glad you do," Remus said catching on to Harry's excitement.
"Harry do you think you can tell us when you have to go pee right away?" Sirius asked gently. He couldn't understand why children felt they had to wait until the last minute to tell them of an urgent need.
"I do," Harry said frowning slightly.
"Not always, you tell me at the last minute like now," Sirius said kindly. Harry only alerted him when he was practically wetting himself. He just wanted to get rid of the sudden stress that came with that, especially when the child didn't end up making it.
"Nuh uh, I awways gotta go potty aftew my nap," Harry said scowling now. Was the man calling him a liar? Didn't he know that Harry didn't like to have accidents?
"Oh, well I'm sorry kiddo. I didn't know that," Sirius said filing it away for future reference. He ruffled Harry's hair before scooting out the back and into the front again.
"It's ok," Harry replied quietly, chewing on the antler of his stuffed deer that Remus had given him.
Sirius frowned as he got back into the car turning to look at Remus. "I do not like this," He said with a sigh.
"Like what Padfoot?" Remus asked curiously.
"That he always has to go that bad when he wakes up, it's stressful. Not to mention when he doesn't make it," Sirius muttered.
"Yes I understand actually, before we get to the beach house I'll stop by a muggle store," Remus promised.
"How is this going to help him at all?" Sirius asked, completely confused.
"We will be buying a potty chair, and enchant it to automatically dispel the waste and we'll secure it on the floor or on the seat next to him and he can use it the next time he needs the toilet," Remus told him slowly.
"Oh, that's actually a good idea Moony," Sirius said happily as he relaxed in his seat.
"I know," Remus replied smiling as he glanced at the sign to see when the next exit was.
Sirius turned back to check on his godson who was staring sadly out the window. He sighed, feeling horrible for the child, but as he said accidents tended to happened.
Harry didn't say anything for a long time. He couldn't even look at the two men in the front seat without tears of embarrassment burning the back of his eyes. Here he was a big boy and he had wet himself in the car as if he was a baby. They hadn't been mad but he was mad enough for both of them. He looked up as they pulled off the highway unsure of what was going on and not feeling brave enough to ask.
"Are you hungry Harry?" Sirius asked softly, trying to get the child to open up a bit more. He was sorely disappointed as the green eyed child simply, shrugged his shoulders his gaze never leaving the window.
Harry was sure that the question that Sirius had asked him was a trick one. There was no way in the world the man really wanted to know the answer to that. Especially because he had wet the seat, was this to be his punishment. They still hadn't elaborated on the rules and it made the little boy a bit uneasy. Especially because something was currently happening in his head, and that was aiding in his confusion,
"Come on kiddo, don't ignore me," Sirius said pleaded out.
Harry sighed softly before he turned to look at his godfather. "I don't understand," the five year old said quietly.
"Maybe I can help you, what don't you understand?" Sirius asked patiently, ready to clear up any confusion his godson had.
"Are you really not mad?" Harry asked with a skeptical look on his young face.
"I'm really not mad, you're a little boy and accidents however unfortunate they can be are a part of life," Sirius said out truthfully.
Harry bit the inside of his lip at that answer and nodded. "Okay, what about punishments then?"
"For having an accident, there is no punishment," Sirius said firmly, keeping a tight rein on his anger at Lily's sister and husband and how they had treated his godson.
"I don't just mean when I have an accident, I meant in general," Harry said out honestly.
"Where did your lisp go?" Remus asked out suddenly, because that sounded like a different little boy back there.
"I don't have a lisp, I had one when I was five but I saw a speech teacher at school and it cleared up," Harry answered out promptly, eyebrows furrowing at that random question.
"Kiddo, you are five," Sirius said out slowly before he turned to fully look at his godson. He could see that the little boy in the car seat was slightly bigger then what he had been when he had first gotten buckled in. His face was more boyish and less babyish then it had been as well.
"I'm not, I'm 8," Harry insisted seriously.
"Moony, he's aging up," Sirius whispered out softly, unsure what was happening.
"I know," Remus said out quietly, he supposed they didn't need to go grab the potty chair after all. He was unsure what he needed to do, should he send an owl to Severus to let him know what had happened?
"Yeah, you never did say what punishments would be," Harry reminded them as the car had gone silent.
"We do corner time, time in your room, general things. I won't take food away from you, or physically harm you in any way. As a rule I don't care too much for spankings but if the message isnt getting across you will be getting one but only as a last result," Sirius explained.
"Okay, I can live with that," Harry said happily, anything was better then the Dursley's.
"Maybe since he's a bit older we can visit a magical shopping district," Sirius said out softly.
"I think that's a good idea," Remus said, as he continued down the road. They weren't going to go to Diagon Alley, as Harry and Sirius would be too recognizable.
"Hey kiddo, have you ever been to France?" Sirius asked curiously.
"Nope, is that where we are going?" Harry asked out a little excitedly.
"Yup, you're going to love it," Sirius promised his godson before he turned back around his seat.
Harry grinned, he was sure he was going to love it too.