Track 13. Dancing With Our Hands Tied (4:49)
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The "Senior Lodge Trip" might as well have been code for "sex filled weekend with unlimited alcohol." Add in the fact that it was Halloween, and that made things even crazier.
From the very moment we boarded the bus, flasks and red cups flowed up and down the aisle, couples made out like no one else was watching, and those who were beyond drunk led a large group in singing off-key nineties songs. As for the "crazier" part, a masked Spiderman passed out weed-infused gummies, Cinderella gorged on whipped cream, and Queen Elsa (Well, all five of them) chugged a fresh beer every other hour.
Since this was a loosely sanctioned event, there were no officials from our college onboard. There was only a group of organizers who demanded that we abide by three simple rules.
Don't get into any fights.
Don't overdrink.
Wear condoms.
I stared ahead as the bus coasted down a winding lane, hoping like hell we would make it to the "amazing lodge" soon. My heart was beating an aching rhythm I'd never felt before, and I needed to get the hell off the bus as soon as possible.
From the moment I saw Niki sitting next to Lisa—resting her head on Lisa's shoulder and whispering into her ear, I felt some type of way.
What are they up there talking about?
"You okay, Jennie?" Ryan tapped my shoulder, making me look at him.
"Yeah, I'm fine."
"You sure?" He smiled and handed me a bagel. "You've been pretty quiet for these first few hours. Don't tell me I'll have to spend this entire weekend talking to myself."
"Not at all," I said, returning his smile. "Sorry about that. Did you bring any small canvases we could work on while we're here?"
"Of course not."
"What do you mean? I thought you said you wanted to spend time painting together."
"Jennie, whenever we're on campus, we spend time painting together. And whenever we're not doing that, we're getting coffee together."
"So?"
"So..." he said, leaning forward and pressing a kiss against my lips. "I think we can find other ways to spend our time while we're at the lodge this weekend." He kissed me a bit harder, gently parting my lips with his tongue before pulling away.
"Okay." I smiled and looked toward the front of the bus, catching sight of Lisa staring at me.
Her jaw was clenched and I knew she'd seen the entire kiss. I also knew that I didn't feel a goddamn thing in my chest until just now when her eyes locked on mine.
"Okay everyone, I need you to listen up." Lisa spoke into the mic as the bus made its way through a gate. Her eyes remained on mine, and she narrowed them as Ryan draped his arm around my shoulders.
"When the bus stops, you need to go inside the lodge and get in line at one of the three check-in tables," she said. "Some of the seniors who helped organize this are already there, and they should have a packet with your room information and the catering schedule on it." She paused and gripped a headrest as the bus drove against a bumpy road.
"Every person has his or her own room, and each room has a panoramic view of the mountains. There'll be unlimited hot chocolate, S'mores, and coffee at all five of the lodge's fireplaces, unlimited access to the row of hot tubs at the bottom level, and—" She stopped talking when Ryan began threading his fingers through my hair. "And the rest of the information will be in your packet." She glared at me and tossed the mic to JK before returning to her seat.
"Thanks, Lisa." JK smiled. "Um. You left out like, eighty percent of the shit you were supposed to say, but maybe it's because you're already ahead of everyone and tired from all the sex you've had?"
Everyone laughed.
Except me.
"You're responsible for your own shit," JK said. "There is no lost and found here, but if you find something in one of the common areas that isn't yours, feel free to bring it to me and Lisa and we'll send out a mass text so someone can claim it." He flipped a sheet of paper. "There is no curfew, but the hours for breakfast and lunch are pretty strict since an outside company is delivering them. Dinner will be pizza and salad every night. Any questions?"
Someone in the back raised a hand.
"Yeah?"
"Are you going to tell them about the 'fucking rules'?"
"Oh, yeah." JK smiled. "We're all adults here, and I'm sure lots of that will be going down this weekend, so to save your floor-mates and your fellow lodge-mates from any unwanted walk-ins, put a sock on your door. And don't fuck in any of the common areas because none of those doors lock and everyone has a camera phone. Anything else?"
Another guy raised his hand.
"Yeah?"
"Can we get back to the alcohol and music now?"
"I thought you'd never ask." He turned off his mic and the terrible nineties singalong commenced.
"I think we're going to have a great time together this weekend, Jennie." Ryan kissed my cheek. "Don't you?"
I nodded, unable to say anything else. I faked a smile for the rest of the bus ride, pretended to be as excited as he was about "getting to know each other better," and I even kissed him convincingly when we arrived at the lodge.
Lisa saw every second of that kiss, too...
By the time we checked in and grabbed our registration packets, it was mid-afternoon and most people were making their way to the row of steaming hot tubs downstairs.
Well, everyone except Lisa and Niki who were cuddling on the common area couch. Lisa's gaze had barely left mine since we got off the bus, but Niki's lips found their way onto her more than once.
I knew right then and there that I was going to do my best to avoid her for most of this weekend.
I really am jealous...
"You want me to walk you to your room?" Ryan asked, rolling my suitcase toward me.
"I'd love that." I turned away from Lisa and let Ryan clasp my hand.
As we walked down the hallway, I admired just how beautiful the lodge was. With five levels, it featured three eat-in kitchens, a massive game room with pool and air hockey tables, and a deck of rocking chairs that overlooked the mountains. It was honestly the perfect backdrop for a getaway, but something told me I would need to come back by myself if I wanted to enjoy it without an ache of jealousy in my chest.
"Here you are," Ryan said, stopping in front of a door. "You're in 421, and I'm on the other side in 513."
"Thank you." I unlocked the door, and he rolled my luggage inside.
"I'm going to take a shower," he said, kissing my forehead. "Want to meet me at the main fireplace in an hour or so?"
"Sure." I smiled and waited for him to leave. I pulled out my phone, wishing I had a best friend to call and vent about this. I was about to ask Rosé what she thought, but an email from Lisa appeared on my screen.
SUBJECT: TALK.
Jennie,
We need to talk. Now.
Forget You,
Lisa
SUBJECT: RE: TALK.
Lisa,
I'm spending this trip with Ryan, and you're spending yours with Niki. I think it's best if you ask me to talk when we get back to campus.
Forget You,
Jennie
SUBJECT: RE: RE: TALK.
Jennie,
I wasn't asking the first time.
Forget You,
Lisa
I set my phone down and it buzzed again, but I didn't answer it. I undressed and slipped into the shower, hoping that this lodge was big enough for us to avoid each other for the next few days.
All my hopes were shattered later that night.
A heavy snow was falling and the power in most of the common areas had gone out, so everyone was hanging out around the massive fire pit that stood in the center of the lodge. There was a long table full of red cups and liquor bottles pressed against the windows, a collection of sleeping bags and flashlights near the doors, and multiple S'mores stations stacked high with marshmallows.
I stood in line behind Niki and one of her friends—biting my tongue since they failed to whisper.
"Have you fucked her yet?" her friend asked.
"Not yet," Niki said. "But I'm thinking it'll definitely happen tonight, Hell, with the power out, what else is there to do?"
"I can't believe she's waited this long to sleep with you." Her friend giggled. "Maybe she's really into you?"
"I think so." Niki damn near swooned. "She's been pretty gentle with the kisses, too. I feel like they're not the 'I just want to fuck you' kind. They're sweet and light. Kind of passive as well, but God...Her cock. Like, it was rock hard on the bus today, and I'm pretty sure that whenever she finally fucks me with it—"
I stepped out of line and made my way to the other S'more station, not wanting to hear the rest of her words. Before I grabbed a plate, I adjusted the skirt of my Tinkerbell costume and set down my wand.
"Jennie." Lisa grabbed my elbow from behind, spinning me around to face her. Dressed as a king, her eyes were narrowed, and the vein in her neck was swelling as if we'd just had a huge argument. "We need to talk."
"About how good of a job you've done with the trip?" My voice was hoarse. "Even with the power temporarily out, I'm really impressed with how much you guys planned ahead and thought of everything.
"That's not what I want to talk about." Her voice was terse. "And you know that."
"Is this about me leaving the shutters open in my room? Because I can promise I double-checked before we left so—"
"Are you planning to fuck him?" She cut me off.
"What?"
"I didn't stutter, Jennie." There was a hint of hurt in her eyes. "Are you planning to fuck him?"
I stepped back. "You can't ask me that."
"I just did." She kept her gaze on mine. "Try not to purposely lie if you can help it..."
"Are you planning to fuck her?" I crossed my arms. "Either way, I didn't know you cared so much."
"I really don't."
"There you are, Lisa!" Niki linked her arm in Lisa's. "Come help me finish making the plates for our S'mores. I wasn't sure if you wanted the spiked marshmallows with extra toppings or not." She looked at me and rolled her eyes before pulling Lisa away.
With my heart racing, I stacked my plate full of everything and returned to the fireplace.
Finding my place right next to Ryan, I picked up a stick and stabbed a marshmallow with it, holding it over the fire.
Lisa and Niki sat directly across from us, and her eyes immediately met mine. Ryan placed his arm around my shoulder, and Niki offered Lisa a piece of her S'more.
Through the dancing flames that separated us, I watched her every move and she watched mine. She let Niki take off her jacket and wear it over her shoulders. I let Ryan rub his hand against my exposed thighs.
When Niki finally left her side, I considered walking over to her, to assure her that I had no intention of sleeping with Ryan—ever, but JK picked up a foghorn and silenced everyone.
"Hey guys!" JK yelled from the center of the room. "I just got off the phone with the owners of the lodge and they said the power will be back on soon!"
A loud applause filled the room.
"Until then, we still need everyone to stay here in the main building just in case it takes longer than they think." He held up a bucket and shook it. "But, while we wait, I would like to share my contribution to this trip with you all."
"You finally paid your share for the food?" someone asked.
"Hell no." He scoffed, laughing. "I did buy a shit ton of his and her pleasure condoms though. The premium brand."
A bunch of guys cheered, and I resisted the urge to roll my eyes as he made his way around the room with his contribution.
To my surprise, Ryan grabbed a few condoms from the bucket when it came around.
"Just in case you want to later," he whispered pressing a kiss against my cheek. "No pressure."
Lisa slammed her plate down and walked over to me, glaring at me as she extended her hand. "I need to talk to you, Jennie. Now."
The look on her face made me hesitate to argue in front of everyone.
"Will you excuse me for a second, Ryan? My roommate wants to discuss something about the house, I think."
"Of course." He smiled, and Lisa tugged me up, pulling me into the pool table room.
Shutting the door, she crossed her arms and glared at me.
Swallowing, I took a step back, and she took a step forward. I stepped back I was up against an ice cold window, and she followed me.
She placed her hands on the glass, on both sides of my head, trapping me to the spot.
I looked into her eyes as she looked into mine, waiting for her to say whatever the hell she had to say, but words never came.
Without warning, she pressed her mouth against mine and kissed me—hard. My hands went to her hair and I moaned as she deepened our kiss.
Keeping her eyes on mine, she slipped her hand under my skirt and ripped off my panties in one smooth motion. She tucked them into her pocket and pinned me against the glass with her hips.
I felt her cock hardening against my thigh and I dropped my hands to unbuckle her belt.
Stepping back slightly, she raised her eyebrow as I unzipped her pants, as I failed to free her cock.
Grabbing my hand, she pressed it against her stomach—guiding it down past her navel, and into her briefs.
I gasped as her cock hardened against my touch, as she guided my hand up and down her long and thick length. My cheeks reddened under her intense stare, and I gripped her cock a bit harder—making her groan as I continued moving my hand up and down.
"Pull it out," she said, her voice hoarse.
I obliged and pulled it from her pants—blushing again when I saw how huge she was.
She pulled a condom package from her pocket and placed it into my hand—silently commanding me to put it on her.
I pulled at the wrapper, struggling to open it, so she took it from my hands and tore it open for me.
As I rolled it onto her, she gently pulled my tiara from my hair and set it on the pool table. Unzipping the front of my costume, she stared into my eyes and pressed her forehead against mine.
I tugged the hem of her shirt—pulling it upward, but she pushed my hands away and smiled. She pulled her shirt over her head and let it fall to the floor, revealing her perfect set of abs.
With her eyes still on mine, she slid her hands against my sides and gently lifted me up, setting me on top of the pool table. She slid her fingers against my pussy, groaning when she felt that I was soaking wet.
Slipping two fingers deep inside of me, she pressed her mouth against mine and teased me with a long and slow kiss that ruined every other kiss that came before it. Stroking me with her fingers, she sucked my bottom lip in and out of her mouth.
"Wrap your legs around my waist," she whispered.
I didn't move. I was still returning her kisses, still struggling to focus as she gently bit my bottom lip.
"Jennie." She pulled her fingers out of me, moved her mouth away from mine. "Wrap your legs around my waist."
I obliged, and she guided her cock against my pussy—burying herself deep inside of me with one stroke.
Before I could scream out in pleasure, she muffled my mouth with kisses. She gripped my ass and squeezed it, lifting me up and against the wall. I wrapped my arms around her neck and kept my legs around her waist.
I shut my eyes as she pounded into me, as she fucked me harder and deeper than I'd ever been fucked before.
"Look at me," she warned, her voice soft. "Jennie, look at me."
My eyes remained closed and her rhythm became faster. She groaned as my nails dug into her skin, and when I finally opened my eyes, I saw the door opening.
I started to say something, but Lisa muffled my mouth all over again.
Someone stepped inside and tossed something into the trash, quickly closing the door as if they hadn't noticed us at all.
"Ahh..." My head hit the window when Lisa let go of my mouth, and she gripped my waist a little harder.
My pussy began throbbing against her cock as she switched up the tempo. It was still fast, less reckless. Still dominant.
"Hmmm." She pressed her mouth against my neck, right where she'd left the last mark that I'd covered in concealer. Then she whispered, "I left that mark for a reason..." She trailed her tongue against my skin in a circle, teasing me with her teeth—definitely giving me another reminder from her mouth.
"Ohhhh..." I felt myself losing control as intense tremors ran up and down my spine. "Lisaaa..."
She didn't get a chance to answer.
I screamed out in utter bliss as an orgasm wracked its way through my body, as she attempted to soften my sounds with her kisses again.
My entire body shook and she set me down on the pool table—sliding her cock into me a few more times before she found her own release. As she came, she kept her arms locked around me, kissing my forehead every few seconds.
Panting, we stared at each other—remaining entwined.
She trailed her fingers against my collarbone after my breathing steadied, smiling at me and making my heart race. "You okay?"
I nodded.
"Good." She slowly pulled out of me and I gripped the edge of the table to keep my balance.
Tossing the condom into the trash, she looked at me again—making me wish we'd had each other years ago.
She lifted me off the pool table and set me on the floor. Then she kissed my lips again and whispered, "Come to my room so we can finish this."
"Okay..." I said, breathless. "What about Ryan and Niki?"
"What about them?" She trailed her finger against my lips. "They've never mattered to either of us."