Author Note: First off, I wanted to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry it's taken so long for me to get myself in gear and wrap this up. This story deserved more. You as readers who've subscribed to it deserve more and I'm sorry that I'm not a better story planner and let this get so far off the original mark I'm ending it now instead of trying to get it back on track.
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She'd failed. She'd failed Alex, she failed Kara, Eliza, Winn, Lena, Alura, J'onn, Kate—
Even the teenaged version of herself, Alex and Kara had left her. Maggie sighs slamming back another shot in frustration and signaling the bartender for another. She was considering just asking her to leave the bottle this time. Kate had been right about one thing, even digital the liquor in this VR place was just as smooth and pain-numbing as in the actual one.
Fucking Kelly. Even as a program Maggie hates her.
She had been so close. So close to talking to the woman she still loved with all her heart that she didn't need fancy powers to make her special she did that all on her own just by being herself.
Why can't she see that?
"Maggie."
It was just a breath of a voice as a gust of wind that has the next shot pausing on the way to Maggie's lips. She hates how her traitor heart flips in her chest at the voice behind it. Her heart shouldn't be doing that because this woman wasn't Alex. Or maybe she was. Maggie really couldn't tell anymore. She was too tired for that. The hurt to raw to handle.
The once again super suite clade copy doubled for a few seconds as Maggie blinked over at her trying to keep her in focus. "Take that stupid thing off." She growled at the hero wearing her ex's face.
Alex takes a few steps backward giving her ex a puzzled look before her eyes follow Maggie's to the electric blue crest across her chest.
"Maggie please." She begs reaching for her again, but Maggie turns away shaking her head.
"The others told me all about something like this." her tone low as she crosses her arms still holding Alex's gaze. "How this place twists the mind to make someone like me or someone like the real Alex…" She comments tossing her hair back over her shoulder.
"Maggie I am the real Alex." But again, Maggie shakes her head to busy sulking to notice the way Alex tugged down the collar of her suit to show the lack of gray program bars on the side of her neck. "No no you're not." The wallowing cop scoffs. "because if you were the real Alex, My Alex then it wouldn't be this damned hard to prove to you that you wouldn't need god-like alien powers to make you a hero."
Alex bites her lower lip sliding onto the closest barstool beside the programed version of her ex as she continues talking her delicate fingers twisting the shot glass of amber liquid around making a mini-tornado within the glass. "All Alex needed was to be her nerdy beautiful self and she'd save the day more times than you ever could." Her voice breaks as she forced herself to meet Alex's gaze "So do what you want stupid programs I'm not giving up on her and I'm going to get her out of this stupid computerized hell world even if she will go back to someone else when she's free."
Maggie finishes by slamming back the last pitiful swallow of digitalized liquor then groans under her breath as she gets up with surprising control of her limbs considering the amount of digital alcohol running through her system when she feels a strong grip holding her arm just past the inside of her wrist. A jolt of both shock and memory slam into her as the Alex beside her spins her back around.
Not once in any of their previous encounters had super clade Alex touched her "Do you still love her?"
"You think I'd be here fighting so hard to get her back if I didn't? Of course, I still love her." Maggie exclaims her gaze fixed on the ground to hide even more traitor tears remembering all too clear when the real Alex had held her like this.
Right before Maggie had first broken her heart by telling her she was 'too fresh of the boat' to be in a serious relationship with her.
"She's my ride or….." she started to say but stops gritting her teeth and shaking her head. "I mean she's my forev….." she tries again but a second time she stops making Alex's heartbreak even more to see.
"I miss her like someone burned a giant hole in my chest. One that only she could ever hope to fill or heal and even though she chose kids over me and has already moved on with someone else I am still in love with her. It's pathetic and crazy but I can't stop no matter how hard I try to let her go. I can't, so yeah you could say I still love her. You happy now, Supergirl?"
But no, she wasn't wearing her super suite this time when Maggie's eyes lifted from the interesting scrutiny of her own shoes when the grip on her wrist tightened as if afraid, she would pull away.
"I don't think that's crazy or pathetic at all." the cracked voice of the once-proud hero answers her.
Gone was the iconic electric blue shield and black suite and cape of Supergirl replaced with the differently shaded blue and white button-up shirt and dark washed jeans of the Alex Maggie had glimpsed laying sickly and comatose in the Watchtower med wing. Even her hair was the same. Buzzed on one side swooped slide on the other really bringing out the red of her auburn locks.
"I still love you to Mags."
This time when Alex's lips touched hers Maggie's arms slid around her shoulders keeping Alex in place while Maggie eagerly and deliberately kissed her back. She wasn't going to let her slip away this time.
Maggie's head was still spinning at the delicate taste of Alex Danvers kisses on her lips she almost missed the breathless whisper of "end simulation" against her own before the world spins out from under her.
"What's happening?"
She figured it would be Kelly's voice that reaches her first, but it was Lena's nervous tones cutting the tension as Maggie's eyes open back in the real world.
Winn's at her side helping her sit up while she catches her breath and takes off the VR lenses clouding her vision. The others are still huddled loosely around Alex's bed. All of them holding their collective breath as she too lets out a startled gasping breath.
"Mind helping out of here?" Maggie murmurs knowing that at least by Kelly's standards she'd more than overstayed her welcome.
"Nope. Sorry Mags but no can do." Winn disagreed "Mama bear already said you're not leaving till she clears you."
Maggie groaned louder than she'd intended as she reclines back onto the table like bed drawing everyone but Kelly's gaze toward her. Not that she didn't appreciate Eliza's motherly fussing, but she really just wanted to get out of here before she could witness a real-life Alex and Kelly make out session.
"Mags? Are you alright?"
"Peachy Danvers, how about you?" it wasn't until the words were out of her mouth that Maggie realized it had been Alex herself and not Eliza nor Kara that had asked.
"Scale of one to our level of crazy? I'd say three point five." A dry cough like laugh answers as Kara finishes laying her older sister closer to the dazed detective.
"If you're looking for Kelly, she already left a while back." Kara explains as she like Alex notices Maggie's expectant expression as she looked around at the half group of people huddled beside the bed.
"Seemed she realized before I did that her and I weren't going to work out." Alex says her tone nervous while Maggie's arm slid around her waist pulling her closer against her side at the other woman's shudder from the chill of the tower.
Alura and Lena shoo the others out giving Maggie and Alex as much alone time as they could offer in the available space of the secret hideaway of the Watchtower.
"How do you know this isn't just you reacting to what happened in the ver—" Maggie started to ask but was cut off by Alex's lips covering her own in a soft but telling kiss.
Maggie sighs into the kiss the rest of her body instantly relaxing while Alex seeks out her easily sliding into more of a small spoon role to Maggie's big spoon on the not inertly accommodating bed.
"I tried living my life without you and it sucked. We can figure this out if you'll have me, have us but please Mags just for now, please just stay with me?"
Alex's hands were already reaching back to slide into her hair earning a low purr of a whimper from Maggie. More than a few uncertainties were still stacked against them and both knew that no matter how much they wanted it they couldn't jump back to the blissful ease they had before.
They weren't the same women who'd loved, lost, then broke up over one wanting children while the other didn't, except for now—
"Thought you'd never ask, Danvers," Maggie whispered nuzzling her face against Alex's hair. "Just rest. We have a lot to talk about when we wake up."
"I love you, Maggie Sawyer." Alex yawns her fingers tanging with Maggie's as the shorter of the two curls closer against the DEO director's back.
"I love you, Alex Danvers." Maggie whispers back pressed her lips against the top of Alex's head.