p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222; text-align: center;"span style="box-sizing: border-box; font-weight: bold;"Ryo/span span style="box-sizing: border-box; font-weight: bold;"Lancaster/span/p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"My Master wouldn't be pleased with me with what I was doing. I wish I was stronger but I was weak. Tired of the same situations happening over and over again. I never wanted to be the em style="box-sizing: border-box;"bad man/em. I just wanted to be the powerful quirk user of the ocean. I wanted to be a em style="box-sizing: border-box;"hero/em. There was so much pain inside of my heart that i couldn't help but lash it out. I wanted to change and be the father that Akuma needed. Being here, away from my father and the toxic behaviors of the family made me feel like I had a breath of fresh air. Although, I made a deal with the devil here. I wanted to get out of it but I feel like it was too late to do that. I was putting Akuma into danger and it was causing my heart to hurt. Not only that but I was able to talk to my beautiful wife again, it was changing everything. I have only been here for a short time and I already feel like I was a new man, madly in love again without a care in the world. /p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"My darkness will come back and change it all though, I am sure of it. /p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"I had done research of Musutafu, the same place my wife had moved to when Akuma was born. I had told her to run away and leave the child to me. They never knew that I was just protecting Akuma. Giving her a boys name, telling everyone she was a boy, it was to keep her safe from my father. I told them that my wife had tied and it hurt telling everyone the bitter lie. I had said everything so much that it seemed to be a reality. Even though my wife would message me, call me, and video me from time to time for the last seventeen years, it all felt like a horrible dream that I was never going to wake up from. Akuma couldn't go with my wife, my father had known about this child and if he knew that my beloved daughter had died, I would have been killed and in the end, my wife and newborn child would have been dead. /p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"I am sorry, Akuma. I am so sorry! /em/p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"My heart hurt for my daughter. The painful memories of the past haunted me day and night. I was in a deep trance of my father's puppeteer work. I was willing to do anything he wanted me to but when he had told me that he was going to kill my daughter, I became numb. That is when I had found my em style="box-sizing: border-box;"Master, /emthe one that said he could save my daughter and I from the pain that we were enduring in the States. It was all online chatting and finally a video chat. The man paid for everything, had even payed for a place for my daughter and I to stay. I was desperate to leave the States. /p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"I leave one danger and come to another. /em/p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"Here I am, walking side by side with my beloved daughter. I glance down at her and see her looking down at her feet deep in thought. Of course she was, I had told her that she was going to see her mother after seventeen long years of abuse and chaos. I had lied to her for so long telling her that her mother was dead, it's a wonder how my daughter hadn't run away from me by now. She knows the dangers of the family and now that she is here in Japan, I made it so that she doesn't know where she was. I was making her so scared that she was too terrified to leave. /p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"Maybe if she had left, then she will live a better life. She can be a hero, just like me. /em/p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"I frowned when I had that thought. My daughter will be better off without me, saved from the dangers I had brought her. /p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;""You lied to me?" She asked, making my heart break. I held back the tears and tried to look at her angrily but it wasn't working. I felt like I was a man that was about to crack under pressure. How could I keep lying to her face? She was going to find out sooner or later, she was smarter then I had made her think. /p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"Even I didn't believe the words that came out of my mouth. /p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"There is so much you don't know./em/p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"Akuma was silent again, and she should be. The girl was told lies all of her life and now that I had told her the truth, it was shocking to us both. We continued to walk down the streets, I had taken out my phone to follow the instructions sent by my wife. Seventeen long years it had been since I had seen her. Both of us had stayed faithful, growing as individuals and she had been the one that saved me from my internal darkness. How she never gave up on me, left me, or hurt me was beyond me. The woman truly loved me and it made me sick to my stomach. She was the only one that had loved me this much. Not even my father could look me in the eye because of her love. /p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;""I am sorry," I whispered. /p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"I said it, the words that had been dwelling in my heart for the past hour had finally slipped out to my beautiful daughter. We were sitting on the bullet train, heading to the outskirts of the beautiful city. I was looking out the window, seeing my reflection looking back at me. I had grown some color back in my skin since we had came here. My hair had looked a bit shinier too. The dark circles from under my eyes seemed to be less then before. Maybe this is where I needed to be to em style="box-sizing: border-box;"finally /emchange to the man I had always wanted to be. /p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"One day./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"My Master wouldn't be pleased with me with what I was doing. I wish I was stronger but I was weak. Tired of the same situations happening over and over again. I never wanted to be the em style="box-sizing: border-box;"bad man/em. I just wanted to be the powerful quirk user of the ocean. I wanted to be a em style="box-sizing: border-box;"hero/em. There was so much pain inside of my heart that i couldn't help but lash it out. I wanted to change and be the father that Akuma needed. Being here, away from my father and the toxic behaviors of the family made me feel like I had a breath of fresh air. Although, I made a deal with the devil here. I wanted to get out of it but I feel like it was too late to do that. I was putting Akuma into danger and it was causing my heart to hurt. Not only that but I was able to talk to my beautiful wife again, it was changing everything. I have only been here for a short time and I already feel like I was a new man, madly in love again without a care in the world. /p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"My darkness will come back and change it all though, I am sure of it. /p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"I had done research of Musutafu, the same place my wife had moved to when Akuma was born. I had told her to run away and leave the child to me. They never knew that I was just protecting Akuma. Giving her a boys name, telling everyone she was a boy, it was to keep her safe from my father. I told them that my wife had tied and it hurt telling everyone the bitter lie. I had said everything so much that it seemed to be a reality. Even though my wife would message me, call me, and video me from time to time for the last seventeen years, it all felt like a horrible dream that I was never going to wake up from. Akuma couldn't go with my wife, my father had known about this child and if he knew that my beloved daughter had died, I would have been killed and in the end, my wife and newborn child would have been dead. /p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"I am sorry, Akuma. I am so sorry! /em/p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"My heart hurt for my daughter. The painful memories of the past haunted me day and night. I was in a deep trance of my father's puppeteer work. I was willing to do anything he wanted me to but when he had told me that he was going to kill my daughter, I became numb. That is when I had found my em style="box-sizing: border-box;"Master, /emthe one that said he could save my daughter and I from the pain that we were enduring in the States. It was all online chatting and finally a video chat. The man paid for everything, had even payed for a place for my daughter and I to stay. I was desperate to leave the States. /p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"I leave one danger and come to another. /em/p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"Here I am, walking side by side with my beloved daughter. I glance down at her and see her looking down at her feet deep in thought. Of course she was, I had told her that she was going to see her mother after seventeen long years of abuse and chaos. I had lied to her for so long telling her that her mother was dead, it's a wonder how my daughter hadn't run away from me by now. She knows the dangers of the family and now that she is here in Japan, I made it so that she doesn't know where she was. I was making her so scared that she was too terrified to leave. /p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;""You lied to me?" She asked, making my heart break. I held back the tears and tried to look at her angrily but it wasn't working. I felt like I was a man that was about to crack under pressure. How could I keep lying to her face? She was going to find out sooner or later, she was smarter then I had made her think. /p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"I said it, the words that had been dwelling in my heart for the past hour had finally slipped out to my beautiful daughter. We were sitting on the bullet train, heading to the outskirts of the beautiful city. I was looking out the window, seeing my reflection looking back at me. I had grown some color back in my skin since we had came here. My hair had looked a bit shinier too. The dark circles from under my eyes seemed to be less then before. Maybe this is where I needed to be to em style="box-sizing: border-box;"finally /emchange to the man I had always wanted to be. /p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"One day./p