Derek hated himself at the moment. He was an idiot who cheated on his girlfriend of 2 years with a woman he barely knew and ended up getting said woman pregnant. And not only did he get her pregnant, he made promises to her that he wasn't at the moment keeping. He took her out on the best date of his life and then just ghosted her. The worse part of it all is that he wanted her. He only wanted her. Even if she wasn't pregnant, she was worth ending his relationship with Addison over. She was worth breaking Addison's heart and telling the truth to his family about what had happened between them. He thought of her every hour of every day but for some reason he couldn't allow himself to reach out to her or see her. He wanted to punish himself for his poor behavior. Somehow, he was punishing her too. He figured she must be scared. She probably thought she was going to have to do this all on her own. He wanted to be there for her, for their baby. He was going to be there for her. He just needed time to slow down so he could think. His mind kept replaying back to the phone conversation he had with his mother the day after his date with Meredith.

He learned that his baby sister, Amelia was pregnant. His mom was livid and freaking out. How could Amelia do this to her? Amelia was only a sophomore in high school. She had no reason to go through with this pregnancy, but Amelia was defiant against her mother's wishes and let her know that she was 100% keeping this baby even though she had to do it alone. His mother was in tears to him telling him how she needed him to step up for the family and help his sister. How he needed to consider med schools as close to home as possible and how they needed his and Mark's support more now than ever.

He was caught off guard by Amy's news. He would have never thought his sister would be a mother in high school raising her baby alone. He didn't want that for her, but now more than ever he understood the strength she must have to decide to do this and to make the best of it. A part of him was happy that his baby would have a cousin so close in age that they could potentially grow up with. Hearing the news though, made him feel like he couldn't tell his family his own news. He especially couldn't tell his mother; she was so vulnerable and hurt. She would never forgive him for cheating on his girlfriend and knocking up a girl he barely knew.

He was glad he had Mark and that he could talk to him about everything he was going through. Mark understood holding off on telling his mother, but he reminded him constantly that he was a jack ass for what he was doing to Meredith. Truth is, he didn't need Mark to tell him, he knew he was wrong.

Every day since their date, he would type out a message to send her and then delete it. He went by her apartment complex so many times but couldn't work up the courage to go in. He even went by the yoga class she taught, just to get a glimpse of her. He wanted to see her and talk to her but he was stuck.

He was pulled out of his thoughts when he heard a pounding on his bedroom door. He was lying on his bed with his laptop pulled up looking for jobs. He figured it was Mark and absentmindedly said "Come in" his eyes never leaving the screen.

"You're an ass" Meredith scolded immediately catching Derek off-guard.

"Mer-" he began to respond surprised

"No. You listen to me. You're a liar and I didn't peg you for one, but I should've. You take me on this amazing date and then get me to have sex with you and make me feel like you're actually going to be there for me and the baby and then you just disappear? You didn't return any of my texts or my call. You're a liar Derek Shepard and after today, I want nothing to do with you-" Meredith ranted

"Meredith-" Derek started

"I'm not done. I am going to do this on my own. I don't need or want your help with this baby. I think you're a jack ass and a liar and I just wanted to let you know that I'm fine. Actually- we're fine. Goodbye Derek" Meredith said gesturing to her stomach

"You suck" he heard Christina pipe in behind Meredith as Meredith turned on her heel to leave.

"Mer- wait" Derek said getting off his bed to follow her out

"No. That's all I wanted to say" Meredith told him not bothering to look behind her as she walked through their living room.

Derek took quick strides and put his body in front of his and Mark's front door.

"Please stay. I'm sorry Mer. I know I've been an ass. Please just stay and talk to me."

"No" Meredith said without emotion

"Please. Let me fix this." Derek breathed

"There's nothing to fix Derek. You didn't keep your word but I can do this on my own." Meredith told him.

"I don't want you to do it on your own. I want to be a part of things." he pleaded with her

Meredith sighed "I came here to tell you that you're off the hook and that you're a jack ass. That's all. I don't want or need ANYTHING for YOU."

"Mer- let me make it up to you."

"Derek, I'm tired." She told him with finality.

He sighed and stepped aside "Meredith"

She turned and looked him at.

"I really am sorry."

She turned and left with Christina shooting him glares as she walked out behind Meredith.

"This is a mess" he told Mark

"This is your mess. I told you that you were being an ass."

"I need to fix this with her." Derek stated mostly to himself

Mark walked to the fridge and handed him a beer

"Thanks. I need it." Derek muttered.

Derek tried over the next two weeks to get Meredith to let him back in. He showed up at her place, tried to talk to her outside her yoga class and generally blew up her phone. She just didn't want to talk to him. She was particularly sensitive to dads that liked to pop in and out of their kids' lives just like her dad did to her. She knew it wasn't the same with Derek but she couldn't just let him back in after treating her like she didn't exist for almost a month. She had to start thinking about what was best for her baby. She was at the beginning of her second trimester already and this baby would be here before she knew it. She needed to tell her family, figure out a plan and start making money. The last thing she needed was a distraction that would pop in and out of her life full of promises.

She called her dad and Susan to see if she could come by this week for dinner. It was time to tell them. She was nervous, but she was starting to show and figured it was the right thing to do. For some reason, she was more nervous about telling her friends. She hoped they would still want to hang out with her even if she did have a baby with her at all times in the next coming months. She figured she would worry about Thatcher and Susan first then figure out the plan for her friends. Maybe Christina could help her too.

It was later at night and her head was racing. She pulled herself out of bed and stood in front of her full-length mirror. She was wearing a snug fitting grey tank top with soft shorts that barely covered her ass. She pulled her top up under her breasts and revealed her swollen stomach. She was definitely showing now. She caressed her bump with a smile. Her boobs were noticeably larger as well. They were barely contained in her shirt and she sighed at her changing body. She was on the skinnier side, so she knew people were going to notice her weight gain in her mid-section. She wasn't sure that she was ready for that yet but at least it was fall and she could bundle up. She mentally panicked when she realized Thanksgiving was fast approaching and she likely would need to head back to Seattle to see her mother. Ellis was the person she dreaded telling the most.

Christina barged in interrupting her from her thoughts.

"Everyone's getting together at Funkies tonight. I'm running out of excuses as to why you're not able to come." Christina told her friend

"I know. They keep calling and texting me. I'm just not ready to tell them yet."

"Well you need to get ready because by the looks of things, you really can't hide this any longer" Christina told her friend

"Just cover for me tonight and I'll tell them tomorrow."

"Seriously?" Christina asked

"Seriously."

"Fine. What should I tell them tonight?"

"Tell them I'm with Dean."

Christina shrugged "That should work."

"I'm heading out. You're telling them tomorrow" Christina reminded her friend and left.

Almost as soon as Christina was out the door, Meredith heard a knock. She knew who it was. He was always trying to come around now that she told him off. She knew she needed to talk to him and come to some sort of compromise, but her hormones were all over the place.

She opened the door to see him standing there crestfallen.

"Please talk to me." he said

"Come in" she told him tightly. She didn't notice the bag by his feet

He grabbed the bag of stuff and walked in. It was nice to get out of the cold.

"Wow" he breathed taking Meredith in. She still had her shirt pulled up revealing her growing her stomach. Somehow she was even more attractive to him now.

Meredith blushed looking down at her exposed body.

"Can I?" Derek asked motioning to her stomach

She nodded and he placed his hand on her stomach to feel their baby.

"You look amazing" he whispered against her ear as he rubbed circles on her belly. She instantly wanted him.

He moved his hand from her stomach to around her body pulling her against him. His other hand went to her chin and he lifted it to kiss her.

In a second they were all over eachother. His hands moved to her ass lifting her up on top of him and moving them to the couch. Her tongue entered his mouth and he moaned at the entrance.

"Take me to bed Derek" Meredith moaned against him and he lifted her and walked them to her bedroom all while kissing her passionately along the way.

In the bedroom Meredith straddled him on her bed. First, taking his pants off and feeling his hard dick in her hand.

She stroked it while he egged her on "Nobody gets me as hard as you baby" he told her as she placed his dick in her mouth sucking him hard.

"Fuck I want you" Meredith breathed

Derek moved her up to kiss his mouth and he stuck his tongue inside of her. His hands moved to her breasts feeling them with her tank top still on

"Let me see your tits baby" he told her.

Meredith moved off of him pulling her top off and caressing her boobs herself seductively, rubbing circles and seemingly pleasuring herself with her movements.

Derek couldn't control himself and moved her on top of him sucking her breasts as he rubbed her stomach

"How do you like my body now?" Meredith whispered against him. This just turned Derek on more

"I fucking love it" he breathed kissing her mouth hard.

"You've someone managed to get even sexier" he whispered

Meredith straddled him as he pulled off her underwear, needing him to be inside of her. She got on top riding him as his mouth sucked on her breasts and caressed her growing stomach.

"I can't wait until you get bigger" Derek stated licking her ear and continuing to massage her stomach

"Oh yeah?" Meredith asked seductively

"You're fucking sexy pregnant with my baby inside of you"

"How sexy?" Meredith asked

"You have no idea what your body does to me."

Meredith kissed him passionately as she rode him. She felt his cum all inside of her and was satisfied at her ability to turn him on.

"Your turn" Derek whispered moving her to all fours

He spanked her and grabbed her breasts from behind her and moved his hands all up and down her body as he licked her neck and sucked all over it

"I want you to come for me baby" he told her

He moved on top of her kissing her lips and then slowly kissing down her body. He paid extra attention to her bulging breasts and stomach until he made his way to her clit. He sucked her and moved his tongue all around eliciting moans from Meredith until he felt her climax.

When both had caught their breathe, he smiled at her and kissed her passionately.

"Thanks for letting me in" he stated

"You know we're really good at that part. Everything else, not so much."

"I'm hoping to fix that." Derek told her

"How?" Meredith asked

"Let me show you." Derek said climbing out her bed and finding his underwear, quickly throwing them on.

He ran to the living room and came back with a large brown bag "This is for you." He said

Meredith took the bag and opened it to find a pale-yellow baby blanket with the name "Baby Shepard" engraved on it.

"I wanted to get something for the baby to show you I'm here for you and for him or her. I want to be a family Meredith." He told honestly

"This is sweet but it doesn't change anything." She told honestly

"Mer- I want to be a part of it with you. I was an ass the past number of weeks and it wasn't that I didn't want to see you, it was just a lot to process."

"It's a lot for me to process too Derek." She told him honestly

"I know. I should've been here with you every day so that we could process together."

"Look Derek, we've had sex a few times and we've been on one date. I don't expect a lot from you-" she started

"I expect a lot from me. We're having a baby together Mer and I want to be here with you every step of way. After our date, my mom called me. It was intense. My little sister Amy is pregnant and she's in high school. The dad isn't in the picture and I just panicked. I didn't mean to hurt you."

"What's your sister going to do?" Meredith asked with wide eyes

"She's keeping the baby" Derek told her with a smile

"I guess our baby whoever he or she is will get to have a cousin to grow up with." Meredith said smiling

"Yeah" Derek told her

"I think we need to slow down" Meredith said honestly

"I was going to invite you to my families Thanksgiving" Derek said with a laugh

"That's the opposite of slowing down" Meredith told him

"You could just come as a friend." Derek said

"As a friend that's pregnant with your baby."

"Sure. Mer- it's already obvious your pregnant. It's not like it can be ignored."

"I want to think about it Derek. We still barely know eachother and besides the sex, we have a lot to work on before this baby is here."

"You're right but I want to work on this. I want to make it work. I care about you a lot."

"I just need time to think. Come back tomorrow and we'll just….. go from there." She told honestly.

TBC….