A month and a bit had passed since Erin and jay had their slip up and they had mastered not talking about it
Erin walked into the kitchen where jay was making breakfast
'hey, do you want some eggs' jay asked pointing to the pan on the stove
'um no I'm fine' Erin said shaking her head and scrunching up her nose feel a wave of nausea come over her
'are you alright? you look pale' jay asked
'um yeah just feeling a little queasy, I'm think I just have a stomach bug' Erin said
'ok maybe you should stay home from work today if you're not feeling great' jay said
'no ill be alright, it will probably pass' Erin said
'ok then' jay said and started eating his eggs
Erin sat at her desk and stared at her computer screen and the pile of paperwork sitting on her desk taking a sip of her pepper mint tea feeling the nausea subdue, she was grateful of them not catching a case today because she wasn't sure if she had enough strength to case after bad guys today, the day had progressed and jay had left to go to the ivory tower, Adam was sitting at his desk throwing a toy ball back and forth with Kevin sitting across the bullpen
'hey guys I got lunch' Davies announced as she hit the top step of the bullpen holding up the subway bag, she stopped and handed the boys their sandwiches, as Adam opened him the smell making Erin's stomach turn, she immediately got up from her desk and rushing to the bathroom and emptying her stomach contents into the closest toilet
After a few moments she sat beside the toilet groaning, she heard a soft knock
'hey er you alright' Kim asked entering the bathroom and holding out a bottle of water
'yeah, I think I have a stomach bug, I've been feeling off the last couple of days' Erin said opening the water bottle and taking a mouthful
'are you sure you're not pregnant?' Kim asked and Erin's face dropped
'um I…. don't think so' Erin paused
'are you sensitive to smells' Kim asked and Erin nodded 'are you tender and is your period late' Kim asked
'yeah, oh no I never thought of that' Erin exclaimed
'hold on ill grab a test, I always keep some in my locker just in case, after last time Adam and I weren't careful, I like to be prepared' Kim said and heading to her locker reappearing shortly later holding the test out for Erin
Kim and Erin sat on the floor of the locker room, leaning up against the brick wall
'so, I'm' Erin stopped
'yeah' Kim said 'are you going to tell him' Kim asked
'um yeah I think, but he was telling me a few weeks he didn't see kids in his future anymore, how is it going to go' Erin said
'Erin, he didn't see having kids anymore because he only thought that he would have kids with you' Kim said 'after you left it crushed him and took a while for him to get back to himself, but he said to me on night that if he could have stopped what happened between you and keep you here, he would have 'Kim said
'oh, I'm going to have a baby' Erin said taking a deep breathe of realization
The locker room door opened revealing Adam
'you guys alright' Adam asked
'yeah, Erin just was feeling off that's all 'Kim said
'ok then, well boss called and said we can go home, jay stuck at the ivory tower' Adam said opening his locker 'you guys coming to mollies' Adam asked
'um I'm going to give it a miss tonight get an early night' Erin said
They had just come back from a raid and Kim and Erin were getting changed back into their normal clothes
'er, you need to tell him you need to go on desk duty' Kim said
'I know Kim I have to find the right time' Erin said pulling her biker boots out and changed her other boots out when she felt a cramp as she grabbed her side
'um Kim' Erin exclaimed getting Kim's attention 'are you alright' Kim asked
'something is not right' Erin said then curling over in pain on the locker room bench
'ok you're going to be alright' Kim said comforting her 'jay Kim yelled 'jay I need you in the locker room' Kim yelled as jay appeared in the doorway taking in the scene of Erin hunched over in the bench in pain as Kim comforted her
'what's wrong, Erin are you ok' jay said kneeling down in front of her
'I think something is wrong the baby' Erin sobbed seeing jay confused expression 'I'm sorry I didn't tell you; I was going to at the right time' Erin sobbed
'ok its ok, come on were taking you to med' jay said scooping her up and carrying her down to the truck Kim following close behind, he jumped into the back with Erin as Kim got in the driver's seat, Erin sobbed the whole way to med clutching jay tightly while he rubbed her back gently trying to calm her, Kim pulled up at the ed and jay climbed out carrying Erin with him still holding onto him tightly seeing Natalie and will waiting for them
'ok Erin you are going to be alright, what's wrong' will exclaimed as jay lay her on the stretcher not letting go of her hand
'I'm in pain, baby' Erin sobbed, while will nodded looking at jay for clarification
'she's pregnant like 7-8 weeks pregnant, she has cramping pain in her side and abdomen' jay explained while they wheeled the stretcher into a bay
'we had been out on a raid this morning, Erin seemed fine nothing happened cleared the house like normal, nothing happened, we got back to the district and Kim and Erin were in the locker room, next thing I knew Kim was yelling for me and Erin was curled over on the bench in pain, that's when we rushed her here' jay explained while will and Natalie started hooking Erin up to machines to find out what was going on
'ok what's here medical history' will asked
'she has previous history of drug use, but she has been clean for years, but she cannot have morphine or oxy of any kind, she was injured at work a few years back, shoulder gunshot wound, broken wrist and ankle 4 broken ribs, she's has had 5 concussions, three fractured fingers and she has been battling depression and anxiety for the past few years but doesn't take medication for it' jay rattled off to will who noted it down
'ok Erin I'm going to take some blood first and run some tests, then I'm going to get an ultrasound machine to see how the baby is doing' Natalie said, and Erin nodded 'jay you may have to step out' she noted
'no, I want jay to stay, he's the father' Erin stated
'sure, thing jay can stay, just try and relax ok' Natalie said
A little while passed and jay was sitting beside Erin's bed holding her hand in silence
'I'm sorry I didn't tell you, I was just waiting for the right time' Erin said softly
'hey, its ok, things have been crazy, and we have been off since that night' jay said giving Erin a reassuring smile
'I know I just hope the baby is ok, and nothing has happened' Erin said
'hey everything will be alright and if not, we will face it together ok' jay said, and Erin nodded
Natalie rolled in the ultrasound machine
'ok Erin we are going to do an ultrasound to see how baby is' Natalie said and Erin nodded squeezing jays' hand who squeezed it back making Erin feeling slightly more relaxed
'ok this might be a little cold and it might take some time ok' Natalie said
'ok' Erin said trying to relax watching the screen and the black and grey image move around, Natalie not yet finding anything Erin closed her eyes trying not to cry, then I sound of a steady heartbeat filled the room, Erin's eye snapped open looking at the screen and the little grey outline moving, listening to the steady heartbeat
'that's you baby, and a strong heartbeat' Natalie said smiling
'that's our baby' Erin exclaimed looking over at jay who was mesmerised by the image
'that's our baby' jay said turning to Erin with a beaming smile and kissing her forehead
'ok guys we are running more tests to see what's going on and especially with all the cramps and pain, but at the moment your baby looks healthy' Natalie said smiling
'thanks Nat' Erin smiled
'its my pleasure guys, congratulations 'Natalie said smiling before leaving the room
Jay and Erin sat in silence for a few moments
'were having a baby' jay said taken back
'yeah, we are' Erin said watching him 'tell me what you're thinking right now'
'um I'm so happy we are having a baby; I know it's not planned but hey when have we ever had good timing' jay said
'I'm so happy your happy, I freaked out when I found out because you said that kids weren't in your plan anymore and I wasn't sure how you would feel' Erin said
'oh Erin, that because I couldn't see myself finding the right person to have kids with, not since she had left my life 6 years ago, no one else ever measured up' jay said
'oh jay' Erin said and bursting into tears 'I love you; I know we were meant to be a family together or not together I'm glad that you're going to be the father of my child' Erin said
'I love you too Erin always' jay said giving her a gentle kiss 'but just so you know you are on desk duty from now on' jay said with chuckle
'yes, sure thing boss' Erin said with a laugh
Next on 6 years later
Jay and Erin adjust to the new aspect of becoming parents
Will their relationship change into more?
Jay deals with somethings