.Feel Me.
.Untouchable.

No relationship is perfect, and ours was far from it.

There were times when I would say things that I didn't mean just so I could get a REAL reaction out of his distant personality. Yet he would irritate me with his lack of empathy. Kai would often give me a 'reality check', even when I would always try to see the best in everything that was standing before me.

But that's what made us perfect, we balanced each other out when the other couldn't see the full picture.

However, that all came to an end when we both decided to go on a short break. Kai claimed that he needed some breathing space, and I needed some time to understand my state of mind. So mutually we agreed on a temporary separation.

Now that I am alone in the dojo, I begin to wonder about a few things.

Do the days feel a little longer for him to?

I'm so lost without having Kai around because he was such a big part of my routine. After work, it's quiet and the smell of fresh coffee doesn't linger within the air.

It's strange.

I loved how we would learn to cook together, it was so amusing to watch his innocent face act so confused. Afterward, we would send snaps of our meals to our food critic (Ray and Oliver).

Does he stay up late to avoid the dreams of us together?

I often end up binging on television to avoid the sadness of going to bed alone. The nights feel so much colder without his heat laying beside me in the sheets. It's got so bad that I can't even bare the thought of wanting to sleep because my brain hasn't accepted the fact that this could be the end of us. Still, like always, I hold on to the small thread of hope that's locked deep inside my heart.

He's going to come back, I just know it~

Or does he already have someone else lined up?

Their lips tasting what's mine.

Their hands caressing those naked blushed cheeks.

Their voices whispering the words that used to be mine.

It's eroding away my trust in him. If I found out that Kai was seeing someone else, I think I would just explode, and I don't know who I would point the finger at either. It would probably kill me more than anything.

After all, he's probably way out of my league, and Kai could find a replacement tomorrow if he wanted too.

Still, if his lips do taste anyone else's, I hope he thinks of me because I know I would think of him if the shoe was on the other foot.

Tears form in my eyes because I can no longer ignore the ache that now weighs down my heart.

"He needs to come home," I conclude and pick up my phone from my pocket to check if Kai has messaged or tried to call me. "How much longer does this need to go on for?!"

Nothing~

A high pitched noise filled my ears and my mind began to spin. The stress of this temporary break was just too much, it's eating me up from the inside out and I feel like I am going to die if he doesn't return soon.

My knees began to tremble and my arms feel as if they've just been ripped away from my limbs. Naturally, I drop my mobile phone onto the ground and I close my eyes to surrender to this pain that was now taking over me.

But just as I was about to release all the emotions that I had stubbornly built up, a familiar sound caught my attention. It was the slam of the front door, and footsteps were making their way towards me in the lounge.

There was no mistaking that walking pattern. Soldier like, distant and in rhythm – it was him, it has to be!

I took a deep breath and pulled myself up off the floor. I turned to face the entrance to the lounge and I bit down onto my lower lip. It felt as if time had slowed right down because it took him forever to reach the lounge.

There he was. In his business attire with his hands glued deeply into his pockets. He looked well, but he also looked exhausted and rough. Secretly, I was relieved to see that he hadn't been taking this too well either.

"What's for dinner?" He asked with his eyes glued to the ground.

Hearing his voice made me want to collapse, especially as I couldn't believe what had just left his mouth. But I didn't hold back, I marched over to the rival and I deliberately stood in his personal space.

"That would depend on if you're staying for good, or not," I replied with my heart pounding in my chest. "What's it going to be Kai? Are you done running away?"

A small smirk slowly sketched across his lips and he raised his head high. "I'm here, aren't I?" He answered with his eyes softening.

I laughed nervously and dived straight in for a tight squeeze. "Jeez Kai, let's never do that again because I thought I was going to die without you," I admitted and took a deep sniff of the expensive cologne embedded in his shirt.

Oh, how I had missed that.

"Yea, I missed you too," Kai muttered and wrapped his arms around me. "Pft, you're the only person I can tolerate anymore."

"I believe that." I cracked into another laugh and smiled into his chest. "Oh man, I love you."