Author's Note: For the Season 5 of That 70s Show, the episode titles were named after all of Led Zeppelin's songs, so that's what I decided to name this chapter after a LZ song. I looked up the meaning of 'The Song Remains the Same' and I thought it fit for this chapter. I was really surprised to see how much the views had skyrocketed compared to the other chapters. So, thank you so much for that. Here's this chapter where you'll find out if Rachel really is pregnant...or not, maybe? Enjoy the chapter and please review! :)
My mind kept going back to the dreadful thought of...I couldn't even say it. I still couldn't believe the test was positive. I had to cry myself to sleep last night and acted distant to Eric and Steven. Both of them would hate me for this.
We were eating breakfast with Red and Kitty at the small table in the kitchen. But the food tasted like air to me. I wanted to puke.
"Rachel, honey, are you feeling alright?" Kitty asked me with worry and concern. "You barely touched your food."
I looked down at my plate and saw that there was still eggs, sausage, bacon, and toast left over.
"You waste our food and we can barely afford you kids enough as it is." Red grumbled.
"Can I eat it?" Steven asked greedily. His plate was already cleaned.
"Uh, yeah, sure," He used his fork to shovel all of my food onto his plate. "Can I be excused?" I begged.
"Sure, sweetie. Do you feel sick at all?" Kitty asked like the mother she was and put a hand on my forehead. "Well, you don't have a fever. But I can make you some hot warm soup for lunch!"
Ugh. More food. I groaned internally. But I had to be grateful for her kind gesture. No one knew what I was going through.
"Sounds nice, Mrs. Forman. Thank you." I said and walked downstairs.
I sat on the couch and turned the TV. I wasn't even paying attention to it. I wondered how could I move on. What was I supposed to do? How can I be...
Pregnant?
That's the first time I even admitted that word.
Eric and I have always been careful. Or so I thought. Contraceptives wasn't always a hundred percent safe. Maybe I was just one of the unlucky ones. Wouldn't surprise me because of how my life always was. Just unfair.
I didn't even know what to do at this point. I was too terrified to tell anyone else. There was no way in hell I'd tell Donna. How were you supposed to go and tell your boyfriend's ex that your pregnant with his child? Nope. No way. Steven was totally out because he'd be furious at Eric and I. Especially, me. I couldn't even face Eric right now.
There really was no one. Well...except for...
Jackie.
She's been a lot better after she confessed her love to Steven and they got back together. Steven said he loved her too in his own way. Things were normal in the group again after Annette left Kelso at the Valentine's Day dance because she thought Kelso still had feelings for Jackie. But whatever Jackie felt for him was entirely gone because she really did feel nothing for him anymore when she knew her true feelings for my brother.
Jackie knew what it was like to have a pregnancy scare. That's all I could hope it was. She's the one who I could talk to. Before I could tell anyone else like Eric and his parents.
Fez came into the basement door and declared. "Lucy, I'm home!" In a Ricky accent. He sat next to me on the couch and casually wrapped an arm around me. It was something he did to Jackie, Donna and I. I got used to it.
"Ugh, why are you watching The Price Is Right?" Fez asked in disgust and looked at me. "What are you? Eighty?"
"Huh?" I snapped out of my thoughts distractedly. "Oh, uh, here. You can change it. I don't care." I tossed him the remote and he went through changing the channels. He eventually settled for Scooby Doo.
How would I be able to handle and care for a baby?! I don't even know how to be a good mother since my own was so awful. I knew of what not to do parenting wise from Edna and Bud, but I hope I could keep my promises.
I just knew I will be a terrible mother. Eric would definitely be a better parent than me. Maybe that'll be a good thing. At least there would be one good parent.
How would he react to this? I'm literally freaking out right now and didn't know how to act. We were both teenagers and unfit to be parents at this stage in our lives. Not to mention we're still in high school!
I was really having a panic attack right now, but tried not to show it in front of Fez.
"Of course it was him, Daphne, you stupid whore!" He shouted at the TV screen when one of the characters unmasked a guy. The show went off for a break of commercials. "Are you okay, Rachel? You're very quiet."
"I'm fine, Fez, really." Even my voice sounded hallow.
"We've been friends for a long time. I know when you're not. Now, come on. Tell Fez all about it." He patted my leg in encouragement.
"Sorry. I just can't, Fez."
"Please? I can keep it a secret!"
I gave him a look if I could believe him. I raised an eyebrow. "You will?"
"Yes!"
"Okay," I sighed to prepare myself. "I'm pregnant." I confessed in a small and scared voice. To say Fez was shocked is an understatement.
"Who's the father?"
I gave him a ridiculous look. That should've been obvious!
"Uh, it's Eric!"
"Really? Oh, I didn't know he had it in him," I rolled my eyes. "Are you sure you are?"
"I-I think so. I thought about taking another just incase. I don't want anyone to freak out about this so please don't tell nobody, Fez. Promise?"
"Promise," He confirmed with a nod. Then a smile slowly crept on his face and wriggled his eyebrows. "Maybe we can make out to seal the deal?"
I nudged him for that crazy suggestion and chuckled. "Yeah, right."
Steven came downstairs and Eric wasn't with him.
"Where's Eric?" I asked.
"Hello to you, too," Steven said sarcastically. "Red got him to do chores. What was up with you at breakfast?" He sat down in his usual white chair.
I shrugged. "Didn't feel all that hungry. Not a big deal."
"I didn't say it was."
"Good."
"Fine."
There was silence with the three of us again as we watched more episodes of Scooby Doo. Fez and I exchanged glances at each other at the heavy secret we're holding then stared back at the screen as if nothing was wrong.
It was like being suffocated with the secret I was holding and I just have to leave. I got up and was heading for the door.
"Where are you going?" Steven asked me.
"Out." I simply said and opened the door and closed it behind me.
In Jackie's hideous pink bedroom, we sat on her bed together and she was talking to me about how exciting it was that I'm here because I never wanted to come to her place willingly. Donna and I would feel like we're dragged here by her. But this time, I really needed her help.
Jackie dramatically gasped in excitement. "Do you want a makeover?"
I gave her a look. "No. Besides, I thought you weren't shallow anymore."
"I'm not, but I know you could use a good makeover. I've always wanted to do that to you because, ugh, look at yourself."
"Well, thanks, but no thanks. I need to tell you something, but you have to promise me you'll keep it a secret."
"Is it about Donna?" She fished for gossip.
"No! Just don't even tell my brother about this. The only one who knows about this is Fez."
Jackie looked offended and crossed her arms. "So you told the foreigner first before you told me?!" She was scandalized.
"This isn't about you, Jackie!" I got frustrated with her. "It's about me! I'm pregnant!" I blurted out in anger and then realized what I just did by accident.
Jackie became stunned.
"You-you're pregnant?"
"Maybe. Ugh! I don't know! Just because the first test came out positive doesn't mean that I am, right? It could be a misreading. I decided to come to you because I knew you had that pregnancy scare with Kelso. So, you know what this is like."
"Yeah, I did and thank God I never had his kid," Jackie was in major relief.
"I'd trust Eric to take care of a goldfish more than him."
"No, I wouldn't trust either of them. Remember when Eric ran over Donna's ugly cat with his car?"
"Yeah, but that was just an accident," I waved it off carelessly. "How did you find out that you weren't pregnant?"
"I went to the doctor. It's something that you should do, too."
"I know and I should go to Mrs. Forman because she's a nurse, but I'm just way, way too scared."
"I know this is, Rachel, but you've got to." Jackie held my hand for comfort.
"What if I buy another one? If it says that I really am again then it must be true. If not then...I don't know." I got even more worried and scared if the test became positive or negative.
"Rachel, as your best friend, I'll go with you to buy the test." She put her hand to her heart for loyalty.
"Thank you, Jackie." I was really grateful for her and glad that I've came here.
"It's not the way how I imagined you to be pregnant. The timing is all wrong."
"Tell me about it..." I groaned.
"I mean, we were supposed to get pregnant together along with Donna and have daughters so they could become best friends. Now, that you're pregnant first instead of me, it's all ruined!"
I rolled my eyes and muttered sarcastically. "Sorry to ruin your fantasy, Jackie."
"You should be!" She glared.
After we went to the drugstore together, we returned back at her place. I couldn't face Eric, his parents, and Steven right now. I used her bathroom to take the test, and wow, it was a lot bigger and beautiful in a classy way than Eric's. I closed the door and took another test. Jackie was waiting for me in her bedroom.
After the three minutes was up, I checked the result and saw that it was a...
Negative.
That didn't make sense. The first one said it was positive, and now, this one was a negative. What's going on?
I looked at the box being so confused and it was a different brand than the other one I used. Maybe that I was it.
Suddenly, the door burst open and it was Jackie.
"Did you take it already? What's taking you so long?" She demanded in a haughty voice.
"It's negative, but I-I don't understand." I kept re-reading the information on the box over and over again if there was something I missed or did something wrong.
"Gimmie!" Jackie quickly grabbed the box and my test out of my hands and looked it over. "It does say that you are negative."
I rolled my eyes and snapped impatiently. "That's just what I told you!"
"Well, you should really go see a doctor, Rachel!" Jackie insisted. "Go to Mrs. Forman, she'll help you!"
"I know I should because this doesn't make any sense." I threw them into the trash.
"But you really should tell Eric first. That was the first thing that Donna had asked me if I let Michael know."
"I just don't want Eric to freak out over this if it's really just nothing!"
"At least let him be involved, Rachel. Eric knocked you up and the least thing he could do is pay for child support. You wouldn't want to go through with this all alone, would you?"
That made me think, and I realized, no I didn't.
Jackie and I went to the Formans expecting to find Eric, but Mrs. Forman let us know that the boys were at The Hub. A part of me wanted to tell her right then and there to get it over with, but Jackie was right that Eric should be the first to know. But it couldn't be at The Hub with everyone else there.
Jackie and I left to go where our friends was and we found them sitting at the table. Kelso and Fez was playing with the foosball table together. Jackie and I joined Steven, Eric, Donna, and her newest boyfriend, Tyler Leary, at the table.
Tyler asked Donna out to be his date for the Valentine's Day dance and she accepted him. That's how they became a couple, but Jackie and I believe there was something more to them way before he had asked her. They seemed like a good fit for each other; Tyler was tall like Donna which helped him for being on the basketball team. He was good looking with his shaggy dirty blonde hair and brown eyes. You'd always see him wear a denim jacket. He was like the complete opposite of Eric; talk, athletic, less geeky, and handsome like Kelso.
Maybe there was hope for me after all that both Donna and Eric have moved on. Hopefully, Donna would have a better and healthier relationship with Tyler than she did with Casey.
"Hey, Rach, are you feeling okay?" Eric asked me once I sat down next to him and put an arm around my shoulder.
Jackie sat next to Steven and he did the same thing to her.
"Yeah, I am. Why?"
"Just because of how you acted at breakfast. You really didn't seem yourself."
"I feel fine now. I probably should eat something though." I said thoughtfully since I hardly touched my breakfast and my stomach was growling.
Not to mention I should eat for...for the baby. If I really was pregnant.
"Well, come on, I can go buy you something." Eric stood up and took me by the hands to rise with him.
"Okay." I said and we went to the window to order.
I ordered a cheeseburger, fries, and root beer. We waited for a while to have it get made. Usually, we can talk about anything, but now that I fear of being pregnant, I didn't know what to say without accidentally revealing it to the public.
It's a small town. Anyone can pass it around to everyone in a blink of an eye.
"So, Fez, told me the funniest thing today-"
My eyes widened in horror if that little foreigner broke our deal and exposed my secret to him.
"Like what?!" I urgently demanded.
He was taken aback by my panicked outburst. "Man, what's wrong with you today?"
"Nothing! Nothing!" I tried to recover being calm and casual.
Finally, I got my order and Eric paid him. Then we returned to our table and I bite into my burger. It's been since this morning I ate anything so this tasted like the best thing in the world. Steven's hand reached for my fries and I was about to rip his arm off until Jackie slapped his hand away for me.
"Ow! What the hell, Jackie?"
"Do not take a woman's food!" I wanted to smile gratefully at her until she continued. "She's eating for two!"
Then I glared at her as she just sat there with her arms crossed being annoyed at her boyfriend.
"Eating for two? What does that mean?" Steven asked and Eric was confused, too.
Jackie's eyes widened like she had made a mistake. I couldn't say anything if she didn't fix it. This was not how I wanted either of them to find out.
"I did not say that!"
"Uh, yeah, you did-"
"Jackie? Bathroom. Now." I interrupted and only focused on her.
She looked like she was touched and surprised. "You never asked me to go to the bathroom with you!"
"Uh-huh," I mumbled and looked at the redhead. "You, too, Donna."
Donna was surprised to be joined along, but went with us anyway. After I warned the boys not to touch my food, the three of us went to the bathroom and Donna closed the door behind her.
"What's going on with you two?" Donna asked us.
Before I could get the chance to explain, Jackie blurted out. "Rachel's pregnant!"
"What?!" Donna loudly exclaimed.
I gave a hard and deadly glare to Jackie to spoil the moment and she cowered a bit away from me.
"I think I am anyway. I just don't know yet." I clarified.
"So, that's what you meant by eating for two," Donna realized to Jackie then looked at me. "Did you tell Eric?"
"No. I was going to tell him, but then I found out he was here with everyone and I couldn't."
"What do you mean by you think you are pregnant?" Donna asked.
"I took a test and one said positive, but the other was negative so I just got really confused and don't know what to do now. I know I really need to talk to Mrs. Forman since she was a nurse."
"Yeah, that'll really be helpful to find out instead of waking up one day looking five months pregnant!"
"Ugh, can you stop saying pregnant?" I groaned, making a face. "I'm starting to hate it. It doesn't even sound like a word anymore."
The door opened and I worried and panicked if it could be Eric, Steven, or some other girl, but it was only Fez.
"So, what are you three ladies doing in the bathroom all at once for no suspicious reason?" Fez asked us.
"Not now, Fez." Donna said being irritated.
"It's okay, he knows, I told him." I assured her.
"Know what?" Then he suddenly remembered. "Ah, that you're going to have a little Eric Junior," He smiled, chuckling fondly, but then frowned for a second. "Or what's worse is a Red Junior. No, a Laurie Junior would be way worse-"
We all rolled our eyes and shook our heads at him.
"Fez!" Jackie exclaimed impatiently. "Not helping! The child will be a part of Rachel so her daughter can't have the slutty genes."
Donna stared at Jackie in disbelief because of her logic.
"What are the guys talking about out there?" I wondered.
"Why you girls left so suddenly. They were all asking about you and didn't understand what Jackie said. But I think they're catching on. As your friend, I did not say a word," Fez said loyally. "I tried to change the conversation to be about candy, but alas, it did not work. Fez tried his best."
"I know the guys have their moments of stupidity, but they're really not that dumb. Except for Kelso. He's the king. But as for Hyde, he's the smart one out of the group. You should know that. You really can't put this off forever." Donna seriously said to me.
"I know, I just wanted to know if it's true that I could be...pregnant. But I would tell Eric first regardless of the result."
"Then you should go out there right now." Donna ordered and I surrendered in defeat.
"You're right." I sighed.
"We're right here with you, Rachel," Jackie comforted. "Eric would be out of his mind and a bigger dumbass than I thought if he didn't want nothing to do with my niece or nephew."
Donna, Fez, and I gave her odd looks. I raised an eyebrow at her.
"Your niece or nephew?" I echoed.
"Yes! One day, Steven and I will get married and your children will be my nieces or nephews! Your sons or daughters, duh!" Jackie impatiently motioned her hands for me to go out and I rolled my eyes as I pushed the door open.
All four of us got out of the bathroom together and went to our friends. The guys was watching us. Steven and Eric's eyes was on me the most.
Fez was right that they were catching on.
The others returned to their seats as Eric got up from his to approach me.
"Hey, can we talk outside alone?" He asked me softly.
"Yeah, sure," I nodded, knowing what it was. "Just let me get my drink."
I grabbed my root beer and gave a warning to them not to eat any of my food because I will come back. After that, I went with Eric outside of The Hub.
"What's up?" I casually asked him as I drank my root beer.
"I think you know what's up, Rachel. You know what Jackie said and how you behaved at breakfast today...are you...are you pregnant?" He asked me carefully.
"Yes," He was stunned and I didn't want him to go into shock. "Yes, I think I am, anyway."
"What do you mean you-"
"I got different results when I took the test, but I know I missed my period, too, even though it is irregular to begin with. So, I don't really know what's going on. Either way, I'm really scared about this right now. I don't know what to do."
It was like a huge weight have been lifted off my shoulders after I released this information I've been withholding from him.
Eric looked like he was thinking very hard and thorough about this.
"Okay, okay. Let's not panic here. We can handle this, alright?" I didn't know if he was talking to me or himself. His green eyes met mine. "Let's just go tell my Mom about this. She's a nurse. She'll know what's going on."
"I know. She was the first person I thought of to go to for help." I agreed.
Eric walked closer to me and put his hands on my shoulders. "It'll be okay, Rachel."
I wanted to argue with them that it would never be okay. Situations like this especially for teens was never just okay! But as a boyfriend, he had to say that. I just nodded in silence with a smile as he kissed my forehead.
We returned to the Forman house and went down to the basement. Steven and the others already knew about that I was pregnant. Or could be pregnant. There was still hope that I'm not.
"How could you be pregnant?!" Steven angrily exclaimed at me while he paced.
"Oh, Hyde, do we need to give you a talk about the birds and the fleas?" Fez asked, shaking his head.
"It's the birds and the bees, dumbass." Kelso corrected.
Steven ignored them and marched over to Eric looking pissed. "I should kill you for this, Forman!"
I quickly came in front of Eric to protect him from my brother's wrath. I stopped him by holding onto his broad shoulders.
"Steven! I don't even know if I am so, please, back off?" I roughly shoved him away from Eric and I.
"Okay, why don't we just settle this once and for all and go to my parents?" Eric suggested. "I can handle Red's foot in my ass. He will...probably, like...shove it up there so far my great-great grandchildren could feel it or something."
I rolled my eyes at his analogy. "You're so weird. But you're right, we should tell them now."
The two of us went upstairs and Eric called for his parents to be in the kitchen with us.
"What is it, Eric?" Kitty asked.
It was like I completely blanked out and forgot what I was going to say. Then Eric sensed me being speechless, and fortunately, broke the news for me.
"Rachel's pregnant."
"What?!" Red yelled as Kitty just was shocked.
"It's okay. We'll be calm and rational about this. No need to be an alarmist!" She nervously laughed. "We'll figure something out-"
"Right before I put my foot up in both of your asses!" Red angrily exclaimed.
"But I want to go to the doctor's first if I really am...you know, just incase," I said quickly. "I got mixed results on the test so I don't really know-"
"Okay. I worked as a nurse before so I have connections for a doctor for you," Kitty said going into her 'nurse mode'. "We'll set up an appointment right away and find out."
"O-okay," I nervously replied. My anxiety and stress levels was going again and I felt sick. "I'm going to go to the bathroom to throw up."
In the bathroom, I did nothing, but dry heave at the toilet. Later, Kitty informed me that she scheduled an appointment for next Saturday. I asked her if she could be there with me for support and as another ear. Fortunately, she said she would.
When next Saturday came, I was at my doctor's appointment. I got some tests and blood work done. Kitty was with me so that made this appointment a bit bearable.
I thought of what happened when Jackie found out she wasn't pregnant and broke up with Kelso because of how relieved he was. Could I do the same to Eric?
...No. Jackie was a better person than me with that.
Doctor Meyers returned holding the result papers in his hand with my folder. My fate was soon to be known.
"Well, George, is she or is she not pregnant?" Kitty asked him.
"Rachel is not pregnant," He answered.
Kitty and I made a huge sigh of relief. All of the stress, worry, and fear have been lifted off my shoulders.
"You also are in great health. Irregular periods are perfectly normal since there's nothing else we should worry about. While home pregnancy tests can be reliable to use, not all of them are always accurate."
"You're telling me..." I muttered sarcastically.
"Thank you, George."
"You're welcome. Is there anything else I can help you with?"
"No, that was it."
"Okay. I'll leave you two alone then." Doctor Meyers said respectfully and left the patient's room for our privacy.
"Aren't you glad you've dodged that bullet?" Kitty nervously laughed. "I know right now really wasn't the time, but it would've been nice to have another baby in the house. Especially, a grandchild of mine. I know you and Eric wouldn't be ready."
"We definitely wouldn't," I agreed. "I'm really glad that I'm not pregnant. I would've been a horrible mother-"
"Don't say that, Rachel," Kitty gently interrupted me. "I know you and Steven didn't have the best parents and home life, but neither of you don't have to end up like them. You two can become better parents than they ever were," I still have my doubts, but what she said was nice. "Let's just go home and we can tell everyone the good news, okay?"
All I was able to do was nod and respond. "Okay."
Back at the Formans, Eric, Red, and Steven (and even Jackie, too) was there waiting for Kitty and I.
"Well...?" Steven demanded, looking at me.
I felt a faint smile on my lips. "I'm not pregnant."
The guys was mostly relieved as they celebrated, and so did Jackie too, but I think she was a little disappointed about not being 'Aunt Jackie'.
"You know better to get yourself into this mess again, don't you?" Steven lectured me.
"Yeah, I do. But I mean, aren't you disappointed a little?" I began tease him. Slowly feeling like my old self again. He raised a confused eyebrow at me. "You could've almost been 'Uncle Stevie'!"
He cringed and just stared at me being emotionless. Zen.
"Oh my god, that would've been so adorable!" Jackie gushed.
"Rachel, please, know that I would've gone through the whole pregnancy adventure with you, but don't hate me when I say I'm extremely glad you're not pregnant. I'm not ready to be a father."
"You think I'm ready to be a mother? It's a real good thing I am not."
"Looks like you won't have another little dumbass running around the house, huh, Dad?" Eric joked to him, but there was no sign of humor on his stern face. "I'm going to throw up now."
Eric rushed upstairs for the bathroom.
"I'm going to try to pretend that none of this ever happened." I followed Eric upstairs and heard Jackie say.
"I'll come too!" She hurriedly went with me to my bedroom.
We just talked how I should be so grateful I'm not pregnant with another Forman.
It was late at night and I couldn't sleep. I went to Eric's bedroom and softly closed his door behind me. He was awake too, apparently.
"Can't sleep either?" I assumed as I got into bed and laid with him under the covers.
"No. The whole...baby thing was on my mind. Sorry you had to go through all of that." He apologized.
"We really have to be careful." I said.
"Yeah, so this won't happen ever again. It would've been so crazy for us to be parents. I mean, can you just imagine?"
"I try not to," I replied.
"But if you did, what would name the baby?" Eric asked.
I shrugged. "I don't know. I never really thought about having kids of my own before. One or two kids seems fine, I guess."
"Really?" He was surprised. "What about getting married?"
"When I'm in my thirties, maybe. We're still kids, Eric. Marriage and families should be way down the line in our lives when we're ready to settle," Then I made a confession for the name I love. "I do love the name Julia."
"Julia, really? That sounds nice," He complimented. "I like Luke for a boy."
"Why should that surprise me?" I asked sarcastically, shaking my head for his love of Star Wars. "All of that can happen in the future for later."
"In the future with me?"
The baby drama freaked me out. And I didn't know if I was going to end up like Edna or not. In my Psychology class, I was taught about how there was a cycle abused kids would go through and would sometimes always abuse their own children like their parents have done to them. I wouldn't want to put Eric through that. I don't deserve him.
I hesitated to answer, but it felt like a lie. "With you."
Author's Note: Well, there you have it! Just a false alarm. Since this was an Eric/Rachel chapter, I'll have the next one be a Hyde/Jackie. :)
