Meanwhile ACP sir went to the library to hide himself from the gaze of Abhijeet. He was sighing continuously, remembering all of his misbehaviours and one sided mistakes done in the past life. His past roughness was now hurting him only. At that moment, all of a sudden, he felt his breath stopping!
He began to feel suffocated. He felt that he could not intake oxygen despite taking heavy breaths and a deep black darkness was encircling him as he was feeling a load of thousand tons were kept over his chest. He now looked around in order to find any help as he could understand that it was a panic attack again!
Yes he had developed the problem since last three months! He had faced these type of attacks several times during these months, especially then when he overthought about his past mistakes and about those memories of him with Daya and Abhijeet! Whenever he thought about all those mess, he used to feel that his body was getting light and his nerves got pressurized to have a panic attack! Just like now! He was sweating profusely but could understand that he was not in the condition to bring his medicine packet from the car. But he could tolerate it no more. It was really too much painful for him.
He forwarded his hand towards the water glass kept on the table in front of him but bad luck! Hr had already lost his control over his nerves. The glass fell down on the floor and crashed into pieces with sound... and at that very moment, he heard the door opening sound. Somebody had entered the room!!!!
On the other hand, Abhijeet, who had come here to have a face to face talk with him, got a huge shock, seeing his condition. He just became stunned. He had never expected this condition of his senior, not even in his wildest dreams!!! But now, when the nightmarish incident was really happening in front of his eyes, he just remained standing like a stone statue, with wide open eyes containing an expression of shock and surprise in them.
Meanwhile, with the sound of the glass breaking, Roma rushed entered the room. She just became spell bound seeing the condition of both the men present in the room. But noticing ACP sir in such miserable condition, grabbing his chest and breathing heavily, she could easily understood that he was facing another panic attack again! She rushed towards him and asked in anxious tone while fondling his back gently...
Roma: medicines kahan hain sir? Gadi mein? Aur inhaler?
ACP sir could not answer her properly. Actually he was having so much breathing trouble that he could not even speak properly. He just managed to nod, indicating that his medicines were in his car only. She did not delay anymore but ran towards the parking lot with a shout as...
Roma: Abhijeet... dhyan rakhna ACP sir ka...
She vanished from the line of sight while Abhijeet just turned his head towards ACP sir, who was pulling breaths strongly. His pale face was clearly indicating how much trouble he was facing. He slowly walked towards him and unknowingly, grabbing his father figure's hand tightly.
Feeling the ever known touch, ACP sir just looked up towards him and saw a ever known face was starring towards him with an ever known expression of concern pasting over his face. He just looked down and closed his teary eyes. Indeed his pain had reduced! He was now feeling a utmost peace in his heart. He knew that if he died now also, he would not be having any grief. He was having such a soothing feeling which he could not name.
On the other hand, after grabbing ACP sir's hand in his, Abhijeet too closed his eyes tightly. He was feeling really good after grabbing those hands again, which was the other name of support for him once. He was indeed trapped in so much problems in his life now, and the touch of those hands was giving him a soothing warmth in his cold loneliness.
At that moment, Roma entered the room with a medicine packet which made Abhijeet release ACP sir's hands with a jerk. Roma went to ACP sir and handed him three- four tablets along with a bottle of water. Abhijeet saw silently that ACP sir almost grabbed the bottle and took all the medicines silently. After it, he used the inhaler for sometimes and then remained sitting there, with his face buried into his palms. He was looking so much fatigued, so much tired. Abhijeet's heart pinched a bit.
When ACP sir looked up, Roma said in an anxious voice...
Roma: sir aap please aaj ka meeting cancel kar dijiye... aaj jane ki koi zaroorat nahin hain... aisi tabiyat lekar...
ACP sir(in tired tone): nahin Roma... aisa karne se nahin chalega... meeting par to jana hi padega... bohot pehle se fixed hain yeh meeting... is company se hi to sabse zyada donations aate hain Roshni Welfare Foundation ke liye... is tarah unprofessionalism nahin dikha sakta hain...
Roma(in anger): kaisa unprofessionalism? Insan ka kya kabhi tabiyat kharab nahin hota? Bigda hua tabiyat lekar bhi kaam karna padega? Haan main janti hoon ki is NGO chalane ke liye aapko har mahine bohot paise ki zaroorat padta hain jiska zyadatar hissa hi in sab donations se aata hain... lekin is halat mein bhi aap kaise kaam karenge?
ACP sir(in stubborn tone): baat ko samjho Roma, agle mahine se hum ek scholarship start kar rahe haina jis mein hum all over Maharashtra se kuch needy students ka pura kharcha uthane wale hain... us silsile mein hi hain yeh meeting...
Roma: lekin sir aap itna stress mat lijiye...
ACP sir: itna bada ek organization chalane ke liye mujhr bohot funds ki zaroorat hoti hain Roma... aur yeh baat ko tum bhi to janti ho... kya aisa panic attack pehle nahin hua hain? Hua hain... aur ise lekar hi kaam karne ki adat pad chuka hain... kuch kar nahin sakte is bare mein... kuch nahi hoga mujhe... aur haan thanks...
Roma: kyun?
ACP sir: yeh medicines waqt par le aane ke liye... warna aaj mujhe hospitalized hona padta...
Though ACP sir said the last sentence with a laughter, it made Abhijeet stunned. Actually he was unable to match the previously seen ACP sir with this man, who was sitting in front of him now. He felt that all of his calculations had gone wrong somewhere. A lot of questions had began to roll around in his heart already and it was suffocating him.
Till now he used to think that whatever ACP sir was doing was for his fame and popularity, but today he was compelled to think whether he was wrong or not? Was not he doing all these for show off or cheap publicity? Perhaps it was not. If so, why would he say like this? Perhaps he was doing this from the deep of his heart and not for earning popularity. And what was all these mess? Panic attack! Breathing trouble! Inhaler! Medicines! When the hell did all these begin? Was this the reason for which ACP sir seemed to be such ill now? He had noticed this in his subconscious mind but had never allowed his mind to think about it. Or more frankly, he had never allowed his heart to think about any thoughts regarding ACP sir.
But today, he could not rule over his heart anymore. ACP sir's pale face and his hell tired gesture did not allow him to rule his pain over his love. Somewhere in his heart, he realized that ACP sir's each and everything was not false. Though his love for him and his brother was false that time, but the change that had come into him now, was not false. Nope! Not all!
But then also, he had not gone near ACP sir that day! Actually this realization was not able to move away the stone hard icy cold wall inside him. It was still there, standing firmly. The memory of that one single day was coming into his brain repeatedly. Where was ACP sir then, when Daya was there, lying on the floor in semiconscious stage, bleeding helplessly and wiggling in pain? Where was he then when he himself was shouting in pain in police custody? WHERE THE HELL WAS HE? Nowhere around them? He must had been sitting somewhere, sunk in his ego and pride! He did not even answered the phone calls! Then why should he go to him now? Today was his day to remain nowhere around him. That day he was apathetic, and now it was his turn!
He walked away from the room while thinking all these or better to say that trying to make his heart understand all these, but today, he felt, the wall had got a big crash. He now knew that ACP sir was ill but he also knew that Daya was much more ill. He was walking slowly while thinking all these, when he discovered Roma too was walking away from the corridor. He immediately stopped her with a curious...
Abhijeet: Roma ek minute...
Roma immediately stopped while turning with...
Roma: jee Abhijeet...
Abhijeet: woh ACP sir ab... matlab ab woh theek to haina?
Roma: haan ab kaafi better hain...
Abhijeet: hmmmmmmm... Roma ek baat batao, unka yeh halat kab se hain? Matlab ek cop ko to physically aur mentally bohot hi fit and fine hona chahiye na? Lekin yeh sab...
Roma: Abhijeet actually ACP sir ko physically koi problem hain hi nahin... unka asli problem unke mann mein hain... jab se unke dono bete unhe chodke chale gaye hain tabse hi unhe yeh problem hain...
Abhijeet(in shock): unke bete!!
Roma: haan yeh hi to kehte hain... asal mein unki apni gulit, apni takleef, apni dard aur unke akelapan aur insecurity ne hi unka yeh halat bana diya hain... excuse me!
She left with rapid steps as she had some urgent works to do in the office, leaving a stunned Abhijeet behind. He just remained standing there silently for some moments and then turned towards the door of the room, in which ACP sir was taking rest.
After this incident, some more days had passed away from the pages of the calendar in which Abhijeet had tried his best to keep his mind strong enough and ACP sir had tried his best to stay away from him.
That evening, ACP sir was going home by his car, driving it himself. He was a bit absentminded as he could not understand how to win back his son's heart and how to achieve forgiveness from him. But all of a sudden the incident taking place in the side made him spell bound!
END OF THE CHAPTER
So what ACP sir might have seen? What was happening? Has Abhijeet's heart begun to melt? Will everything will be alright again between Abhijeet and ACP sir? How? What had happened in the past? Stay tuned to know more.
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