My dear little broccolis💚💚💚

💚 So, it has been brought to my attention that some of you don't have access to Facebook and can't read Clary's diary entries. So here they are, just for your enjoyment. Remember that this is a diary, that must be read in addition to Sweetie, Let Me Give You The Daddy

As promised, new entry of Ana's diary ... Hope you will enjoy this first one ...

‼️DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVEN'T READ CHAPTER 23 ONWARD‼️ ️

~ 16th of January ~

I just told Christian about the scare. He was not happy. And that just comforts me in my decision, I won't have any more kids. It's not a question of whether or not I want to have more kids if I want to have a big family, it's ... I can't. Not if I want to stay in Christian's life.

I can't bring another kid in this hard life, feeling like a second thought. I'm already struggling to keep Grace up-float, to not shatter this ideal she has of her daddy, I'm not strong enough to do it with another kid.

I think he realised afterwards that his reaction was cold, because I got a bouquet of roses when I got home from dropping Grace, and it just made me cry. Not only were they not signed, but he'd rather send flowers than talk to me.

But I quickly dried the tears, Gail was around, and I locked myself in the library to work. Gail has been looking at me funny since yesterday I asked her if she didn't mind cooking for once. And Grace didn't see the difference. And Christian doesn't really care if I cook or not, since he barely eats home anyway. So I'll just let her cook from now on.

~ UPDATE ~

I sent a text earlier this morning to Christian, and he just responded now, hours later, as I'm about to go to meet with my first case.

- Hey. I just got the flowers. They are lovely. And I don't want to sound childish, but if you have something to apologise, you should tell me, instead of sending flowers. ~ Ana

- They were mostly to cheer you up. You seemed down. I didn't know I had something to apologise for. Do I? ~ Christian

- Why 15 roses, then? You know that they mean sorry. ~ Ana

- Do I have something to apologise for? ~ Christian

- You were a bit cold this morning. I know that you don't want kids, and I know that I said I don't want kids either, but ... I still think you could have been less callous about the situation. ~ Ana

- I didn't say a fucking word. I was just relieved. I don't get what you get so worked up about something that didn't happen and you don't want to happen? Did you lie to me? Do you want kids? ~ Christian

- No. I'm sorry. I'm just nervous about this case I have. I haven't dealt with this kind of law in a while. I guess I nitpicked at you to get my mind off of it. Sorry. ~ Ana

- I get it. Next time, you should tell me in the morning, and I'll help you relieve the tension some other way. And I know you'll do great. Love you xxx ~ Christian

I should stop being so oversensitive.

I take a deep breath and tell Luke that I'm ready to go out. Before leaving, I ask Gail I'd she can cook tonight, and she agrees. We go straight to the parking lot, and my eyes longer on the button that leads to the pool.

I stopped running, and now I use the gym, but I do want to use the pool as well. But knowing Christian, if I use the pool and someone else sees me in a swimming suit, he'll find a way to get jealous over nothing. So I guess the treadmill it is.

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Love, Mina💚💚💚