Day 2
Camden Jenkins 18, District 9 Male
"You know what I hate" I say as Rayden looks at me, after I sort of had a little bit of a well actually a pretty big temper tantrum which Xander the dick found quite after he had to send me a new weapon, we find this sort of little underground hiding spot, bad thing is it's starting to flood
But this sort of run down village, it brings back memories of the games we died in, the war zone, this feels like a ghost town, sort of reminds me of home the abandoned houses that clearly haven't be visited in years, some rotting, the blood everywhere on the ground, creepy writing on the wall, it scared little fella when this doll started laughing and well since Xander told me how this doll of my me which I find very rude of the Capitol to make a doll of me, literally forced him to have a mental breakdown which caused him to torture a 16 year old girl, I hate dolls
And the Capitol, and the world yet knowing I can live through this and actually live with my best friend, someone who is like a brother gives me some motivation to actually try to live through this but like last time, Rayden is the reason why I don't really went to make it to the end because I like this little fella, he hasn't changed one bit from his games and it's refreshing because the moment I hate everything and I'm sort of scared of becoming like Xander as much as I wouldn't have the heart to tell him
I feel like it's my fault, I made him feel weak even though I cared for him, he kept everything from him, yet with Rayden I haven't once told him to grow up and stop being scared, I nurture him and if I did that with Xander maybe his life would of been different but now clearly they put Xander in because his links with me, and clearly they saw the change he took when I died, if he wasn't the way he was he would be dead yet little Rayden came 5th, the little brainiac maybe I underestimate and judge people to much
"Everything" he says just hugging his legs as the water starts to get in my shoes, I also ripped my shoes apart Xander said he always gets heaps of sponsor money for his tributes even they are useless, hearing him talk makes me question whether I really do want to become victor I guess it has its good and bads, but I don't know if I want to die again, go through the feeling, even now I'm still freezing cold, so is Rayden but my district partner wasn't, he also didn't have the feeling he was dying and when he woke up it felt like he woke up from a deep sleep
"I do not hate ever- actually that's a lie but what I hate is this area almost feels like our first one" I say I don't know why I'm whinging unlike Rayden I died earlier I didn't have to spend days alone be scared even though he said he ran into Aelia
"The buildings and the rain, it's meant to be a ghost town but apparently there are features from each three arenas" he says softly
"Did you watch them buddy" I chuckle
"Nelson told me, but don't be surprised if it starts snowing" he stutters
"Fuck snow, that shit is freezing, we should move don't want you getting a cold" I say helping him up as I just angrily kick the water, my shoes getting heavier as we climb up the stairs
"Well at least they didn't revive the doll" I say
"We had in our first games too I don't think they were trying to mess with your head" he says, I don't know if the Capitol were happy with Xander winning he didn't answer and Alistair didn't really have answer, so I don't know if they forced Xander to choose to bring me back to punish him but I don't know if the Capitol want me to win, compared to some of the other tributes this year well the more important ones, I fade in the background a little bit I'm just the angry one, maybe it's better being that way
Being simple
But I know I can't follow Xander's footsteps do what he did because we are different, I just grip onto Rayden's wrist when we walk out finding comfort in him like with the first time "How did you feel when I died" I ask
Xander did say Rayden will most likely die before me, that he is the weakest of the bolded tributes and might of only been put it because they went tributes with links to each other I don't think that's true but he does have a point, in a way I never really thought how I would handle his death when my parents died I didn't really feel much because I was young, would I handle it or will I spiral like Xander, would I want to give up like Rayden did
I don't know then there is also the question of we were both the last two standing, what would happen because I knew Rayden would let me win but I don't want to take advantage of his weak willed nature I may be a rapid Bastard of a dog (Xander's kind words not mine) but I do have a beating heart and what ever the stupid medicine did to my actual heart, because not in one second I believe something weird didn't happen to our bodies
We pretty much got in and got out, in the bloodbath, five did die, not ones I really took notice of to be honest because we need to focus on the ones who are a threat to us, the unstable ones like Harrison, Kellen the dog and maverick, Luca and Caelyn who had had different training and beliefs then us, then Cohen's alliance too, I think Xander is conflicted on who he wants to see walk out, I see it in his eyes he moved one from me and now me being back just brought the pain he tried hide, I know I'm not a pure cold heartless robot, anger is still a emotion, that's really all I have been feeling since I woke up but I try to swallow it
I need to help Rayden to try find the will fight for his life, I knew he wouldn't of survived alone, I don't know if he really just gave up or he knew he was fighting a loosing battle sometimes it's better just to get up and walk away in those situations in that case walk away from life
The rain still pours "SOME FUCKING GLOVES WOULD BE NICE" I scream, Rayden jumps a little as I just pat his shoulder clearly shocking him
"Sorry buddy" I say just ruffling his hair as he looks at me wide eyed, and a parachute hits me on the head as I just throw it at the tree for hitting me
"Ah yeah was not meant to do that" I say, thankfully it comes back to me, this Capitol, technology is a little let's say odd Xander said they can make weapons dissapear to the point it the reason why Aden one in his year, they can rig it, who knows if they will do it again, he did warn me about Caelyn said they might ensure she wins, told me to kill her I told him I would but I wouldn't go out of my way I think his just telling me to do to spite Everett, and I don't want to get involved in a revenge mission that I had nothing to do with although he did say to keep an eye on Maverick, another crazy district two boy surprisingly he ain't blonde
I pull out a pair of gloves 'Don't fucking scream at me- X'
I love this new Xander, yet in a way I also miss the boy I could protect, I don't know I see it in Cohen and Axel to the paternal sort of factor street boys have that they like taking someone under their wing, guess like a wolf taking a pup into their care, makes me want to protect Rayden more because he deserves victory more then me, maybe then most of us "The rain is heavier during the day it's only light at night" he says softly as I look at him, brainiac is right, the rain almost stopped last night yet the sun hasn't once come up it's pretty much pitch black the entire time
Not that I mind it I hated the sun at home too bright, and the darkness makes me attracted like most things
"Makes sense, hope you aren't scared of the dark little fella" I say as we walk through the mud rows of houses everywhere the whole arena is a little let's say terrifying I'm worried that someone with teeth and claws will take us back to where we belong
Which is dead
Good thing is though at least I know Xander will give me what I want "Hey mate can I please get even a nuclear bomb or machine gun" I say Rayden just looks at me smirking but nothing comes
"Fuck head" I mumble
I jump again when someone hits my head and I see a compass, why the fuck he give me a compass but on the back it says CT
What ever the fuck CT mean 'Fuck you-X'
"CT, what does that mean" I say as we keep walking
"Could be a tributes initials" he says
CT, who starts with C, Caelyn, Cohen, those are really the only ones I take notice of but I don't know there last names, Xander better not be making me go on a witch hunt for Caelyn but I know he wouldn't he warned me of her but did say not to openly target her but then say kill her so I don't know what that kid means
Rayden looks at the compass "Actually I think it means Closest tribute" he says changing his mind, closest tribute there is someone near us since he didn't really say run or manic cannibal or assassin freak is close by must be someone of less important
And clearly he is saying we have to do what we have to do, he said his mind sets change, I guess he has a similar mentality to Myren and in away we do need it, we have to be killers, and we have to show the Capitol and freak head cannibal we are not sheep, but I know those two went to the forest areas
Creeps
I keep following the compass Rayden behind me as I hear a banging and I make sure my sledge hammer is on my back "Oh shit" I see one of the boys, I think from 8 try to get into one of the buildings
He looks at me then Rayden as I just step in front of him "I uh, fuck I don't know what to do" he says
I have no idea what his name is or if he even was in my games as usual my bad habit of judging people meant I didn't really take notice of the lesser tributes even though I know it takes one action, one thing and soemone ordinary comes extraordinary Xander showed everyone that and I know I need to show I'm still who I was last game they made my name bold for a reason "don't look at him" I mumble
"I'm not killing anyone I'm not like those careers that roam around slitting throats, I just want to go home" he says
"And 19 others are standing in your way" I say softly I'm waiting for him to lunge or to scream or too run and maybe if that happens I will know what to actually do instead of standing in like a idiot, I should kill him but something is stopping me conscience maybe I don't know but I know it's the only reason why I'm not wielding my blade right now
"I don't want a fight, not when I know I will die quicker and easier" he says
"What do you mean" I say
"Its why you don't feel cold, or you don't have the feeling of dying again" Rayden says
"Us normal ones, the ones that see as pawns, we have weaker blood, which means we will bleed out quicker, yet we don't have any side effects but our blood is dying if one of us win, we won't survive, I doubt we would even make day 7" he says
"We have blood clotters though" I say
"Some do, the rest don't and maybe I don't want to play into their hands, this whole siatution is bullshit" he says
"Tell me about man, fucking hate this, never mind, it just means you won't die slower should be a good thing right" I say
"I have a family knowing I probably have no hope, I just can't be bothered fighting anymore" he says then he just turns around and begins to open the door again, like he believes we aren't threats anymore, that we will just leave him
I just grip my hammer "Camden" Rayden says softly, I have too
"Boom"
I jump as his body crashes to the ground, one hit to the head killed him while Xander told me he beat the girl from two for almost five minutes until she finally died, he was right, these injection they don't bring us back as normal the ones who they don't want to win, they don't have to suffer from coldness and nightmares, the increased fear yet they don't have blood that will make their death slower, it scares me that if one of us win we die anyway but Xander promised me that wasn't the case
Still makes you question their intention, question humanity in general to be honest
"His blood is almost pink" Rayden says softly
I take my gloves off looking at my grazed hands the red blood, the colour blood is meant to be as just lick it spitting it out it taste like blood
"What are the asshats doing" I say
"Clearly ensuring they get the ones they want as victor, that means once all the crossed our names die I'm next" he says softly
"Don't say that buddy" I say just grabbing his wrist wanting to get away from the boy until I start to feel guilt for my dumb actions but I had too I know that everyone does
To win in a games like this you have to be a hunter not the hunted it will just get you killed and I know I don't want to die, I'm scared that what they did will force us to hallucinate mode maybe death isn't even real at the moment, or this whole world isn't real
"What the hell is a nursery" I say
"I don't like the name" he says I just point a finger at the building, as I see a small post office thing again what ever the fuck that is as we just walk in, as I close the doors there is a few writing on the wall and paper everywhere but I guess it's better then constant reminder if my first games because these are memories I would rather not have
Maverick Collins 17, District 2 Male
I flinch when the cannon sounds a small wince escaping my lips as Caelyn looks at me with concern, I have tried to act like nothing was wrong trying to ask her random questions and just trying to seem like I'm okay but I'm not because I'm forgetting, I completely forgot didn't even realise for a split moment I killed Denver it's like when I saw him I completely forgot
Even when she mentioned how I killed a few others, it didn't seem like I did then the fact I keep seeing bodies every where, skinless bodies, I just growl again feeling that anger as I just swallow it and I just open my arms as she knows why and she comes over to me "It's okay, don't be ashamed for forgetting" she whispers
Yet everything I did to her, how much I wanted to torture her even now I close my eyes and I want to see her blood flow through my fingers as I just hold her tighter tears dipping into my lips "It comes and goes I wasn't like this last time, my emotions are all over the place, I feel like ice at the moment and I always taste blood in my mouth" I say, Payton said they did add something to my medicine to all our medicines reason why Caelyn wakes up during the night with a nightmare, when she said she never had them saying that they are weak
I was better before, before she killed me I just growl again but she doesn't panic, doesn't move, even when I take a knife holding it out then I just throw it at the wall looking at her as she just moves a short bit of hair from my forehead, just rubbing my back and that panic leaves "Kill me if you want too, I would rather you do what you want then hurt yourself over it" she says
"Don't be dumb" I chuckle trying to act all happy so she thinks I'm okay, as she just smirks but I still see concern in her eyes yet she almost died twice again yesterday and even if I saw a little bit of shakiness and fear she seemed fined like she has learnt to swallow everything she was a emotionally drained after I found her our last games but that's because she broke every code she has yet even without her strict morals and her loyalty towards she is still the same girl
"I mean have you met me I'm not the most rational person" she says
"You did lead a sibling hood that never got caught you seem pretty rational" I say
"I had an advisor I was more the people person, Everett let me bloody know about it too, he wasn't happy fuck I'm lucky I won't have to see him unless I win would probably get a 10 hour lecture" she says
Payton told me to convince her to target Luca, yet I couldn't seemed like she has a similar idea, she mentioned it and I said yes straight away but the boy is smarter then he thinks, I want him dead so bad, to shred him with poisonous acidic knives that will boil every part of his blood and skin
"In your defence, Payton told me to do it, it's okay to do stupid things if it means we get further" I say
"Aden told me, that his arrogance and the fact he got distracted got him killed but he would of learnt from it, they want us to fight I just don't know if I'm strong enough" she says
"I won't let him Fight you alone" I say grabbing her hand
"But also promise me you will run, there are moments I want to stab you to death, or torture you and I don't know how much longer I can control it, but also know if you do run I will be coming for you, so either way you are a target in my eyes" I say
"That makes me confident" she jokes and I just smile
"But in all seriousness, I trust you okay" she says
"Yet you didn't sleep last night" I say
"Every time I sleep I get harassed with nightmares, I wake up feeling the pain again, I don't want to start spiraling" she says
"You and giving up isn't a thing, it's just as much as a chance of Luca having emotions" I say
"I wish and when you died I was so close to giving up, I wanted to just hand myself over to Aden, I just felt like I had nothing even now if you die" she says
"Don't think that way, I'm ready to find peace again, I'm only staying alive for you" I say just hugging her again, and doesn't seem to care about the no intimacy maybe it's because the Capitol know we won't rebel, They scare the hell out of me and even if Caelyn said she helped the rebels she did it to keep peace, she didn't want them to attack, I don't understand her whole background or what she did but it does fascinate me, like how I use to read the journals of people, I don't even know how I got half of them
I hope I didn't kill them but a few were elderly and I know I never went close to them because in 2 we don't have anyone over like 40, we are pretty much the baby district "What would Harrison mean by come to me to escape your biggest confliction" she says
I flinch I know what Harrison mean it's the same reason why I want to kill her, so I can send her some where no one can hurt her, where no one can take her, deep down I want her for myself, I care for her that much I know I will die and I want her to be there with me but I can't be selfish like that but Harrison he knows I'm her weakness and she is mine, if we do make it to the end both of us would want the other too kill them
Yet why is he protecting allowing her a easy way out it makes me angry and she steps back when she noticed but I out my hands out "If we make the final two what will you do, I mean what will you want to do" I say
"Ask you to kill me" she says softly, one part of me would take that offer in a heart beat cause that's all I want to do
"Exactly, you go to him and he will kill you" I say, I mean so would Luca, so would Kellen, Denver, Griffen every mother fuck in here wants to hurt my girl and I can't let her be hurt like the way Aden hurt her but I know she doesn't want to die and if we are really what everyone says we are, if I love her so much, I have to set her free, I have to let her live through this even if I think death is safer for her
"I can't kill you again Maverick" she says
"You won't" I say because I will probably rip your throat out if you try to I just growl to my self, these urges, the want too kill are stronger but yesterday I did everything to ensure I wouldn't kill anyone, and I didn't even if wanted so bad to hurt Denver, to hurt Griffen I knew Caelyn was more important, I know I need to try and be strong for her, I calm down just counting my knives in my vest as she just puts more supplies in her pocket
"Have names for your knife buddy" she says
I just smirk "You want to hear them" I say
"I will pass" she chuckles, I did use to have a knife I named and spoke to until my phystriast told me not to, that normal people don't talk to knives or objects in general and I tried to move away from that little habit, we walk out the rain heavy, we know to stay somewhere for one night and move to cover our tracks, no doubt the Capitol would of given Luca a tracker, they want a Caelyn V Luca fighters mich as I believe she is strong and brave, Luca has the power of the evil and those people destroy the incident like me, maybe that's why I steal teeth because it will give me innocent spirits
I still don't know how I do it, pull teeth out, I don't even know how I do it so easily, it's hard to pull teeth out I remember doing it to some boy when I was a little kid, I pulled his teeth out one by one to punish him for being mean to me, I just flinch at that memory, Payton said it's a sort of habit, when he use to have his anger episode he use to always shove a piece of paper from a book he carries in his pocket in their mouth, Everett said it was because I use to shove my hand in my victims mouth and use to smash and pull at it
And I never knew why, then the fact I stole their tokens, I close my eyes for a second when we make it outside "I think someone is around here, I swear I hear screaming" I whisper she looks at me
"Could be a ghost thing" she says
I step closer to her shoving her out of the way and running over to what I think is a house as I look back why did I do that, why did I just push her like she was nothing to me, I stop when I hear laughing in side as Caelyn just stands up
"Someone is in there" I say softly when she walks over I put my hand on the knob my arm shaking
"It is a tribute, maybe we should just walk away" Caelyn says
I want to but my killer instinct, the hunter inside me makes me grip the knob tighter "You can't change who I am" I growl at her just opening the door as I walk in seeing one of the younger boys laughing with some clown, I just shut my eyes again "Oh fuck, HEEEELP" he yells when he sees me and that's when That anger comes or maybe it's the deep fear of have with clowns
"Stop screaming" I yell blocking the door why he is screaming, what have I ever done to him, wait a second he was in our games, Parker, I think, why does he think I will hurt him when I never hurt him in the first place
"You were one of the baddies in our games, HEEEELP" he says just trying to run past me but I just growl and I barely even can stop my self from throwing my self at him as we crash to the ground as the knife in my hand goes into his face over again the screaming getting louder and my anger growing
"STOP SCREAMING GOD DAMN IT STOP FUCKING SCREAMING" I yell just bringing my knife over and over again just feeling this rage grow as I hear the distance sound of a cannon but I keep going feeling blood splatter all over my face, as I finally fall off and the door opens as Caelyn walks in and I look at my hands
"I- I" she just goes over to me as I start to panic again that guilt flooding as I feel blood drenched all over me as I look at the body
"I killed a little boy, I didn't mean it, I didn't mean it please forgive me please, I DIDN'T MEAN IT" I yell just smashing my hands into the concrete I can't even-
Breath at the moment as my whole body is in flight mode as Caelyn holds me she brings her lips to mine as I just kiss back my breathing steadying as my mind finally calms down as she pulls back and I just look at her
"They say that holding your breath helps panic attacks" she says softly, I just throw my arms around her
"I'm sorry about getting blood all over you" I whisper
"It's fine we should get out of here, before you start to panic again we need to try and keep us on a downlow" she says, we are pretty affectionate with each other in public not the sort of real romantic stuff because both of us didn't really understand it but she is nervous if we show off our relationship too much the Capitol will start to become concerned because of what happened all those years ago not that we would defy the Capitol in a perfect world Caelyn and I both win but this world is a dark evil place and only the real bad people won
I just wince again when I look in my pocket seeing his token "I don't even remember taking it" I say I still had the tokens of the tributes I killed last time, even Denver's I asked Payton to give it back to the mentors so they can have their token
"It's okay" she says
"Should I give it back" I say
"Maybe just keep it if you win you can give it back to the families, most times they don't even give the tokens back to them, which is why I gave Aden mine" she says
"And why you still had mine" I ask
"We both didn't have family so our bodies went into the victors care technically fuck it feels weird talking about that" she says
"Yeah it is, plus this ghost shit are they real because I swear I see shadows" I say
"I don't know I mean folk tales say they were real but folk tales also believed boys can come back as actual wolves, meeting Kellen I'm starting to believe that but it's okay, you feel guilt don't you" she says
I just nod "He was screaming and it made me angry and scared" I say
"That's what sets you off feeling vulnerable, feeling like your a monster, it's nothing to be ashamed of" she says rubbing my shoulder
She doesn't understand though, but I guess I don't understand what she went through, she never really went into detail about the massacre, or how she ended up actually being in the sibling hood, we still keep things from each other that we are ashamed of I guess if we knew we could have a future together outside this maybe we would of poured our hearts out
We see another small village as rain turns to snow and Caelyn just freezes for a moment as I look at her "We don't have to come here, we could turn away" I say softly
Her games are almost terrorising her, I watched her death Payton had to knock me out with sleeping tablets because I was going to cut Aden's head off no actually that would of been two merciless I could of cut his body into 8363 little pieces, yet still in my states I treat her like crap and it isn't right
She deserves to be treated like gold, precious and fragile
"It's fine, I need to move on I always have" she says as I just grab her hand as we walk into a small two parachute landing by the door, as I pick it up, this is a nice little cabin reminds me of the ones at home, in the special unit they have access to sort of recovery houses, places where you go to be alone made me feel safe and in my own little world and sometimes I wish I could just go back, it will save the pain
But all my life I have felt pain
Griffen Fabel 17, District 4 Male
You could pretty much cut the tension right now with a knife, the mood and the fact Denver and I have barely spoken since our run in with the twos, the run in where I froze like a coward and where I saw a side of him I didn't really expect
But that's typical me freezing at the crucial moments in life and I end up with the aftermath, end up picking up the shattered pieces at least this time no one died but what would of happened if I actually reacted quicker would I of killed someone, now I look like a absolute idiot and maybe Denver is questioning if I'm actually a liability
I question that every day of my life because I can never really take things seriously, in training yeah I was good with knives, but when it came to a fighting situation, I bailed, we were meant to do like fights I never did even when I was fighting Alyse deep down I wanted to run because I don't like hurting people, I knew I couldn't kill Caelyn the fact she didn't even try to fight me off, I didn't want to kill the, they did nothing to me yeah I know they messed with Denver but thats his problem, not mind
Adrian did warn me that the hunger games can either grow or fracture friendships and I guess we were never as close as the twos or even Rayden and Camden, we were mates but I doubt we would sacrifice our selves for each other because I know deep down I'm a little selfish, I never once was conflicted about whether it would be me or Theon had the end because I knew the answer, I just finger my knife I still trust him I'm just concerned what if he makes me kill, I never was a killer I'm not like Denver I don't really have the harsh side I didn't even know he had it and that concerns me
What if he kills me in my sleep even when we meet eyes now we look away, straight away or I could walk, but to where, I have no one else, we didn't spend time making new allies because everyone was paired, I have no one to run to if I did, Cohen already had too allies and I doubt they would welcome me, Cillian and Mia I mean I don't think pairing my self with what cassia said as pawns would be a good idea, and after our little run in with the twos I think Maverick would have my head on a stick in the second
I still like the kid unlike with Campbell there is a heart in there you could see when he changed his mind and wanted to walk but Denver had other ideas, I know his games messed with his head
He said he hated himself for looking like a villain yet he did again, and it was only the first day, it is only the second day and we are crumbling
"Are you all good Man" I say finally saying something, I want to go back to the times we use to laugh and joke this is only day two and there is already so much tension, it's like my first alliance, like his first alliance but I'm not like Luca and he isn't like Campbell so I don't know why it feels like I'm treading on broken glass right now
"Yeah all good, you" he says, you can even hear it in his voice he is angry with me, maybe because I didn't kill Caelyn but we were told not to kill anyone yet, especially her, I kill Caelyn we are both dead
"I'm so fucking tired" I say jokingly
"Then maybe get some sleep then" he says, didn't even laugh or smile at the joke something is wrong, we can't be like this in day two, I look at my rubber ducky as he just goes baCk staring at the chairs, we did go into a bar but nothing comes out apart from sewerage water which he didn't warn me about either
"What's your problem" I say putting my hands up worried it came our a little hostile, his face softens
"These games every thing, messing with my head, what I asked you to do wasn't right but I don't fucking know anymore" he says
"But me doing nothing puts doubt in your mind how reliable i am" I say
He just shrugs "I hate them so much, I tried to apologise but being back in the games being back in the same situation while I face them and you just stood there made me react, I should of handled it better" he says
"We can't be like this, it's only day two, I admit I froze sort of the memories come back I guess I was shocked you attacked straight away but we need to deal with what ever tension there is" I say
"Can I depend on you in a actual situation to help, I know your scared Griffen but so am I, I just don't want to have to carry you" he says
"You carried jett didn't you" l say
"You aren't Jett and you will never be Jett" he screams
I just stare at him, yet my best mate, followed Hendrix and got killed instead of sticking by me, my lips quiver "Griffen I didn't mean that" he says as I just feel something flood my eyes
"Your right though, I'm just useless maybe I should just go" I say standing
"I don't want to die alone again" he says
I just look at him, as he stands up his right, his death was slowed more brutal at least I got knocked out the second my head crashed into the rocks "Then why provoke him" I say
"You don't get what it's like facing your killer don't you, the memories come back, I was disgusted with my self yet when I saw Caelyn who murdered Jett without him even knowing and Maverick I just wanted to make them suffer again and I know it wasn't fair for me to put you in that position" he says
"I don't get it, I also feel betrayed by Theon to the point I feel almost lost and lonely inside and having you treat me like this makes me just want to I don't know" I say
"I'm sorry Griffen you know I can't handle stress please don't leave" he says
I look at him as he steps closer, as I look at the door "All my life people have walked over me, seen me as some clown I thought you would be the last person to treat me like that" I say
"I always looked out for you, made sure no one hurt you why do you think the bullies stopped yet you attached your self to theon, I didn't want to intervene I didn't want to ditch jett either" he says
"Theon didn't even listen to me, I mean I know he told me to run that day and I couldn't but he listened to Hendrix he got himself killed and I thought he would stick by me, I guess I'm just afraid to be abandoned again but I saw what the hunger games did to the victor of my games, I'm afraid if I killed someone like Caleyn the guilt would get to me, I was deep down worried you would leave me" I say
He looks at me "I won't, you are the one looking to leave now, it's okay if you don't trust me, it hurts but it's okay" he says
"I do, I'm just-, the way you treated me I felt like you hated me, like I'm some dumb boy" I say this argument we shouldn't be having it this early
I don't even know what we are arguing about "Your not, can we please start over don't leave me Griffen, cause I'm worried if you do I will go out and hunt district two, you have to try and keep me together and I will protect you, I don't expect you to kill unless you have to" he says
"And when is that final two, four" I say
"We were still raised as careers we still need to have that mindset" he says, I should just walk, but do what?
Hide in a little boys room again, this isn't like my first games, all of us have a second chance for life I don't know some of the tributes as well but I know it's going to be harder and I know I don't want to die again
But if I couldn't kill a girl I literally had pinned down a knife to her neck how will I know I will kill in a life or death station but I did last games, and that boy was even more defenceless then Caleyn
"Okay, but we need to work this out, because if we seem so separated we won't win a fight, especially with some of the duos this year" I say
Normally boys duos unless your lovers like two, are the strongest but Denver and I we aren't street boys we grew up with wealth, happy families both party boys that had over hundreds of people to invite but I guess deep down I was lonely, sometimes it's hard to find a true friend, I guess I was jealous of Cohen and Xander in my years jealous of Caleyn and Maverick if I was spiteful I would split them up but I don't want to be that person
"Start over, why not if we run into a tribute I killed them depending who, if there are two well please don't freeze if it's any of the bolded ones we divert for now, but we should just hang someone it's not a good idea to walk around and I prefer not to go hunting" he says
"Agree my legs are still sore from yesterday like I think I'm going through growing pains ya know, hey I'm taller then you" I say
He just smirks and I smile "Happy we are friends again" I say just throwing my arms around him as he pats my back
"You two from now on we be truthful to each other" he says
"Agree" I say even though I know there will still be tension, especially since we both want to live past through, both don't want to die, would I kill if we both make it to the end I guess, but am I really a killer, Cassia said on, but fuck her
"We should get out of here though, two cannons today wouldn't be shocked if there is another" he says
"You think anyone strong died" I say, I don't know if I'm in that category but my name is not crossed out, I feel for those kids, knowing that the Capitol pretty much want them dead, I don't get why they couldn't just bring everyone with a chance to win but, even if it meant the districts won't be equal, like 11 and 12 die in the bloodbath or the first day pretty much every year as and 8 don't really last too long either, but it's the Capitol they don't get about equality or people in general
"I doubt it, Luca probably has a list or a tracker this year so his probably picking everyone off one by one" Denver says
"Forgot about that kid" I say
"Then the cannibal and statist" Denver says
"What the fuck is a statist" I chuckle
"I mean I can't say the word into demons and stuff, kid was a loopy doo in his first games" Denver says
"I really wish I watched the games" I say I was there but I think I was drunk or someone shit cause I slept through the whole thing
"You seem to party during the games a lot like most of us" he says as we walk out of the bar even if I liked the bar we didn't actually have fun in four we called it the fishermen's shack I loved that place was one of my favs
"Can't now, oh well, this actually reminds me of my arena you know like the buildings even if a lot looked shut so you can't go in" I say or own but think that says come in and die, that's well comforting I love the blood on the walls to such a confident booster I would rather ya know not die in a building could be a trap I guess
"In the snow in the distance and the floor reminds me of mine plus the sky alys being dark even though the stars are pretty" he says
"Nice colours although I swear there was another colour last night and a few more on the first day" I say
"You might be onto something, could be out District colours, you can se that there are a few more like blue stars and less red, could be to do with the tributes alive" he says
"Means district 8 died today" I say, I guess we can be smart and it feels good that the tension we once had has disappeared even if I know our friendship won't always be back to normal
"Who were they" he says
I shrug, I didn't really take notice of much this year it's better just to block it out, we both did "Feel bad for those districts" I say
"They don't have a wicked witch so I'm a little jealous" he says as I just smirk, that's what I hope four get a few victors soon, every other district has at least one good mentor we have Adrian who is Cool but there is only of him going around
"A fishing shop" I say running over to it, I guess I do miss home and any little reminder is quite refreshing, I try to open it as it's locked "I can try" Dever says as I step back and he opens it straight away leading me in as I just frown slightly of course he easily ones up me and makes me feel even worse but I just hide that jealous feeling
Because I know feeling like that will get us both killed
Deaths:
19th: Hudson Pacer, District 8 Male- Killed By Camden Jenkins, District 9 Male
18th: Parker Marchart, District 8 Male- Killed By Maverick Collins, District 2 Male