Chapter 9

"Really Arizona? You ripped up your test and walked out? All because he wouldn't let you use the restroom?" Teddy asks.

"Teddy, for the last time, I was about to be sick. If I had stayed, I would have thrown up all over the desks." I shot back.

"Whatever you say. So I'm guessing now, since you flunked both classes, you won't be home for the summer?"

"Honestly, I don't know Teds. It will depend on what the Dean has to say when I go to see her later. My Professors said that I Could either retake them this summer, that way I don't fall behind in the fall, I may have to, I have to talk to the Dean first to find out out what options I have. So no, I may not be home for the summer."

"Damn it Arizona, I was really looking forward to seeing you." She says letting out a sigh. Before she could continue, I cut in.

"Well I'm sorry. I'm sorry that all the stress I have going on is an inconvenience to you." I didn't mean to yell at her, but with what she just said, pissed me off.

"It's not an inconvenience, I was just saying." Look, I need to get off here, but before I do, I just have to ask? What the hell has been up your ass lately? I know you said you don't want to talk it, but I think you should. This is not the Arizona that I know. This isn't like you. There's something you aren't telling me, and I'm worried." She's right, I'm not the same person I was. I don't even recognize myself anymore. I'm not the same bubbly person I was when I was in Seattle. But I'm afraid to talk to her about it. I'm afraid to tell her what's been going on because last time she was here, and made me take that test, I lied straight to her face. I'm not the lying type. So letting out a breath, I tell her.

"Ok, fine, If I tell you, you have to swear you won't tell Tim." I say to her. I heard her let out a frustrating sigh.

"Ok, fine. I won't tell him."

"Swear to me now, Teddy."

"Fine, I swear. I swear won't tell your brother who happens to be my husband why you have been a crazy, neurotic bitch lately. You happy?"

"Eh heh, you're funny." I say in a mocking tone. I let out a breath, composed myself "Oh god I can't do this."

"Oh come on, Zo. Just tell tell me. How bad can it be?

"It's bad."I tell her.

"God, Arizona, stop stalling, out with it already." She was getting agitated with my stalling.

"Ok, you asked for it." Letting out another sigh, I tell her. "I'm Pregnant..Teddy." The line went silent. She was so quiet, I couldn't tell if she was still on the line or not. "Teddy?"

"I'm..I'm here." She stuttered. I guess the shocking news kind of got to her a little bit. "How far along are you? and Since when?"

"I'm 16 weeks. and I found out that day you made me to take that test." I tell her. "I lied and said that it was negative, but it wasn't. It was positive."

"Jesus Arizona, that's 4 months." I can tell that I caught her off guard. Just by the way her reacted. She probably wasn't expecting that kind of confession. out of me. Exhaling, she continues, "Okay, So if you're 4 months, then that means that when you conceived, it was..."

"New Year's Eve." I say cutting her off.

"Oh god. The night you got super drunk and slept with Callie." she says.

"Exactly!" I say wiping a tear from eye that threatened to fall.

"Wow..umm...Ok." She says, "Explain this to me, because I don't understand, why did you feel the need to lie to me. Especially about this. I would've helped you, Arizona."

"What could you have done? Nothing. No matter what, no one can and wouldn't be able do anything for me. This is my problem, and my problem only." I tell her, my voice breaking.

"Arizona, don't cry. Everything is going to be fine."

"How? How is everything going to be fine? I'm 18 Teddy, I'm still a fucking teenager. I'm not even legally able to drink. So tell me, I really want to know, how is everything going to be fine?" I knew that if I didn't hang up, I was going to yell at her some more, and possibly say something that I didn't mean. "Look I need to go."

"No No, don't hang up yet ok. Here's what I'm going to do, I'm going to come see you."

"No don't. You don't need to do that. I got this." I tell her wiping the tears from my eye.

"Arizona, you don't have it. You're emotions all over the place right now. You failed your classes, which means you will have to retake them this summer. If not, you will fall behind. Let me help you through this. You don't have to deal with this alone. I want to help. Do you hear me?"

"No, Teddy. I can't ask you to just drop everything and come rescue me. I don't need to be rescued."

Teddy let out a long sigh. "You're not asking me, I'm offering."

"Stop offering then. I don't need yours or Tim's help."

Whatever, Arizona. I'm going to go. Call me later and tell me what the Dean says."

"I will." I tell her.

"Thanks. And Arizona..."

"Yeah?"

"I just want you to know that no matter what, I love you. You're my best friend. I'm always going to be here for you. You're not in this alone."

"Thanks. Look, I'll keep you posted on what the Dean says."

"Alright. Love you, Zo."

"Love you too, bye." After hanging up with Teddy, it was time to go meet with the Dean.

"Ms. Robbins, I'm going to be honest, if you don't take the summer classes, you will get behind. This is your only chance to keep yourself from falling behind. Which isn't good. If you keep going with this behavior, ripping up your finals because you're angry, you will end up flunking out of here and losing your scholarship."

"I know that. and I completely understand." I tell her.

"Do you? or is that your way of telling to shut up because you're tired of me talking?"

"No, I do understand."

"Ok, moving on. I've got your final grades here, and I must say, I'm not too happy. Especially when I saw the note the professors wrote. They said that your behavior has been nothing but disturbing and your attitude has been very concerning. It is also stated here that they had informed that you needed a passing grade on the final in order to pass the class, but instead, you got mad, ripped them up, then stormed out."

"I didn't just storm out. I wasn't feeling well and when I asked nicely if I could use the restroom, he straight up said that if I left the room, I automatically failed. So, I just reacted...not in the best way possible, I guess. Look Dean Frost, the way I see it, if I had stayed in the class, I would have puked all over my desk.. and the floor."

"He didn't mention that to me. He just..." I cut her off before she could finish.

"Of course he didn't." I snap folding my arms.

"Ms. Robbins, listen, I don't know what's going on in your personal life, but it's been affecting your grades, not only that, but your behavior too. It's like a whole new Arizona Robbins had risen. You were right on track just before Christmas. What happened to you?"

"I don't want to talk about it." I immediately shot back.

"Well you need to straighten up and I really think you need to talk to someone, because you keep this up, then, we will have no choice but to kick you out. We will not tolerate this behavior here. and I don't really want to see that happen. You have so much potential."

"Look, I can't really promise that things will change."

"Well in that case, Ms. Robbins, I'm afraid that I'm going to have to ask you to pack up your dorm, and return the keys by the end of the week. I'm so disappointed in you. You worked so hard to be here, and it's like you don't seem to care anymore. I mean, you have had it rough when you lost your parents, but it's gotten way out of hand now."

"Can we not bring my parents into this, please."

"I'm sorry. I was just stating the facts. You have flushed all that hard work that you put in, down the toilet."

"Look I don't really care anymore ok." I stood up out of my seat and walked to the door. "I'll have my keys turned in on Thursday by noon."

After leaving the Dean's office, I made way to the little park that was across from the dorms. I found an empty bench, and sat down. Everything that happened the night of New Year's Eve is all coming back into my head. Damn you Callie. It's all your fucking fault. God, how could I have been so stupid?

"Hey, everything ok?" voice asks. I look up and notice a beautiful redhead standing next to me.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I tell her.

"Are you sure? You don't look fine."

"I just have a lot on my mind right now."

"Do you want to talk about it?" she asks me. She moved from her spot where she was standing to come sit down next to me.

"So..that was some final huh?

"What?" I looked at her confusingly."

"You know, the final that we had in COM and CIS."

"I don't really want to talk about it."

The redhead stood up from the bench we were sitting on and turned her body to face me.

"I tell you what, let me give you my number. Can I see your phone?" She asks, reaching her hand out. I handed her the device that was in my hand. "I'm going to program my number in, and whenever you feel like you want to talk, feel free to give me a call, Ok?" She handed me back my phone.

"Thanks." I say to her. Just before she walked away, she turned back around and introduced herself. "My name's Addison, by the way." She reached her hand out for me to shake.

"Arizona." I replied, shaking her hand.

"I know. We had both Com 100 and CIS together this semester. Anyway, take it easy Arizona." Just like that, the red head walked away. Oh, shit. No wonder she looked familiar.