A/N I want to apologize for being so late with my updates, I haven't been meaning to be. I got engaged on the 25th and then found out on the 30th that my dog will be put down because he got a really rare form of cancer. So I haven been taking time to celebrate one thing just to grieve another. I will be trying to keep updating and not let my work go downhill as I know many of you who love this story do want them updates. I refuse to abandon.

Next day- Jason

It's been three days and nothing, no information about where she is or if she is okay. I think I am actually starting to go crazy. I keep looking back on Tess and what made me want her and it's just become a big fuzzy blur. I remember the sex...but I don't remember why I wanted her. She is nothing of my type. Sure she is hot but she doesn't do anything else for me. It doesn't make any fucking sense. I can feel all this friction inside of me, it feels as though my bones are grinding together with anger and confusion. It doesn't help that Timothy and Dick have been avoiding me, staying away from me. Do they think I am going to hurt them? Are they just angry at me for what I did to her?

Why the fuck did I do that to her?

I can't imagine why, I loved her even though I had never said it outloud. Saying those things seemed like a curse to me, everytime I said it to someone something bad happened. I didn't even need to say it this time and something bad happened. One half of me wants to go see Tess, see if I can figure the fuck out why she was so tempting to me. However the other part of me with common sense tells me that isn't a good idea. So I don't, instead I keep on the same self hatred inner dialogue I can't seem to rid myself of. The same confusing questions that keep tearing apart my whole mind. Why did I do this? What drew me to Tess? I had something good going on, sure Raven is hard to read and has some issues but I don't think I am nay better.

One thing I keep replaying in my mind is what I said to her. I don't need sex in a relationship. Sure it's nice and It could be great but I should know better than anyone that throwing someone's trauma in their face isn't okay. Nothing good can come out of it, if she doesn't want to have sex that is her right and I had no right to talk to her the way I did. I just wish I could tell her that. I wish I could fix this now but I can't without knowing where she is. It doesn't even seem like Dick wants to find her anymore, no one does. They just want to walk on egg shells around me, which also leaves me thinking what they know that I don't that could be making finding her not our number one priority right now. It can't be Witch Boy, they need her to go up against him.

I finally stir from my thoughts looking out onto the street, I have been sitting outside in the front yard for hours now, it's so much cooler out here than back in Aruba, back with Raven. The sun doesn't beat down on me the same way. However I can't stop looking over at the spot where the blood stains still rest. They are darker now, dried and crusted into the dark street. Still, I can see where they were. The street sweepers cleaned the broken glass from the still not fixed street lights. If she broke the street lamp to get away like Damian had said then she still has a chance. At least, that was their theory. I have to believe it though. I can't imagine in a million years she would let something like this happen.

"Master Jason, do come inside for lunch" Alfred calls to me, I know better than to argue with him, so I get to my feet dusting off the back of my pants while looking back at the scene one last time. I feel like I am missing something here, something that is right in front of me and I don't know how to see it.

The air conditioning is a nice change of temp, I can smell the bacon he probably re-used from breakfast for BLTs. Alfred makes the best BLT in the whole world I am sure of it.

No one speaks to me while we eat, everyone looking down at their phones while mindlessly chewing away. It makes me feel more alone, like they are chatting back and fourth and just don't want me to know what they are talking about, maybe they found Raven's body and they won't tell me to stop me from going ape shit. I wouldn't put it past them, this family as a warped way of "Protecting" each other from emotional situations.

"So are we all going to stay mad at each other?" I ask, Tim is the first to look at me, his eyes riddled with guilt and sympathy.

"We aren't mad at you Jason" He replies

"Speak for yourself" Dick replies without looking up from his phone. Kori nudges him in the arm sending him a glare. "What?"

"Do not be rude" She scolds turning back to her food.

"Look we aren't mad at you we just...You can't blame us for not being very happy with you at the moment. You cheated on Raven" Dick replies

"Look no offense but our relationship isn't any of your business Dick. It's not any of yours" I say

"It is when it's her. It is when she ends up more than just heartbroken but missing after" He snaps back I shake my head in distaste.

"Oh what? Because you two had a little thing? Until Redhead here came in. She doesn't even want you in her life how is it your business?" I snap back, Kori's eyes widen and then dart to Dick.

"What thing?" She asks

"Oh Dick didn't tell you? Raven used to be in love with him. Then you came along and he went to you as well. Only somehow I don't think it was one sided" I reply she looks over to Dick with pleading eyes, as if he will tell her I am wrong. He doesn't say anything instead he looks down at his plate his face turning a bright shade of red.

"Dick?" Kori asks

"Just because you fucked up your relationship doesn't mean you need to try to fuck up mine" Dick says pushing his chair out and basically storming out of the room, he isn't wrong messing with peoples relationships is wrong. I don't know why I felt the need to tell Kori, it wasn't any of my business. I guess fucking up things is what I do best when you think about it.

Present Day- Raven

It's been quiet here, the crashing of the waves below reminds me of where I was before I came back to Gotham which only brings back painful memories. Cyborg has been checking my blood levels and my symptoms and he is sure I almost completely better, the only thing I need to fix now is my mental state. This whole thing has reminded me on why I don't do relationships, why I haven't ever tried to get into one before. It hurts. I knew coming back would be nothing but pain, I let myself become too involved in something I should have ran away from. I was fine before, sober, working, living alone and able to feel when I had my shit together based on how many books I could buy or when I was going to expand my wardrobe. Now it's if I haven't been targeted for violence in the last two days.

Cyborg as been a great help, and he said I don't need to stay in the infirmary anymore since he doesn't have to worry about my vitals, the good part about being self healing. Even now he checks one more time nodding pleased at the results.

"You have made a great recovery." He beams I am also pleased to hear this, I was sick of the back pain associated with this bed.

"Good. Now to meditate." I reply he nods

"If it makes you feel better to do it alone you could always do it in your room." He says inputting something into his arm screen. I arch an eyebrow

"My room?" I ask

"Yeah, we never touched it after you left. Never go in there, we wanted it to be just how you left it if we were ever able to get you back here" He replies...this makes my heart flutter in some weird way I don't know how to feel.

"Thank you" I force out he nods

"Do you still know where it is?" He asks, I can't tell if he is serious or not. I just nod walking through the infirmary doors, it feels weird to be back here, even weirder knowing I brought myself under a stressful situations. I thought I was aiming for a hospital but I guess my soul self had other plans.

Everything looks exactly the same as I make my way through the halls and floors finding my room where I always knew it was. The door doesn't open for me which is when I remember I need a code. Do I remember my code? It wouldn't be my birthday. I hate my birthday. I put in the only code I ever remembered and the keypad dings green as the door opens with a hiss. I walk through looking at the dark room. I click on the lights not because I want them on but because I need to see how much cleaning I need to do. Everything in here as a layer of dust and even some small webs have formed in the corners of my room. Nothing I can't handle. I can see everything is exactly as I think I would have left it. My books, my magical tomes and candles, all right where I left them.

I drag my finger along the top of my dresser the layer of dust coming off onto my finger. I rub my fingers together letting the dust fall to the floor before I begin my cleaning. I start by grabbing the comforter and the sheets off my bed, I need to wash them if I am going to be in here. A knock at the door gets my attention as I shake the last pillow out of my cases. I walk to the door letting it open revealing Cyborg once again.

"I just realized you might have wanted to clean so I brought you some supplies" He says with a smile handing me a bucket full of cleaning chemicals and I broom and dustpan. I smile taking it from him and setting it on the floor. I gesture for him to come into the room and look around.

"Do you want to help?" I offer his eyes light up in surprise and delight. "I need my sheets washed and everything and I was hoping you could take them down for me"

"Yeah I'll help...yeah..umm are those it?" He asks pointing to the pile in the middle of the room. I nod he walks passed me grabbing all of them into a bundle. The mound of sheets and blankets make him look kind of small in comparison. "I'll go put them in right now"

"Thank you" I reply turning to the rest of the room. I begin with taking down the webs with the broom, it's an easy job and luckily they aren't spider webs and just cob webs from the dust but I don't mind either way. I sweep them into the pan dragging out the trash can from where I left that in my bathroom. It's empty...I left on a cleaning day. I dump the dust into the bin and carry it to the middle of the room, I am going to need it to put the paper towels in when I finish wiping everything down. I wonder if my vacuum is still in my closet. It is. Delightful. The cleaning part I don't mind, it gets my mind off of Jason, off of everything else. Even when Cyborg comes back in helping me knock all the dust onto the floor and wipe down the windows I don't think about it. He doesn't ask me about it either. We both just clean in silence.

"This room is looking more like someone lives here" He deadpans, I nod looking around pleased with what we have done.

"I should check on the sheets" I say he shakes his head putting a hand up

"I had Jaimie keep an eye on them." He answers, I nod almost shocked he had already taken care of that. "Is it weird...being back I mean"

"It is. I didn't think you guys would have kept my things" I admit

"We were riding on the hope you would come back. That we would have been able to convince the League to change their minds. They wouldn't let us talk about it though" He replies, I nod

"You tried?" I scoff almost in shock.

"We weren't cool with it. I was ready to hack computers until they allowed you back but Dick told me it would make things worse for you. We never wanted you to leave" He admits, I can tell he is telling the truth.

We fall into a comfortable silence again as we continue to clean, the small things I didn't think we would notice but when the rest of the room was done I felt like I would. I even used a paper towel to clean the dust out of my old candles I left here, lighting them to let the smell of my room be anything but dust and years of vacancy. Finally the only thing left to do is put the bed back together, I look around the room satisfied with how it has turned out. I can't contain the small smile spreading on my lips.

"Disculpe, the sheets are ready" Jamie says carrying them in through the door and laying them at the foot of the bed.

"Thank you Jamie" Cyborg says, I give him a nod as he walks out of the room and stare down the pile of pillows needing cases and the mattress. My feet hurt from being on them but it's good to be moving around.

Cyborg takes the right side as he helps me put the fitted sheet on, it's always the one I had the most trouble with. I always use clips too, to keep the sheets on the corners, I remember the countless nights before when I would get angry when it didn't stay on the corner and popped up. That was a different type of frustration. The clips help keep it in place. Once we finally get those on as well I breath out with relief. The rest is easy. Cyborg starts on the pillows and cases while I finish up the rest of the bed.

"So do you know how long you will be here?" He asks me tossing me a done pillow I put it to the side, it doesn't go on yet.

"I don't know. I think I just need time away from everything. I don't really have anywhere else to go unless it was with Jason. I could always go back to Gotham for work. Bruce still as my position for me but he could be there and it would be weird" I say

"Well you can stay here as long as you want, you don't have to go anywhere. You don't have to go on Missions with us." He offers, I nod mulling it over.

"Let's see how it goes now and I will let you know" I reply, he nod tossing me another pillow, I put it on the right side where it goes and set the one he gave me before on the top of it.

"I know you will need your space so if you ever need me to just bring you food just text me. I don't mind. I know it will be weird here at first" He offers again, I smile looking down at the clean sheets. Cyborg so far has been the only person I haven't felt like he was trying to force his way back into my life. Even when we were all at the manor he always kept his distance never made me feel like I was in any way required to forgive him.

"Thank you Vic" I say his eyes flutter for a moment making sure he heard me right. When we were close, I always called him Vic. I don't think he ever thought I would call him that again after everything, but it felt right. He smiles brightly handing me the last two pillows. I set them in their order and pat them down. The room finally smells and looks exactly how it used to.

"Hey umm...did you want me to keep you updated with the case? Dick has been sending me updates so we know if we need to go and help" he asks I mull that over in my head, do I want to know? Will it just make things worse?

"Yeah sure, keep me updated. If Witch Boy tries anything worse than what he has I might have to bite the bullet and help" I reply honestly, I would help too. Leaving anyone to the magic that is With Boy would be basically letting them die. I can't do that to anyone.

"oh and Vic" I say as he walks out, he turns around in the doorway "I forgave you a long time ago. It just never stopped hurting until now"

He smiles turning back around and leaving me to my room. I don't waste anytime, moving down to sit and to meditate. I finally feel like I can now.

Present time- Third POV

Tess didn't mean to let the girl get away, in fact she had tried to make sure she didn't. Not hesitating to stab her twice and letting Cheshire stab her another time, she thought for sure the girl would be a goner by then, only now she is looking at a recording of her love being zapped with elongated tasers and knows it's her fault. Why didn't she go for the throat?

"Please stop, Reverse Flash was there and he didn't do anything to stop her leaving either!" Tess begs, Taila clicks he tongue shutting the computer screen in front of her.

"You had everything you needed to get her out of the picture and you didn't" Taila says leaning close into the table

"I tried, You didn't tell me she could teleport. I did my part. I broke them up. I even had sex with that guy! I am not even into guys!" She shouts She wanted nothing more than to be in Zari's arms again. They both got away from the bad life style and now it seems no matter what they do they can't get back into it.

"Her attack was caught on by Dick. Which means that they could know more by now. They could be on to us" Taila spits

"It was dark how was I supposed to know? You told me to break them up and then get rid of her. I broke them up and she got the drop on us. Cheshire was the one on top of her before she got away" Tess says pointing to the silent assassin in the corner

"We can't trust that the Bat Family doesn't already know about you, so we need to keep you here. No more movie theater and no more Jason. The rest will have to be done by us. Regardless with Raven out of the way he will be easier to convince to come here quietly." Tess says, she leans against the wall looking over to the girl who didn't do as she asked. How could she have been so careless as to let the girl escape. If her knowledge of who attacked her alone could have their whole thing shut down.