So yes I know I broke schedule but now they are all even. City of Hurt has 9 chapters City of dreams has 8 chapters and City of hell has 8 but after I post those two extra chapters they'll all be even then I'll be taking a little break it will be temporary but still it will only be for a week. Then I'll be back this break is just for me to read clockwork angel get on with school work and have a little break because of my mental health problems.
Thank you so much for reading this Fanfic really it means a lot and it really helps venting on here If anyone ever needs to speak about problems like anorexia bulimia self harm suicide pm me or review then I'll pm you and you can talk. I am not a professional but I do know a lot about mental health problems and self harm as I have been through some of it and Your not alone you will never be alone there are thousands of people who have been through it and you will get through it every day its worth something.
Date started: 20/01/21 or 01/20/21
This world is not better off with out you nor will it ever be, you are worth something no matter what.
DISCLAIMER: I do not own the mortal instruments the film the books or the series. I also do not own any songs or plays mentioned in this fic all I own is Rose Fallon Marcel. I do not own Klaus or Elijah as they belong to the creator of the originals. I barley even own the plot. I hope you enjoy.
Ps City of hurt is finally finished I want to thank who ever read it and is reading this
After Clary noticed Tian's eyes roll to the back of her head she yelled for Katerina. Katerina came in and had helped her but Tian was still unconscious.
"Clary what's going on?" Fallon asked, worried about her.
"Whatever your rune did it helped her, but it didn't fully help her it wasn't your fault she should wake in a few hours. Also she can't use her magic otherwise she will die she can use her magic but after she is healed." Katerina said with a small smile before moving outside the room. Jace had just woken Magnus and Alec up and had sent some fire messages to Elijah and Izzy, they didn't need to do one for Klaus as he had already gone to the infirmary where he saw his youngest sister.
Clary had stayed by Tian's side so did Fallon but she left once she saw Klaus and Elijah. Jace and the rest of them saw that Clary had clearly been crying and she continued to cry when she recalled what had happened. Jace hugged her and Clary hid her pale face in the crook of his neck. They had sat in the infirmary for days till she woke up. Fallon was asleep in a chair holding Tian's hand and when Alec woke up he noticed.
Magnus had gone to get the root to help Tian, Simon hadn't stepped foot in the institute since Izzy had called him and told him what had happened. Alec ended up getting coffee for everyone and a book for Jace who mouthed 'Thank you' after Alec gave the book. Klaus was resting in another chair in the room but on the opposite area next to Izzy, Clary had ended up falling asleep when Jace had told her that Tian would be ok but he was unsure if Tian actually was. Clary was the first one to wake up and she nudged Jace awake but in a response he groaned, before opening his eyes and then Gold met Green.
"Clare? What's wrong baby." He whispered careful not to wake anyone, Clary looked down at her hands and started to fiddle with a piece of string that was loose from her top.
"She still hasn't woken up." She said worriedly, Jace took one of her hands and she looked up at him and smiled.
"She is a Herondale and a Fairchild she is strong Clare she will wake up soon." Jace tried to reassure her but he knew that it didn't and wouldn't till she was actually awake. Tian's eyes had fluttered open revealing her now gold eyes, Tian moved her fingers a little and Clary saw it but she didn't notice that Tian was actually awake what she noticed was the intertwined hands between her and Fallon. Clary's eyes lit up,
"Jace look." She pointed towards Tian and Fallon smiling. Jace looked at them and smiled too.
"Is there something going on between them finally?" Jace said. Clary laughed at his words, they knew that they loved each other but they were to scared to admit it to each other but if something finally happened maybe they would tell each other finally. Tian startled them by coughing through her tube which had been changed after Katerina came in.
"Tian's awake." They both said at the same time, before both of them looked at Tian the exact same time. Alec ended up stirring the exact same time they looked at Tian, he saw Fallon was still holding Tian's hand and smiled, Jace and Clary had gone to get Katerina who told everyone to stay outside so Tian could have a mask instead. Once that was done Katerina told everyone that they can come in to see her, Klaus went in first and handed her writing book so she didn't have to speak.
'I'm sorry I lied to you.' She wrote, he hugged her.
"Hey it's ok now you did nothing wrong." He whispered, before hugging her again just as Izzy came in. After Klaus drew back Izzy hugged her.
"Are you feeling any better?" She asked, but just as Tian was about to write her response the door to the room had swung open, Robert put his seraph blade to Clary's neck and everyone drew their swords ready to protect Clary no matter what.
"Put the swords down or she dies." Robert said getting ready to move the blade across her neck, Klaus dropped his sword and so did the others but there was a slight communication between Klaus and Tian. There was a protection on everyone but because Tian was so weak it could cause permanent damage so to stop Robert, Tian used her magic to push him away from Clary and knock him unconscious but as she did she gave into the unforgiving darkness. Clary could only hear the warning Katerina gave her about Tian and the magic, she practically ran to her daughters side with tears falling on Tian's stone cold skin Clary kept whispering no please god no.
"Jace give me your stele." She demanded whilst choking on her tears, Klaus had collapsed to the ground, feeling his Parabatai dying he wished for god even though he didn't believe in praying, he wished for god to save her.
"Clare you know what Katerina said but she's gone." He whispered the last part hoping it wasn't true.
"Just Pass me your fucking stele please." She begged, he sighed before giving her the stele and she drew the rune that she had envisioned. It pulled Tian back from the drowning darkness, she tried her best to open her eyes and she did. Alec helped Klaus up as Tian wrote 'Mom you're ok.' Clary smiled at her before moving a strand of Tian's hair out of her face, Jace hugged Tian and Clary. After that Klaus and Elijah were called on a mission as Izzy being the weapons master needed to fix them some new swords. Alec, Clary and Jace waited outside the hospital room talking to Kat, Fallon had now moved to Tian and finally confessed her feelings.
"Tian I know you loved me before Rose I loved you too and I still love you, after you get better maybe we could be together?" She asked holding Tian's hand. Tian looked up at Fallon and removed her mask before wrapping her arms around Fallon's neck and kissing her hard on the lips. Fallon kissed her back before pulling away and helping Tian put the mask back on. Tian wrote on the pad 'Did that answer your question or do I need to say it again?' Fallon smiled at her,
"I think you need to do it again." And Tian did what she just said and kissed Fallon softly on the lips before putting the mask back on. Alec had come back into the room after a few minutes and saw them hugging which caused him to smile. Katerina had changed Tian's mask to a nasal cannula (A/N I had no idea on what they were called till i searched it up believe me when I say I do not want to become a doctor.) Alec cleared his throat and Tian looked at him with a concerned expression whilst Fallon just looked at him if he was insane. When Clary and Jace came in, Tian tried her best to speak but struggled.
"M...Mo...Mom D..da...dad I'm sorry." Jace and Clary just hugged her before saying,
"You have nothing to be sorry for but we do need you to eat something so as long as you can eat a little bit it will help." Clary said softly, Tian nodded her head before eating some of the biscuits and not finishing them all but at least she ate some. (A/N For people who are recovering from ED this is a big step because they are used to thinking that if they eat they will become fat or disgusting but if they even eat that little bit with out throwing it up and without skipping it, It is an amazing thing it means your getting better and becoming more healthier.)
"Fallon and I will be staying here and I will not take no for an answer Jace." Alec said and finished whilst Jace had started to protest, But instead of fighting Alec he just listened and said goodnight to his daughter whilst Clary did the same. Soon after they had left Tian and Fallon had cuddled till both of them fell asleep, Magnus arrived after leaving Madzi with Lorenzo and kissed Alec.
"Well hello Handsome." Alec laughed at that statement before speaking,
"Hello husband." Alec kissed Magnus. "Tian is currently asleep in Fallon's arms." He grinned before Magnus wolf whistled which earned an eye roll from Alec.
"Looks like she got a Jace or Alec even Simon." Magnus said shaking his head which caused glitter to fall. Alec turned his head to the side in a questioning way.
"What do you mean babe?" Alec questioned,
"Someone who would die for you like I would just to keep you safe." Magnus sighed before kissing him on the lips again.
Clary and Jace's pov
When Jace and Clary went to their room, Clary could sense something was wrong with Jace so she grabbed his hand and sat down on the bed pulling him with her.
"What's wrong goldilocks?" Jace laughed sadly at the nick name but looked at her with tears brimming his eyes.
"Ever since she collapsed and everything how we almost lost her twice, it just keeps reminding me of when she was born and after she was taken away and put wherever they put her. The Clave took her from us and tried to make her their solider and it just makes me feel so powerless about how I wasn't there to save her." When Jace finished he was in tears and so was Clary because he knew she was also thinking about that day.
-Flashback-
After Magnus and Katerina took her out of the room and Clary screamed after that the Clave barged in the door and demanded that Clary and Jace give Tian to the Clave. Jace and Clary of course said no and told them to get out but that wasn't just what had happened.
-Time jump in the flashback (Ik) 3 days-
Three days thats how long Clary had spent watching their daughter in the incubator breathing through the help of a tube. Three days since the Clave had told them that Clary and Jace would never see Tian again. Three days since Clary had officially been a mother. The Clave had sent numerous threats to Jace, Clary, Izzy and Alec but they all didn't read them because of how worried they were about Tian. Jace had been on a few missions to try and get his mind off of the fact that he might loose his daughter and he could do nothing about it. Clary had barely moved from her spot next to the incubator and barley even ate, both Izzy and Alec were worried about their Parabatai's and tried their best to help them and sometimes it worked but most of the time it didn't.
Magnus and Katerina came in to check on Clary and Tian, they kept making sure Clary ate but she rarely did. The Clave ended up taking Tian for tests despite Jace trying to stop it. They didn't see her for about 7 years till Clary and Jace ended up fighting most of the Clave and got her back. Jia Penhallow never knew about this until she helped Jace and Clary get Tian back.
During the years without their daughter Jace, Magnus, Alec and Izzy watched Clary slowly become more and more distant between them becoming more focused on ways to find Tian, she ended up being hospitalised in the infirmary after collapsing from lack of sleep and lack of food. Clary ended up becoming more and more healthier and became more closer with Jace, Izzy and Alec after what happened but she and Jace never fully recovered till they got Tian back. The Clave had run multiple tests on her Aldertree leading most of them and yet found nothing. Even though Tian was a child she had hid anything that told the Clave she was powerful, Tian had cried endlessly after being separated from her parents.
Tian could feel and hear everything that her mother was talking about even though she wasn't ever near her, the Clave never stopped the tests and taught her how to fight that was how she met Klaus. The Clave taught her and Klaus how to fight and eventually had planned to make them Parabatai. But those plans were put to a holt when Clary and Jace eventually found her strapped to a table unconscious and him on the floor passed out. The Mikelsons never knew that Tian was there without her parents wanting her to and because of her powers they never suspected that she was the daughter of the Herondales, they eventually found out and helped Jace get his child back.
About 50 clave members were in on it and a few were killed but the others were sent to the silent city for kidnapping. Jace and Clary never forgave themselves for their daughter disappearing. Tian had met all of the Mikelsons during her 'training' and when Haley died she felt as though she lost her best friend. Tian never spoke about the torcher she endured during those years and she never once told anyone that Klaus knew what happened. Fallon and Rose knew that she was there in fact the Mikelsons were the only source of her interaction with people, the Clave were awful towards her because of her powers but she never once said anything.
-End of flashback-
"Jace why didn't you tell me?" She said trying to not let the tears fall.
"Because I didn't want you to worry, I just felt so helpless seeing Tian like that and it just kept reminding me about what happened with the Clave and how it took us 7 years for us to find her. We missed 7 years of her childhood." He spoke letting the tears finally fall, Clary also let her tears fall before kissing him and wrapping her arms around his neck. She pulled back, looked into his golden eyes and rubbed the side of his face.
"Jace, I know we missed 7 years of her life but we've got her for another few years. I'm so sorry that I make you feel that way. I love you Jace." She sighed, Jace knew what she meant by 'I make you feel that way' but said nothing.
"I love you so much and I'll love you forever Clare." Jace said before leaning down and kissing her, he wrapped his arms around her waist and she pulled him closer. In the end they both fell asleep holding each other. Fallon had woken up and never realised how good waking up next to Tian was so she brushed one of Tian's curls away from her face, thinking 'She's so beautiful even with her scars.' Fallon got up gently so she didn't wake Tian, she saw Alec resting on Magnus' shoulder and she knew Alec and pretty much everyone hadn't slept or rarely slept since Tian had fainted 3 weeks ago.
"How is she?" Magnus whispered. Fallon sat down in a chair next to him.
"Better but she's in a lot of pain, she may not tell us but I know she is and she's struggling without the yinfen and self-harm. How did Izzy get through the yinfen addiction?" Fallon sighed,
"She was given the L'isle edam root by Sebastard. I'll get it when Alec wakes up though." Magnus said reaching out to hold Fallon's hand,
"Thank you Magnus." She said, he gave her hand a small squeeze.
"Anything for my Niece's girlfriend." He chuckled at the expression on Fallon's face,
"H...Ho...How did you know?" She asked flabbergasted, Magnus just nodded his head towards his sleeping husband. Fallon rolled her eyes,
"He really needs to stop let me guess he and Jace had a bet going on?" She said laughing silently, Magnus didn't say anything confirming her suspicions. "Ok so he did. Do you want anything from the cafeteria?" She asked. Magnus shook his head as Fallon moved to get up, Fallon left and grabbed Taki's instead of the cafeteria food. She also went into Tian's room and grabbed the book that she was currently reading, Tian had taken after her father with the love of books. (No not like the book club jace talked about in the ep i think is the 2x14) After she finished grabbing everything she walked back to the infirmary and placed two food bags for Magnus and Alec then placed the rest of them on the table that was in there. Fallon just eat her food and watched her girlfriend's beautiful face but not in a creepy way in a way that was loving and caring.
Clary was back in the dream world remembering the condition Tian was in after they had found her and Klaus. And just like that day she screamed but only Jace heard her, he immediately bolted up right to wake Clary up from her nightmare.
"Clare." He said softly. "Clary c'mon baby wake up." He said more urgently, trying to wake her up. When he did she screamed again before bolting up and breaking down into sobs, he wrapped his arms around her shaking form whispering sweet nothings into her ear. After a while Clary started to calm down and Jace asked her the million dollar question (Note Sarcasm) "Clary? What happened mi amour?" She sobbed before sighing.
"I saw her from when she was on that table. That god forsaken metal table where they tortured her." She sobbed. Jace shut his eyes at the memory that surfaced and wrapped his arms around his wife, stroking her hair comfortingly. They stayed like that till they fell asleep.
Time jump- few hours
Clary ended up waking first and escaped Jace's grasp to get dressed. When she nudged Jace he groaned before almost falling back asleep.
"C'mon sexy Jace." She said sarcastically and laughed but got hit with a pillow in the process, Jace laughed at Clary before kissing her and getting dressed. Tian had just woken up and reached for Fallon's hand only to be met with her girlfriend's face, Tian opened one of her golden irises to see Fallon's green eyes.
"Do you want some Taki's." She asked, Tian nodded and ate some of her favourite food. The only rewards Tian ever got from that place was Taki's new weapons and stele's but never any visits from her parents. Jace and Clary were plotting birthday plans before going into the infirmary and walking in on Tian and Fallon kissing.