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Chapter 11

CRACK

Severus's P.O.V

I was in my living room lying on the sofa trying to massage my headache away. so much as happened over the past four days. Finding the little one, healing him, petunia's confession, Lily, that monster's memories, what happened to Tonks, Sirius freedom, and both boy's memories.

It was taking its toll on me if I was being completely honest. I hadn't slept properly since little one came. At least little one and Sirius are healing nicely. Sirius was now sleeping in a room next to the little one's room. I hope they come closer in time. The little one needs family.

Petunia was back at Minerva's. All Petunia wants is her son… but the damn ministry is disallowing her from doing so. Amelia was furious when she found out.

So now Amelia, Kingsley, and Alastor were at the ministry working on the case. Trying to get the trial sorted out quickly as possible to get mother and son back together as quickly as possible. All I can do from this point is wait.

My floo Flared up. "Severus? May I come through?" said the familiar voice.

I let my wards down. "Come through Albus." It was about time. No one could get hold of the man.

Albus came through the floo. "all is well?" the twinkle was in his eyes.

I sat up shaking my head. "No Albus, all is not well"

Albus looked at me with concern. "What as happened Severus?"

I sighed pinching the bridge of my nose. "Lots Albus! Lots of things have happened!" I wanted to scream or cry. I didn't either, as I told Albus everything I knew.

Albus didn't say a word, his eyes were dull. The twinkle was now gone from his eyes. I was sat in front of a very pissed-off wizard. His body started to shake as he held in his anger remorse and despair. "excuse me for a moment, Severus. I don't wish to destroy your house." he left through the floo Albus man was so angry he forgot to close it. I had already put a silencing charm upon the room. Just not the floo network to my house.

I could see into Albus, he was stood in the middle of the room of his living room.

CRACK.

His magic exploded. "THAT STUTIPED FAT MONSTER" He roared. "FUCKING BASTARD!"

CRACK

"OH! I COULD FUCKING KILL THAT THING!"

CRACK

"SICK TWISTED STUPID"

CRACK

"PERVERTED BASTARD!"

His living room looked like a bomb had exploded. The whole room was black and smoking. His things were burnt to a crisp.

I had never seen him that angry… swear ever… It was scary to watch… I am defiantly glad he had left my house…

Albus came back through. "…sorry about that…" he said.

I shook my head. "don't be, I been wanting to do that for days too. I think we all have." I looked at him. "your scary as hell when you're mad"

Albus nodded in agreement. "Now do you understand why I don't lose my cool?"

I nodded. "I do…it was quite eye-opening…"

Albus smiled. "you have done well my boy. You are doing all the right things"

I sighed. "Am I? five days ago I was calling him the perfect potter brat… I deliberately did go to the little one" I cried out. "He would have died if I had gone an hour later! I don't deserve him! He deserves anyone but me!" I sobbed into my hands. "when he trials over and his healed! Sirius will take him away! I will be alone again! Like I meant to be! I'll be hated again! put on the shelf! until I am wanted again like a doll!" I wanted to stop talking I just couldn't. "everything I ever wanted! Ever loved Was taken away! So why start caring now" The tears wouldn't stop. I could never keep my feelings in around my mentor. I also knew I need to sleep.

Albus rubbed my back. "Severus Shawn Snape! You look at me now!" he demanded. "Severus You saved him. Severus, You healed him. Severus, you made the pain go away. You explained to him about his parents. You have bathed him clothed him and fed him. Showed him every bit of love you have. You did that Severus. Not me. Not Amelia. Not Sirius. Not Minerva. You did Severus with help from poppy. But it was from your action he even let people see him." he lifted my chin. "If anyone deserves him after all of that. It would be you Severus." Albus smiled as he wiped away my tears. "you want him to don't you?"

I nodded. "yes but the ministry would never allow it…" I rubbed my arm where that blasted mark is. "even if I am reformed… it's alright for ex-death eaters to have children… but adoption… they would never allow it… "Albus rubbed my back. "I wish I turn back the clock… so he wouldn't have to hurt… he could have been mine…"

Albus looked at me slightly confused "I don't understand, how he could have been yours?"

I sighed "lily asked me to be the little one's godfather… they didn't know if Sirius was going to die… it was a possibility it could happen… I said yes… the ministry knows this… and have refused my request for seven-years… now Sirius is out of jail with no crimes no record… he gets the little one…"

Albus smiled at me. "I didn't know you were speaking to lily."

I nodded. "yes I was. No one did. Expect for lily and James I think. James wasn't too happy about it according to lily but he would do anything to make her happy. So he went along with it."

Albus nodded "see even lily knew you were good for her son."

Sirius's voice caught me by surprise I hadn't heard him come in. "So did James in the end." he limped over to us. "when you came to the right side lily made us see through her eye. I finally understood at that point. You were her best friend. And if anything did happen to me. Harry would have been in better care in your hands. I was there when they signed the will remember."

I nodded. "but I can't have him!"

Sirius sat down. "why not?"

I looked at him. "ministry won't-

Albus raised his hand. "I will see what I can do."

I shook my head. "there are too many people who could take him now."

Sirius bumped my arm. "they may be many people who could take him. But they would want to harry to be with someone who can help him the most. I think that you Severus."

My floo flared up and Amelia walked in with Kingsley and Alastor. I had permitted them to come through anytime.

They were angry.

Amelia slumped down into one of the armchairs. "Trial is set for tomorrow! Which is fine! I am happy about that!" she wiped her face with her hands. "they want the boys to testify! Especially harry! I said no! But they said they would demote me if I didn't!" Amelia cried. "they said it because of the stutter! they need to make sure we are not lying!"

We all sat in silence. Our thoughts on what the ministry wanted to put the little one through.

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