CLARY POV
I wait the day out and before I know it's 2:30 am so I ace back and forth. I hate what I'm doing to Jace and what he'll think of me after this. Will he see me as Rissa or the monster others do. I write a letter to him and prepare myself for my father. I hear chimes going off in the background letting everyone know another hour has passed. Clarissa come to the library. All right Father. I take a breath and walk towards the library where I see many Circle members. I feel one behind me taking off the rune that binds me to the Institute. I close my eyes and slowly create a portal walking through. "Clarissa, my child, how I'm proud. I smile and take the cup out of the card and hand it to him. "As you asked." "Excellent. Now go train, I will call you when the plan is set." he tells me. I nod and walk towards the training room in the Morgenstern Manor. I feel terrible about what I'm doing to Jace, I love him so much. What will I do?
JACE POV
"Rissa's gone?" I ask. I woke up to alarms going off. My first thought was to protect Rissa, but then I figured that she would probably be the one protecting me. Then, I heard people screaming that 'she's gone' and 'the prisoner has escaped.' Then it completely hit me that they were talking about Rissa. Is she gone, did she really just leave. After Maryse and Robert explained everything to all of us I learned that she found the Mortal Cup and just left. I run to her room and find a note left on her bed so I pick it up.
I'm sorry. I know that those words will never be enough, but it is all I can say. I didn't know what else to do than what I was sent here to do so I stole the cup and ran. I want you to know that I truly do love you, you will never believe it, but it is true. I know that I'll be sentenced to death so during that battle I want you to be the one to kill me. If you're thinking about giving me mercy, don't. I'm a monster who is losing her humanity. In a matter of days my demon blood will kill me and I will be reborn as a greater demon. I just couldn't leave this world without telling you how I feel about you. I'll love you until the day I die, and after that, my love for you will still be there. Thank you for giving me the best birthday ever.
I love you, goodbye
Rissa
She's gone, she's really gone. I come back out with the letter and my face in tears. "Rissa left, she knows that there will be a war and she wants me to kill her. She's also going to die soon and become a greater demon eventually. So either way she'll die so congrats!" I say sobbing. "Jace, I know you're deeply in love with her, I can feel it. Just as I can feel your need to find and forgive her." Alec says. I just simply shoot him a glare. "Jace is it true? Do you have feelings for Clarissa?" Mom and Dad ask me at the same time. "Yes" I mumble. Basically everyone just stares and me and Izzy walks over and tells me that she would've done the same in Rissa's position because she would just obey Valentine too. I relax, I guess that makes me feel a little better about not wanting to punish Rissa.
"All active shadowhunters are being summoned to Alicante immediately because Valentine has made his move." Robert all tells us. We pack and head to the portal and end up in the Gard. While walking to the Herondale Manor, I think about Rissa and how she's here, but she wants me to kill her. What she doesn't understand is that I love her and despite everything I just want her to come back if anything, for me.