I got my driver's license last week
Just like we always talked about
'Cause you were so excited for me
To finally drive up to your house
But today I drove through the suburbs
Crying 'cause you weren't around
Everything was crashing down around her. How could she have been so stupid? To think love was real. To think that he wouldn't eventually leave her? People always leave, didn't she know that by now?
She allowed him to get too close, she allowed him forever only for him to leave. Only a note left behind. A fucking note? Was she not good enough to be told to her face?
And you're probably with that blonde girl
Who always made me doubt
She's so much older than me
She's everything I'm insecure about
Yeah, today I drove through the suburbs
'Cause how could I ever love someone else?
He went back to her. To Izzie Stevens who had up and left, just like he did. The irony; she had left him with a note too and somehow Alex thought it was okay to do the same to Jo.
She grabbed a picture frame that sat on their nightstand as tears streamed down her cheeks. Their wedding picture. It made her angry just looking at it. They were happy, or at least she thought they were. Sure, they had their ups and downs but didn't every couple?
And I know we weren't perfect, but I've never felt this way for no one
And I just can't imagine how you could be so okay now that I'm gone
Guess you didn't mean what you wrote in that song about me
'Cause you said forever, now I drive alone past your street
She tried to move on. But how could you move on from someone who promised you forever? How could you move on from someone that you opened yourself up to? Alex was the only person that made her feel safe after several abusive relationships and in the blink of an eye, he was gone forever.
"God Damnit, Alex!" She screamed, throwing their wedding picture across the room, watching as the glass shattered as it hit the wall. She couldn't stop; one by one she pulled things out of the box in front of her, the rest of his belongings, throwing them as hard as she could. Some things shattered, some just slid down the wall. She thought it would make her feel better. She was wrong.
And all my friends are tired
Of hearing how much I miss you, but
I kinda feel sorry for them
'Cause they'll never know you the way that I do
Yeah, today I drove through the suburbs
And pictured I was driving home to you
She heard a knock at the door but she didn't answer it. Whoever it was, she didn't want to see them. She didn't have a choice however, once the door opened. "Jo, are you here?" She heard a voice say. She looked over, seeing Meredith coming up the stairs as she took a seat on the bed.
"Yeah, I'm here." She whispered, her voice cracking.
"What happened here?" Meredith asked, seeing the glass and other items spread out across the apartment. Jo laughed bitterly, running her hand over her face.
"Redecorating. What does it look like?" Jo snapped. She got up, heading over to the cabinet as she grabbed a bottle of vodka, pouring herself a glass.
"Jo, are you alright?" Meredith asked, concerned.
"Oh yeah, I'm totally fine. If you don't count my husband leaving me to go back some blonde who obviously didn't want to be with him if she left him by note and didn't bother reaching out after to see if he was okay. Destroying our marriage after he promised me time and time again he wouldn't leave me. Yeah, I'm fan-fucking-tastic."
"Okay, let's put the glass down," Meredith instructed, walking over to take it from her. "You don't need this."
"You don't know what I need, Meredith. Your husband died, he didn't run off to be with another woman." Jo muttered, her words slurring slightly.
"We all lost him, Jo. I lost my best friend. My kids lost their surrogate uncle and every day they ask when he's coming back." Meredith said softly, sadly.
"It's not the same and you know it." Jo spat.
And I know we weren't perfect, but I've never felt this way for no one, oh
And I just can't imagine how you could be so okay now that I'm gone
I guess you didn't mean what you wrote in that song about me
'Cause you said forever, now I drive alone past your street
Jo walked over, taking a seat back on the bed as the tears streamed faster down her cheeks. "How? How could he be okay with this? We were married, Meredith. We were talking about starting a family. Everything was fine and he gave me no warning he was doing this and I wasn't even good enough to be told to my face."
"Things happen that we don't understand, we all lost someone without warning." Meredith paused. "Okay, let's get you laid down and then I'll clean this up." She stood up, trying to guide Jo to the head of the bed despite protests from the brunette.
Red lights, stop signs
I still see your face in the white cars, front yards
Can't drive past the places we used to go to
'Cause I still fucking love you, babe
Sidewalks we crossed
I still hear your voice in the traffic
We're laughing over all the noise
God, I'm so blue, know we're through
But I still fucking love you, babe
"I should clean it up, you don't have to," Jo protested, trying to push Meredith away. She tried to stand up, only to fall back down onto the bed.
"No, you're staying in bed. How much have you had to drink before I came?" Meredith asked.
"On and off all day, and yesterday...and the day before that," Jo whispered, laying down as Meredith pulled the covers over her. After a moment, she spoke again. "Meredith?"
"Yeah?" Meredith asked softly.
"Will I ever be okay again?" Jo asked, tears in her eyes.
Meredith smiled. "Yes. You wanna know how I know? Because you're Jo Wilson, a badass. You don't need a man to define you, you're going to be fine all on your own. Now, get some sleep."
"Thanks, Meredith." Jo whispered softly as her eyes closed.
Meredith sat there for a moment, sighing heavily as she looked around the apartment. She knew Jo was feeling broken but she would come out on the other side, stronger than ever. She always did.
I know we weren't perfect, but I've never felt this way for no one
And I just can't imagine how you could be so okay now that I'm gone
'Cause you didn't mean what you wrote in that song about me
'Cause you said forever, now I drive alone past your street
Yeah, you said forever, now I drive alone past your street
listened to this song for the first time today and agreed with several people this reminded them of Jolex! Thus, this one shot was created. hope you enjoy!