Ra blinked at his reflection in the cup of beer. This was the first time he actually drank more than just that what his father allowed him. It was the first party that wasn't happening in the palace.

Mantha seemed to enjoy herself. Casper not so much, but he tryed his best to smile. They had taken Frankie along so that was probably the whole reason for that.

It was fun. It really was, but he couldn't help but beeing a little bit worried. He had kissed him on the cheek. Ra couldn't remember what his name was, some servant boy who always tagged along with Sachmet.

It felt good. It felt nice. But is has been wrong. His father told him. The boy was punished right there and then. So a bad thing wasn't it? Well Ra never concidered beeing gay a bad thing, but he himself was happy to be straight.. or was he? Of course he was. He had to be.

Well he had a huge crush on Harpy, so he liked girls. He obviously liked them. He had a lot of simple crushes on girls in the past. But why did this simple kiss on the cheek make him feel so fuzzy then? It made him happy. No!

He wasn't even interested in boys, not like that. Yeah Thatch was good looking and Casper wasn't unattractive either but that was more of a jealousy wasn't it? Comfortable with his own sexuality.

Ra shook his head. His dad would have cussed him out for thinking about that. He was a straight guy, who only liked girls. Sexuality found. No reason to sturggle right?

"Ra!" Mantha yelled. "Huh what? No I payed attention please don't send me to dentenion again-" The mummy gasped. "I asked if you want me to refill your cup too." Casper repeated. He nodded but then shook his head. He had barely drunk anything.

Mantha and Casper looked at each other but shrugged. "Okay then see ya in a minute." The ghost smiled trying to find the right way to hold the three red cups. "I actually will disappear for a second, need to find the toilet." The zombie explained while looking around. "I'll be back." She promised and kissed Frankie on the cheek, the frankencreature couldn't hide his blushing.

Now it was only him and Frankie. The mummy was still not sure what to think of him. He was nice and all but something about him didn't sit right. Silence, well between them.

Ra looked around. The school library would be ripped to peaces by sunrise, if the party continued like that.

Some of the older students were trowing books around. Ra recognized Gill who was talking to one of his classmates. The big guy with blue furr and some big ass horns. They seemed to enjoy each others presence. They giggled, laughed and looked awfully long into each other's eyes.

Did the big guy just take gills hand? That was kinda cute- oh they're kissing. Ra tryed not to stare. He actually didn't want to think about any kind romance right now.

The mummy flinched when Frankie groaned. "What?" Ra asked. "Oh I mean I don't really want to see... That. That's more of a thing for the bedroom isn't it?" The frankencreature explained. Ra always had some comebacks, his dad had always put high pressure on his speech abilitys but, he legit didn't know what to say.

"What?" He asked hopeing that he might had misunderstood Frankie. He was about to explain: "I mean I have nothing against that but I don't really want to see-" "two guys kissing?" Ra completed. "No, I mean, intimacy is more if a private thing." Frankie seemed to get nervous.

Ra raised a brow. "But Mantha kissed you in public before." "That's entirely different. I-" the frankencreature got cut off. "It's not. You're just being a dick." The mummy cleared his throat. He didn't want to sound as angry as he did right now, but he kinda was. "I didn't mean it like that- I mean- it's just. It's not really natural."

The red cup dropped on the ground. He himself didn't know why he was so damn angry right now. Thatch said a lot of stupid stuff, mean stuff and he was annoyed by that too but he never was thinking about actually punching Thatch in the face like he did with Frankie right now.

"Unnatural? Do you actually think about what you're saying? Do you realize you could actually hurt someone by saying that? You-" he was too angry to continue his sentence. All the word's were rushing trough his head. He was so angry at Frankie. "No I didn't mean it like th-"

"Ra what's going on?" Casper asked from behind. The mummy turned around. His head shutted off completely. He pulled Casper face first closer to his own. The three cups the ghost had held in his hands now joined Ra's own cup on the floor. The mummy pressed his lips against his best friend's. He turned around. "So you find that unnatural F- ?!" He shouted before his breath seemed to stop.

Everyone was staring at them. Ra was used to people staring but now it was in an actual bad way, or at least it felt like it. If his heart wouldn't lay in a jar back in his room it would have pounded now.

His mind told him to run and so he did. He pushed Frankie aside and left the library as fast as he could. Casper was shouting somethimg, but Ra didn't want to listen right now he just had to get away.

He didn't just do that. Why did he do that? He wasn't. Why did he bother so much what Frankie thought about guys who weren't even friends with him? For the first time Ra felt like actually crying.

The doors of the dorm building slowed him down for a bit but not enough to notice that someone was following him.

Completely out of breath he closed the door of his own room behind him. He leaned against the wooden plank looking at the sealing. What did he just do? And why for Amuns's sake did he enjoy it.

Slowly he slided onto the ground. No no no no no no no no. His father would kill him if he found out. And his father always found out. How could he rule Kairo if he couldn't even be the ruler of his own mind.

The mummy flinched when Casper's head slid trough the door. "There you are." He expressed. The ghost flew trough the door and sat down before him. Silence.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked. "The kiss?" Ra muttered. "No, your problem. You seem stressed. What happened?" Casper was so calm, as if Ra hadn't just kissed him and ran off.

A sigh. "It's a long story." The mummy wispered. "We have all night to talk about it. If you want of course." Casper explained with a smile.

Ra knew he could trust Casper. The ghost was the last person who would judge him for his problem, he liked to help after all, that was his whole stig, the thing that slowly but surely began to rubb off on Ra and Mantha.

"Okay but don't laugh-" Ra proceeded to tell the whole story. From the servant's cheek kiss, to Frankie's comment to now. "Oh man this is so stupid." The mummy sighed and leaned his forehead against his knees.

Casper carefully took his best friend's hand. The mummy looked up "It's not." The ghosz answered. "It's a completely normal thought process for- well anyone and you are allowed to think and question yourself and your likings." "But-" Ra got cut off. "No buts, your sexuality doesn't make you any less worth. I understand it's scary, your dad seems not very accepting but that makes it even more important for you to be accepting to yourself. Finding out takes time and it's not very easy in many cases, but you have me, you have Mantha and all your other friends. We'll stay with you until you found out and for longer." The ghost promised.

Ra smiled. "Thanks man, you're right I'm such a drama queen sometimes." He joked. "No quite the opposite." Casper expressed with a slight laugh. Now it was quiet again but in a peaceful way.

"Casp?"

"Yeah?"

"Can I kiss you again?"

The ghost blushed for a second, he seemed cut of guard. Ra paniced "If not that's okay I just want to-" "No, no it's okay. I mean yeah why not." Casper laughed nervously.

The boys looked at each other for a terribly long second. Ra carefully layed his hand on Casper's cheek before coming closer himself this time.

He had time to actually realize the kiss this time. It was soft. Butterflys, not in a crush sence but in a, feeling good sence. It felt nice. They seperated.

This kiss didn't magically cure this questioning process but it helped a lot. He definitely liked girls but the possibility of also liking boys stood in the room and he would find out. His dad didn't need to know yet.

"You want to go back?" Casper asked with a calming smile. "Nah, party was lame anyway you can go back tho if you want." Ra joked stretching his upper body. The ghost laughed. "To be honest all that partying isn't really my thing. You want to play cards?" Ra nodded.

Frankie actually apologized the next day. A mixture of alcohol and having a bad day was his explaination. Ra accepted his wonky appolgie, hoping the frankencreature and Mantha wouldn't marry or that her oppions would at least rubb off on him.

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