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Janus had watched over half of the videos while the others were gone. He'd seen that the earlier videos were a lot shorter than the newer ones. Unfortunately- or perhaps, fortunately- they didn't seem to be helping him remember anything so far.

Which was mostly because he didn't seem to actually be in any of these videos. There were some discussions that included lying, which was supposedly his whole thing now, but he still hadn't made an appearance. Well, he must make an appearance eventually, or Morality probably wouldn't have thought it would help.

It was strange, though, watching Thomas and the other sides interact in the videos. He felt like it gave him a clearer understanding of who they were. They altered his old perceptions of Morality and Logic, and it gave him a better understanding of who Roman was. The videos were also his only real source of information about Virgil other than anger. At first, the Virgil in the videos was much like the one he knew, all angry and hissing, though his hoodie was different. But slowly, Virgil opened up to Thomas and the others, and he started to become less scary and angry. That must be what Morality had been talking about before. He did notice that the two of them seemed to be pretty close.

He still didn't have any hints for why Virgil hated him so much, though. Or, really, any hints at all about why the others weren't so fond of Deceit.

But before he could finish the videos, the others returned, and it was time for dinner. He emerged from his room a few minutes after they returned and made his way to the kitchen.

And there, he found Virgil.

Usually, Virgil would hide in his room right until Morality went to get him for dinner, eat in angry silence, and then leave as soon as possible. Janus knew that he was the reason, and he knew that the others had been worried about it, especially Morality. But what could he do? Not eat?

But, there was Virgil, standing in the kitchen and having what seemed to be a pleasant discussion with Patton. Right until he noticed that Janus was standing there.

As soon as he was noticed, he received another one of Virgil's death glares that simultaneously made him feel like the worst person in the world and also like he was facing down the barrel of a gun.

But Virgil didn't say anything. Instead, Morality turned toward him with a hesitant smile on his face.

"Hey, kiddo, why don't you go wait in the living room with the others?"

He wanted to. He wanted to leave, to escape from Virgil's gaze and the feelings they gave him. He wanted to pretend things were fine, pretend he wasn't the reason that Virgil hid in his room, the reason Morality was worried. He wanted to pretend that he wasn't the problem. But he knew he was.

So instead, he stood his ground.

"I…," he started, his voice small. "I… I don't remember what I did, but… but I'm sorry."

And he was sorry. Though, he was more sorry for upsetting them than he was sorry for whatever he did, since he couldn't be properly sorry for something he didn't even remember.

An apology was apparently the wrong thing to say, as Virgil's stance suddenly shifted from anger to absolute rage.

"YOU'RE SORRY?!" he shouted. "YOU- WHAT RIGHT DO YOU EVEN HAVE TO BE SORRY?!"

The other side's voice had changed, sounding like a series of distorted echoes layered on top of each other. It was terrifying.

"ALL YOU DO IS LIE AND MANIPULATE PEOPLE AND- UGH! I CAN'T STAND YOU!"

"Kidd-"

"AND YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU DID! ASSUMING THIS WHOLE CHARADE ISN'T JUST ANOTHER ONE OF YOUR LIES!"

"I-"

"NO! SHUT UP!" Virgil continued to scream. "YOU- YOU DON'T GET TO PULL ALL THAT SHIT AND- AND JUST!"

Tears started to form in Virgil's eyes, and it was only then that Janus realized he already had tear tracks streaming down his face.

"YOU- YOU DON'T GET TO JUST- JUST- FORGET EVERYTHING! THAT'S NOT FAIR!"

His heart was beating faster and faster. All he wanted was to run, but his feet wouldn't move.

"Virgil, please-"

"YOU CAN'T JUST- JUST!" Virgil's own tears were freely falling now. "YOU CAN'T… you can't… just leave like that…"

As Virgil's voice finally faded back to normal, the side collapsed onto the floor and began to flat-out sob, but Janus didn't actually notice. He was still terrified, and his sight was blurred by tears, and his heartbeat was still getting faster, and he couldn't quite get his lungs to work right.

He felt a hand touch his shoulder and he jerked away, shouting out another apology before sinking into his room.

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