Olivia Remington.

11/02/2287.

Wednesday.

4:00PM.

I'm nervous, nauseous and anxious. I have been all day, but now it's 10 times worse. I got up early, before 7:00AM, and walked around town for a bit so I could mentally prepare. The shops were all closed at first, except Diamond City Surplus, which a Mr. Handy was running. I heard Myrna say the shop is open 24 hours, makes sense for a robot to run it. Everyone came out not long after though, and I did some trading with Arturo before I left town. I also picked up the paper today from Nat, a free copy since it's MY interview. I haven't had time to read it, I'll read it tonight if I survive that long. I packed a bunch of the excess stuff I've collected into the safe I found this NCR gear in. I'm dreading hauling it all up to Red Rocket, but Kellogg's safe will suffice for now.

Dogmeat tracked Kellogg to Fort Hagen, and getting here was a PAIN IN THE ASS. Two blocks away from Diamond City, we got jumped by three Super Mutants, each armed with a minigun. And it was so god damn foggy, I couldn't see to shoot. I had to hide behind a rock wall and wait for an opportunity to kill them. Neither my M1911 or my service rifle were putting them down, but this revolver I found in Kellogg's house killed all three of them with minimal shots. This gun is a monster, but I need to conserve ammo for Kellogg if he is in fact the same guy that took my son.

Molerats, wild dogs, a bear, a pack of ferals, and unending fog. The journey was full of obstacles, AND Kellogg's path of destruction. Every place we came across that Kellogg stopped was accompanied by dead bodies. Even an assaultron wasn't enough to stop this mercenary, but that isn't gonna stop me from confronting him. Some random traveler gave me 250 caps for helping him fight off a pack of wild dogs, but truthfully I didn't even know he was there until he approached me with the money. And after all of that, we made it to Fort Hagen. Fog finally let up, the sky is still very gloomy and gray, I feel like it's the perfect backdrop for what I expect is about to happen.

I'm across the street in an abandoned building, I think it was a bar. I'm sitting down, trying to breathe and calm myself down since I'm so on edge. I'm going to scope out the building after I finish writing this. I'm scared to death, but I'm GOING to confront him no matter what. And if he IS the guy that took my family from me, I'm going to kill him mercilessly. I'm all alone, I didn't let Nick know I was leaving, I didn't want to drag him further into this. And I didn't want to drag Piper into it either, so I didn't invite her along. And I sent Dogmeat home. I don't want him getting hurt if this goes south (which it will).

I'll… write you after this is over, Diary. Hopefully I survive. Hopefully I get Shaun back.

11/03/2287

Thursday.

5:00AM.

So… it's really early in the morning. I was inside Fort Hagen all night, and I'm feeling really… broken. I'm tired, but I don't think I'm gonna get any sleep.

I had to take out several machine gun turrets mounted all around Fort Hagen so I could get inside safely. A bunch of rogue Protectrons showed up and started attacking me while I was fighting off the turrets, but in the end I was able to destroy them all and get inside. And THAT was a shit show. There were Synths all over the place, all of them repeating lines about Kellogg, that I must be destroyed. I knew immediately that he was linked to them somehow, and with that much security, very valuable to them too. And again, I found my way shooting through the facility. Turrets and synths everywhere, but at least they weren't organic. As numb as I've grown to the violence, blood and guts, I still hate that I have to kill people.

Those metal bastards didn't make it easy. I had to lock myself in empty rooms at times, but eventually, I made it all the way downstairs. Collected a few magazines throughout the facility. Nate used to LOVE his magazines. He's the only reason I ever got into them. Back in elementary school, we were best friends, but I always had a crush on him. I thought he was a dork for liking comic books, but he convinced me to read them, and I did end up liking them. I miss him so much… I need a minute…

I tend to get side tracked when I think about Nathaniel. I stopped dead on a bridge on the way to Fort Hagen and started daydreaming about him. Dogmeat started barking at me to snap me out of it. But anyway, I shot my way through the basement floor and eventually got to Kellogg. When I got down the elevator after the first wave of synths, Kellogg started talking over the P.A. System. His voice made my blood boil INSTANTLY. I finished fighting through Fort Hagen fueled by rage, vengeance, and Nuka-Cola. And before I headed into the room Kellogg was in, I injected a shot of Med-X in my system to wake myself up and give me an adrenaline boost. I needed to be alert and awake for it.

Face to face with the man that put a bullet through my dear husband's head, and stole my infant son, my rage welled up, and I was fighting tears. I wanted so badly to kill him on the spot, but I needed to know where Shaun is. I had a feeling that the Institute would be the place after everything I learned about them, and the fact that Kellogg was heavily guarded by Institute Synths. But my heart still sank when he confirmed it. He's "safe" in the Institute, but what does that even mean? How does an organization that murders and kidnaps people fucking "safe"? That didn't matter in the moment though, once I knew my boy wasn't there, and that Kellogg wasn't willing to talk, the restraints came off. I fired 5 shots into Kellogg's head before he or the Synths could even react. Adrenaline, rage, vengeance, Nuka-Cola. It took the entire chamber to kill him, but I have a feeling that if I hadn't found this gun in his house, I would've resorted to Fatman I picked up in the fort. In those close quarters, a mini-nuke probably would've killed me too, so I'm thankful for this revolver. I cut through the Synths quickly, then looted all the bodies, and Kellogg… well, his corpse was LOADED with hardware, things I've never seen or thought could ever exist. He was essentially a cyborg, which explains why it took 5 headshots to kill him. I took all the tech attached to his body, including some hardware sticking out of the gunshot in his head. I searched his terminal and got some more information, Shaun is in fact in the Institute, and Kellogg had another target lined up. Lucky bastard doesn't know how lucky he or she is.

Then, I left. I took an elevator all the way to the roof, and when I stepped outside, bright lights from the sky caught my attention. This enormous airship flew overhead, and over the loudspeaker, they introduced themselves: "We are the Brotherhood of Steel".

Danse wasn't joking, these guys are the real deal. But what Danse said about their motives still bugs me. It sounds selfish, like they want all the tech so they have total control. Danse's offer is still on the table, and I may look into it ONLY for combat experience. Kellogg was a dangerous mother fucker, and if the Institute had someone like HIM at their disposal, who knows what else is hiding behind their walls.

I'm sitting inside of a traders hut writing this. I'm surprised I haven't passed out yet, but I know that as soon as I put my pen down, I'm going to be out like a light. I'm all alone now, I sent Dogmeat home to keep him safe, but I'm really missing his company right now. I hope I get some sleep. I want to be back at Valentine's Detective Agency before noon, and it's almost 5:30 as it is. Again, I'm feeling broken. Killing Kellogg brings me no closure, and sleeping in a stranger's hut makes me uneasy considering all the stuff I'm carrying. I'll need to figure out a solution for all this shit when I get back to DC.

I'm gonna try to sleep now. Goodnight Diary.

Or well, good morning...