Chapter 18: MY head!
Finding herself back in her mindscape Koschei sighted frustratedly at the mess created by The Master's memories. She had been doing so well! Alright. Perhaps she should have taken a tiny bit more time out of her day to restructure and maintain her head, but she had been having so much fun!
She had gotten back her best friend after spending hundreds of years antagonizing him for Christ sake! That's not to say they did not have any bad days. Days where she hid away in one of The TARDIS's many rooms crying or in the clutches of a panic attack. Sobbing out apologies only to recover and not have the faintest idea as to why it happened or who she had been apologizing to.
Days where she would find Theta half-delirious, caught in a web of his negative emotions. Leaving her to just try her best to help him through it (on the plus side, it helped her figure out how the buggering hell one were supposed to be comforting).
Those days usually resulted in the two of them staying in the TARDIS. Not wanting to face the world. Theta would usually stay in the console room and tinker unless she decided to drag him into the media room where she would usually stay to watch a film (that or the music room or – on the days she had access to her technical knowledge – the lab where she had started modifying her umbrella). Not that he would usually agree with her choices. Considering she would usually go for either musicals or something childish and light-hearted and most of all… GIRLY!
He would usually sit there grumbling and criticize things like the logic.
"Oh yes, fantastic. The more elaborate the dress the more powerful the girl. Cause that makes sense. Oh, you've completed the quest? Congratulations. The cosmic powers will now grant you magic or stronger magic and a makeover! How does that make sense?"
The characters.
"Why is that girl with the pigtails so flippin' obsessed over shoes? And that other girl… why is she so fixated on that bloke? He's got the brains and personality of a cardboard cut-out for Rassilons sake."
Or the overall storyline.
"So, the evil-witch-lady kidnapped that guys daughter and made her into her servant because. What? He didn't want to get together with her? Cause that makes perfectly logical sense. Oh, you don't like me? Fine! I'm going to go steal your daughter now. And now she's screwing with the daughters love interest, who I might add met cause of a reality bending paint brush that used to be a comb. And now the evil lady is attacking his family… What is she even trying to achieve here?!"
While she just sat there laughing at his reactions and giving her own opinions. Which in return made him laugh as well until the both of them was laughing. The dark mood evaporating.
And then there were the good days. The days they went out and explored alien planets. Koschei smiled at the memory of one of the first planets they visited.
It had been nighttime. The dark blue sky full stars. Purple grass and glowing white flowers as far as the eye could see. The only sign of life where an alien equivalent of fireflies with the only visual difference being the color of their lights as they gave off a blue glow. Mary couldn't help smiling in amazement at the sheer beauty. Tears formed in her eyes. Feeling a hand on her shoulder she looked over at The Doctor.
"Are you alright?"
He asked softly. Sending him a confused look Mary said.
"Yes. Why wouldn't I be?"
The Doctor silently gestured to her tears. Wiping her tears away a tad embarrassed Mary replied.
"Oh. Sorry. It's nothing. It's just…It has been so long since I've been able to just lay back and appreciate the beauty of the world around me."
Giving an embarrassed smile Mary continued.
"Can't even remember the last time really."
Pulling herself together she straightened her back and smiled.
"Then again. There is plenty of things I can't remember. Now then."
The smile shifted into a smirk as she looked at him.
"Can't waste all our time on feeling sorry for myself. This place is beautiful. And in my opinion…"
She pulled out an ipod from the 34th century of Earth (She had found it on of her wanderings in The TARDIS) and pressed play. An instrumental tune started playing.
"The perfect place to dance."
Letting out a giggle Mary grabbed the now slightly shellshocked looking Doctor's arm and pulled him closer. Shaking himself out of his stupor The Doctor said haltingly.
"Uh… I'm not… sure I am good at the whole… dancing thing this go around."
"So?"
She said with a raised eyebrow.
"We are doing it for the fun of it. I'm not going to bite your head off if you don't do it right."
Looking a tad more relaxed The Doctor gave her a short smile.
"Why not then. Just don't expect me to act like a Victorian gentleman after this. I haven't had this body for long, but I know I am not the posh sort in this regeneration."
Grinning mischievously, she shot back teasingly.
"Darling, where you ever?"
The Doctor sent her a mock offended look before they both broke down laughing. Calming down they shifted into dancing positions and started dancing. It was awkward and far from perfect, but that didn't matter to either of them. They still went back to The TARDIS with smiles on their faces. Bantering and joking the whole way.
Koschei smiled at the memories. In those moments it truly felt like they had gone back to being Time Tots. Like she never lost her sanity. Like Theta had never left her. Like they had never stopped being best friends.
Shaking herself out of her memories she moved through her mindscape determinedly. Grimacing as she was practically wading through The Master's foul memories. She needed to get her head in a functional shape pronto.
Her best friend was going through a hard time. She couldn't leave him alone! He was the only thing she had left. The only one who had kept on trying to reach her when she had so to say lost her marbles, all her marbles. Who even knows what sort of dangerous situations he would get tangled up in when she wasn't around! Last time she had found him at gunpoint for heavens sake. She hadn't exactly cared at the time and he could probably have gotten away on his own just fine, but still… she knew how reckless he could be and she just… She couldn't lose him!
She needed to get head to work as soon as possible. It didn't matter that she couldn't clearly remember what she had done the day before anymore. It didn't matter that the drums had kept parts of her mind from evolving past the mental age of an eight year old Time Tot. It didn't matter that she would be functioning on under 2 percent brain capacity. It. Didn't. Matter.
She could wait. She would get her head in order sooner or later. What mattered was Theta. Her best friend. She needed to be there for him. He had way too much going on to be bothered with her bloody messed up head! She could handle it on her own! She wasn't some weak sniveling little human who needed someone to hold her hand through tough times.
She was a Time Lady! Not just any Time Lady either. She was The Mast…No! She refused to use that name! She refused to use any title until her head were on good and proper! But she did know that even if she had no inclination to be The Master of the universe, she was still going to be The Master of her own mind. It was her mind!
She would fix it! Nobody else. She didn't want anybody but herself inside her head. Keeping her mental barriers from completely blocking The Doctor was a stretch already!
Arriving at the barrier she had made to block out The Masters memories Koschei glared at the huge crack practically splitting the barrier in half. It was this bloody crack's fault she had a mental breakdown in front of Theta!
She did not want him to worry about her on top of everything else he was going through! Shaking off the anger Koschei started working on patching up the crack and shoving all the escaped memories back on the other side.
She needed to get back.
Authors note: So… here's the latest chapter! Hope you liked it! Merry Christmas and a happy new year and everything. Later.