Sunlight comes creeping in. Illuminates our skin. We watch the day go by. Stories of all we did. It made me think of you, it made me think of you. Under a trillion stars. We danced on top of cars. Took pictures of the stage. So far from where we are. It made me think of you. It made me think of you. Oh lights go down, in the moment we're lost and found. And I just wanna be by your side, if these wings could fly. For the rest of our lives
31st December 2019
"How is it the last day of the decade!" Merlin gasped as he threw Amhar in the air.
"I don't know, I don't know!" Morgana exclaimed in the baby voice while Amhar giggled.
"And we're going to go see mummy and daddy today" Merlin added.
"Mama" Amhar giggled as he pointed at Morgana.
"Yes, I'm mama" Morgana said. "But your other mummy and daddy".
"Yeah!" Amhar cheered as Merlin put him down.
"Last visit of the decade" Merlin sighed as they sat in the car.
Morgana squeezed Merlin's hand. "Let's do this. Last visit of the decade". Amhar toddled ahead while Merlin and Morgana walked hand-in-hand behind him as they reached the graves.
"Today, well. It's a rather sad day" Morgana commented.
"Knowing that Arthur and Gwen didn't make it to the next decade, I guess it is" Merlin agreed.
"Today would've been my due date, I think" Morgana said quietly. "If I didn't miscarry".
"Already?" Merlin gasped. "Time has flown by. Amhar's fifteen months old".
"Going to be a big brother soon" Morgana added. "Don't get me wrong, I am upset about the miscarriage and I'm devastated that it happened. But now, now that I'm pregnant again I just can't imagine it any other way. Of course I wonder about what could've been. Now, I don't know about you but I'm finally at peace".
"I'm glad" Merlin smiled. "It's been a tough year, although pretty good".
"It has" Morgana agreed. "I mean, we adopted Amhar and eloped on the same day, got pregnant". They stayed at the graves for a little while, it was rather cold so they soon headed back home; yet not before stopping at Tesco on the way for a bottle of shloer. Neither Merlin or Morgana were drinking, and the alcohol free versions were said to be disgusting, so they opted for shloer instead.
Dinner was eaten at seven as opposed to five, while Amhar was rather young to be staying up until midnight they did want to keep him up slightly later than usual. Amhar was sat on the counter top while Merlin warmed up his formula on the hob, his bottle on the side with a small spoon of hot chocolate powder in, while Merlin and Morgana had the usual amount in their mugs, Morgana warming up the regular milk for hers and Merlin's hot chocolate.
"Mine" Amhar declared as he grabbed Merlin's glass of shloer, drinking a little bit before making a face and throwing it on the floor. "Yuck!".
"Amhar" Merlin sighed as he shook his head. "That's not yours". Given that it wasn't alcohol—only fizzy grape juice, they weren't being the most careful about leaving it near Amhar. Morgana sighed and picked up Amhar, putting him in his highchair before resuming making the hot chocolate. Even though Christmas was over, they kept the table in the conservatory and moved Amhar's highchair to the kitchen whenever they needed to contain him and have him not walking around, while Merlin cleared up the shattered glass.
"I can't believe we're starting this new decade just us four" Morgana remarked. "No Arthur. No Gwen. No Morgause. Just us. Our little family".
"Morgue!" Amhar squealed.
"No, no Morgause" Merlin said. "Just dada, mama, Amhar and peanut".
"Dada, mama, Amma and Pea Butt" Amhar said.
"That's right" Morgana exclaimed. "Good boy".
"He's getting so advanced" Merlin smiled as he stroked his head.
"Gwen said the same thing" Morgana smiled back at the memory. "How because he was seven months old but advanced he could go forward facing".
"That was a bit shitty of us" Merlin agreed with a grimace.
"Well, we didn't know what we were doing" Morgana shrugged.
"We'll look into extended rear facing for the next one".
"Let's just hope we don't have another car hater" Morgana agreed. "Apparently the baby seat with a handle is too reclined, which is why so many kids hate it".
"Never knew that. You really do learn new things every day, don't you".
"Certainly not to leave a glass of shloer within reach of a fifteen month old because they will grab it and try to drink it" Morgana grinned.
"Did you see his face!" Merlin laughed. "He hated it".
"No" Amhar said.
"Liar" Merlin scoffed.
"Right, hot chocolate and movie time" Morgana declared as she grabbed Amhar's bottle and they made their way to the living room. Merlin loaded up the DVD player with "The greatest showman" and they began to watch the movie with their snacks and hot chocolate, Merlin and Morgana intertwined with Amhar on top of them.
"It's been a long decade" Morgana sighed as the end credits of the movie began to roll in. They'd finished off their snacks and hot chocolate, Amhar was asleep taking up half the sofa while the couple remained intertwined with a blanket thrown over then.
"The start of this decade we were still in school" Morgana chuckled. "Turning sixteen years old. Has time flied or what?".
"And now we're married" Merlin smiled. "With a little one on the way. Want to go over the past decade?".
"Let's see" Morgana grinned like a Cheshire Cat. "2010, well pretty good. The year I was finally, legal I guess?".
"Well now you can't buy energy drinks until your sixteen" Merlin shrugged.
"Pretty good, except gcse shit. Arthur and Gwen got married, then a-levels followed by uni. Dunno about you but mine was a blast".
"I mean, it was pretty dece" Merlin smiled. "Getting drunk legally and all. I don't really talk to that many people now".
"Sefa and I went together and we're still obviously in touch. Sometimes I talk to the other girls but not a lot of them".
"2016, finally qualify as a teacher and take the NQT" Merlin added.
"I took mine in Heriots. Loved it there" Morgana smiled at the memory. "It was great. Where'd you do yours?".
"Avalon school" Merlin grimaced. "Posh as shit, as I'm sure you know".
"Hm, I liked Heriots" Morgana shrugged. "Then well, transferred to Camelot grammar".
"And the rest is history".
"It is" Morgana agreed. "We meet, Arthur and Morgause try everything to keep us apart. Gorlois dies, Gwen is pregnant, miscarried, we're in love and the memories return".
"Let's skip that part" Merlin chuckled nervously.
"Arthur told me about Dylan, you 'poisoned' me, I skipped the ski trip and we broke up".
"I was singing all by myself for some reason" Merlin chuckled. "It was a rather good trip. Even if it was freezing".
"You froze, but got a bed. DofE, we don't freeze but we don't get a bed".
"Now neither of us are doing anymore trips" Merlin grinned.
"Then Amhar was diagnosed with his CDH, summer time flew by, he was born and had his surgery, Arthur told me about the twins".
"You're really good at keeping secrets, you know that right" Merlin chuckled.
"I know" Morgana winked. "Let's see, 2019 started I was knocked up, not much happened".
"Arthur and Gwen were drifting apart" Merlin added. "Will and I saw him meeting Dylan at the Magic Horse".
"I remember that" Morgana was quiet for a moment as she remembered. "Then I celebrated my 25th, went to Disney, got knocked up".
"Went on DofE, Gwen found out about Arthur's other kids and then ... that ended well".
"It sure did" Morgana sarcastically replied. "But without that, we wouldn't have this. Our marriage, our baby".
"They're gone, but never forgotten" Merlin said. "More shloer?".
"Please" Morgana said as she slid off of Merlin. They switched to BBC, watching Big Ben and as people waited for the fireworks to begin.
1st January 2020!
The bells of Big Ben began to chime. The new decade had begun.
"Happy New Year!" Merlin said as Morgana leant in to kiss him.
"Happy New Year" Morgana grinned as they parted. "Happy new decade, even".
"How is it 2020, just how!" Merlin exclaimed as he watched the fireworks begin to go off.
"Our baby's going to be born this year".
"Holy shit, I'm going to be a parent!" Merlin's eyes widened.
"Yes dear, you have been since the sixteenth November. We agreed the adoption and whatnot".
"I know, but. We're having a baby. Our own baby".
"Eight months to go, need to wrap our heads around it. I mean, I'm excited".
"Me too" Merlin agreed. "Now, I think we ought to get as much sleep as we can, while we can".
"I have to agree on that" Morgana said as she picked up Amhar. She transferred him to the cot and Merlin and Morgana quickly fell asleep. They usually didn't stay up that late, Amhar woke up early and tired them out so they would go to bed at ten, at the latest.
When Morgana woke up, she was slightly surprised to find that she didn't have nausea burning the back of her throat. Usually it'd be bad in the morning, sometimes lessening through the day with the medication, yet for once Morgana felt perfectly fine. She went over to the full length mirror, she still had some bloating. Almost a glow of some sort. 'Maybe pregnancy isn't too bad after all' she thought to herself as she went to the nursery.
Amhar was asleep in his cot, clutching onto his bat and bunny as he sucked his dummy. Morgana gently lifted the tot, making sure to not drop his toys and cradled him in her arms, still in his sleeping bag. She carried him through to the bedroom, setting him down in the middle of the bed. She law next to him and watched the baby sleep, there was nothing more peaceful or perfect than a sleeping baby.
The sunlight began to creep in through the curtains. At first, Morgana had felt so bad about having to raise Amhar. Didn't want it to happen. Yet now? It was all perfect. The death of Arthur and Gwen left a hole in her heart, yet it was beginning to grow around that hole. Life was perfect. Except for morning sickness. First time of the decade throwing up.
A/N: Well, my goal was to finish this chapter before 2021 began and well, proud to say I met my goal! My brothers watching a tv show and there's morgana in it, she literally yelled at someone "I am your doom" omg the parallel w Merlin