CHAPTER 11 - WHAT'S HIDDEN UNDER LAYERS

The fact that Light's schedule was pretty much full even without extra lessons, didn't surprise L. The boy was taking almost every possible optional subject, which caused his school day to end mostly at 6 PM. L decided to be nice and gave him two hours to eat and relax. So their lessons started at 8 PM. Also, L planned the lessons on the same days they had DADA. Because he really needed not to see the boy all the time. That gave him two… maybe even 3 days without Yagami on his radar.

Oh God this is going to be hell… L thought.

He needed to come up with a plan how to help the boy unleash what's inside him first. Which might be actually the hardest part. Because omegas were fragile. L saw that many times as a child. But that also gave him an advantage.

L's mother was a therapist who was helping omegas. L remembered very well as they were coming into their house, alone, to talk, or in groups to take a session. L also remembered a few times when things got out of hand and his mother had to use her magic to calm them down. But those were extremes. Omegas suffering from broken bonds, omegas who lost their pups or those who lost their mates and survived the pain.

L's mind stopped at his mother. He still remembered her well enough. But that was mostly because he had her pictures and his mind was linking his memoires with the face from those pictures. He knew that without it, her face would be long gone. Most of the time, he tried not to think about her. It was hurting him too much. But this time, he needed her help.

L opened the old chest and a wave of dust arose from inside.

He frowned.

"Yeah… I guess I could clean from time to time."

L waved the dust away and took documents out of the chest. At the top was a picture of the two of them. L's heart clenched at the view of his smiling mother, who was holding his little self in her arms.

He put the picture away… he needed something else that night. L started searching through the documents and through his mother's research. It was not an official research of course. Omegas didn't have such a strong position 18 years ago. But it never stopped his mother. She was doing her own private research and hoped it would be published one day. L knew that day was slowly coming. Once the Kira shit is over he will publish it himself. He knew it would be possible, because omegas were slowly infiltrating many professional areas.

L knew omegas were intelligent. He never had prejudices.

But it was also true that he never met an omega like his mother was. All omegas L knew were typically boring and not really interested in anything else than their families. Some of them were working and they were quite good at their jobs but still… when it came to discussions L was always disappointed. There were even moments when he failed to see what his mother saw in them so fascinating that she wanted to help them so much.

Well yes… of course. She was an omega herself but she was not like the others...

L took a look at the handwriting in his mother's notebook.

"Yes… this is exactly what I was looking for." he said and went to the class, to prepare everything for his lesson with Light Yagami.

When Light came to DADA classroom on Wednesday evening, Lawliet was sitting behind the teacher's desk and he was reading something. He didn't even notice Light coming. It gave Light a bit of time to get used to the scent, which was everywhere around him. But it was not strong this time. It was just there. Present and surrounding Lawliet's being. Once Light's knees stopped trembling, he decided to speak directly to the topic:

"I don't find it funny, professor."

Lawliet took his eyes off the notebook, but unfortunately he wasn't surprised by the interruption. Which was what Light was hoping for.

"Huh?"

Light came closer and gave him a hard look: "My schedule. I don't find it funny."

Lawliet smirked and put the notebook down: "Oh… sorry to hear that. But it shouldn't have been a joke."

"I beg a pardon?"

Lawliet stood up and went to the other side of the table, to face Light. Light straightened as they were standing one in front of the other. Suddenly Light was a few centimeters higher, because Lawliet was slouching.

"Happy omega… it was not a joke. It is your goal for the next few weeks."

"But why does it have to be in my schedule?"

Lawliet shrugged: "You can take it as an affirmation."

"Are you trying muggle psychology on me?" Light asked and felt his temper rising again.

Lawliet brought his thumb to his lower lip and tilted his head: "Would it work?"

"No!" Light almost yelled. Although he was not really sure if it was a reaction to the question, or to the finger that was sensually brushing the lower lip of his professor.

"Damn, Yagami are you always so serious?" L rolled his eyes and took the schedule Light was holding in his right hand: "So… here is how it is gonna be…" Lawliet started and took a step closer so Light could see into the schedule too.

Light held his breath for a moment, afraid that the scent would get too much, but it didn't happen. Light realized he might be getting used to it. Which was a good sign. He looked into the schedule and watched as his "Happy omega" lessons were changing into: "Wand theory studies" and "Discussion".

"Monday, Wednesday and Thursday evenings you will be coming here. Mondays and Wednesdays you will be studying here in the class on your own. I will give you materials. I will be here or in the cabinet, in case you need something. Thursdays we will go through what you learned and I will answer any questions you might have. Saturdays we are doing practice." Lawliet explained.

"Saturdays?" Light shot him a distressed look.

Lawliet only shrugged: "Maybe even Sundays… depends on how good you will be."

"But this Saturday I have…" Light started but he was cut off by a sharp low voice:

"Priorities Yagami!"

"I thought you wanted to call me Light." Light said annoyingly and clenched his fists.

"Not when you are not pissing me off."

"What should I call you then? When you are pissing me off?" Light spat back without much thinking.

L couldn't fight the urge to smirk. He liked Light's straightforwardness. It was refreshing. And the boy was actually pretty when he was angry. He got slightly flushed and the color looked indeed good on his cheeks.

Light was confused. Not only that Lawliet didn't answer him, he even smiled at him for his harsh reply. And his scent changed again.

Wait is he... happy?

L decided to let it go and don't push the boy any harder, because he knew very well that his inner alpha loved bickering… it was turning him on. He cleared his throat:

"Alright… anyway… if you want me to teach you, you will have to do what I say. So if you have something on Saturday, cancel it."

Light let out a long sight. So much for finding a mate. He thought. But Light didn't actually mind that much. He wasn't in a mood for lovey-dovey anyway. His mind was going other direction: "What about Quidditch trainings?"

L waved his hand in the air and moved to the other part of the classroom: "Those are on Sundays, I checked. But if some will be on Saturday, I will let you go, ofcourse, don't worry."

Light frowned. L Lawliet and not being worried didn't sound like something he would use in one sentence. He watched his professor stop next to a magical circle on the ground. Light didn't notice it before, because it was in another part of the classroom, behind the entrance.

"Come here…" Lawliet told him, his hands hidden in his pockets.

"What is this?" Light moved closer and scanned the artefacts that were used in the magical circle. There was a child's teddy bear, crystal ball, sculpture of egyptian goddess Bastet and other objects.

"Never saw a magical circle?" Lawliet asked.

"Of course I did, but what is its purpose?" Light asked harshly again.

Lawliet smirked: "Unleashing your inner omega."

"What?" Light was suddenly scared. There were many purposes of magical circles but he couldn't imagine how Lawliet wanted to manage that.

"Sit down there." Lawliet pointed at the centre of the circle.

"Why?!" Light groaned.

"Yagami…" Lawliet let out in an even lower voice than normally.

Light folded his hands on his chest: "I just wanna know what's going to happen."

L started massaging the bridge of his nose and mumbled: "Oh God give me strength… " then he looked at Light again: "You wanted me to help you let out your inner omega. So this circle is made specially of omegan magical artefacts to help you get the right vibe. Once you are inside, I will spell you to get down your mind barriers and you will be able to get in touch with your inner omega. If you are lucky, you will be able to see where the strength of your omega is and we can work with it further."

Light stopped. He gave it a thought. It sounded reasonable. But he had his reasons not to feel comfortable about it.

"When I will be under the spell would I be able to… AHEM… act on what my inner omega's… urges?"

"Sure, why?"

"Because… because…" Light didnt know how to say it and don't let Lawliet know what was on his mind.

"Because what?" Lawliet spat impatiently.

Because my inner omega wants your fingers in my ass. Light shook his head at that thought and quickly answered: "Because nothing… can we somehow do it without taking the barriers down?"

Lawliet gave him a stern and very annoyed look: "Yagami… I don't think you understand what's going on. You said you don't know how to unleash your inner omega."

"Yes." Light whispered and watched his feet.

"That means, you are unable to communicate with it." Lawliet repeated.

Light bit his lower lip. It was not entirely right information. He could communicate with it; he just didn't want to pay attention to what it was saying.

As L was watching Light's face expressions, he realized he was wrong. He raised an eyebrow:

"Oh… so you are able to communicate. That's good. Where is the problem then?"

Light's face was shining with a very bright shade of red and L's eyes widened with realization.

Shit he is a shy virgin thats… oh fuck thats hot! His inner alpha suddenly woke up, and showed L a couple of positions he could try with this boy. But L silenced the alpha immediately and pushed those images of his mind. He really couldn't think about those things when he is alone with an omega student.

So that means you don't like what your omega is showing you… you are not alright with it. L thought and frowned:

"You don't want what your omega wants."

L watched as the boy shifted uncomfortably and he was looking everywhere, but not at L. While L's inner alpha found it funny and hot at the same time, L knew he needed to be a little more careful around this topic. Because he was a teacher and the boy could get things the wrong way.

"Light… do you remember what I told you yesterday?"

"What exactly?" the boy asked and he was holding his arms around himself, protectively.

"That you have to act on your omegas needs from time to time." L said slowly.

"Well… yes… and?"

L saw how nervous the boy was about this discussion. And he couldn't actually say he was happy himself they were having it. But it was the only way so...

"And then I told you that it is not only about sex?"

Light opened and closed his mouth: "You didn't use the word exactly but…"

L waved his hand in the air and started pacing around the room: "A detail... listen… sexual needs are only one part of the second gender. The real nature of it, lies under. I give you an example: I know one man who is… well let's say he is a family type. His inner alpha is the exact opposite. He would fuck everything that comes near him..." L saw how Light's eyes went impossibly wide and he realized he probably shouldn't say that: "...but that's not important… His alpha is also very eccentric, kinky and a skilled liar. My friend he… he hated that. He hated that eccentric inside him and tried to shut him up. But then he realized that thanks to that quirky behaviour of his inner alpha, he is able to trick other wizards. That it works as a defence mechanism. Thanks to that shitty quality of his inner alpha he was able to make a career and then start sending big amounts of money to help poor families and orphans. Which satisfied his personality. He found balance between what the alpha wants, and what he is comfortable with… So what I am saying is… that sexual needs are only part of it. Under this you might find another part of your personality, that you can integrate and work with."

Light was looking at his professor with eyes wide opened. He never thought about it this way. But still… if he wanted to get to know his omega side, he will probably have to go through a layer of sexual needs first and that could be a damn problematic: "That's… well that's interesting, professor, but…"

"Light look! I get it! You are young, you are inxeperienced and sex and intimacy sounds like a horror to you. But if you want to get through this problem, you will have to let go. Because otherwise, we will not get anywhere."

Light closed his eyes and let out a long sigh: "Alright… Alright I'll do it."

Finally… L thought and pointed at the magical circle: "Good… sit inside."

Light did as he was told and he watched as his professor sat in front of him, but outside the circle.

"Now close your eyes." Lawliet said.

Light closed his eyes and he knew Lawliet did something to activate the circle, because he instantly felt a calming atmosphere everywhere around.

"You should feel positive vibes around you now."

"I do." Light said.

"Good. Just breathe." L said and watched as the boy's breathing was slowing down.

"Good Light, you are doing great. Just keep breathing. Now, I will make a spell to let down your inner barriers and then I will guide you through the spell… just remember that you are in the magic circle. You are safe, protected and nothing can happen to you. If anything goes wrong, you can tell me, I am right here and I will unspell you."

Light nodded. But it was kinda clear he was nervous.

"Breathe Light… remember breathing."

When Light's breath calmed down again, L whispered: "Revelio."

Light suddenly felt like someone took down a wall that was built inside his mind. It was strange. For a moment he felt hollow. Like he was standing alone in a dark hall and he waited for monsters to attack. Then he heard Lawliet's voice and the low sound calmed him down. Light slowly breathed in and let the spicy-sweet scent fill his lungs again. It had an amazingly soothing effect.

"Try to imagine that you are connected to all four elements. That is an actual strength of all omegas. You are connected to the Earth, because you are mothers and you have to be grounded, you are connected to wind, because you are able to handle stressful situations with lightness, you are connected to water, because you are able to let all the bad things float away and you are connected to fire, because you are full of passion and life. All the elements are making you who you are. They live inside you. Now imagine it floating through you. Through your heart. These elements are feeding your inner omega, giving it strength. Right now, you are…."

While L was talking and using his own mother's words he watched Light relax completely. His breathing calmed and the serious expression disappeared. He really looked 17 now. Just a boy… beautiful boy. L wasn't paying much attention to his features before. He just saw Light as a typical pretty omega. But Light was much more than just pretty. His face was symmetrical, his neck long and there was something about his lips that L couldn't put in words. And his personality was… awful but refreshing.

"Right now you are in a safe place. It's your own place. Place where you feel happy the most. You know you are protected and you can just let go of all your worries and you can dream. Now... you see your dream in front of you. Your deepest desire is right in front of you."

As Lawliet was telling him what to imagine, Light was able to see it all in front of his eyes. Four elements floating through his body, feeding him and taking his problems away. Then Light was suddenly standing in a green meadow. He looked around and saw a group of people near him. He soon realized there were 3 children and one adult. They were all playing together and the adult was making charms. As he was waving his wand, butterflies were appearing and flowers were growing from the grass. Children were running around, chasing after the butterflies and they were all laughing together. The scene warmed Light's heart.

L saw a faint smile on Light's lips. It was good. Light obviously liked what he saw so they were not in any dangerous area of his mind.

"Good… now you can go and explore your deepest desire. Try to find out what is your role in it. Explore it. Memorize it."

Light walked a few steps closer to the group. They all turned their faces to him and smiled. There were two girls and one little boy. The boy had auburn hair and onyx eyes, one girl had charcoal hair with amber eyes and the oldest girl had charcoal hair with big onyx eyes. Light realized they were all similar with the man playing with them. It was the most beautiful man Light had ever seen. He had the same eyes and hair like the oldest girl and his scent was spicy-sweet. Every step Light made felt like he was dragged like a magnet to the man. When they were finally close to each other, the man stood up from the kids and reached out to touch Light's face. Light leaned into the touch and felt the man's other hand on his belly. At that moment he realized he was pregnant. He felt the baby kicking inside him and the man felt it too. Light shifted his eyes to the man again, he finally realized who he was looking at. Those big dark eyes with wrinkles from laughing were only ones of that kind in the universe.

Light watched as Lawliet was smiling at him with loving sight. Then he started leaning closer and slowly kissed Light on the lips.

L watched as Light's hand went to his belly. He raised an eyebrow. Whatever his inner omega was showing him, it was probably connected with his ability to bear children.

That's not that surprising. L thought and watched as Light's breathing suddenly fastened and he pushed his lips together in a thin line.

"Breathe Light… everything is alright."

In his mind, Lawliet was kissing him on the lips. Firmly and slowly at the beginning, but then he pushed a tongue in his mouth and things started getting out of hand. Lawliet brought their bodies together and Light realized he was getting wet. But it was not happening only in his vision. It was happening also in reality. He needed to stop that.

"No… I don't want this!" Light hissed under his breath.

"Light, take a deep breath." L told the boy.

Suddenly all the things in the room started shivering. L's eyes went wide. All the books in shelves, his coffee cup on the table, even through the floor he felt strong vibrations, like the room was suddenly under a small earthquake.

Before L could realize what was going on, he heard Light screaming:

"NO! STOP IT!"

"Revelio prohibito" L said and waved his wand. Light quickly jumped on his feet and out of the magical circle. L was constantly on his feet too and walked closer to Light. The boy was shivering and breathing hard.

What the fuck did just happen? L thought and he was looking at the boy who was in high state of distress.

"Are you all right?" L asked.

Light didnt answer, he was just staring in front of himself, panting hard and he looked angry.

L bit his lower lip and put a hand on the boy's shoulder: "Light, you were doing great. What happened?"

Light shook off his hand: "I can't… I don't want this."

L got a bit scared himself. He never saw such a strong reaction during a session like this. This was supposed to be safe for the boy.

"Okay, alright… just sit down and I will make you a hot chocolate and we can talk about it okay…?"

"No! We can't!" With that Light fled the room and left L staring in confusion.