Killua smiles brightly and sticks by Gon's side. He's worried about my intentions. I hope he tells me when he figures them out. I'd like to know too. I order three slices of triple chocolate cake and three teas.

"Maybe I don't like chocolate." Killua slides a sideways glance when I set cakes down.

"You love chocolate." Gon laughs "good call. He's got the biggest sweet tooth."

"I'm sure Killua was just teasing." I take a bite, Killua will likely never trust me, I don't blame him, his eyes give it away. A kid's eyes should never be so cold. The only kind of people with that nen are cold blooded murders. A kid with that kind of nen is…

"Right." Killua takes a big bite "just teasing, thank you so much."

"Yeah thank you." Gon's is genuine, he's so full of sunshine but that's his default, his surface.
"Your brother." I begin. Killua freezes, he's already halfway through his cake.

"How soon do you think it'll be before he comes back for you?" I lick my fork.

"He's impatient, a week, maybe two. That's about the time he usually gives me to master something new."

"So we'll plan on 1 week, keep your nen up boys." I cock a brow at them, they let their nens slip and didn't even notice.

"Dang it." Gon grumbles "How do you keep it up so effortlessly?"

"I'm going to tell you and it's probably going to irritate you." I wave them toward me, they lean across the table. I'm surprised that Killua did. I almost feel bad about this.

"Practice."

Their mouths dropped as if I had just betrayed them.

"Are you serious!" Killua snaps "I actually thought you had something useful to say." He hops out of the seat and shoves the last bite of cake into his mouth.

"pfft. I'm going for a walk. Clearly, intelligent conversation is lacking here." Killua's eyes are just as cutting as his nen.

"Awe, don't be like that Killua." Gon reaches for his friend but Killua is beyond annoyed. I shouldn't take enjoyment from it but its the big sister in me that can't help it. I miss them I poke at the remainder of my cake and Gon watches me.

"What are you thinking about when you look sad like that?" Gon asks.

"and here I thought I was being so subtle." I run my fingers through my hair and sigh.

"You did at first but the longer I'm around you the easier it is to see. I didn't notice it at all at first but then every now and again your eyes kind of glass over and it's like…like you miss something or… you're lonely… no, like you're lost."

I can't look at him but I don't want to lie "My little brothers… I haven't seen them in a long time since I was about twelve."

"and you're 23 now… that's a long time." Gon takes a bite of cake, he's only had a few bites "That's where you're going now huh?" He nibbles again.

"If you don't want the cake you don't have to eat it." I laugh "I have an overwhelming addiction to chocolate."

"I like it, it's just really sweet." He smiles a bit shy.

"If you're finished we can wrap it up. By the looks of Killua's plate he'll enjoy that later." I capped the cake and stacked the trash. "but yes, I'm finally going home. And I'm going to kill my step-father."

Gon leaps away from me clearing four tables and pressing against the corner.

"Gon!" I whirl around waiting for something to attack us but there's nothing there. Gon stares at me from across the room.

"Yo–you're nen." Gon is shaking, his own nen solidified around him to keep him protected… protected from what… me?

"Oh…" I tuck my hands into my pocket "I… I didn't even realize how potent it would be." I sit back down and stare at the chocolatey plates "I'm so sorry, Gon, that wasn't for you."

Gon inches a few steps forward.

"Gon!" Killua bursts in. I feel him darting toward us.

"Gon, are you okay?" Killua finds him at the worst possible moment, still trembling, still looking at me with wide terrified eyes.

"What did you do to him." Killua lunges across the room at me, fist raised. I don't try to block, I deserve it, but he stops.

"What did you do to him?" Killua demands.

"He asks me why I was sad, I told him and then I told him I was going to kill… someone from my home. My nen reflected how potent my hatred is for this person. It was no ill intent for Gon."

Killua stares at me, his heart pounding so loudly I can hear it. Finally, he drops his hand completely and stands there.

"I think it's best if we go our separate ways." Killua grabs Gon and walks passed me "I didn't realize you were capable of that kind of hatred. I know your smiles are fake. At first I just couldn't trust you, now you're just too dangerous."

"Understandable." I hand him the packed up cake "practice expanding your nen. If you ever have any questions for me don't hesitate to reach out. No strings, you can always find me just to ask the question and then leave right after." I resist the urge to pat their heads "please be careful out there." I walk out first, every step breaking a new piece of my heart. I barely knew them but walking away from them feels like walking away from my brothers all over again and it nearly killed me the first time.

Author's Note:

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