This was the hardest thing you ever had to do, you had to sit down and tell Bucky you were heading back to New York. You knew that you were going to break his heart with the same guy who broke yours more than once. Shuri told you how Bucky and Steve got once you'd left the room.
He walked into the room as you were packing up, his face dropped when he saw this. "Your going back to New York?" He asked, "Yeah." You said trying not to cry, "Is it because of Steve?" He asked with pain in his voice, "it isn't Buck, sure he needs a friend but I'm going for me." You said, "what happens when I need a friend?" He asked, "im a phone call away Buck." You said turning away from him, "why him, why him again? Why him over me?" Bucky asked, a choked breathe caught in your throat.
"It will always, always be you Bucky." You said voice cracking, "you have my heart Buck. And I didn't realise it until you turned too dust in front of me." You said wiping your eyes with your sleeve. "But you have friends here, Steve doesn't have anyone. The only friend he has is Sam." You said, "and you Buck, your his best friend. And when your ready to, your going to be in New York tearing it up with the scruny little kid from Brooklyn." You said sadness getting the best of you.
Bucky stood behind you and wrapped his arms around your waist, "don't make this harder than it already is Buck. I'll never leave if you do that." You said tickling his arm. "Good. Stay. Please." He said his voice cracking, "Buck I can't, I've already gotten between you and Steve once. I can't do that again, I won't do that again, you two will be here long after I'm gone, you need each other. More than either of you will need me." You said fully crying, Bucky turned you too face him, he understood what you meant.
His arms slowly dropped from around you, he took a step back and steadied himself. "I'm so sorry Buck, I didn't mean to break your heart before we could even be us." You said wiping your face again. Bucky held you for a few minutes until you stopped crying. "I'm sorry Buck, I'm so sorry." You said starting to cry again, "I'll forever be sorry, so so sorry." You said trying to pick your bag up.
"Please stop saying your sorry." Bucky said with a tear dropping down his cheek, "I am Buck." You said standing there staring at him, "I love you." He said with any attempts to keep you, you swear you could hear your heart strings snap, you took in a deep breathe that contained an ugly sob. "Baby girl?" He questioned, this broke you even more. "I know." You said covering your whole face. A soft tap came at the door, T'Challa, Shuri, Sam and Steve stood there.
Steve watched his two best friends breaking, but he couldn't stop you. You had already made your mind up and they'd almost come to blows once over you. Steve watched as you walked away from Bucky as he stood behind you looking aimlessly.
Steve went to pull you in for a hug but you shrugged him off and pretty much feel into Sam's arms, T'Challa & Shuri walked over to Bucky and comforted him. Bucky was glad to see you go to Sam rather than Steve.