Disclaimer: I do not own Divergent
Warning!: This chapter will have mentions of rape and suicide. I will alert you when it starts. If these are triggers for you, skip over that part.
Amara
It was only after dinner that I realized Four wanted me to stop by his apartment. When I got the door was open so I just walked in. His apartment was huge! There was no way I could feel claustrophobic in here. Tobias would have liked this room. I still can't believe that he didn't make it through initiation. He was always so brave.
" AJ! Glad you're here," a voice says. I turn around and see Six standing there.
" umm...yeah," I stutter.
" Four is right in there," she says pointing to what I think is the kitchen. " He should be out in 3..2..1.."
" Oh hey Amara," he said. But with the cake stuffed in his mouth, it sounded more like ' oh ha mara'.
" How do you know my real name?" I ask him. He swallows his cake and asks me to sit down. I sit and he tells me.
" Zeke was only half telling the truth. Tobias is not dead Amara. He did not pass initiation though."
" Oh."
" Four passed when Tobias would have failed."
" What?" Now I'm confused. Four just turned around and pulled his shirt off. He turned around to where I could see the tattoo covering the scars on his back. They look so much like mine.
" Tobias?" I ask.
" Hey 'Mars," he said turning around.
" Toby!" I cry. Then I go and give him a big hug. I feel like a little kid again. I feel like when I was 9 and he told me that he wasn't going to stay in Abnegation. That he would transfer at his choosing ceremony. I remember clinging to him saying that I knew why he needed to leave.
And when I was 12 and he was headed to his choosing ceremony. I gave him the biggest hug I could then, telling him that I loved him and that I was glad he got to escape this. Tobias had become my brother. We may not be biologically siblings, but we were siblings none the less.
When I came back to present time I had tears streaking down my cheeks and was clinging on to Tobias like he was my lifeline.
(This is where the warning at the beginning comes to play.)
When I finally pulled back Toby noticed that my sleeve had rolled up. I looked and saw what he was staring at. It was what I liked to call 'My tattoo scar.' It was a silver color that glinted in the light. It was like a snake curling from the top of my bicep to my elbow. (I got that idea after reading Silver Scars. Great story!) I quickly pulled my sleeve back down. Too late.
" Amara-" Tobias started.
" Marcus got creative with a knife," I said interrupting him.
" What all did he do to you?" Six asks.
" Um...Six...I don't..." I stutter trying to explain that I wouldn't want her to see my scars.
" 'Mars, this is Tris. She was from Abnegation too. You would remember her as Beatrice Prior. Me and her are dating and she is about the only one here I would trust to tell about Marcus." Tobias says.
I'm shocked. Beatrice?
~ Flashback~
I was six. The gunshots had finally stopped and I was hiding in a alleyway. An Abnegation woman walks in front of the alleyway calling my name. I whimper involuntary. She turns with her eyes hard. When she sees me her eyes soften. She starts to walk over, but I scoot back.
" Hi Amara," she said. " I'm Natalie. I'm going to take you home with me really quick, okay?" I nod and take her hand. She sounded nice. I had to trust her. When I got there, there was an Abnegation girl sitting on the front steps. She looked about 2 years older than me..
" Mother!" she called, headed our direction. I paused and hid behind the Abnegation woman.
" Who is this mother?" the girl asks.
" Beatrice, this is Amara. She just lost her family and I have asked to adopt her. I thought that we should get her cleaned up a little though." she tells Beatrice.
When I come out from hiding she holds out her hand to me. I was cleaned and given new robes. I loved the Priors. Especially Bea. She wasn't quite Abnegation and I could tell. I knew she was being held back here. ' She'll be transferring when she's 16,' I think to myself. It was right before dinner when I was told by a sad Natalie, that I would not be adopted by the Priors. Instead I had to go live with Marcus. I gave goodbye hugs to everyone. I hugged Bea the longest. I would miss her the most. Maybe Marcus would still let me see them though, I had thought.
It was only that night, when I was crying over the loss of my new and old family, that I learned how horrible Marcus was.
~ End of Flashback ~
" Wait," I said. " Beatrice Prior as in Bea?"
Tris smiles sadly and nods. Then I run up to her and give her a hug.
" So what happened Amara?" Bea asks.
" He would beat me with a belt. Slice me with knifes. Lock me in a closet. Slap me. Punch me. Hit me. Hand me I knife and tell me to cut right above my heart or he would kill me. When I was 15, he come home really drunk. He...he... he raped me." I whisper the last part, but I know they heard it.
Bea...sorry, Tris, gives me a hug and Tobias looks ready to murder someone. I start to get stressed out that they would regret having me tell them that and kick me out of their apartment. But Toby seems to notice my sudden stress. He calms down and put one of his hands on my shoulder.
" How about you go sing a little bit?" Tobias asks. I smile a little and nod.
(Warning is over)
- line break because dauntless cake -
When we get to the pit, the first thing I notice is that I see Andrew Prior. But that means there is all of the Abnegation leaders. Tobias notices to. He whispers something in my ear and I smirk. First we walk up to Andrew.
" Andrew," I say. He turns around. When he sees me it takes him a minute to realize who I am.
" Amara?" he asks.
" Yep," I respond.
" Hi dad," Tris says.
" Hello Beatrice. I hate to end this but I have business to attend to," he said.
Then he walked toward Marcus and Max. Luckily Zeke is in the DJ booth.
" Hey Zeke! I need you to play the music to Wolf in Sheep's Clothing!"
" Did someone piss you off?"
" Something like that."
" Okay. Mic's over on the left."
Then the music starts and the crowd looks this way.
Hahaha, this is about you Beware, beware, be skepticalOf their smiles, their smiles of plated gold
Deceit so natural
But a wolf in sheep's clothing is more than a warning Baa baa, black sheep, have you any soul?
No sir, by the way, what the hell are morals?
Jack be nimble, Jack be quick
Jill's a little whore, and her alibis are dirty tricks So could you
Tell me how you're sleeping easy
How you're only thinking of yourself
Show me how you justify
Telling all your lies like second nature
Listen, mark my words, one day (one day)
You will pay, you will pay
Karma's gonna come collect your debt Aware, aware, you stalk your prey
With criminal mentality
You sink your teeth into the people you depend on
Infecting everyone, you're quite the problem Fee-fi-fo-fum, you better run and hide
I smell the blood of a petty little coward
Jack be lethal, Jack be slick
Jill will leave you lonely, dying in a filthy ditch So could you
Tell me how you're sleeping easy
How you're only thinking of yourself
Show me how you justify
Telling all your lies like second nature
Listen, mark my words, one day (one day)
You will pay, you will pay
Karma's gonna come collect your debt Maybe you'll change
Abandon all your wicked ways
Make amends and start anew again
Maybe you'll see
All the wrongs you did to me
And start all over, start all over again Who am I kidding?
Now, let's not get overzealous here
You've always been a huge piece of shit
If I could kill you, I would
But it's frowned upon in all fifty states
Having said that, burn in hell, yeah Oh, oh, oh
So tell me how you're sleeping easy
How you're only thinking of yourself
Show me how you justify
Telling all your lies like second nature
Listen, mark my words, one day (one day)
You will pay, you will pay
Karma's gonna come collect your debt Karma's gonna come collect your debt
Karma's gonna come collect your debt
(That was Wolf in Sheep's clothing by Set it Off)
I am so glad I got to sing that. I was looking at Marcus that whole time.
Then a dauntless screamed, " We all be going to HELL!" Of course all of the other Dauntless joined in and started screaming 'ya'. I flipped them all of while getting off the stage. I felt good again, until Marcus walked right over to me.
" Hello Amara."
K I had to do a cliffy. sry not sry. I will try to update soon!
-Wise Girl