Another week had passed and you still haven't told Addison.

Meredith has been paging you more and more frequently, and you're starting to get annoyed when she pesters you for the most insignificant things, "Derek my back is aching like a bitch," or "Derek, people are getting suspicious," or "Derek could you run out to get ginger ale, I've been nauseous all day"

You get that she's pregnant with your baby, and it's technically your duty as the baby's father to attend to her needs and wants. But these are things that can easily be carried out by other people. You needed to be with Addison, why couldn't she understand that?

Addie had insisted you go back to work after noticing the number of "emergency patients" you had. You made sure you cleared your schedule whenever she had rehabilitation sessions and tried to provide companionship whenever she was bored, but being Head of Neurosurgery also meant that you couldn't be with her as much as you would like. She's been working with Karev to alleviate her boredom, and the close proximity of Meredith and her in the hospital has led to your active praying for the gossips of "Meredith Grey's burgeoning belly" to not fall into her ears.

Until this one day.

You were in the midst of a consult when your pager had sounded, once again signalling Meredith's call for you. You had grumpily excused yourself to find her and whilst blinded by your own frustration, had neglected the fact that she asked to meet on the NICU floor. On hindsight now, you realise that this might have been intentional on her part.

You found her in front of one of the on-call rooms near the nurses station, and when asked the reason for her page, she told you that she was craving those lemon macarons from the bakery on the other side of the street and asked if you could get them for her.

Your fingers unconsciously squeezed the bridge of your nose upon hearing that, already feeling the anger from the imminent argument the both of you were about to get into.

"Meredith, can't you get it yourself? You can't expect me to be at your beck and call. I have to take care of Addi--"

"ITS ALL ABOUT ADDISON! ITS ALWAYS ABOUT ADDISON! DEREK SHEPHERD THIS IS YOUR CHILD TOO. IM BEARING YOUR CHILD."

You're vaguely aware of the crowd of stares that have formed upon hearing her raised voice, but during then, anger surpassed all else.

"MEREDITH. WE'VE TALKED ABOUT THIS. KEEP ADDISON OUT OF OUR AFFAIRS."

"I'm 5 months pregnant with YOUR child Derek, and all you think about is HER, does she even know about us? Have you even told her about it? Or have you been lying to her Derek? She's going to --"

She had paused abruptly, and shifted her gaze to stare at something behind you.

You knew what was coming. You knew it before you whipped your head around to see her standing there, gripping her clutches and leaning against Alex Karev. You knew what was written all over her face before you actually saw it, you just didn't expect the magnitude of it.

She might as well have written P A I N on her forehead with ink, because the way her eyes glanced over from you, to Meredith, to Meredith's noticeably rounded belly before returning back to you, had shown about just as much.

She might as well have screamed at you infront of everyone there, because the way she didn't utter a word before slowly turning her body around, stumbling from the sudden loss of balance after her detach from Karev, and collapsing onto the floor with her four limbs planted to the ground shouted words louder than the human voice could have managed.

She might as well have pierced an arrow into your heart then, because the way she whisper-pleaded for Karev to keep you away as she struggled to stand up again had caused even greater pain than a punctured heart would have.

Karev had pinned you onto the wall when it became clear you weren't going to heed her wishes. With you sandwiched in between his arms and the wall, you had watched her force her legs straight as she held onto whatever was within arms reach for support. From where you were, you could see the droplets of water that landed on the floor where she awkwardly kneeled. Her tears.

"Help her!" You had shouted to the crowd of nurses staring. But she had refused their assistance, painfully hoisting herself up in vain as her grip on the wooden drawer of the nurses station tightened.

Richard eventually appeared following the commotion. He didn't bother asking anyone what happened, neither did he demand for Karev to let go of you. He went straight up to Addie, placed her arm around his neck and his arm under her legs, carried her bridal style away from all the clamour.

The image of her burying her face into Richard's shoulder imprinted itself into your head as Karev loosened his grip on you.

He scowled at you before walking away, leaving you, a teary eyed Meredith, and the dispersing crowd of hospital personnels to tidy up the mess you've made.

You find your way to her room, only to see Mark sitting on one of the chairs outside the door, telling you you're not allowed in there.

"Callie's inside with her now. I told you to tell her Derek, I told you things would get out of hand."

You caught a glimpse of her when Callie came out of her room. She laid on her side, her knees tucked in her chest and from this distance, you could see the tear tracks that glimmered on her cheeks and the trembling of her shoulders.

Mark tells you to go home, "There's nothing much left for you to do now Derek"

Home.

You don't know where home is without Addison.

2 CHAPTERS IN ONE DAY!! Do I not deserve some reviews?? Pretty please! I want to finish this fic before my holiday ends so i think i'm gonna remove some of the plots i had initially planned for. I hope you'll still like what's coming though. I apologise for any mistakes in this chapter, I wrote this at 2am in the morning.

In the next chapter, Addison goes back to LA with Archer, and Sam calls Derek...

In case you're not familiar with Private Practice, Archer is Addison's older brother. Naomi is Addison's best friend since Med School, and Sam is Naomi's ex-husband, who lives beside, and dated Addison for a period of time.

LIVES BESIDE. That's today's clue for what's going to happen next. Tell me what you think is about to happen in the reviews :D