The next two months went by painfully slow for Kurt. Regionals went well. Or as well as it could go considering the fact that they had lost to New Directions. Even Blaine's strong vocals and his energetic duet with Sebastian weren't a match for the other team's original song.

When the Warblers had licked their wounds and New Directions had finished celebrating, Rachel (as well as the rest of the glee club really) started nagging on Kurt to abandon his new team and go back to them. It was a tempting offer, Kurt had to admit. It was one of his biggest dreams to see New York, the city that he pictured himself living in one day.

But then he would glance at Blaine who each day looked just a tiny bit more transparent, like he was withering away and he knew that he couldn't leave even if the other boy still refused to talk to him.

"Kurt, I understand that you care about him." Rachel would often say through the phone as the boy sat in the garden outside the building to avoid his roommates eavesdropping. "But he won't even talk to you and really, he has so many things on his plate right now. You should just leave this place and move on. It would be healthy for the both of you."

The boy sighed. "That's exactly why I can't do this, Rachel." Kurt said, "I know Blaine's not talking to me right now but I have to make sure that he knows that I'll be there for him if he needs me."

There was a pause on the other end and he heard Rachel sigh. "You'll only get hurt, Kurt." Her voice was quiet and soft, as if she knew that there was no convincing her best friend.

Kurt closed his eyes, the despair he often felt coming in full force. "I'm always hurting." He admitted. "I don't think it can get any worse than this."

"You'd be surprised." Rachel only said and soon after that they ended the phone call, her sad that she wasn't able to get through to her friend, and Kurt slightly guilty for disappointing her once again.

After their failed attempt to win Regionals, the life at Dalton had become dull and uninspiring. The rehearsals were redundant, neither one of the boys bringing their A game as the only public performances they could count on were either for other students or for sick children in hospital. It was all noble and fulfilling but it lacked a certain edge and thrill of adrenaline that only competing against others brought.

But even in some alternate universe, where they had been victorious during Regionals, Kurt knew that his thoughts would have been plagued by one person only. Kurt wished he shared some classes with Blaine, so that he could observe the other boy more closely but unfortunately he could only do so during the practices or in the cafeteria.

Kurt kept wondering what really had happened. Blaine was pregnant, that one was confirmed. Or at least he had been. The boy kept looking out for any sighs but either Blaine was exceptionally good at hiding everything or there was no baby to speak of anymore. He thought he could see a slight curve pressing against Blaine's blazer but it could be as well just his imagination.

Sebastian had never reported him to the headmaster, He was able to stay at Dalton, if only because Blaine wouldn't talk to him now. The dirty looks had ceased also. Sebastian didn't seem like his old self either. He hardly ever showed up to the practices anymore and when he did, he didn't even sit next to his boyfriend.

It was a few weeks after the Regionals that the news had spread all through the school – boys whispering to one another, Warblers and non-Warblers alike. Kurt heard it from Jeff and Nick one Sunday evening when he came back from Lima after a weekend spent with his family.

The dorm room fell silent when Kurt entered, a small suitcase in tow. They were both sitting on Jeff's bed and looking conspicuously at one another and then at Kurt who raised his eyebrows at them. "What?" He asked, feeling like they had been talking about him while he had been gone. He shrugged off his jacket and opened up his suitcase, ready to organize his small closet space like he often did after his trips back home that happened more often than not now that he didn't really have a reason to stay.

Jeff and Nick exchanged one more look. "It's a shitshow, Kurt." Jeff said but his voice lacked its usual humor and edge. "Blaine and Sebastian broke up." He said softly. "And Blaine's apparently pregnant too and been hiding it since Sectionals."

Kurt dropped the handle of his suitcase and gaped at his two friends. "How do you know that?" He asked, unable to believe that the cat was out of the bag and that he had missed it.

"Well, it's kind of hard not to know it." Nick said with a shrug, his face grave. Kurt was sure that if it had been anyone else they would be laughing about it and joking. But it was Blaine. The one that they all loved and would die for. "Their break-up was quite loud."

"And very much public." Jeff added. "They broke up today over breakfast. It was very hard not to hear it."

Kurt's heart broke a little more when he heard all of that. Two months ago a part of him would have been happy to learn that Blaine was finally a single man but now he knew that an intense break-up was the last thing that the other boy needed in that moment. "Is Blaine still here?"

"Yeah." Nick said. "We called Wes and begged him to come quickly but he couldn't make it."

Kurt didn't wait for any further explanations and instead stormed out of the room in a flash and nearly ran all the way to Blaine's dorm. He knocked rapidly against the door, not bothering to think about any consonances. He didn't know if Blaine would even want to see him but he didn't care. The other boy needed someone and for now Kurt seemed to be the only one he had.

The door didn't open for him and there was no sound coming from behind it so Kurt just pressed the handle and the door gave way. The side of the room that belonged to Wes looked like it always did, still neat and well-organized but the other one was utter and complete mess. Books and papers were scattered everywhere, as well as some of the clothes giving the appearance of being thrown around in frustration.

And on the bed there was a small bundle of blankets curled in on itself, clearly hiding from the rest of the world. Kurt's heart broke at the sight as he closed the door and slowly took a seat on the edge of the bed. Blaine's face was buried into the pillow and for a while Kurt thought that he was asleep but his breathing was uneven, shaky, as if he was holding back sobs.

"Go away. I don't want to talk." Blaine said, his voice muffled by the pillow.

Kurt smiled sadly, unable to stop himself from landing a comforting hand against the boy's back. "I heard what happened." At those words he felt Blaine's back tense slightly under his fingers. "And I'm sorry that it did."

"Yeah, I bet you are." Blaine said bitterly. He lifted his head and met Kurt with red puffy eyes and wet cheeks. "Isn't this what you always wanted?"

Kurt sighed looking away. He had foolishly wished that all would be forgiven after some time has passed. Apparently not. "To see you heartbroken and miserable? No, it's not what I want now or what I wanted before." He said, his voice soft and apologetic. As much as he wanted to avoid it, Kurt felt like he needed to say the whole truth if he ever wanted them to move on. "I have to admit, my intentions might not have been the purest before but I never wanted to see you hurt. I always cared about you first and foremost." He could see Blaine's eyes soften as he sat up more straight on the bed so that they were looking at each other properly. "And that hasn't changed."

Blaine still didn't look fully convinced. "How do I know that you're being honest now?"

Kurt shrugged, not having a good answer for now. "I guess you will just have to trust me for now." He said. "But I have kept my distance, haven't I? No talking, no even trying to get close to you." That had to count for something, Kurt kept telling himself. "And I just want to be here for you now. No obligations, no expectations. Just…whatever you need, Blaine."

The other boy kept piercing Kurt with his eyes, as if still debating with himself whether or not he could really trust him. "You were the only one that noticed my act." He said quietly. "You could see right through me when no one else could." His shoulders slumped as he looked down at his hands. Kurt wished that he could grab them and squeeze reassuringly but he feared that it would be a step too far.

They were silent for a while but it wasn't an uncomfortable kind of silence. It was calm and almost pleasant in a way. "I should probably fill you in on what has happened since we last really talked." Blaine said at last.

"You don't have to." Kurt rushed to say. "We could just watch a movie if you want, if that makes you feel any better."

Blaine shook his head. "No." He said. "I really want to tell you everything. I feel like I need to."

Kurt nodded. "Okay, then. I'm listening."

Blaine sighed rubbing his face. "Jesus, where do I even start?"

"What about your parents?" Kurt asked, wanting to help Blaine out a little. "Do they know now?"

Blaine nodded his head slowly. "Yeah, they do."

Blaine remembered that day well. It was about two weeks after Sectionals. He wasn't particularly fond of the idea of his parents having another reason to be disappointed in him but he knew that it was only right to tell them before they found out on their own, under less fortunate circumstances.

They were supposed to do it together with Sebastian but the green-eyed boy came up with some bullshit excuse at the last minute and bailed out of it asking to do it some other day. But Blaine was just too tired of keeping this secret from them so he decided to do it on his own.

He sat his parents in the living room on the sofa and stood in front of them begging whatever higher power that was up there to help him out. Pamela and Richard stared at him in question, clearly suspecting that something was wrong. "There is something I need to tell you." Blaine said at last, his voice shaking and his palms sweating.

Richard raised his eyebrows and shared a look with his wife. "Did you finally decide on what colleges you're going to apply to? I'd say that it's about time."

It took all of Blaine's willpower to stop himself from rolling his eyes or saying something stupid. They could fight about it some other time. "No. It's not that."

"Sweetie, I know it's a tough choice but you really should start thinking about it." Pamela said with a sweet smile, clearly meaning well but unable to ever disagree with her husband.

"It's something else, okay?" Blaine was getting agitated but he did his best to remain as calm as he could given the circumstances. "I..." He stumbled over the words, his tongue seemingly going numb and refusing to work properly. He was never going to get better at doing this, was he?

"What is it, Blaine?" Richard asked, clearly getting impatient as he crossed his arms over his chest.

The boy closed his eyes and took a deep breath trying to block out the two people sitting in front of him. He imagined that it was just him and no one else, that he was only saying this to himself. "I am pregnant." He said at last, his voice steady and firm. Then he opened his eyes to find two shocked faces staring back at him. Before they could recover, Blaine started speaking again, the words falling out of his mouth like vomit. "I know it's a lot to take in but I want to be responsible about it. Sebastian will help me. We're still considering our options. We might be leaning towards adoption though."

Blaine didn't even know why he was saying that if he was always on Sebastian's case for suggesting that but in that moment it felt surprisingly right. "Sebastian's aunt and uncle are actually trying to adopt a baby themselves so we thought that it would be best if we gave the baby to them. This way they'd be happy and we would still visit him or her. We're not sure yet though because-"

"Blaine, hold on a second." Pamela said sitting up more straight. She still looked slightly confused but it looked like she was not going to yell at Blaine which was a very good sign. Richard's face was a bit more stern but Blaine preferred not to look his way at least yet. "You know that pregnancy in your case is very improbable. We should first check it, make sure that it's not something else and then think about it, okay?" At the woman's words the man beside her seemed to relax a bit.

Blaine smiled sadly at his mother. "It's all confirmed, Mom." He said at which the woman's eyes widened and Richard tensed again. "I went to the doctor. Everything looks good. I'm ten weeks along."

"How could you let something like this happen?" This time it was Blaine's father speaking. He leaned forward, his expression grave and his lips pressed in a tight line as he stared at his son in disapproval. "You're not a child anymore."

Pamela put a comforting arm on her husband's shoulder. "It happened." She said calmly. "There's nothing you can say that will change it now." Blaine was surprised to see his father's eyes soften as he looked into the woman's eyes. Pamela turned to Blaine. "We will help you, Blaine. Of course we will, with whatever you and your boyfriend choose to do." She turned back to Richard. "Right, Dick?"

The man looked at his son, his eyes hard but not cold anymore. "Right." But then his gaze changed into something Blaine was way too familiar with. "But you better think it through well. It may not be an easy task knowing your decision-making skills."

Blaine couldn't help but smile at that.

"So they're okay with it?" Kurt asked, happy that Blaine seemed to have his parents ready to support him.

Blaine nodded his head, his face not quite as red and flushed anymore. "As okay as any parents would be, I guess." He said. "You have no idea how scared I was to tell them. I thought they would kick me out or something." A small smile made its way onto Blaine's face as he looked into the distance, clearly thinking about his parents. "I guess I should give them more credit next time."

Kurt returned the smile but then he thought about something Blaine had said. "Is this something you really want to do? Give the baby to Sebastian's family?"

The boy shrugged. "Well, I don't have much of a choice anymore." He looked down at his stomach that was now visibly pressing against the fabric of his shirt. "One option's out of the window. It took me too long to decide but I don't think I would have been able to do that anyway." He paused for a moment. "And I know that giving her away is not ideal. I'll miss her like crazy but I don't feel like I'm in a good place to take care of another person. I'm barely keeping myself together." Another pause, as if he was still pondering something, still thinking about what could be. "It would have been hard enough with Sebastian and on my own? No way."

Kurt smiled at the mention of the baby's gender. "You could do it." Kurt said with confidence. "Would it be hard as hell? I bet. But I know you could do it." He said again.

Blaine smiled back. "Thanks." He said. "Maybe you're right. Maybe I could do it but I'm trying to be responsible and considering of others. I'm really getting warmed up to the idea of Francine and Louis raising her. They're Sebastian's family. They promised that we could both still be part of her life. We'd be her uncles." There was still a smile on his face which Kurt loved seeing. "And I think it sounds nice, you know? Not ideal because I don't think anything would be ideal but nice."

Kurt nodded his head. "If that's what you want."

"I think it is."

The comfortable silence fell between them again before Kurt broke it, too curious to help himself. "Do you want to talk about happened today?" He asked at which Blaine saddened again. "We don't have to if you don't want to. Only if it makes you feel any better."

"Our relationship was doomed to fail for some time." Blaine said with a shrug. "I guess we were just together because it was what we knew at that point. I don't even know why I'm so upset over this, to be honest. I knew this would have to happen eventually." He paused for a moment rubbing the back of his neck. "I just kept holding on to it like a fool and it blew in my face."

Things between them hadn't been good for a longer while now but neither of them spoke about it, choosing to omit the subject in favor of more serious matters which had somehow become easier to discuss recently. Blaine had agreed to meet Sebastian's aunt and uncle after being promised that the meeting would bear no obligations or expectations.

Francine and Louis turned out to be a lovely couple and as they told Blaine about the charming little French town they lived in the boy couldn't help but fall in love with the idea of their daughter growing up in a European countryside, surrounded by nature but also with prestigious schools easily available to her.

Blaine didn't tell Sebastian that at first. He didn't want his boyfriend to be right and hold it over him for ages so instead he kept saying that he needed more time to decide, much to the other boy's dismay. All the while he talked to his parents about it and they were on board as well, happy that their grandchild would be in good hands but also that they would get a chance to meet her and be a permanent part of her life.

Sebastian's parents had also been made aware of the situation, of course. They weren't too happy as one would expect but they didn't make a huge deal out of it either. As soon as they found out that Blaine and Sebastian were thinking about letting Francine and Louis adopt the baby they simply agreed to it and didn't really say more on the matter.

Meanwhile Sebastian and Blaine were still a couple, even though it seemed like they were miles away. They held hands in the hallways but they hardly even kissed anymore and they found out that they didn't have all that much to talk about. Blaine kept his feelings to himself and Sebastian apparently did too as it turned out one Sunday morning.

It all started quite innocently. "I was thinking of visiting Fanny in Australia this summer. You'd want to tag along?" The boy asked as he buttered his toast.

Blaine rolled his eyes shoving a piece of bread into his mouth. "Are you serious right now?" He asked.

Sebastian frowned at him. "Yeah, it's not like we'll be taking care of the kid. It'll be all over then. We deserve a break, don't you agree?"

Blaine couldn't believe his ears. "I still haven't made up my mind, you know." He spat at Sebastian, raising his voice an octave or two and gaining a questioning gaze from one of the students sitting at a nearby table.

Sebastian glared at his boyfriend. "Keep your voice quiet, would you?" He said in a whisper looking around. "We don't want the whole school gossiping about us. It's a miracle Hummel didn't spill anything yet."

Blaine shook his head, not wanting to think about Kurt. He thought about him way more than he should as it was, glancing at the other boy when he was sure he wasn't looking. He would never admit that to Sebastian though. That would send him spiraling into the crazy territory right away. "I don't think I care if anyone else finds out now, to be honest."

Sebastian raised his eyebrows at that. "Yeah? You want to be called names, Blaine?"

"What names?" Blaine asked, not willing to believe that any of his friends would think any less of him for getting knocked up.

"Slut, whore, freak." Sebastian easily enumerated.

Blaine shook his head in disbelief. "Is that what you think of me?"

Sebastian rolled his eyes running his hand through his hair. "Jesus, Blaine. Of course not." He said. "I'm just saying that some of them could think that."

"So what? Am I supposed to hide it for the rest of the pregnancy?" Blaine raised his voice, at this point only to spite Sebastian. He almost smiled seeing the panicked look in his green eyes as the cafeteria suddenly fell silent and the students all turned to look at the couple, murmuring between each other.

"God, Blaine. Could you not?" Sebastian asked rubbing his head with his hands. "Why do you have to be so unbearable?"

Blaine snorted. "If I'm so unbearable then why don't you just break up with me and spare yourself from all the misery?" He asked, expecting Sebastian to back down and leave the topic alone.

But much to his surprise Sebastian stood his ground, his green eyes turning cold. "Actually, maybe that would be for the best."

Blaine immediately looked up, an unpleasant wave of panic washing over him. "What? You're not being serious."

"Yeah, why not?" Sebastian asked and this time it was his voice that echoed through the room. "I am sick of you and I don't care if you're pregnant. You can blame only so much on the hormones. You can't make up your mind, you won't even let me touch you anymore. I don't even know how to talk to you. No matter what I say it all just gets on your nerves." He stood up from the table and Blaine heard some gasps from other students.

They were putting up quite a show for them.

"I try so fucking hard to be a good and supporting boyfriend but nothing is ever good enough for you, Blaine." Blaine's jaw dropped open as he realized that his boyfriend had to have been keeping it all in this whole time. "I don't think I can do this anymore, Blaine. I'm not Hummel if this is what you're looking for."

The shock gave way to the irritation that came with the mention of Kurt's name. "Why does it always have to go back to him? It's not my fault that you have unresolved jealousy issues." He stated, not wanting to give Sebastian the satisfaction of pinning all of the blame for the issues on Blaine.

Sebastian's gaze turned even colder and he snorted with a shake of his head. "Look me in the eye and tell me that you don't have any feelings for him whatsoever." He challenged with an evil glint in his eyes.

Blaine swallowed hard. "Sebastian." He only said not wanting to lie yet still not really sure what he really felt regarding the blue-eyed boy.

"Tell me." Sebastian said again crossing his arms over his chest and looking straight into Blaine's eyes. But the other boy remained silent ducking his head and avoiding Sebastian's gaze. He knew there was no salvaging this. "Thought so." Sebastian said with a shake of his head. "You should have just told me from the get go and save yourself all the trouble."

"You know it was never like that." Blaine said feeling tears welling up in his eyes. How was it all suddenly his fault?

"We started hating each other and you didn't even realize it." Sebastian said, his voice now soft.

"I love you." Blaine said brokenly, tears flowing down his cheeks. "I do."

"You don't." The green-eyed boy looked almost as broken as Blaine felt. "You love the idea of us, Blaine. And don't get me wrong – I do too, but it's just not enough anymore."

Blaine sighed, his shoulders shaking with silent sobs. "Is this it then?" He asked.

"It's over." Sebastian confirmed coldly. "We can't keep doing this to each other." And once the words left his mouth he stared at Blaine for a moment, as if still not sure if he was really doing it. But then he left, all eyes in the cafeteria on him.

A part of Blaine already knew that it was all for the best but he still covered his face with his hands and started sobbing in the middle of the public hall, like a little kid whose world had just collapsed.

Now Blaine had tears in his eyes again but at least they weren't falling and he wasn't sobbing. "I guess it's for the best." He said with a shrug. "Maybe we will be able to maintain some kind of friendship at least." He said but his voice held no conviction. "And everyone knows without me having to tell them. It all worked out in the end."

Kurt nodded his head but his whole body was shaking like he was on fire. His heart was beating like crazy and he needed to focus hard not to break his promise of keeping his distance and respecting Blaine's boundaries. He opened his mouth and closed a few times, unable to find the right words to pour his thoughts into. "So you never told anyone else?" Kurt asked instead.

Blaine shook his head. "I didn't." He admitted. "Well, I did tell Wes in the end. It became impossible to hide it from him with him being my roommate and all." He rolled his eyes. "He judged me a little but it was nice that he knew and I could talk to him about everything."

Kurt nodded his head slowly, a part of him sad that it wasn't him that Blaine had been confiding in all this time. "I'm glad he was there for you, that you weren't alone." He swallowed hard, still shaking but hoping that Blaine couldn't see it. "Blaine, I have to ask you something." He said with his eyes closed.

"Yeah?"

He swallowed again and looked up at Blaine, his honey-colored eyes warm and open. "You said that Sebastian mentioned me when you broke up." He said, his voice breaking. "Was he right?" He asked in a quiet voice. "Do you...do you...ugh...have feelings for...ugh...me?" Kurt felt out of breath, as if he had just ran a marathon. "You don't have to answer, of course. I know I said I would not pursue you in any way and I will stick to my promise. I just-" He sighed, running out of breath. "I guess I just wanted to know."

Much to his surprise when Kurt looked back at Blaine, there was a soft smile on his lips. "Don't worry, Kurt." He said. "It's fine." He paused for a moment looking down at his hands. "I wouldn't have mentioned it if I didn't want you to know, would I?"

"I guess."

Blaine was still smiling but it was a soft and shy smile that could be scared away in a matter of seconds. "I'm very confused right now, Kurt. About a lot of things." He admitted giving him a small shrug. "Really a lot." His hand twitched and a part of Kurt wanted to believe that it was because Blaine wanted to touch him. "You included."

Kurt felt like his heart was about to explode as he waited for what Blaine would say next. "I think I do have some kind of feelings for you. But I need time to sort this all out in my head. I'm nowhere near ready to jump right into another relationship and I need you respect that."

Kurt nodded his head. "Of course."

"Thank you." Blaine said, the smile growing a little wider.

The blue-eyed boy sighed in relief. He knew that they would be alright and so he reached out and grabbed Blaine's pleasantly warm hand into his cold one knowing that they both understood that it was just a friendly gesture.

But maybe one day it would be more.