MIDORIYA
I almost choke on air as I stare at Todoroki. I can feel my cheeks burning letting me know how much I am blushing. He glances away from me quickly but I can see the hurt, the anger, the confusion in his eyes. This wasn't suppose to happen. What the hell is he doing here?
"You all are 3rd year correct?" he asks.
"Yes," we all respond in different tones. He nods closing his eyes. The rest of the class probably can't see it, but I know he is trying to calm himself down. I try to keep from shaking.
"Excellent," he replies opening his eyes. "I wanted to say I am looking forward to teaching each of you on combat. Don't think I will take it easy on you all because you are in high school. Remember the villains will have no mercy. Any questions?" Kirishima raises his hand. Todoroki points to him.
"I wanted to know since we are your students here, do we get a discount at your new dojo set to open this weekend?" he asked.
"I hadn't thought about that," replies Todoroki. "That is a good question. Let me see how the opening goes and I will get back to you. Any other questions?" I watch as Momo raise her hand. She is blushing slightly, and I don't blame her. I mean we are pretty much busted. I can see Kaminari looking down while Jirou looks like her normal self.
"Um I just wanted to sure that our class is starting with a clean slate," she states. "You won't be holding anything on us for the previous school years." Aizawa snorts but I'm able to read between the lines. Momo really wants to know is he going to blow our cover.
"No," he replies. "I was not here the previous 2 years. You get a fresh start. You all will have to earn my trust and that can be hard to do." Todoroki glares at me. Fuck. I shift away from his glance. "Any other questions please save those for our class time. I will let Aizawa take his class back. I will see you all later today."
"No rush here by any means," drones Aizawa. "Thank you though." I watch as Todoroki bolts from the classroom. "All right kiddos just because you are 3rd years doesn't mean I won't ride you. Attention to the board, this is your class schedule for the next 8 months. Read it and don't start crying." Mineta groans as I open my notebook shakily beginning to write. I hear my phone buzz. I am dying to look at it but I know Aizawa will take my phone if I do so. Combat class is our last class on the day, damnit. Home room wraps up thank god. I quickly grab my books rushing out of the classroom. Uraraka is yelling after me but I ignore her pulling out my phone soon as I'm outside of the classroom.
Todoroki: Lose my number
My heart plummets reading that. I decide to send him a response.
Midoriya: You can't be serious
"Deku?" asked Uraraka. I glance up from my phone holding back tears trying not panic. I can only imagine what Todoroki is thinking.
"Uh yeah," I reply.
"Are you okay?" asked Iida walking over.
"Yeah I'm fine," I lie. I'm not fine, I am dying on the inside.
"I mean what are the odds!" exclaims Iida. "We had the number one hero All Might our 1st year until he stepped down. Now we got the number two hero. I mean I feel so honored to be going here."
"You're always honored to go to U.A." chuckles Uraraka.
"God you guys are on his nuts already," snorts Bakugou.
"Oh whatever," says Kirishima. I think Kirishima is thinking about the run in Bakugou had with Todoroki.
"Let's get to our next class," says Iida. "We don't want to make a bad impression on the first day."
"Great," I mutter. I hold on to my backpack straps as I follow my friends to class. Our next class is science with Midnight. I can barely pay attention because all I can think about is Todoroki. We get to lunch, and it is noticeable how upset I am by my friends. I want to go see Todoroki but he has a class right now.
"What's wrong?" asked Kirishima.
"Nothing," I reply sadly picking at my food. "I'm just tired."
"Should have went to bed early last night like me," says Bakugou.
"Screw that," says Jirou. "We are lucky he didn't rat us out." I know she is talking about Todoroki.
"The place was crowded," says Bakugou. "How can you even be sure he remembers us."
"Because of this one over there," says Jirou pointing at Momo.
"Don't blame this on me!" she exclaims. "Not my fault I was invited to…."
"Shut up," says Jirou cutting her off. "So sick of you talking about that."
"Stop it!" exclaims Kirishima. "The both of you. We are not in trouble and that is all that matters jeez." I can feel Bakugou staring at me. I end up tossing my lunch no longer hungry walking away from them. I don't know what to do because my mind is swimming.
I walk to the bathroom going into a stall where I check my phone once more seeing there was no response to my last text. My eyes well up and this time I cry. I'm like bawling trying to control myself but my heart is breaking. This wasn't suppose to happen. He was suppose to be gone, working and we date from a distance. By the time he came back I would have finished school by then.
"Deku," calls Bakugou. I wipe my eyes trying to calm down.
"What!" I shout.
"Are you seriously in here crying?" he questions. I continue to wipe my eyes behind the safety of my stall door.
"No….." I whine.
"Bullshit," says Bakugou. "I know I'm going to regret this but what's wrong?"
"I can't tell you," I whisper. "I refuse to discuss it here." I can't let anyone find out. Todoroki could lose his job and his reputation. I refuse to let that happen.
"I know plenty of your secrets," he retorts.
"That doesn't mean you have to know them all!" I shout. I don't hear anything. I walk out the stall to see him standing there with his arms folded.
"You're getting loud with me?" he questions. "You must really be upset."
"Leave me alone….." I mumble.
"Fine," he snaps. "You bet not bitch to Kirishima either." Bakugou turns heading out the door. I sigh looking in the mirror. I need to get myself together. My eyes are red and a little puffy. I can't help it. I splash some cold water on my face before getting back to my day. After this the day dragged. It is finally time for us to go to Todoroki class. I'm so eager to see him. I run from my 3rd class rushing down the hall trying to beat everyone else. Lucky for me we don't need to change clothes today. I get to the door opening it. I see Todoroki sitting at his desk. He is actively on his computer.
"Todoroki," I say loud enough for him to hear me.
"Come in, have a seat anywhere on the mat," he states. I do don't that. I walk over in front of his desk in the corner of the room. He hasn't taken his eyes off his screen.
"Um…..can we talk?" I ask.
"No," he says sternly.
"Please," I beg trying to keep it together. My voice was shaking from me trying not to whine or cry. I don't need him to think I'm so immature child. I think my voice gets to him because he glances at me.
"This is not the place or time," he states sternly. He looks so dead inside. This….this is not my Todoroki.
"This is cool!" exclaims Mina. I turn around seeing her do a cartwheel. Asui giggles as she hops on the mat.
"You really shouldn't be doing a cartwheel in a skirt," says Hagakure.
"Sorry," Mina replies. "I couldn't help myself."
"I missed it!" exclaims Mineta pushing his way into the classroom.
"I did too," pouts Kaminari.
"Where do we go?" asks Uraraka.
"He said to sit anywhere," I say walking away from his desk.
"We have to sit on the floor?" asked Momo. She is not happy about this.
"The mat is actually comfortable," says Mina patting it.
"But people walk on it," says Momo disturbed. I plop down crossing my legs.
"We take our shoes off," says Iida. Todoroki doesn't stand up until we are all sitting down. He walks around his desk in socks clearly having to remove his own shoes. He looks at all of us as we quiet down. He looks mad still, but my classmates probably don't know the difference.
"All right," says Todoroki. "Starting tomorrow you will need to dress in uniform when coming to this class. The styles that can be taught is Taekwondo, Jujutsu, and Kung Fu. I want to have a vote by you raising your hand on which style you are interested in learning." Todoroki starts naming off the styles. I raise my have for Jujutsu. I have always wanted to learn that. "I will be splitting the teaching up until two styles. Taekwondo and Jujutsu since no one choose Kung Fu. Does anyone care to tell me why they choose the style they want to learn?"
"Taekwando looks easy," says Mineta. He would say something so stupid.
"It's not easy at all," says Todoroki. "You will also be learning how to use weapons. TaeKwando there is a lot of that." Mineta looks horrified. I shake my head wondering why try and be a hero if you're going to take the easy way out on everything. Todoroki goes on to explain how everything is going to work. We are going to learn the basics first, then we get to fight each other. Then he will repeat the same steps until we get to level 5, whatever that is. We are going to have a small tournament, that should be fun. Following the tournament, we get to learn weapons before building more on our skills. Something tells me we are going to be busting ass every single day.
Things wrap up and I want to talk to Todoroki but he said not here. There is no way I can be seen getting into is SUV. I pull out my phone as we exit the classroom.
"I can't believe we have homework already," pouts Hagakure.
"I'm not surprised," says Mina. "It is our 3rd year after all."
"I wonder if we should do study groups this year," says Iida. I drown them out as I schedule Lyft to come and pick me up.
"What do you think Deku?" asked Uraraka. "I think a study group is a great idea."
"It is," I replied. "I want to do the best I can this school year."
"Seems like you are off to a rocky start," notes Iida. I know he is saying this because I have been distracted all day. "However, I know the first day is hard for everyone."
"Right," says Uraraka. "God I'm dying for a snack."
"Ditto," I reply. "I have to go."
"You do?" asked Kirishima. I nod yes not wanting to say anything further.
"Let me know what days and what subjects we will meet for the study group," I reply. "Thanks!" I take off running down the hall. I go to my dorm ensuring that I change out of my school uniform. I don't want to risk anyone spotting me. I finish quickly before I head outside the school and down to the coffee shop. I didn't want to chance the driver coming up to the school. I mean we have some smart students at our school. Last thing I need is someone getting an idea about any of this.
The drive to Todoroki's home is a lot longer. There is more traffic and I don't have his company. I get out at the gate telling the driver it was okay for them to leave me. I press in the gate code walking onto the property. I have a little walk before I get to the house. I sit down on the steps and wait for my love to arrive.
As I sit there, I can't help but wonder over and over what could I have done differently. I mean sure I could have told him the truth, but I liked being with him. It wasn't suppose to go this far. I practice what I'm going to say to Todoroki over and over until I finally see a car coming down towards the house. I stand up because I have never seen this car before. As it gets closer, I see Todoroki behind the wheel. I hear the garage open watching him drive inside. I have never seen him drive. He looks so…..adorable. I walk around to the garage stepping inside. It is actually cool letting me know it has an AC unit inside. Todoroki clicks the door close walking to open the door to go into the house I stumble behind him into the house. I follow Todoroki into the kitchen where he drops his stuff on the floor. He literally dropped it. There was nothing gentle about it.
"Why are you here?" he asked coldly with his back to me. "I thought I told you to lose my number." I swallow hard. I was hoping his anger wore off and it hasn't. Everything I thought I was going to say has gone out the window.
"We are…."
"We aren't anything," says Todoroki turning to face me for the first time. "You lied to me! You completely broke my trust!" He is now shouting at me shocking me to the core.
"Shouto….."
"Don't you dare say my name," he hisses. I can't stop the tears that come to my eyes. "What the fuck are you crying for? I committed a god damn crime for months! You know you were underaged and you let me fuck you…" Todoroki looks away from me.
"I'm 18," I sniffle. "I'm so sorry….I didn't mean…." Todoroki glares at me.
"Oh, so now you are 18 that is suppose to make it better!" he screams at me.
"I thought it would be a one time thing," I admit crying softly. "I didn't think I would love you."
"You should have fucking told me!" cries Todoroki. "I mean….god damnit….." He turns away from me pacing in the kitchen. "You heard me say you were in college, you never said anything."
"I couldn't….." I cry. "Please….please believe me I'm so sorry. I was going to tell you next year."
"Next year?" he questions in revulsion. "Did you really think you were going to be able to keep this up?" I just stare at him afraid to say anything further. "I was getting to the point I wanted to meet your mom, your dad….god I fucking loved you."
"You can't just stop loving me," I say running up to him.
"Don't you fucking touch me!" he barks. I begin crying now. He hates me, he fucking hates me. I fall to my knees on the kitchen floor crying my heart out. I don't hear anything for a while. I finally stop looking up to see Todoroki is sitting in a chair looking down. He glances at me and I realize he was crying too. "Izuku…" I stare at him in astonishment unsure of how to feel hearing my first name come from his lips. "You have no idea how much I love you." He leans over burying his face in his hands. "I feel like such an idiot. You never let me see where you live or let me meet your friends." I slowly crawl towards him.
"Todoroki…" I say slowly. He seems to be calming down. "I never meant to lead you on. I just….I've never been so happy." He looks up at me face wet with tears.
"What do you even know what happiness is?" he questions. "You're a damn boy. I am 8 years older than you!"
"L-love doesn't have an age," I stammer. "I feel a bond with you I have never felt with anyone!"
"No!" says Todoroki shaking his head. "You were just blinded by the sex." How can he say that! This is more than sex. He stands up causing me to stumble to my feet.
"That's not true!" I exclaim. "I enjoyed being curled up on the sofa with you, watching movies. What about the meals we cooked together? Washing clothes together….I have never been this happy. Not since I got my quirk." Todoroki shakes his head. "Look at me and tell me you don't feel like we belong together."
"It's not even about that," says Todoroki. "I broke the law, you lied to me. I'm a teacher at your school for god sake. I can't….I have to be responsible." I look at him understanding what he means. I don't want to lose him. I love him, I love him so much. I can't go to another school, he can't either… "It's over."