Trigger Warming: Suicidal Thoughts.

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I know running away is the worst thing to do to your bunch of friends, but I really need my space. I need silence, nobody trying to run to me and calm me. Just letting me be.

I don't even know where am I. I just keep running.

The capital is incredibly small, making it easier for me to run away before they catch me. I'm still not sure about what I'm running away. The trouble? The commitment? The deception I have probably caused to my family.

What a shame that I'm that fucked up in the head. I always cared for them and to make the world better, to end the 100 year old war with…surprisingly, the avatar by my side. Who would have thought in the process I would find myself a girlfriend?

Too bad I'm not made of the same steel Toph can mold, well, apparently my will can be molded. Not in a good way, after all, I'm this mess walking around the streets, trying to stay away.

To find a bit of silence in all these madness in my brain.

Please don't search for me, Katara…Suki… I know for sure you will try to catch me the moment Zuko tells you what happened. You will be all better without me.

"Watch out!" I can hear a man scream and somebody yanking my body to the side. I continue my path to only god knows where.

I feel thirsty and there's no water around. My throat is dry, particles inside it making me cough so strong my torso starts to hurt.

I watch the floor and see the pool of black liquid coming out of my body. Have I left a trail for them to find me? I turn around and see the line starts where I'm standing. Good, I can hide in the streets for a bit until this mess dries.

The sun is in it's highest point, the clothes I'm wearing intensify the heat on my body. My head feels light and my torso keeps aching. Is this how heartbreak feels? Is it because of what I have done?

I probably deserve this. After all, I can't protect what I'm supposed to care of.

My mom, Yue…Suki…even myself. I'm a mess roaming the city, I should take a refuge until the sun starts to set. I sit on an alley, it's secluded and the smell it's not inviting at all, making me cough again.

My throat again is feeling nausea and liquid, hold yourself together…Sokka. Just a little bit.

Shit, I can feel the liquid again in my clothes. Everything is black, my eyes feel heavy, resting in here might help me stop coughing this dark liquid.

I'm so sorry sister, I should have talked to you whenever I woke up in the night panting while travelling, it was not normal to do that.

I'm sorry Aang when I told you I could take all the night shifts, I was evading my own fears by not sleeping, even when you tried to make me sleep with someone else doing the rounds.

I'm so sorry Toph, for everything. Teasing about how you feel towards Zuko or me was not the way to talk about feelings, as you saw me screaming that day, I don't know how to act towards rejection.

Zuko… You made me realize how wrong I have been going with my love life. I hope you take seriously what I told you. Suki will live a long, healthy life by your side, mostly happy.

And Suki….I love you so much. I'm so sorry to do this. The first and only girl who has loved me with my ups and downs. I'm so thankful I opened up to you that day at the tent. You will always be the one that got away, your love and admiration fitting for anybody but me. I'm fully paying the price for what you once told me….

"Don't bottle it up because the body reacts to it. Us warriors must stick together and help nurse each other out of this feelings of despair, hurt, anger or sadness…." I softly mumble, opening my eyes again.

I don't feel more energy to keep talking or breathing. I need sleep.

Here seems a safe place to do it for now.

I could see the fear on Zuko's eyes.

"What happened? Where is him?" I ask, hurriedly entering the room where he is standing.

His shoulders drop, I can see his face is tense.

I get close to where he is standing. His bed is full of 5 rolled up papers, each one with our names on it.

"No…" I whisper with heaviness. I drop to my knees fully knowing where this was headed. Sokka is in clear danger.

I hear Aang's and Katara's voices loudly but their words are mixing, they are silent the moment Zuko gestures the letters.

"Suki…"

I turn around to see Toph by my side, her eyes fearing for his safety too. Katara grabs the letters and starts to put them in our hands. I could see she was scared and confused.

"Let's read them and see if something of value is in these" She said, trying to keep her tone from breaking. I sit and open mine, asked of what It might have inside.

Suki, my dearest person in this world.

I have not forgotten the words we exchanged in each of out fights, they keep coming back to me to remind me of the failure I have made. They remind me why it was important to me to get back on track and be a better person, for you, for my sister and for the better of the world.

If you're reading this

I chocked. Katara's angered blue eyes were on me and that only aggravated the feeling of dread I have. Sokka is…

"Keep reading it" Toph said, her hand gripping my mine for comfort. I loudly grab air and continue reading it.

If you're reading this I'm probably far away from here, making it happen. Don't feel guilty about it. That night at the tent was the best thing to happen to my mental stability. Don't cry please, I know you are doing it.. A warrior must keep his word, we both are eighteen and responsible for our own actions.

I prayed a lot, actually. To agni, to kyoshi, to all of the spirits I know. The south pole was my mission but now I'm leaving, forever.

I love you. You are the destination Suki. I'm so sorry to have failed you, I'm so sorry I'm the hardest to love.

With love. Sokka.

I felt numb. I hear Katara screaming and Aang trying to calm her. Toph shaking me and Zuko kneeling down to ask me about the tent. My heart was exploding and my head was too dizzy to even process my senses. I close my eyes and try to find his eyes in my memories.

Why am I doing that? He is not dead. He can't be. Right? He wouldn't do that.

I open my eyes and see Toph playing with my hair, my head is in Zuko's knees. Both of them are deadly serious, Zuko's face in shock, not noticing I'm awake.

Was I asleep? Did I faint? I try to pull myself up and see Zuko shifting his position, allowing me to do it. I touch Toph's hand, I can sense her skin, rough. Ty Lee is now by my side, I can hear her footsteps and her hand on my shoulder, her face serious.

My hearing gets more acute and I finally look at Katara. Her blue eyes are swollen and tears keep coming out of them. Aang is whispering to her ear.. "Don't worry, he is not dead".

Dead?

All of my senses are back again, and I catch on what she is reading

When I was eight years old, I knew what I wanted in life. Revenge. Later at thirteen my hopes were on the floor. The village was the only thing that kept me alive. Of course you too, Kat. I saw you were a bender and I felt jealous and as if my only mission was passed to you.

So I promised myself, alone in the night as I kept watching by the fire, that'll make my wrist turn red until I bleed out, throwing myself to the water so you would think it was an accident.

Then we met our friend, Aang. That was when I sucked it up and traveled with you.

Now, I know he will take care of you and help you grieve over this. Please, don't crucify Suki. I know how you might think of her. I was the one who was in the wrong for this and my mental state didn't aid me.

I love you sis, I will keep taking care of you from somewhere in the sky.

Katara was terribly shaking. I can't let Sokka keep hurting us with this dark jokes! I stand up and Ty Lee, Zuko and Toph immediately follow. I can see their rolls on the floor, I don't know what happened, or what those letters said, but I don't want to keep waiting.

Katara sees this and stands up too. Aang's face is furious.

"Here is what we need to do" I start talking, planning to cover all the city to try and find him. Earthbenders and chi blockers go to opposite sides of the teams so we pull up faster to where he might be.

Toph, Zuko and Ty Lee are in one while Aang, Katara and I are on the other. They will cover the north while we will cover the forest. Lucky me I'm in attire and ready to go. We split and run towards the entrances, ready to explore.

"You want me to cover air?" I ask as we go outside the palace by the back gate. Katara nods her head in denial.

"You know the city better than I do. Let me take Appa while you and Aang cover the city by foot" She replies with emptiness. She feels just as me.

I nod and look at Aang, who hugs her and whispers words of encouragement. He whistles and Appa comes down. Katara hops on the driver seat and looks at us with sadness.

"Please hurry" She says, before going up in the air.

Aang and I look at each other with worry. I nod waiting for him to feel the earth and see if he can find Sokka nearby. I see him concentrating and reflect on my own choice of words the last time we talked…

"He is not nearby" He says. "He did run by this gate so he may be by this route."

I brainstorm trying to see if there would be any specific point or place he could hide form us. The forest was close, maybe that was his escape route? No. Sokka probably knows we will search for him after barging in his room, so he has probably planned everything ahead.

Aang and I keep walking by, talking to the few people and stores open, to see if they have seen him. None. We already covered the main road, it was time to split and look at the alleys. Aang takes the left side while I go to the right.

It's dimnly lit most of the alleys, expecting it my hand already had a fan in case somebody tried to be smart and attack me.

This seems as it will never end, I cross each corner hopping to see him and nothing. The walls start to look the same after turning around most of the paths and I wonder if we will ever found him.

I reach the end of the street and my breath goes out. I feel drained yet ready to keep looking, Katara comes back with Appa, her face defeated. I go to her side to try and help her down, extending my hand, she grabs it and we sit by his side.

I feel so…hopeless. I look at Katara who is clearly upset. Might as well try to keep both of our heads clear to think faster.

"How are you feeling?" I ask, still looking at her. Her blue eyes look at mine with mixed emotions, she turns her body from mine, completely ignoring me.

I sigh. I should have guessed, we still are not friendly, and if something happened to Sokka well…I think it's safe to say it might be over.

I bring my knees close to my chest, this way the pit in my stomach is less hurtful. My breathing patterns have been erratic since I have been waiting for Aang here with Katara. He finally came back, his face telling me that he also had no luck in the search.

"Should we go back to Toph?" Katara asks, immediately climbing the saddle. I think about it, for a minute, Aang also seems to be having a plan in mind. Katara looks at both of us inpatient.

"I can go with Toph, Aang can keep looking by foot around the palace and maybe you can wait at his room?" I suggest, standing up from Appa.

"I don't want to be just waiting, I need to be doing something. Let me go with you" She answered me, Aang's mind lit up and immediately climbed the saddle. I follow, already wanting to resume the search.

"Maybe you both can go with Toph's team, Suki by foot and Katara by air, I will still be in the palace. After finishing my round I can wait in his room" He rearranged the plan, I had no problem with it and Katara seemed satisfied, so we both nodded. Flying above the palace Aang stood up with his grinder, helping Katara grab the reins.

From here I could see how pure they loved looked. Aang placed his hand on Katara's back, pulling her close to kiss her on the lips, whispering to her. As he saw Katara finally sat down, he flew down to the ground to do his part of the plan.

The trip ended shortly so Katara could put me on the ground. I jumped out and nodded at her, she nodded back and got up with Appa. I didn't know how long I would take until I found them but double checking this area could be useful as it was, evidently, bigger than the south.

The sun was starting to hide, not a good sign. I walked faster, asking at every person that crossed my path.

Please, Kyoshi, please protect Sokka wherever he is.

My sight keeps failing me in this mission, fuck. Where is he?

I wander the street by Ty Lee at my side, she keeps talking to the people while I focus on the vibrations. Sokka never in sight.

Why would he do something so stupid? He even said it on my letter. A letter, from Sokka to a blind girl who can't read. He is not thinking right and that makes it even clear for me. He even took the time to write it in poua. He had the detail.

Ty Lee sights loudly, her heartbeat slow.

"No luck yet, we just need to keep looking around here" I talk before she could say anything. A silence that was probably because she forgot I can't see her at all followed for a few seconds until she agreed with a mhmm.

I lead her to where the city starts to be more clear. This part of town is probably low income, as the dirt on my feet welcome me.

"I will ask to all the people on my right while you walk by the left." I hear her say, immediately running to where she told me she would start searching. Okay, I can clear this area faster.

I go to an alley far war from the folk. I start controlling my breathing so I can dig deep enough to place myself on the center of this area. As I can feel all earth surrounding my body, I relax. Humid, fresh and friendly, that was earth to me.

I focus, trying to see if there is any trace of him. None. My patience starts to shorten as we keep reaching dead ends in a city that's not that big.

I punch the earth in front of me before pulling myself up again. I go to Ty Lee who is chatting with two boys, I should have guessed this could happen.

"Hey Toph! I got lucky" She said with her usual cheery voice, I sigh and wait for her to keep talking.

"Who is your cute friend? Toph right?" I hear one of the boy's say. Toph Beifong is anything but cute. I'm only cute for my best friend… Sokka.

"First of all, I'm miss Toph to you" I said pushing him away with my finger "Second, Ty, we need to keep moving"

"I know! It happens that these two guys saved Sokka from being ran over" She explains even more enthusiastically.

"So?" I ask, unsure as to why I didn't find his steps on the floor. I need to polish this technique more.

"They saved him in the other part of town, where Zuko is searching. They were unloading some paper and food from a festival coming soon" She finished, grabbing my shoulders and shaking me.

I smile. This makes everything faster.

"Well, thanks for saving my friend" I thank these two guys who were smitten with Ty Lee. I hear one of them laugh.

"My pleasure, Toph. My name is Noburu. I hope to see you soon." He replies, getting closer to me. I smile and take a step back, ready to run towards Zuko. I grab Ty Lee and lift our base from the ground to fast travel.

I hear one of the boys exclaim in amazement while Noburu cheered. I started moving it to my pace when suddenly the speed increased, his voice fading away.

"Good luck finding your friend!"

Nobody has seen him. It is as if he just disappeared from the country. He is Sokka from the water tribe, eyes big and blue, flirty smile and awesome body. How can nobody has seen him?

I keep looking around the center of the street and everybody seems so…into their activities. My stomach keeps hurting, making me rest a bit on the floor, after all, nobody seemed brave enough to approach me and move.

While tolerating my pain, I hear screams and angry voices at the other side. Standing up and in position I see the commotion is caused by Toph and Ty Lee on a rock, almost flying. I try to get out of the way but Toph directs it at me, I trip. Toph dodges me while Ty Lee catches me.

"Hold on! We know were Sokka is!" My friend cheerfully says, pulling me to my feet.

"Really?" I cheer up too, hugging her.

"yeah yeah, let's just stop here to find sparky and snoozles." Toph said stopping at the middle of the street. She breathes and immediately drowns on the floor, disappearing. I wait with Ty, who keeps shaking and laughing. I face her and see tears on her face. My face drops and she stops me.

"I'm so glad we finally are close to find him" She says, looking at me. "We were all…worried that this would escalate even further"

I listen to her, pouring this side who was rarely seen.

"I am afraid of losing another friend to…this sickness. First Azula, then Sokka, you showed symptoms in the room after the fight and again when you finished reading your letter.." She now got close to me, hugging me.

What is she talking about?

"Here! Follow me!" Toph emerges and runs, Ty and I follow shortly. "Where is Katara?" she asks as we level up to her speed.

"In the air, I'm not sure if she saw him already" I say, searching with my eyes in the sky.

"She probably hasn't, is there a way to tell her?" Toph asks again, abruptly turning in a corner. I stop to look at the sky and the alley that was starting to become tighter. I ran again to keep up.

"Not until we stop." I answer, not seeing anything.

We keep running until we find Zuko, who is talking with a boy. The boy seeing us fled, scared.

"He saw somebody with Sokka's clothes but wasn't sure it was him" He said, looking at us with disappointment.

"Forget that, follow me." Toph immediately said running to the other side of the alley. We follow her, hopping she actually knows where he is. Not far away from where Zuko was, we stop, in a really dark alley. Zuko immediately lits his hand, bringing light.

No…

My knees touch the floor, immediately stumbling to get close to his body. He can't be dead right? He was healthy and he is strong and…

I scream.

Sokka's stiff body was in Suki's lap while she screamed. It scared me. The anger and pain asre so present and so loud. Toph covered her ears, being more sensible in that sense than us. Ty Lee starts sobbing, kneeling in the ground. Suki was still screaming, her wails sure have alerted more people.

I nudge Toph, trying to get her attention.

"Where is Katara?" I ask, trying to see if we could make it in time.

"In the air, I don't know how to contact her and…Suki's scream…is clear Sokka is…"

No.

I refuse to believe it. I got close to it. His robes where full of dark liquid, I don't even know if it's blood as it is sticky. Suki muffled her scream until nothing was audible, her face in his chest. She was hugging it so tightly. I tried to touch him but her hand swatted mine. I looked at her and she looked scary.

Her eyes were bloodshot and already red, her brows in a frown so deep that her makeup accentuates it. She was showing her teeth, visible clenched. I still need to check. I put my hand in his neck.

Pulse

"Pulse!" I scream

Toph and Ty lee heads turn up and immediately run to my side. Suki double check its, looking at me with hope.

"We need Katara, fast" Ty Lee says, trying to pull Suki away from him, she doesn't concede, her face by Sokka's ear whispering to him to hold on.

How can we attract Katara here? If she is in the air…

"Sparky hold on to me" Toph said, immediately raising a pillar of earth beneath us. We are now in a earth skyscraper. I can see Katara turning around with Appa, I start shooting fire to her direction, making her turn around.

"Sokka is barely alive!" I scream, hoping she can hear me. She and Appa come towards us, as she gets closer I can see she is already up and ready to jump.

"Appa! Go get Aang from the palace as we will need to move him" I hear her say as she jumps towards us.

"Toph please pull more earth around us" I say scared of falling off to our deaths. I catch Katara and don't tumble a lot. I nudge Toph and she pulls us down again, to the alley. My hand already has fire so she could see the scene.

"Sokka!" Katara shouted, running to her side. Suki was now grabbing his face, whispering to his ear. Katara looked annoyed as she inspected the scene. She opened her pouch with her hands already glowing.

"Suki, move" She said angered.

"Please Katara, let me stay here" Suki said still not facing her, she instead caressed Sokka's hair.

"Move! You are on my way!" She said pushing away. Ty Lee looked and crossed to Suki's side to hold her.

"Suki control yourself, please" Ty Lee said with worry on her face, trying to hold her leader. I could see why Ty was starting to worry: Her whole body was... fogged? I am not sure if my vision is even more corrupted or if I'm seeing right. A dark aura was around Suki, surrounding her silhouette.

I got closer to Suki, Sokka and Katara. Katara kept healing, apparently it was faster than I thought as she removed her hands and sat back breathing heavily, her body sweating. Suki was still, facing the ground while Ty Lee hugged her, rocking her back and forth.

"He is alive, we still need to hydrate him. He got a heat stroke" She said with a smile, relieved it was not as serious. That liquid on his body still got me thinking what it was. Aang and his bison were already flying above.

"Toph, put Katara and Sokka up with you" I said, which Toph agreed and again lifted them in a rock skyscraper. Suki still had that aura, and was shaking. The pile came down and Appa flew away.

Ty Lee looked at me and nodded, pulling Suki from the ground. Maybe my eyes were deceiving me, as they got closer to me the fog was really dim, not as strong as I saw it minutes ago.

Interesting.

"What are you doing?"

That voice sounded so magical, so pure and so so familiar. I look at the floor and see darkness, I keep looking around to search for that person, as it seems I was floating. Nobody is here, so I might as well talk out aloud.

"I think I'm dying. I'm alone and it's dark" I answer to it, not hopping for an answer. As expected, nobody talked. I tried sitting where my feet were and apparently, there was a ground. I sat there waiting for something to happen. Nothing happened.

I closed my eyes and memories the of my last moments came back as a movie playing backwards. I looked at them as an expectator: screaming to Zuko, putting out all the letters, the black liquid…That liquid.

I quickly touch my chest and stomach, there is nothing, my clothes and fur are their normal colors, blue.

"I am dying" I repeat shakily. I wanted to run away but no to die. Did I?

"Yes you are"

That voice came with a glow. Yue? My whole body tenses, seeing her so godly and beautiful.

"Wha…"

Noise. A lot of voices. What is this madness? I put my hands on my head and somebody is restraining me.

"Wha…"

Katara? We are on air?

"Please lay down. We need to check you and hydrate you still" She said looking at me with so much happiness. Tears were running down her cheeks as she put her hand on mine. Last time I saw her this happy was when Aang died and came back.

"Did I die?" I say out loud, cursing myself quickly after. It was not my intention to do it, I tried to sleep, rather uncomfortably in the alley.

"No. You passed out of a heat stroke. You are lucky you have the best tracker as your friend" Toph said looking at me with worry. Toph? Worried? Showing she is worried?

I breathe the cold air in the sky. My hands touch the saddle, I'm safe. I guess it's right but…why would I run away? Is this why they want to check me? Am I…sick?

"Aang! He woke up fine, his voice is a bit rough" Katara screamed, Aang cheered.

"Hi Sokka! Welcome back" He said flashing me a smile.

The ride was short for me, as we landed soon on the fire palace, people already waiting for us, for me apparently.

"Where is Suki?" I asked Toph, she sighted.

"She is coming back by feet. I didn't have time to pull her, Ty and Zuko to the saddle" she answered, her hand posed in my arm. "Don't worry too much, she was crushed at the thought of you dying"

She cried?

I didn't have more time to answer as the servants and medics quickly snatched me and made me rest in a bed, alone. My eyes gave in midway and opening them again I could hear all the way to the room how Katara, Toph and Aang talked about my state and what we they need to do to fix me.

I don't think they can fix me, I'll break them the news after they let me out. Which apparently, won't be so soon, as they have bind me to the bed.

A door opened, Iroh and my sister entered, both concerned. Oh I know where this is going.

"How are you feeling son?" Iroh asked, getting closer to me. I look at both of their faces, Iroh is unreadable while Katara shows her worry.

"Better, I want to stand up and hug both of you" I joke, a bit hurt they would tie me up like this. Iroh gives me a small smile and gets closer to me.

"I was asking about your darkness. Your clothes are full of them and you puked some more while out of your mind" he said with more concern

"What is this darkness anyway?" I ask upset of how delicate they are treating me.

Katara looks at Iroh with the same question, he sits on the chair in the room and closes his eyes.

"We need to wait for Suki too. That way we can reunite all of you and proceed with more caution"

I felt anger. I don't want Suki to worry more about me, I'm strong, I will make it without anybodys help. Words flow out of my mouth without second thought

"I don't want to deal with any of you if this is how you're treating me! I hate you, both of you. YOU should have let me die" I said this last words to Katara, whose face looks crushed.

Why did I said that? As I control my anger I can feel my body shifting and trying to get away from the bindings, my ankles and wrist hurting. I calm down and try to apologize to her.

But I can't talk.

I must. She is expecting it, she is crying, I'm hurting my baby sister.

As my vocal cords strain I cough, spluttering more dark liquid out. She goes out of the room crying, another pair of footsteps following after her. I try to scream at her.

More dark liquid. As I choke Iroh's hands are on my head and already turning me to the side so the liquid won't keep drowning me.

What is happening to me?

Ty Lee kept looking at her with such fear and worry that I hadn't seen since she visited Azula for the first time.

Suki kept her hand with hers, taking it as if she would fall the moment they separate. I give a look at her while Ty Lee searchs for someone in these streets.

"Ty, the palace it's not far away from here, want me to take care of Suki?" I ask, she takes a moment before turning to face me.

"No, it's okay." She answers, continue to walk at the killing slow pace she has with her. Suki at times wanted to run but Ty Lee wouldn't let her, I only walk close to them, trying to not gain any more attention then the one I was already gaining out here.

A hand touched mine for a brief moment before pulling me in the middle of Ty Lee and her.

"It's dangerous you're on the side, my lord" She said, her face still crushed. I nod, not wanting to contradict her. "If I might add" she continued "I would like to get faster as the palace is safer than here"

Ty Lee mouthed a no while I conceded. Suki took my hand and we started to run towards the main gate, who was still some meters away.

The rush I felt as she led me was something I missed. It was wrong thinking about her as more than a friend but, I technically have Sokka's approval. Even if our reputation is the worst at the moment…well. I can't help but still pin hard for her, I still have no rush to marry.

Ty Lee was now at our pace, giving me a slight look, until we reached the gate. I step forward and raise my hand for us to enter. They follow and we continue to run at the infirmary until my uncle stops Suki.

"We need to let them rest. I beg you to not talk as your voice might wake him up and exasperate him more" He said looking straight to her, she dropped her head and nodded. "Fire lord, I took your meetings for the day. When I finish this last one we will meet again at the same room to discuss the condition. Until then, I recommend all three of you to rest"

Ty Lee took Suki's hand so they would reunite at her room. Having nowhere to go I followed them.

"So…we know he is safe now! Cheer up a bit" She said nudging her arm with her elbow. Suki kept walking, not answering. She looked at me, mouthing me to talk.

"Yes, he has at his disposition the best medical team, including Katara. He will recover" I smiled, trying to pass her the optimism Ty Lee tried to do. She gave me a thumbs up for effort. Oh well.

She walked until we reached her room, entering it. I wanted to discuss our relationship, sure, but now is not the right time and she is not the only one I have to keep the tabs on. As Ty Lee sat with Suki's head on her legs I decided to leave.

"Girls, do you want some tea?" I asked, hoping this could help them relax.

"Sure! Some butter cookies could help us too." Ty Lee replied, already combing Suki's hair. She didn't say anything and I left the room, on my way to the kitchen. Suki loves to eat, so I'm sure this will help her too.

As I finished making the order for it to be delivered at her door, I made my way to Sokka's room, where Katara, Aang and Toph were waiting for news. Looking at how the twilight was setting, I was pretty sure the last meeting with my uncle was soon to finish. I knocked on the door first, involuntary gulping.

"Come in Sparky!" I heard Toph scream. I share a brief laugh before opening the door. Katara was looking at Toph annoyed at the scream, her hair looked as if she was sleeping. Aang was at the floor reading his own letter again.

I made my way towards them, just waiting for my uncles call. Sitting on the floor beside Aang, he acknowledge me with a smile.

"How is Suki? Toph told us everything" He said now looking at me. I shrugged, unsure of her state. "It must be hard for her too." He continued, reading his letter.

"Yeah…It startled me" I admitted.

The room continued silent, everybody in their own struggles. I pulled out my own letter, afraid of reading out loud for the first time.

Zuko

I did not trust you at first, like any reasonable person would do after all the time you spend chasing us. Ha ha. After it, you became a step lower of best man, just behind Momo. You were the one who I could relate for struggles, love and heartbreaks and also, planning.

Our friendship is cherished, I apologize for breaking up our relationship at first. It seems as if some monster posses me when talking our hearing something about our other friend: Suki. I want you to take care of her, to love her, hold her and help her heal. She will refuse at first, but over time, she will forget me, she will not remember how I smelled, looked or laughed and that's good.

I will end this whole problem between the three of us, so when I see you again everything will continue as if nothing ever changed.

Please. Don't let them search for me, I want to change and to grow.

Don't be scared of the future, it looks bright for everybody, even if my shine is with you and with her.

From your leader, Sokka.

I closed the letter, feeling sad. He wouldn't try killing himself with what he wrote.

A servant knocked the room, letting us know it was time to meet at the table. I volunteered to go for Suki and Ty Lee, Katara mocked me, even bumped me as she walked outside.

Well, here goes nothing.