Chapter 8 - Three Month Plan

Waking from the sleeping potion Harry groggily opened his eyes to see himself lying on the bed, he reached over automatically to the bedside table and reached for his glasses. Quickly placing the round rimmed frames onto his face, he looked around, the room was much clearer, much like his and Ron's room there were cabinets and sets of draws, the lamp on each of the bedside tables were exactly alike. Madame Pomfrey, Remus and Sirius were sitting across the room.

"How are you feeling Mr Potter? Any pain?" said a familiar female voice, he then recognised the Hogwarts matron who had obviously come over from the other side of the room. Harry shook his head in answer to the question, in all honesty he felt incredibly comfortable, the pain in his leg had seemed to have gone completely and the negative cloud that hung over him these days was just a cloud in the sky outside. "Good, everything went really well. No complications, your treatment plan has been written up on parchment, one for you and one for your guardian whilst you are staying here. For today you are on bed rest, we will help you get back down to your room and…"

"Harry can stay in here, there is a bathroom through that door there, it will be much easier for him to get around too. If he needs something in the middle of the night Remus and I are the two doors opposite" interrupted Sirius coming into view.

"You don't have to, I'm happy to share with Ron" exclaimed Harry

"I insist Harry, I am your godfather after all. Hopefully this room will really be yours after I'm freed, and I can fulfil that promise I made you two years ago"

Harry nodded "Thanks Sirius"

"Perfect, I will do one more scan of your leg just to ensure everything is right and then I will be off." Stated the matron. Harry nodded and she waved her wand over his now bandaged and braced leg, the only machine left out spat out the parchment once again "Great, everything seems to be in order. Now Mr Potter, bed rest today and then slow and steady, no over-exerting yourself, no dangerous adventures" Harry smirked, so did Sirius, Remus looked like he was half smirking and half shaking his head "keep your leg elevated, freezing charm on the area a couple of times a day won't go amiss either. I have left pain potions if you ever need them, I would like to see you the day after you arrive back at Hogwarts"

"If they let me off" interrupted Harry as the darkness suddenly fell on him like a ton of bricks as he thought about being expelled from school.

"They will, they have nothing against you, your prior spells on your wand proves that" reasoned Remus

"Right, Lupin." The matron agreed "I shall leave you for now, I'm due for an inspection from St Mungo's tomorrow and would like to get things ready"

"Thanks" Replied Harry. The matron nodded her head as she packed up the remainder of her equipment with the flick of her wand. Once that was completed, she left the room with Sirius who was going to show her out. Once Sirius had left Remus came to take the seat next to Harrys bed.

"I think Sirius will want to redecorate this room to what you'd like after his trail all going well" said Remus, making conversation. Harry nodded "Try not to worry about the trial, they have nothing against you, you have two witnesses, and the law is in your favour" Harry nodded again, trying to hide a sigh. "We already have a big defence for you, you can always prepare something to say if it comes to it, your account of what happened and then the reasons which you shouldn't be prosecuted. The Black library has plenty of books on old trials and the wizarding laws" Harry nodded once again "If you want any help with it, I would be more than happy to sit down with you"

"Thanks" Harry replied, Remus smiled sympathetically.

"If there is something you would like to talk about, I am here alright, try to get some rest and we will bring you up some food a bit later" said Lupin

"Thanks" repeated Harry as thoughts raced across his brain 'worthless, pathetic, weak, freak…' Remus ruffled Harrys hair as he left the room leaving Harry in his thoughts, he needed to cut but his trunk wasn't up in his new room yet, so he looked around the room looking for anything sharp but didn't see anything, so he subconsciously started scratching his arm.

Once feeling sufficiently numb and the drowsiness now significant enough Harry gave into sleep since he had not had much over the last few weeks hoping that he wouldn't have a nightmare.

"You wouldn't believe it Harry! Mum made us dispose of doxys without magic, its completely unfair! Why can't we do what the order does!"

"Ronald! We are too young, you have to be of age to join, and shush! Harry is asleep!"

"I don't care, anything is better than today"

Harry had awoke to the rage of his best mate Ron and the exasperated Hermione telling him off for something. Yawning and opening his eyes he sat up taking his gasses from the bedside table once again.

"Whas goin on" Harry yawned

"Ronald is complaining about helping out in the house" explained Hermione

"It's not helping out! It Slave Labour, I'm so dirty I could be a house elf!" he exclaimed earning a scowl from Hermione

"Well maybe, now you can take a more active role in S.P.E.W!"

"I don't give a toss about SPEW! It's not fair!" Ron continued; Hermione huffed. "What do you think Harry" he asked obviously trying to get Harry onto his side

"I don't know Ron, I haven't done what you guys have, I have no say"

"Great help Harry" he said sarcastically and stormed out of the room.

"Ron!" shouted Hermione after him "Sorry Harry" Harry nodded at her reply before leaving the room after him. 'Great visit guys' Harry thought sarcastically. He just about managed to sit himself up properly when Remus and Sirius walked in.

"We thought we heard shouting, is everything alright"

"Yeah, it was just Ron and Hermione, arguing as usual"

"Ah right, I will have a word. Molly will be up with food in a few minutes, after that you could do with getting a bit more sleep." Harry nodded, yawning. "Ill make sure no one disturbs you"

"Thanks, Moony"

"You are welcome" Remus finished heading for the door of the room when Mrs Weasley came bursting through holding a tray with a bowl of what looked like a pasta bake, some bread and butter and then some sort of pudding on the side.

"Oh! Harry Dear" Mrs Weasley exclaimed, placing the tray down on one of the chests of draws and coming over to fuss over him. She helped him sit up a bit better placing more pillows around him to support him before placing the try on his lap and pouring some water out of the end of her wand. "Don't worry if you can't eat it all but id like you to get your strength up." Harry nodded picking up his fork to dig into the pasta."

Mrs Weasley left the room with Remus to join the others down in the kitchen to eat their own food. As soon as he heard the pair going down the stairs Harry was able to drop the act, the overwhelming weight siting in his stomach swelled in his chest making it hard to breathe as his chest tightened. Trying to force himself to take deep breaths he dug his fingernails into his palms, but it didn't help.

Harrys breathing was now erratic, struggling to gasp for air, his vision was blurring and his stomach in knots. He didn't know what to do, usually he could control these before they got this bad, there was only one thing to do, he started to look frantically for something sharp, anything, a nail or a piece f glass anything. Getting desperate he picked up the cutlery knife in front of him and pulled up the sleeve of his pyjamas and quickly drew it across his scarred arm.

As if it were an immediate relief, Harry could soon draw air into his lungs, gasping for it he managed to slow down his breathing and the panic left slightly. Forcing himself to breathe deeply he looked at the new damage to his arm, thankfully the knife wasn't sharp enough to cut deeply and there were only a couple of superficial wounds. At least the blood wouldn't leak through his pyjamas he thought as he rolled his sleeve back down.

His thoughts then trend to the dinner in front of him, his stomach lurched at the thought of putting food into his body but knowing he would be questioned if he didn't touch it at all. Harry sighed and final picked up his fork and slowly but surely made his way through the pasta, he managed to eat about half before he started to gag and decided to stop for a bit to make sure he didn't throw up all over the room. Harry was about to try and eat some of the desert but was disturbed by Mrs Weasley coming in to take his tray away.

"Don't force it Harry dear, strong sleeping potions like you have had today can cause you to be sick so I would rather you left it"

Trying to hide his sigh of relief he lifted the tray up off his lap handing it to his best mates' mother "thank you Mrs Weasley, the pasta was lovely"

"You are welcome Harry dear, it's time for your potions, drink these three down" Harry nodded taking the vials one by one and downing them "now you try to get some sleep, you have been through a lot today, everyone will be upstairs shortly" Harry nodded his thanks once again as Mrs Weasley left the room switching the lights off with her wand as she left the room closing the door behind her.

Feeling the potions kicking in he placed his glasses on the bedside table and laid down letting the pillows behind take his weight. He soon dropped off to sleep hoping that his nightmares wouldn't return and wake the entirety of 12 Grimmauld place up from their slumber.