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Chapter 10: Flicker
I keep flickering between flesh and "ghost", I'm not a "ghost" anymore but I'm not a "person" anymore, the machine and Victor both fuck me over, I knew I should have waited for the science people to come and help us but I guess my desperation won me over, at least I could take off the clothes I had on and put on some new clothes between flickers, which was pretty hard to do I must add.
I wanted to go over Jagger, but I was scare I could kill him or he could kill me by playing around going through my body or something as I flicker and I can't predict the speed of the flicks, when I changed they were slow but suddenly they turn fast and later slow again and so on, but they switch up and I can't keep up.
I spend a quiet few hours in my room, I don't want anyone to see me like this, it will show how stupid I was to believe in Victor, I guess this is karma for backstabbing them working with Doom, but they could eventually find me so I decide to get out of the building going through the emergency exit that leads to the back of the building, nobody will see me, but I wasn't so lucky as I come face to face with a big frame entering.
"Ben..." - I say surprised
"Emmet...what is happening to you? You figure out how to go back to normal?" - asked Ben surprised as I was in flesh but I flick back to "ghost"
"Something like that, I still can't control it" - I say trying to hide the mistake I made
"Nice, just what I needed, lose the other person that was just like me on this fucking shit show" - said Ben frustrated
"What are you talking about?" - I asked confused
"I was walking on the street to clear my head when I realize that Reed wasn't working on the machine, I was pissed off...I guess I still am" - said Ben
"Is not his fault Ben is-" - I started to say
"Of course it is Emmet, look at me!" - He interrupted - "I'm not back to normal and he doesn't give two fucks about it, not him, not Sue, not Professor, who are supposed to be working so hard on the machine" - he explains
"I should be working on the machine too, aren't you mad at me?" - I asked
"No, because you did worked, I saw you and Doctor Doom...well not you, you were that hot blonde chick, but anyway" - said Ben
"Yeah but Ben-" - I start to say
"Don't tell me is not ready" - interrupted Ben with a sad look on his face
"It is Ben, but-" - I tried again
"Is ready? What are we waiting for?" - asked Ben
"For Professor Storm, Reed and Sue to go and check out the specs" - I say
"Of course we fucking have to wait for them while they are playing to be The Fantastic Four" - complained Ben shaking his head with a bitter laugh
"They are the scientist Ben, I'm just engineer and so is Victor" - I say
"How long do I have to wait to be normal Emmet? How long?" - asked Ben desperate
"Ben..." - I trailed before sighing and looking down
"Look...I was in a party with Alicia" - said Ben
"That's good Ben-" - I say
"It wasn't Emmet" - interrupted Ben - "people were whispering things and giving me looks, some were talking shit about how I look because they thought I was a sculpture made by her, she says she doesn't care...but look at me...How long can she not care? I know she can't actually see how I look, but what about what people say?" - He explained before looking down - "I don't want to be a burden to her or anybody that has to stick around with me Emmet" - he added with a sad tone...fuck
"Ben...I'm sorry, but you are not a burden" - I say, I didn't know what else to say
"Thanks, but you are not the one that needs to apologize, you have been around with me during this whole mess, is the others from whom I need to heard at least a "sorry" from" - said Ben trying to step in
"Wait...let me...move, I don't know if you or anyone can go through me without hurting, I can't seem to stop the flickering and I'm going out too anyway, I need to clear my head" - I said
"Ok" - said Ben stepping out giving me space to walk around him and out the building while he starts to go inside
"Ben" - I call making him stop and turn to look at me - "just know that we all care, so...be careful with what you say, you will not like to say something you might regret later" - I say to him he only nods before walking away
I don't have any other kind of word of wisdom for Ben since this is the same thing I'm trying to do being away from Johnny, I don't want to get all heated and say something I might regret and...fuck, I think I like Storm after all, all those small talks while working on the Space Station make me care for him and he is right about that kiss on the prom after party...I can't seem to forget it.
He is a prick, he is egocentric and he is cocky, but also he cares and maybe he doesn't let anybody see it but he can be quiet sensitive, and it goes without saying than Johnny is fucking hot and I imagine he can be a hot laid, but not just some one night stand type of deal, I get the feeling he even makes breakfast and all that shit that I try to stay away from...fuck...I'm the prick!
My own psychoanalysis fails me as I realize I'm projecting the things I don't like about myself in Johnny...well this saves me some therapy time, I should go with Meredith's choice and eat some pizza and ice cream, flickering is giving me back my hunger, my need to sleep, my need to have sex...is not stable but then again...I'm an unstable prick, so...whatever.
I think about the whole deal while I'm sitting on a bench in a park, is late at night and people don't care to see who is sitting so they don't care if I'm flickering or not and the ones who do stare don't stay scared of whatever I am as they don't know if I'm good or bad, I can't blame them, I don't know either as well.
"Emmet?" - asked someone and I look up...Storm
"Johnny..." - I said letting out a breath I didn't know I was holding
"I...what is happening to you?" - asked Johnny
"Karma..." - I said sighing
"What are you talking about?" - He asked confused
"I trusted Doom, I tried to use the machine and now this is happening to me and I can't seem to stop it" - I say
"Why did you do that?" - He asked sounding concerned
"Can't you see it Storm? I'm fucked up, I was a ghost, a shadow, "fifth Beatle", a nobody" - I say using the moniker the X-Games Reporter said
"I'm sorry about what that guy said Emmet and I didn't want to use your name as you don't seem to want any kind of attention, you weren't there during the first interview and since you are like this maybe you didn't want people to know" - he explained
"Why do you think I don't want to be a superhero like you guys?" - I asked
"Because you are constantly running away from us, you aren't talking to anybody, only Ben, which must fulfill your high school crush or whatever" - he said a little mad at the last part
"First of all fuck you and your jealousy, second of all of course I'm talking to Ben he understands this mess, you don't understand my position, not even Reed or Sue" - I said - "besides, you are more into the spotlight than anything elese" - I add wiht a dry smirk
"Yeah, I was acting like a douche because the whole fame thing, I realize and I'm sorry okay" - said Johnny - " but also you..." - he started - "...how can we understand you if you shut yourself down?" - He asked - "look you are not a ghost, a shadow or nobody, but if you don't let us in...if you don't let me in, how would you step into the light?" - asked Johnny
"Fuck Storm, Freud is shaking" - I joked and he smiled
"Well I got some pointers after years of therapy when my mother died" - said Johnny moving to sit next to me
"Don't get close Johnny, I'm dangerous" - I said
"You called me by my name" - stated Johnny with a smile
"Don't get used to it" - I say rolling my eyes
"I want to get used to it, look...we didn't make it work before I went to space, but we can make it work now" - said Johnny
"Are you fucking kidding me? Take a good look Johnny, how we can make it work if we can't touch each other" - I complained
"You think I just want to get laid?" - asked Johnny arching an eyebrow
"No, but-" - I trailed
"It doesn't matter to me Emmet" - interrupted Johnny - "but we can find a way, maybe going inside of me and fuck me through my mind or some shit like that" - he said
"You are the only one who can make my power sound so dirty" - I say rolling my eyes
"Maybe start with a kiss..." - said Johnny getting his face close
"Johnny, for real I might hurt you" - I say worried
"Do you want to hurt me?" - He asked
"No" - I said
"Then don't worry about it and don't think about it" - said Johnny
I see him moving closer and I close my eyes, I hope for the best as I keep flickering, my mind went blank and I could feel a heat spreading around me, then something on my lips...Johnny, he was kissing me, so I kissed back, I didn't want it to last long since I don't know when I will flicker back to "ghost" again, but I didn't want it to end as well, so we keep going.
I could taste him through the kiss, he tasted a bit like liquor...have he been drinking? Wait...I'm tasting him? And...I'm feeling him...holy shit! I open my eyes and quickly separate from the kiss and look down at my body...I'm back...wait...
"You are back" - said Johnny surprised
"No...I will flicker...I will..." - I look down and feel my body feeling stressed
"No, hey, look at me" - he said grabbing my face - "calm down, you are fine, everything is gonna be fine" - he said
"Johnny...I...I'm back...holy shit" - I say excited and jump into his arms hugging him, thankfully he could keep balance to not let us fall from the bench
"Yes, you are, you find your way back" - he said hugging back
"Guess that I step into the light" - I say separating to look at him arching an eyebrow and smirk at him
"Seems like someone got his sass back as well" - he teased
"Do you think I can go back to..." - I trailed
"Ghost mode?" - He finished for me
"No...Phantom...I wanna be called Phantom" - I said
"Phantom, hmm...I like it" - said Johnny smiling at my superhero name - "maybe you can try and see if it's like when I "flame on" turning into fire" - he said
I'm about to say something when a wave of light spreads through the sky surprising us, we both turn to look up and he realize the light is coming from The Baxter Tower, we turn to look at each other and silently agree to stand up and run towards the building to see what is going on, I'm hoping is not the machine again and I'm hoping whoever is using it is ok and doesn't go wrong like with me...well even I didn't ended up that wrong, after all...I found my way back.
A/N: FINALLY! We have Emmet and Johnny coming back in track and even more important (not that love isn't important, but you know) our boy Emmet is back in flesh and also we have a little more heart to heart moment with Ben, but the big question is... can he go back to "Phantom form" or the machine did something else to him? Find out next chapter about it.
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