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Chapter 12: Choice
I start to make my way to the hotel, now it was real, everything Beck planned became true, I was out of the normal life once again and probably never gonna get back, I was never gonna see MJ, Ned, Brad or Peter ever again, I was probably gonna lose them, just like mom and dad, but at least Beck would leave them alone and not do anything bad against them.
I was holding myself while walking and my vision was getting blurry, but not because I was tired or anything...I realize I was crying...with actual tears, something I haven't done in a long time, my hands go under my eyes as I feel the tears cascading from my eyes, they are warm and heavy, I was so confused, I been holding on my feelings for so long that now crying over sadness feels foreign to me, but at least all these years keeping my feelings make me strong enough to keep walking without stopping for a few tears, I just shook the feeling and hold myself walking again.
"Zig?" - called out a voice standing in front of me when I look it up it was hard for me to see through teary eyes - "Zig, are you ok?" - asked the voice walking closer until I could see that it was Peter standing in front of me
"Yeah...I'm...fine" - I say my voice cracking as I talked
"No, you're not, you should be resting, what are you doing walking around?" - He asked putting his hands on my arms and looking at me with concern
"I'm...my...father...he is...around...the trip is over...for me...he is taking me out the school...because...the incidents" - I manage to say with my voice cracking a lot
"Zig..." - he let out a sign and looked at me with a worried and sad look - "come on" - he said grabbing my hand - "let's get inside a moment" - he said
He dragged me towards the hotel and helped me to sit on a sofa that was in the lobby, then he kneel in front of me to look at my face as I was looking down with tears still falling from my eyes and he grabbed my hands.
"I need to go up for a second, can you stay here for a moment? I'll be back and we can talk, maybe walk outside to get some air while we are at it, ok?" - asked Peter
I nodded and he sprinted from the place to do whatever he had to do as quick as possible to come back to me, I move my legs up on the sofa and hug them while I hide my face on my knees, I tried to breathe to stop myself from crying and it was getting so hard, at least I could control enough to not let my powers flow through me, so much feelings unsolved where pouring out of me.
"Zig" - called out Peter and I move my head up to meet his eyes looking at me worried - "come on" - he said with his hand in front of me to take
I took his hand and he helped me walk out the hotel, we were walking around in silence and he just held my hand with our fingers intertwined as I was basically hugging his arm to steady myself to not break down again
"So...you are leaving?" - asked Peter
"...Yeah..." - I said as I breathe to not cry while talking
"Do you think you will come back to the school sometime?" - He asked and I just shake my head saying no
He looked at the distance with a serious look and I looked at him for a moment as we stop sitting on a bench by a sidewalk close to the hotel, he kept looking at the distance biting his bottom lip not talking just holding my hand as we were sitting, as I looked at him I could feel the same tingle Brad made me feel before, my heart was racing and I felt my face heat up, I thought for a second that I was starting to use my fire powers.
"You are blushing" - said Peter suddenly looking at me
"I...I am?" - I asked confused
"Yeah, I never see you blush before" - he said with a half-smile - "there is so much I still haven't seen from you" - he said now looking down at our joined hands and started to rub my hand with his thumb which make me looked down to our hands as well
Then I realize, the blushing, the tears, I'm out of Beck's control, even if it is for a short time, I realize I have a choice now, I can choose to do the right thing, even if Peter hates me, a lot of people would be save and this could help him.
"Peter...I have something to tell you" - I said and I feel him getting tense
"Yeah?" - He asked sounding nervous as he sits up straighter
"Peter...I-" - I started to say
"Guys!" - called out MJ interrupting me and coming our way - "guys...look at this" - she said taking a thing out of her backpack and I recognize is one of the projectors from Beck's drones and I feel nervous
"What is that?" - asked Peter standing up to see the projector letting my hand go
"It's a thing that fall from the fight of the fire monster, Mysterio and...you" - said MJ looking at Peter
"Me?!" - asked Peter surprised and backing out from MJ
"Yeah, you are Spider-Man" - said MJ looking at Peter seriously
"I..." - Peter stuttered as he turned to look at me and then back at MJ - "I'm not...Spider-Man, besides it was the Night Monkey" - said Peter
"Really? Then why the "Night Monkey" uses the same web that Spider-Man" - pointed out MJ with an incredulous look on her face
"Maybe he's a Spider-Monkey, who knows" - countered Peter nervously
"Huh...yeah right, I came here to help you so..." - said MJ trying to put the thing back inside her backpack but she drop it
Then a hologram formed from the projector showing a new "elemental" just this is not the elemental we practice for our next strike, we were gonna combine water and wind and this seem to have fire and earth as well, the thing roared and then disappeared.
"The hell was that?" - said Peter freaking out
"The elemental..." - I said
"What?" - asked Peter confused looking at me
"That looked real...but it wasn't" - said MJ
"Maybe is some kind of projector device, but it's very advanced" - said Peter getting close to grab the projector - "Who would do something like that?" - Asked Peter and then the projector showed an image of Mysterio fighting the "elemental"
"Mysterio?" - asked MJ
We were all looking at the projection until it disappeared again, we all looked at each other and then Peter turned to MJ and I, he was silent and nervous.
"I am Spider-Man...and I really mess up" - declared Peter
"Wait...you are Spider-Man? Because I was only like 67% sure" - said MJ surprised, I don't know why, she just discovered and called out Peter 2 minutes ago
"Peter!" - I called out his attention and MJ's as well as she was standing there in shock processing everything - "Beck will find us, if he realize one of his drones is missing that thing, he is gonna find us and kill us" - I said
"How...how do you know all this?" - asked Peter confused
"Because...I know Quentin...I...I work for him" - I said looking down
"What?!" - said Peter surprised backing away from me
"He made me go to your school, get close to you and...spy on you" - I confess feeling the tears forming in my eyes again
"So you were only around me because...you were spying on me" - said Peter sounding hurt as he looked at me
"No...it's not like that Peter...but...I had no choice...he could kill me and I already lost my mom and dad...because of me" - I said sobbing
"What do you mean because of you?" - asked Peter, MJ wasn't talking as there was too much information now to process
"Because...I killed them..."the elementals"...are my creatures...I can control the elements...my dad...he was beating my mom one day and I got angry...I lost control and set everything on fire...including them" - I said crying as I sit on the bench with my hands on my face
"Zig..." - started to say Peter
"Peter, you gotta stop him, I don't care if he kills me anymore, if he doesn't this things will" - I said showing my bracelets - "these are to control my powers...my powers are driven by my emotions" - I explained without looking at him - "if I ever get angry, sad, happy or scared, this send me a shock to control my powers to come" - I added
"But you are crying now" - said MJ
"Because he turn them off, for 12 hours, so I could say goodbye to everybody before going to our next strike" - I explain - "I'm sorry for everything, for lying, for the troubles, for just being there...you guys can hate me, but I refuse to let him win anymore, so you need to do something Peter, talk to Nick Fury or something...please" - I said turning to look at him still crying
"Come on" - said Peter grabbing my hand and pulling me up - "WE are going to Nick Fury, we are gonna explain everything to him" - said Peter
We run towards the hotel with MJ behind us asking question to Peter that he ignored as we enter his room, he started to go through his things and then started to get changing stopping as he looked at me and MJ, we both turn around and let him finish, Ned came to the room and try to cover up for Peter, but he assure him that we both know about him being Spider-Man and revealed that I was the one controlling the elementals.
"Come on Zig" - said Peter grabbing my hand
"Peter, I can't, if I get scare enough to lose control the bracelets could activate again and send me a shock until I pass out and alert them to come for me" - I explain
"I will not let anything happened to you, can you trust me?" - asked Peter
"I..." – I trailed looked at him unsure as he was looking at me very confident – "yeah...I trust you" - I finally answer
"Come on" - he said grabbing my hand and walking us to the window open it
"Hey, don't forget this" - said MJ throwing the projector to Peter
We both said our goodbyes to Ned and MJ, Peter grab me and swing us out the hotel, I hold on to him putting my arms around his neck and my legs go around his waist holding on tight while he have one his arms around me, I feel a little scare as we swing but after a couple of seconds I feel the air going through us and I open my eyes looking at everything, it makes me feel free, I turn to look at Peter and I suddenly feel guilty and bad because maybe he hates me now.
"I'm sorry Peter...I know there is nothing I can say to make everything better and maybe...you hate me...but..." - I started to say feeling like chocking on my words
"Everything is gonna be alright Zig, you did the right thing and we will help you as well" - said Peter and I feel his arm tight his grip around me
We landed on a top of a train and he helped me as we make our way to the back so I could be safer rather than in the roof where I could fall, I slide on the wall to sit on the floor and Peter does the same, we look at the distance in silence, I turn to look at him feeling bad about everything, maybe he have think about it and he does hate me now that he realize that I spy on him for Beck.
"Where...where do you think Fury is gonna take me after all this is over?" - I asked while looking at the distance again
"Huh...what are you talking about?" - asked Peter confused
"Come on Peter, he's gonna arrest me after all that I've done..." - I said
"But you weren't doing it at your will" - said Peter interrupting me
"But still-" - I started
"Zig" - interrupted Peter again - "this is not your fault" - he said and stayed quiet for a moment before talking again - "how did Beck find you?" - He asked
"After I discover my powers and my parents were...dead...I lived on the streets since I was 8, he found me on my 11th birthday while I was stealing a cheesecake to have something...special for my birthday, I love cheesecake and..." - I said looking down - "I never had stolen something I really wanted, it was always what I could get to survive...but I never indulge myself with something special until that day" - I explain
I turn to look at him and he was now looking at me and I feel my tears starting to fall as I felt a huge weight off my shoulders, I was finally sharing the truth with someone.
"I know that...stealing is bad...but I didn't know what else to do...I didn't wanted to go to a shelter...or get recognize...I'm a monster Peter...and...I didn't know what else to do" - I cried - "when I stole that cheesecake I ran and bump into Beck...I thought he was going to hurt me...so I used my earth powers to make a wall between us...he was impressed and told me that he could help me with my powers" - I explain
I pulled my legs close to my chest, I continue to cry as feel myself shaking, so I hold my legs to try to calm myself and put my forehead on my knees hiding my face from Peter who was still looking at me.
"I didn't know...he was gonna...use me...that I was gonna ended up as a prisoner...a slave to his plans...the first day he put the bracelets on me he tricked me to think they would help me...but it was more to help him and his crew to have control of me...those creatures I did...I felt so bad doing them because when I was little I create them...but they weren't bad, they were my friends...my only friends...now...they are monsters and bad...just like...I am" - I said
I didn't wanted to talk anymore, even if it feel relieved finally talking about this with someone, it felt bad to remember how I ended up in this situation.
"You are not a monster Zig" - said Peter - "and you are not a bad person, you...you just got caught up in a bad situation with the wrong people" - he explained - "I'm sorry" - he said making me look up to him confused
"Why you are sorry about?" - I asked
"After you told me you worked for Beck...I start to think the worst and even I wanted to help you...I just couldn't shake off the feeling that maybe I trust too quickly and on the wrong people, first Beck and now you..." - explained Peter
"I'm sorry Peter...I-" - I cried as I felt like someone just put a knife through my heart when he said I was unworthy of his trust
"But..." - said Peter interrupting me - "after hearing what you been through and how it happened...I'm sorry I doubted of you and..." - he moved closer moving the goggles of his suit up so I could see his eyes and grab both of my hands into his to hold them looking at me - "I trust you...and trust me that after all of this is over, I'm gonna make sure that you be alright" - he said looking right into my eyes
"Thank you Peter" - I said smiling as more tears were falling but this time...I wasn't sad, I never felt something like this...maybe they were what they call...happy tears
A/N: The secret is out! And our boys seem to handle well the whole trainwreck that was...either for them emotionally or maybe me writing...(was it good?) but anyway, guys I just realize that we are closer to the end on this book!
I was doing the numbers and I may end this book the week before Christmas Eve (a little Night Before Christmas reference, one of my favorite movies ever) so I can "enjoy" my holidays and have a little break from Wattpad...but who knows, I still have other fics (The Prince and the Teen Wolf ones) with chapters to come and tbh I'm not big on Christmas it always mess up with my depression so...we'll see.
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