BEFORE THE CLEARWATER'S

CHAPTER 21

SAVANNAH P.O.V

I didn't miss the exchange of credit cards from Carlisle and Esme as we were about to board our plane for New York. We were leaving here at night so that the Cullen's could travel. By the time we got to New York tomorrow, it would be raining and cloudy for four days.

We would be in New York for three days. Most of it was going to be spent wedding shopping. I was going to miss Seth. It always made me panic when I was going to be away from him. He very much liked his freedom and I was worried he would change his mind about me and the wedding and living together.

I would always worry about it. Deep down inside I knew that there could always be another breakup. That he could want to take a break. I kissed him and hugged him one last time before getting on the plane.

I was sitting next to mom at the emergency exit while Rosalie, Esme, and Alice were sitting in front of us. I could tell that mom was on edge. I don't blame her. She was leaving my dad home alone with my four siblings. Not that he wouldn't be able to handle it but she was always there to help get them all to bed. She knew that he was going to struggle with bed time.

"You okay?" I asked her. She nodded but I knew she was going to try her best to make this weekend just about me.

"Are you?"

"I'm nervous about leaving Seth." I sighed. "What if he changes his mind?" I asked. I'm sure they all thought I was crazy. I knew that Seth loved me. There was no doubt about his love for me but I knew that he still thought that I was really young and wasn't ready for most of the things that he was ready for.

"Honey, he loves you."

"Doesn't mean he won't leave me." I answered. "He has twice before." I looked down at my lap. "And all of this would be pointless."

"I'm sure he wouldn't let you go shopping if he was planning on leaving you." Rosalie said from in front of me. "That would be dumb." Rosalie always said whatever popped into her head.

"It's that I'm not going to be crowding his space. He's going to enjoy me not being up his ass." I answered. She sighed. Because I'm sure she had this same problem with dad. He would be able to sleep in the whole bed like I knew he liked.

"I'm sure they'll be just fine."

*SETH P.O.V*

I don't know how Jacob roped me into helping him take care of his kids but I was already exhausted. He was holding Finn in one hand while using his other arm and his leg to separate Ashton and Peyton from fighting.

A fight broke up about fifteen minutes after I got here. As much as I wanted to step in and help, I wasn't their father and it wasn't my place to punish them. Jacob handed me Finn who was enjoying himself, giggling while his twin older siblings were throwing fists.

Jacob finally got Peyton away from Ashton. Ashton was sent to his room but Peyton was still furious. She held up an American Girl Doll who's leg was hanging off and her head was ripped off and dented. You could tell that some chunks of her hair were cut.

As soon as Ashton was banished to his room for the rest of the night, Peyton started to cry. Jacob squatted to her level pulling her into his arms. She looked tiny in his arms as she sobbed. I could tell that internally, Jacob was freaking out. He had no idea how to handle this situation without Bella.

"I'll buy you a new one." Jacob commented sitting down on the floor and resting her in his lap.

"But Esme bought me that one." She sniffled, her eyes red and puffy and tears flowing down her cheeks. Finn giggled before looking at me and then at Peyton. "Esme will be sad that I didn't take care of her." She whispered. I could tell just how heart broken she was by her voice.

"I will tell Esme what happened okay? She'll take you to the store to get a new one." Jacob said. When he had asked me to come over and spend the days while the woman were gone, I had no idea that it would involve this. All I wanted to go was run to the American Girl Doll store and buy her a new one. I was in big trouble when I had a kid.

Jacob was able to calm Peyton down by watching Frozen with her. Finn was starting to get antsy in my arms so Jacob got up to make him a bottle. I held him close while I fed him. He was starting to hold his head up without support and was looking like he was interested in holding his own bottle. He hadn't quite reached that milestone yet though.

Finn was just starting to fall asleep when my phone rang. I huffed pulling it out of my pocket.

"Hey, baby." I smiled into the phone. "How was the flight?" I asked.

"Really good. We're at the hotel. We got some food but it's really late so we're gonna go to bed. Just wanted to call and say I love you." She said.

"I love you too. What's the plan for tomorrow?" I asked.

"Wedding dress shopping is tomorrow. Then the next day we're gonna go and buy jewelry and bridesmaids presents." She confirmed. "So you might not hear from me all day tomorrow." She commented.

"That's alright." I commented. "Enjoy your weekend away." Of course I was missing her so much but I wanted her to be able to go away with her friends and have fun without worrying what I was doing or if I was feeding myself.

"Thank you. I love you."

"I love you more. Talk to you later." I smiled.

"Bye." With that she hung up and Finn finally drifted off to sleep. Jacob took him from my arms and brought him up to his room. I heard him turn the baby monitor on and then the sound machine before closing the door and coming back down.

"Ready for bed?" Jake asked Peyton.

"Can I sleep in your bed?" She asked giving him sad eyes.

"Sure sure." He answered lifting her up. "Sheets are in Sav's room." He commented to me. "Good night." He went into his bedroom with Peyton. I headed up the stairs and made Savannah's old bed before laying down. It was strange how the room still smelled like her even though she hadn't lived in here for a while.

I missed falling asleep with her in my arms but I knew that very soon, she would be stuck with me.

*SAVANNAH P.O.V*

The next morning we were up early. I was too excited to eat but Alice forced me to at least eat some toast and drink some orange juice.

My appointment was for 10 in the morning and just like Alice had predicted, it was raining. I was excited as we walked in the door and right away thousands of dresses caught my eye. I wasn't really sure what I was looking for. All I knew was that I wanted something light, sparkly and something I could easily get in and out of.

A consultant came over to us and right away looked at Rosalie.

"Hello, I'm Laura." She smiled looking around the group. "Who's the bride?"

"I am." I smiled holding out my hand to her. "I'm Savannah." I commented.

"Welcome. Who do you have with you today?" She asked.

"These are my aunts, Esme, Rosalie and Alice, and this is my mother, Bella." I smiled pointing to each of them. I would have loved to bring Sue along but she said she wasn't comfortable traveling that far. So I'll facetime her once I think I found my dress.

"What are you looking for today?" She asked.

"I have no idea of style but I would like something light, sparkly and easy to move in." I followed her as she pulled a few dresses off the rack. Alice and Rose both rushed off to look for dresses while mom and Esme stuck close. I think mom and Esme were just along for the ride. Neither would say anything bad about a dress I liked. Alice and Rose on the other hand had no problem telling me when they didn't like something.

"Let's go try on a few and start narrowing down what you like." Laura said as she hung up a few dresses. I picked off one that had very thin straps. I wasn't sure if it would be able to hold my boobs up. I felt a little awkward standing in front of her without a bra on but she seemed to think that this was normal. The dresses I picked wouldn't look good with the bra on and I wanted to make it seem like how it would be if I was actually getting married.

I needed the whole experience before I bought the dress. So, here I was, standing in the dressing room, holding my boobs and in just my panties. Laura had be step into the dress and I was easily able to pull it up. It came just above the curve of my butt and was completely open in the back. The front was a deep V and had thin straps holding the dress up. Even though the dress was small and slim fitting, the jewels that were covering it from bust to about halfway down the dress, were too heavy and I knew something might come popping out when I was dancing.

I still wanted to go out and show them just so I could get their opinion on the style of dress. I was then thinking that maybe instead of sparkles, I should go for a lace top. Both would be amazing.

I held the dress up as I walked out and stood on the little stage thing to show off the dress. The dress was beautiful but it wasn't something that I could see myself walking down the aisle in. Thankfully the group agreed with me and I headed back to the dressing room.

I tried on a few more dresses before finally finding a dress with a little lace, a little sparkle, just enough room to dance and it slipped on and off easily. It had thick straps to hold it up, showed just enough cleavage to keep Seth excited but also enough so that neither of my grandfather's had a heart attack.

As soon as the dress was on and zipped up, I cried. I had never felt more beautiful in my entire life. I wiped my tears before heading out to my group. I had seen the shows of women finding their dresses and seeing them get emotional thinking it would never be me. But seeing myself in this dress knowing that I was going to walk down the aisle in it made everything seem more real.

I was full on sobbing by the time I got to the little step for everyone to see it.

"This is the one." I sniffled wiping my eyes so I could see myself. I looked at myself first before turning to them. Mom was wiping her eyes on her shirt sleeve and sniffling.

"You look so beautiful."

"I feel beautiful." I smiled.

"Wanna try on a veil?" Laura asked grabbing one that matched the dress. I nodded bending my knees a little so she could pull my hair up into a bun and then stick it in. Of course Alice would do my hair perfectly to fit the veil. As soon as I saw myself with the dress and the veil I knew that this was the dress I needed. This was my dress.

We took tons of pictures before we went back to take measurements. While they were making measurements, I could hear Esme paying for the dress. We would have to make another trip in six months to make sure the dress fits and then I can take it home. If anything with my body changes after that, Alice would be able to change the dress for me.

I could not wait to walk down the aisle.

*SETH P.O.V*

The next few days went by without any fights. Jacob had called Esme and as able to take Peyton to get a new doll while I stayed home with Ashton and Finn. But once they got home, all was returned to normal. No we were all waiting at the airport for them to get off the plane.

I was holding Finn while Jacob was holding Peyton, who was clutching her new doll until her knuckles were white, and Jake was holding Ashton's hand so he wouldn't run off.

Seeing Savannah for the first time in days made me excited but seeing how happy and glowing she was when she came walking towards me was even better. She right away wrapped her arms around me and kissed me.

"I missed you." I smiled against her lips. "Did you find your dress?" I asked as she pulled away so Bella could take Finn from my arms. Peyton was resting her head on Esme's shoulder and they both looked so adorable.

"Of course I did." She smiled. "You'll love it." She held my hand as we walked to the car. She greeted both her dad and siblings. Jacob had decided that he wanted us to come over for dinner so that's where we were headed. I drove behind him and pulled into the driveway behind him.

We sat and all ate dinner together before I could tell that Savannah was ready to head home and sleep. It was the best night sleep I had gotten in the few days that she was gone.