Battles of the Heart

Author's Note.

Hey everyone, I know I never do an author's note up here but I have to warn you of some citrusy goodness coming your way in this chapter (finally!) so if you're under 18, please leave. You shouldn't be here. And if you don't want to read it then just read until Bella wakes up.

Also just want to let you all know, as if it wasn't already completely obvious, I am NOT Stephenie Meyer. I just really enjoy playing in her world.

Hope you enjoy!

Chapter 12

Jasper Pov

The last week had really flown by. Peter and I had waved goodbye to the women folk after they had hopped in a cab to go shopping with a promise that we would sort out the rooms. The hotel we had chosen only had suites so we had offered to pay for Aaron and Sky to stay there with us so that they wouldn't have to find their own place to stay. Aaron had really started coming out of his shell more around us, getting very comfortable and even being the one to suggest the karaoke night that we would be going to, to celebrate our last night here. Peter and Bella had continue their dare game, until it had ended abruptly with Peter nearly getting shot on our second trip out to Bull Run. I had managed to deescalate the situation but the man whose photos Peter kept jumping into and blocking him out of was really very angry. I should have let him get shot but trying to explain to a bunch of humans why he hadn't been hurt or killed by it wouldn't have been a very good time. Bella had called it quits then, stating that she didn't want anyone getting hurt because of her. She was mortified by what happened, constantly apologising to Peter and Charlotte and anyone else who would listen for nearly getting him killed. She was really very sweet about it.

She and I got closer by the day, and she was starting to realise that I didn't see her as the little sister that Peter saw. Bella was truly magnificent. She was always ready to laugh and have some fun but the way she organised everything and everyone even rivalled my organisation as someone who saw and participated in decades of war. It was obvious that she and Charlotte were going to be the best of friends, already planning and plotting and organising where she would sleep at our ranch, and what her room would be decorated like. Bella had confessed to Charlotte one night that she didn't know if she would have a home at the end of her trip because of what Trafford had done and worried about how she would get all of her belongings from his house if that was the case. And she worried about where she would go when she had outstayed her welcome at our ranch. We had all laughed at that one. We couldn't believe that she had really thought there was a chance of her outstaying her welcome with us. She was so blind to anything regarding how much we already felt that she belonged with us. She never felt worthy of, which was utterly ridiculous. It was us who were not worthy of her. It was then that it had been decided that she would stay with us indefinitely. That decision made me extremely happy and I had been pretty much skipping about since then, much to Peter's amusement.

We had tried out best to not have to eat with the humans, but unfortunately, without them knowing what we were, we would have looked really strange if we never ate. Luckily for us, 4 days a week they ate in Aaron and Sky's suite. They were so close to each other when we had first met them, but there seemed to be an even stronger bond between them since Trafford had abandoned them. I felt for Bella that she was likely to have to give them up if she would be staying with us. They were her family; she should be able to keep them around. We had spoken a bit about her biological family also. Her relationship with her mom was extremely strained, especially since Trafford had inserted himself into their business, but she still loved her. I didn't think there would be much heartbreak if she had to give her up to be with us. But Charlie was still very much loved and respected by her and I understood why. He certainly was a fabulous father from what I had seen myself and had been told by Bella. Of course with him being remarried, he had found himself with two teenage stepchildren and he hadn't been in that position before. It was a very busy life to live with and seeing a daughter who lived in a completely different state must have been pretty hard. Bella felt the same way. She understood why their relationship seemingly took a backseat to him. It wasn't that he didn't care or love her, but that the two children he was currently looking after had just last their real father and his new wife had lost her husband and father of her children. He took on the responsibility of these kids and entire household while they all grieved their loss. Bella never held a grudge and she never once judged him for putting the kids who needed him more than she did first. I just couldn't believe how mature this perfect woman was. She exceeded the maturity of most vampires I had met.

They made the excuses that 'vampires never change', but look at me! I certainly had. I had gone from a violent, hateful vampire warrior who would only see humans as a meal and a fuck if I was that desperate, to a calm and loving family man who saw and interacted with many humans on a daily basis and never as food. Not anymore. The family that I had been a part of for the last half of my life may have been strange and childish but I had a lot to thank them for. They had taught me patience with their petty, childish squabbles. They had taught me that I didn't have to be the monster I had grown to be. But mostly they had given me my humanity back. And for that I was forever indebted to them. Of course I had to thanks Peter and Charlotte for helping me escape the hell I had been in, but I equally had to apologise to them for the way I had been when I had first come out of it. I took what I wanted, I fed when and where I wanted… until they had showed me the way they fed. On the lowest of the low, and the scum of the earth and on the people who wanted to be put out of their misery. Those who were terminally ill and near the end of their lives. If could come out of my life and end up in this one, I was sure that the other vampires in this world could change their childish attitudes, they just didn't want to.

Bella had insisted that since I paid for the suite that I get the bed in the room, but I wouldn't let her win. So as a compromise we had decided that we would share the bed to save her from sleeping on the sofa in the sitting area. And this is where I found myself, lying in the bed next to Bella's sleeping form and listening to her deep breathing and intermittent sleep talking. She was sweet when she was asleep and her emotions were all laid bare for me. None of them hid away or pushed and squashed down deep so they were barely noticeable. It was a nice change. Her emotions while she slept were so calming that every night Charlotte asked to feel them, stating that it was the closest she'd ever been to sleep in all the years she had been a vampire. Peter had tried also the first night but didn't like the fact that he couldn't protect his family. Maybe while I know he is here to protect all I cared about here, and unbelievably, that included the human in the next suite, I could immerse myself in the same emotions. Checking the time, I noticed it was 2am.

I'll give myself half an hour and then I'll come out of it.

"Jasper? I never sleep longer than you, are you pretending for my sake?" Bella was gently shaking my shoulders to 'wake' me.

Huh? Why is she awake in the middle of the night?

Opening my eyes, I was shocked at the brightness of the room, almost growling at the surprise. The look on my face must have been amusing to Bella as she bust up laughing, doubling over with her head on my chest. Luckily I had put a top on before hopping into bed the night before. She still only wore one of my tops to bed, despite now having a lot more sleepwear than she had originally brought with her. I laughed with her and pulled her into me, holding her tight.

"I must have needed it, but I don't like being woken up and laughed at Miss Bella. Even if it is by an incredibly beautiful woman." I would admit, I had 'woken up' extremely refreshed and I understood why Char went through it every night. But on the other side of the coin, I also understood what Peter meant about not being able to protect his family. It had felt like seconds had gone by, not the hours it had really been. I could Bella's cheeks growing hotter against my cold skin and it felt so good. I wanted to keep her there forever. She lifted her head and turned to look at me.

"You really think I'm beautiful, Jasper?" she asked me, blush deepening in her cheeks and spreading slightly to her chest. "Or are you just trying to get me to blush again?" she added with a small smile I could tell wasn't genuine. This game I had been playing all week of trying to get her to blush as much as I could had clearly not gone unnoticed.

"You caught onto my game huh?" I asked, arms still wrapped around her, looser now she had raised up to look me in the face. I felt her emotions drop like a lead balloon and realised my mistake. Her face however remained unchanged. "Oh Bella. I wish you knew how beautiful you really are. You don't need the makeup to look good, you look incredible as you are, freshly awake and hair like you've been dragged through a bush. Yes, I like to see you blush but this is all 100% the truth. To me at least, you're the most beautiful woman I have laid eyes on."

I worried that I had pushed it too far. Sure we had been getting closer but we had never defined our relationship as romantic or anything of the sort. The closest we had got was her holding my hand every now and then when we were walking about and the occasional hug. We hadn't kissed since that first night. I couldn't feel her emotions again, squashed down by her no doubt. I wish she wouldn't do that, but how was I supposed to ask her to just feel what she was feeling without looking like a weirdo?

"Bella, I'm sorry if I took it too far. I just wanted to make you knew the tru-"

I was completely cut off by her throwing her body in top of mine and her lips colliding hard with mine. My automatic reaction was the freeze but it was less than a second until my arms tightened slightly around her waist and I reacted to her soft, warm lips moulded around mine by moving with her. I was letting her take the lead, the normal electric buzz we felt was present but was just a soft buzz underlying the emotions she was sending out to me. The lust and beginnings of a romantic love were there but so much less than my own love for her. I wouldn't push it, I wanted to give her the choice to choose me herself. Forcing her into a relationship she might not want wasn't my thing. When and if she did choose me, there was going to be some difficult times ahead. With her needing to know what we really were and needing to give up her family to be a part of a new vampire family, I wasn't going to force her into it by telling her everything immediately.

Our lips were still moving together slowly when her tongue slid out of her mouth and gently touched my lips. Another jolt of electricity flew between us, making us both gasp and open our mouths, our tongues meeting and my hands moving from around her waist to roam all over her body. Her hands flew into my hair and she moaned as our tongues danced together, neither of us fighting for dominance, each happy to just be there. Her legs opened and slid either side of my waist and her hips ground into me as my hands slid down to her perfectly rounded ass and gave a little squeeze causing her to give another moan, this one going straight to my groin and causing me to become a little uncomfortable down there. Bella's need for oxygen overtook her need for closeness with me as she pulled back so she was sitting up on me, both of us panting for breath with only one of us actually needing it.

"Oh god, Jasper. I'm so sor-"

I cut her off by pulling her back to me for another kiss, this one short and chaste.

"Don't ever apologise for that. That was the best kiss I've ever had in my life. It felt so right for me. If you felt anything similar to that way, please Bella. Don't apologise." I knew I was begging but I didn't care. I just needed to make sure she knew that I didn't feel bad about that kiss. In fact, I wished we could do it again as soon as we possibly could. I was still holding her close to me with her legs straddling my waist and at my words I felt her need for me rise as well as the smell of her arousal getting stronger in this small room. During our little make out session she had been steadily growing more and more lustful towards me and it was getting to the point that I couldn't tell the difference between her need and my own. I knew my eyes were getting darker the stronger her was getting but she didn't look away from my eyes and the intensity was growing between us again.

"I felt it too." She whispered, so quietly I wasn't sure she had meant for me to hear, until she lowered her lips back to mine and continues what we had stopped so that she could breathe. Our tongues danced together nice and slow, no need for dominance from either of us. I feeling of want and need between us getting stronger and stronger until I couldn't take it anymore and pulled away, burying my face into her neck and licking sucking along her pulse point. The taste of her skin was incredible, pulling a moan from me and causing her hips to buck into me as she moaned back. I continued paying attention to the lovely, creamy skin of her neck as I flipped us both over so that I was on top, possibly moving a little too fast and causing her to gasp.

"Is this okay? Please tell me to stop if you feel we're going to fast Bella." I breathed into her ear, continuing as soon as she nodded her approval. With this angle I could see her face as I slowly moved my hand out from under her shoulder and caressed down her body. Her eyes slid closed and her breath caught in her throat as my hand gently ghosted around the side of her left breast, my thumb moving out to catch the nipple slightly and feeling it pebble under my cold skin. She wasn't wearing a bra under my top and the thought brought a whole host of things I'd like to do to her to invade my head. My reached out with my gift to see where Peter and Char were and found them with Aaron and Sky in their suite. Good, they had left to give us some privacy.

"Perfect," I whispered as my mouth returned to hers, giving her perfect lips the attention I had wanted to give them for days. I moved down her jaw to her neck again, leaving open mouthed kisses as I went and gave some attention to her collarbone, carefully nipping and sucking my way along it. Bella was letting out little sighs and moans as I worked my way across her chest to the little dip at the base of her throat. My right arm was taking my weight so I wasn't crushing her while my other hand worked its way under her hip to her ass again, squeezing and pulled her flush to me as I ground my growing erection into her wet pussy. I groaned at the feeling of her heat against me even through the layers of her panties and my sweats as she moaned out her pleasure and arched her back, pushing her full breasts into my chest. If she wasn't careful I would come undone right there. There was another rush of want and lust from her, layered in with some anticipation. There was so indication of her wanting to stop but knowing Bella, that may very well be hidden away from me. I pulled away from her chest before we went too far and made my way back up to her ear.

"Do you want me stop Bella?" I asked as I licked the shell of her ear, causing her to gasp and shudder.

"No. Never." She breathed out, not an ounce of unpleasant feeling making themselves known to me. I nodded, moving my hand to the bottom of her shirt, pulling up slightly while moving my head to look into her eyes asking her the silent question. She was panting slightly, her breath blowing across my face as she nodded and blushed slightly, making her scent in this room almost overpowering. Deep down it was like I knew I couldn't hurt her and I continued to pull her top us, revealing her soft, creamy skin as I went. She sat up slightly so I could pull it over her head and then lay back down, covering herself slightly feeling a little self-conscious. I moved her arms slightly so I could look fully at her perfect form. Curvy and beautiful, but Bella would be beautiful whatever she looked like. She looked away from me and started to feel embarrassed. I gently moved her face to look at me.

"Bella, you're absolutely perfect. Don't ever think otherwise. Are you sure you want to carry on?" I was worried that she was doing this only because I wanted to.

Damn, this must be what it feels like to be a regular guy who's sleeping with a girl for the first time.

I was nervous and worried about whether she wanted it or whether she would enjoy it if she really did. This was Bella. It had to be perfect. It was her first time after all.

"Jasper stop asking, you're starting to make me think you doing want this." She answered quietly, uncertainty showing itself in her emotional cocktail for the first time.

"Bella darlin', I want you so badly that I keep worrying you're doing this because I want to instead of you wanting to. I promise, I won't ask again but if we're going too far for you then just say the word and we'll stop."

She nodded her agreement and I moved back to kiss her again, the lust immediately picking back up and her hands threading through my hair and pulling slightly as her tongue actually fought for dominance for once. She was taking control and showing me that she wanted this and it was damn sexy. She sat up, pushing me back up with her and started to move her hands down my chest, never looking away from my undoubtedly black eyes. The lust flowing between us had her panting. Her hand reached the bottom of my shirt and lifted it until she was slipping it over my head and throwing it on the floor to join hers. She raised herself to her knees in front of me and attacked my lips once again with hers. This time I made sure that I was the dominant one. I couldn't help myself. The taste of her and the lust filling this room mixed with her scent was just driving me wild. As she pulled back for more of that pesky oxygen that kept separating me from her luscious lips, I moved my attention back to her neck and collarbone, her hand moving into my hair again. I moved one hand to her ass to lift her up a little and press her into me making her straddle me while the other stroked up her side towards her breasts. She was just perfect. I moved my hand to cover her breast as she moaned and arched her back, giving me way better access to both breasts. As my hand played and rolled her nipple one breast my mouth moved to give the same attention to the other. Her moaning louder and it was all I could to keep the growl inside. There was the constant buzz of electric all around us and everywhere our skin had contact. She started pulling at my hair, pulling me away from her breast towards her mouth again which I all too happily allowed. She started to push me so I was lying beneath her, both her hands on my chest as both of mine were on her ass. As her tongue explored my mouth, I pushed her down slightly letting out a small grunt when her hot centre came into contact my rock hard length. That seemed to just make her wetter, the smell of her arousal was so strong I didn't think this room would ever smell of anything else. And so it shouldn't, Bella's scent was just the most mouthwatering scent I had ever come across. I started to wonder what she would taste like and again, I had to fight to keep the growl in while I almost came undone just from dry humpin' her like a teenage boy.

I slid my hands up her back, one stopping at the waistband on her panties, the other tangling with her already messy hair so I could secure her lips to mine. I traced a finger along the waistband over her back, dipping it in just slightly when I got to her hip. Moving her head back just slightly and looking into her eyes I saw her nod her head the tiniest fraction and that was enough for me. I flipped her over again, not even bothering to hide the speed now. She was going to have to know sooner rather than later. Especially after this. I swallowed her small shriek of shock by kissing her deeply, slowly moving my finger just under the waistband along the front of her body now, dipping down into her slit and feeling the wetness gathered there. Her eyes rolled back slightly and she moaned deeply into my mouth, the vibrations of it going straight to my already hard cock, making it impossibly harder. This woman was going to kill me. I moved back up her slit after gathering some of the wetness at her centre and circled around her clit while sucking and licking my way down her neck back towards her breasts. The sensation of my mouth on her and the coldness of my finger putting pressure on her already engorged nub made her cry out with pleasure, her hands falling out of my hair and grasping at the sheets on the bed below her. There was constant moaning coming from her now peppered with quiet whispers of "Jasper" falling from her lips like a prayer. I promised myself that I would turn those whispers to screams soon enough, and I would hear them over and over again.

I moved my attention from her clit and added another finger as I slipped them down her hot slit, again gathering the moisture that had gathered there until I reached her centre. I pulled back from worshipping her breasts with my mouth to seek permission from her.

"Jasper, just fuck me already!"

I wasn't about to say no to that! Not fully anyway. My fingers entered her hot, wet pussy and I marvelled at the tightness of it. Her eyes rolled back into her head as she moaned out at the feeling of my fingers penetrating her virgin hole. I shifted slightly so I could watch her face as I made her feel the way no other man had before and one of her hands moved to my shoulder, nails digging in. I used some of the lust that she was projecting at me and pushed it right back at her to make the experience even better for her. Her moans got steadily louder and longer as I moved my fingers in and out of her at an agonisingly slow pace until she started to beg for more.

"Please Jasper! Harder… faster…"

I granted her wish and added my thumb to press on her clit as I did, causing her to squirm and buck into my hand under me, her nails on my shoulder scraping down and her other clenched tightly into the sheets. Her moans were turning into screams and in now time I felt her walls, quivering around my fingers and knew that she was close to finishing. Her eyes were closed through all of this but I just couldn't have that.

"Open your eyes, Bella. Look at me." Her eyes flew open and she looked deep into my eyes. "Come for me, my Bella. I want to feel you come all over my fingers."

She was getting closer and closer, bucking into my hand and screaming my name. I lowered my mouth to her ear, sucking the lobe in gently before growling quietly in to it.

"Scream my name Bella. Scream."

"JASPERRRR!" And scream she did. I was surrounded by her intense euphoria and her mouth flew up to mine yet again, tongue dominating mine without even trying and being in such close contact with her as her emotions swirled around me I growled lowly and felt myself come undone too. There was flash of light behind my eyes and it was almost like I had bound myself to her completely, never wanting to be anywhere else than by her side ever again.

She started coming down from her euphoric trance and I slowly removed my fingers from her still pulsing pussy and moved my tongue from her mouth allowing her to breathe. Her eyes shot back to mine as she groaned from the loss of contact but it quickly turned back to a moan as I put my fingers in my mouth, moaning myself as I sucked them clean. She tasted better than any bloody I had ever had or would ever have. After I pulled them from my mouth with a small 'pop', she greedily attacked my mouth, tongues sweeping everywhere, moaning at the taste of herself on my tongue. I moved away, promising her I would be right back and went to the bathroom. I quickly cleaned myself off as well as I could after my embarrassing teenage boy moment of coming in my pants and returned to her with a warm, wet washcloth and started to clean her up down there. There was no embarrassment or self-consciousness as she basked in her after orgasm glow.

She was so beautiful. And mine. I moved her kiss her deeply and slowly and she allowed me in immediately but I pulled away soon after, just gazing at her as I slowly traced my finger over her stomach. I looked back up to her face and saw her looking at me questioningly.

"Jasper, please don't take this the wrong way because that was the most incredible experience of my whole life. Lights flashed before my eyes and everything. But that wasn't normal. You're not normal. I've been watching you, Peter and Char for that last week. What are you?" she felt curious and sated but nothing else. Not scared, not worried… nothing.

Here we go…

AN

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