Another day another update. FYI it looks like Sundays will be my update days except for yesterday.
Fitz POV
"The water feels amazing. Can you wash my hair please?" turning around from the lack of reply she sees me staring and not in a good way.
I was seeing the discoloration of her skin, the stitches from her stab, the gun shot wound, a chunk of her hair missing where a scar will now lie, and various cuts. So many emotions were going thru me. The image of herself was tainted and she is strong and I know someday she will be back to her strong self, but this will always be with her. She places her hand on my heart and the other on my cheek to wipe away the tears I did not even know was dripping down my face. We were here standing in the shower together for the first time and it felt raw. For me, there was nothing sexual about this shower. When we stripped down I felt stupid and immediately ashamed that I assumed she wanted a shower together, she immediately gave it and my heart soared. I loved watching her hair going from being wavy to being curly. It was a new site for me to see and I wanted to see her like this more.
There we stood bare to each other and it was her taking back control. It was her saying fuck you to the world and making her own rules.
"What are you thinking?"
Before I speak I take a deep breath, "I'm thinking that you didn't deserve this. Tha I will personally beat the life out of who did this, your hair looks amazing like this, that I cant take away your pain, nightmares, or memories of your ordeal and it pains, but see you standing here means everything and that you want to keep fighting.
"It's…"
"Please don't say its okay. This is nowhere near okay. You were hunted down, beaten, stabbed, shot, all because someone has a grudge against me. I can't get it out my head that in some fucked up way I did this to you. We did nothing wrong! You did nothing wrong so why would someone go thru these lengths to hurt you
"Fitz calm down please don't think like that. You had nothing to do with this anyway or form. You are right that is not okay wt they did to me I am scared and feel violated but I won't let them take away my peace and power and that is what you are for me. I may not feel fully safe walking down the street, hell even if the white house, but I know I will get there and keep on fighting but you have to keep fighting also. I believe every word you said to me. I know for a fact that you will get those who did this to me.
"You will get your justice baby I promise. Come on let's get out."
End of Flashback
After the water turned cold, I couldn't stand anymore. Fitz carried me to the bed, and I flopped back causing myself pain, "ah damn."
"Easy Liv, what hurts the most?"
"Everything. Fitz, we have to find out who did this to me. I can't be weak, I don't know-how. I hate that I can't feel comfortable in my skin."
"We will find who did this and I will end them even if it cost me my presidency."
"Fitz.." he gave me a look that said he was done with that subject and there was no changing his mind.
"Let me go get your medicine, just relax, please. I know everything is scary still but I am here, I love you."
I knew she wasn't going to turn off her brain anytime soon, her relaxing was like asking a dog to fly, her muscles and jaw seemed less tense, her eyes were a little less guarded while in the shower and I can only hope that can continue to happen.