"Really, it's okay, Killua." I assure him "he didn't try to hurt me at all."

"Yeah right, you never think anyone is trying to hurt you, that's your problem." Killua is furious but he carried the cake out which is a good sign. Although, maybe he's a little bit right, that nen was terrifying, more terrifying than Hisoka's or Illumi's.

"She's always faking her smiles too, I bet she was trying to kidnap us herself, or sell us." Killua shoves his free hand into his pocket "no one helps anyone just for no reason, she was getting something out of hanging around with us"

"I don't think he was." I interrupt him, finally, sure his nen was terrifying but now that I see how powerful he is… if he wanted to hurt me he would have done it. "He told me he missed his brothers, and he hasn't seen them since he was twelve. He says he's going to kill his step–father and that's when his nen took on that feeling." I shiver at the memory. I hadn't once even had the feeling of being scared of him and then just like that, like a switch, he was the most terrifying thing I had ever seen

"It doesn't matter." Killua snaps, I kind of figured he would be like that.

"We can't trust her and that's it, we're better off on our own." Killua sits on a bench and opens the cake up. "At least she has good taste in desserts."

"How can you eat another one, they're so sweet." I laugh at him because chocolate always makes him so happy.

"If I can endure torture, I can endure a little sugar." Killua smiles. He only ever smiles at me like that, the rest of them were fakes.

"Your eyes are sad too sometimes." I didn't notice until Iku. "like you feel alone."

"Pfft, whatever." Killua rolls his eyes at me "Iku got into your head too much, it's just us now. forget about her."

"You really want to leave him?"

"Yeah, why not? It's been us for this long, why not just keep it this way?" Killua finishes off the cake in no time at all.

"He was teaching us to hone our nen." I remind him "and he's nice and cares about us."

"She doesn't care about us, Gon, I don't know what she wanted but she wanted something from us." Killua's getting irritated with me but I think he's right and wrong.

"I think he just wanted someone around." I scratch the back of my head a and shift around, I don't want to irritate Killua "I think he just misses his brothers."

"Yeah well, we're not her brothers and we've got our own things to worry about. She'll make her way home just fine and she's a lot stronger than I thought she was, so I doubt she'll have a problem with whoever she's going to kill, you felt that nen."

"Yeah… but I still don't think we should leave him, she could teach us so much still." I look back toward the shop, he left us at but he's still close enough that his nen is around us.

"Gon I don–"

"But if you want it to just be us, I'm fine with that." I throw my arm around him and hug him

"Knock it off, you're being stupid." Killua shoves at me but I hold tight to him.

"If you want it to just be me and you then it's me and you forever." I laugh.

"Knock if off, Gon!" Killua's face got all red, he always gets all red faced when I hug him.

"Seriously, you're so embarrassing." Killua drops the cake plate and pushes against my face.

"Come on, just one hug back, it's not gonna kill you." I know he likes it when I hug him but he can never bring himself to hug me back. I wish he'd tell me why.

"come on, we have to get moving, we've got almost a whole day to still be traveling, we can probably make it to the next town before night fall." He did finally push me away.

"oh, alright." Iku hopped down and I shoves him with my nen "I still think we should train our nens."

"she was strong, her advice was good but we can't just trust anyone." Killua activated his nen. "we still don't know who hired my family to kidnap you."

"I know… I just still think we could trust him." Iku was interesting. When I felt the intensity of his nen he was even more interesting.

"okay, I'm just gonna ask one more time and then I won't ask again." I walked in front of Killua to stop him. Killua rolled his eyes "you're sure, you want to leave him?"

"I–" Killua did hesitate but I saw the resolve there already.

"I think its better if we do, yes." Killua brushed passed me and I followed.

"alright then, lets go." I grabs his arm and dragged him forward.

"you don't even now where we're going?" he laughs. I really like it when Killua laughs.

The world felt darker outside of Iku's nen. I had no idea just how nice her nen felt until it was gone. Even Killua seemed more irritable. He kept his hands in his pockets and his eyes on the ground.

"lets go swimming." I tried to reach out with my nen but it wouldn't go. The ground rushed up to meet me. "what the…

"Gon!" Killua and I knelt on the ground. "Gon what happened?"

"i… I don't know." I shook my head and tried to expand my nen again but it wouldn't go.

"Stop doing that idiot." Killua yelled "you're tired, we're not in Iku's nen anymore, she warned us about this, you're using it up to quickly, now e have to rest." He stood up and fell right back down.

"what the…" he looks so confused I laughs "ha! Stupid, you did the same thing as me. Now we're both tired." I laid my head down "Guess we'll have to rest here."

"we can't rest here." Killua's voice was weird. "we have to get someplace safe, we're vulnerable out here."

"Killua stop!"

Killua tried to get back up, he was using too much nen. "ouch! Killua!" his nen cut me, it cut me, why was he ddoing this?"

"We're not safe here, Gon!" He shouted back "we're in the open and have no way of defending ourselv– Hisoka…" Killua looks up, I felt it a second later. Hisoka was here.

"don't worry boys, just rest. I'll watch over you." Hisoka patted Killua's head before sitting beside me and combing his long fingers through my hair. Huh… that doesn't fee anything like when Iku does it.

"get away from him, Hisoka!" Killua yelled.

"you have to relax, Killua!" I yelled back at him "Everything is fine, Hisoka doesn't have to wait for us to be weak like this, he's a lot stronger, you have to stop it or you're gonna die." Fear is cold. I forget that sometimes.

"please, Killua, rest, we'll be okay if we rest and then we'll be more careful tomorrow." My heart raced, my hands shook but it wasn't from my own exhaustion.

"no, I don't trust him." Killua yelled back, was those tears?

"you don't have to trust him." I yelled back "trust me." He froze and just like that, he met my eyes.

"you're crying." He stopped trying to get up, he sank to the ground.

"I'm what?" I touched my face and there they was, tears.

Killua met my eyes and smiles "I trust you." He holds my eyes and for a bit before he drifted off.

"now you little one." Hisoka continued to comb through my hair "go on and rest."

"Killua trusts me not you." I resisted the urge to go to sleep. Killua trusts me, me no one else.

"you'll expend to much energy." Hisoka's hands holds none of the comforting power of Iku's, I didn't think he'd hurt me but Killua looks at me, says he trusted me… I had to stay awake.

"where's your new teacher, they should be able to put you down easily enough."

"Iku wouldn't do that and we're not traveling together anymore anyway." My eye was getting so heavy.

"That's a good boy. Go to sleep." He smiles at me and teased my hair. "I'll watch over you."

"no… Killua…trusts…me…" I shook myself trying to stay awake. I wish Iku was here, She'd be able to heal my nen.

"Nen takes days to replenish, you've been spoiled with your teacher, she let you heal faster, had you stayed with her you would have developed your nens in the half the time…" he trailed off and looks beyond me.

"hmm… looks like someone is closer than you thought." Hisoka smiles at the woods and the world felt lighter again.

"Iku…" her nen was like a hug and warmth. I felt some exhaustion lift.

"your teachers seems to want a word with me." Hisoka scratched my head and left me there.

"Iku, wait." I wanted to chase after her but my eyes was closing again. "I'll just… I'll just rest for a few minutes."

Author's Note:

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