That Eye You Can't Escape

by reminiscent-afterthought

[Alt-S1.5, drabble collection] It was impossible to get away from the eye of the Syndicate, and Hei had just been chasing a wild dream.

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That Eye You Can't Escape
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I can see despair creeping into your eyes. I can see the charges that usually dance around you quieten. You always thought you had a tight grip on your emotions but you were wrong. You always thought that, if you locked yourself tightly enough away, nothing would be able to touch you.

That wasn't true, in the end. Even electricity didn't make the perfect shield. It never would have, and you knew that yourself when you used it to defibrillate yourself. You were too clever, but you tried to ignore how emotions didn't line up with reasoning like Contractors and you're not really one.

It's a fatal flaw of yours, and you knew it but you did it anyway. And now you're out of practice and you're sinking deeper and deeper into despair.