Maggie smiled looking at Jubal as she lay her chin gently on her hand that was resting on his chest and she ran her hand along his jawline slowly, along the stubble that had grown before she scratched lightly at his goatee
"I love you too Jubal, more than I think you realise but I'm happy to continue to try and show you just how much I love you every single day"
Jubal relaxed in to the couch more enjoying Maggie's touch on his stubble and goatee as he ran the backs of his fingers along her cheek gently "Baby, you have shown me on so many occasions just how much you love me and I honestly don't know what I did to deserve the love of a such an amazing woman"
Maggie's heart was beating faster when she heard Jubal call her 'Baby' it was the first time that he had done it and it caught her a little off guard at the new pet name. But she had to admit that coming from him she loved it, and she couldn't stop the smile that was on her face
"You just called me baby" she spoke softly her eyes never leaving his
"I'm guessing from the smile on your face that you don't have an issue with me calling you that?"
"The opposite, I love it" Maggie leaned in and kissed Jubal slowly but with love "And you are a better man than you give yourself credit for honey" she spoke softly as she lay her chin back on her hand on his chest
"I'm not sure you would have thought that way if you had of known me back then Mags, I truly was a mess. I hated the man I was back then" The pain was very obvious in Jubal's voice and it broke Maggie's heart to watch him like this
"You know we don't have to talk about it, especially not everything you've been through on this case"
"I know, it's one of the many things that I love about you, you have never sat and asked questions about my drinking and you have never forced me to talk when I haven't felt up to it.. But this is something I want to share with you, I need to share with you"
Maggie kept her eyes focused on Jubal and she could see in his eyes that this was something that he really did need to tell her "It's just you and me here the rest of the night, so take your time and you can stop at any time"
Jubal leaned in and pressed his lips against Maggie's forehead before he lay back against the couch, he was running his fingers through her hair slowly as he took a deep breath
"The night that Rina kissed me there was more to what happened that night" Maggie tensed in Jubal's arms, this was not what she was expecting. He felt her tense straight away and close her eyes, he caressed her cheek
"Mags, baby it's not what you think.. I swear to you I've told you the truth about Rina" Maggie finally opened her eyes to look at Jubal and she nodded for him to continue "But I realised how close I came to sleeping with someone that wasn't Sam, so I did what I always did in those days and I got blind drunk"
It was clear that Jubal was struggling, Maggie could see it in his eyes, she wasn't sure what he was going to tell her but she knew it was clearly a huge thing for him. She lifted her hand resting it on his cheek and caressed it with her thumb, he kissed the palm of her hand before looking back in to her eyes and continuing to speak
"I got blind drunk and I woke up the next morning in my car at the house, I had no idea how the hell I had got there, I had no memory of driving home. I got out of the car to go in to the house and that was when I seen the massive dent in the car and it was covered in blood" Jubal took a breath to steady himself "I checked all police reports when I went back in to work but there was no hit and runs reported so it had to be an animal that I hit and killed. But there was so much blood and I had absolutely no memory of driving or hitting anything, that night I attended my first AA meeting"
Maggie's heart had started to beat faster as she listened to Jubal and then it broke for the man that she loved so much as she could see this was something that still haunted him. She could also tell that he was afraid of how she was going to react as she kept caressing his cheek with her thumb
"I can't even begin to imagine how that must have felt for you honey to see that blood and have no memory of what happened. But you aren't that man anymore, yes it is a part of you and it always will be because you will always be in AA but you are an amazing father, your kids absolutely love you to pieces that's clear to see and hear when they talk to you. I couldn't imagine having a better boss, no one else could do your job and do it so amazingly and I also couldn't imagine laying here with anyone but you Jubal and I really mean that"
Jubal released the breath that he didn't even realise he was holding but he had no idea how Maggie was going to react to what he told her, it's not something that many people knew about. When he looked in to her eyes he seen nothing but love for him, it hadn't made her opinion of him change and that meant so much to him
"You're right I will always be in AA but I am doing so much better now, it wasn't easy at the start but I have you and the kids to stay sober for and that's honestly more than I ever thought I would have. I wanted you to know the whole truth about what happened with the McMay case, it's why it's a case that stuck with me"
"Thank you for telling me, I know that really can't have been an easy thing to do and it means so much that you wanted to tell me. I wish you didn't have to go through that back then but I am so dam thankful that you got sober because it lead to us meeting and I couldn't imagine not having you right here, right now"
"I am going to make sure that I do everything I can to make sure that I don't screw this up, you are the best thing to happen to me since the birth of my kids and I'm not going to ever give up on you or us no matter what. You and the kids are everything to me, as long as I have you three then I have three massive reasons to stay sober"
Maggie felt tears appear in her eyes as she listened to Jubal's words, he wasn't holding back right now, he was wearing his heart on his sleeve and it was bursting her heart with so much love for him as she knew this wasn't an easy thing for him. She didn't feel like she had words strong enough to express what she was feeling right now so Maggie decided to let her actions speak for her as she leaned up closing the distance between them as she kissed him with all the emotions soaring through her body right now. She wanted to express all of those feelings in to the kiss so that Jubal had no doubt about how much she loved him and it was working because he felt like he had never been kissed this way before. Jubal wrapped his arms even tighter around Maggie not that he could actually hold her any closer to him right now as he completely gave in to the kiss, thankful that him wearing his heart on his sleeve wasn't too much for her.