She takes cookies out of the oven, letting them cool down in the kitchen counter. " Happy birthday, Meowster!" she softly murmurs at me while kissing my cheek.
We have been living together for over a month, once she found out I lost my home in a fire, she insisted I moved in with her. It feels odd to me... Not that I don't like to live with her, I do. But that... She has been overly flirty with me, she still is my boss.
" Thanks" I respond to her, petting her fur, she perks her lips at me. I sigh, it's not that I don't want to... It just... The power imbalance... It flicks me the wrong way. I kiss her forehead. " You shouldn't have... Now I have to get you some cookies for you, when it's your birthda..." she kisses me.
" Yo! What the fuck?" I say to her, she didn't care anymore. She pushes her self on top, I roll her off me. " Stop! I don't want this!" I shout. She tries it again but I push her on the counter, making the cookies fall on the floor. " No... Means no!" I say more assertive, my phone rings, a close colleague of mine.
" I didn't know you and Stefanie were a permanent thing, I thought it was just roommates type thing, now here you are soon to be a father!, Congrats!" he says before I hang up in his face. " you been telling people you are pregnant of me?" I ask her. " I got knocked up by a fling I had after a company party, I can't remember who it was. When your house burned down, I started telling it was you that did knock me up, of course I know you aren't the father, you don't drink alcohol..." she says. I clear my throat and look at the floor, she looks at me surprised.
" It couldn't be you... Couldn't it?" she asks, " We did hook up... At the office's Christmas party... I thought you offered help because of that" I say blushed, " Nyan...? It was you!" she says. " You told me you were on the pill when the condom broke!' I say to her, " alcohol cuts it's effect..." she murmurs...
We awkwardly look at each other then the floor. " I want to be transferred to another department..." I ask her, " We won't see each other much then..." she says, " But I can still be the father that way" I say before her eyes light up. " I thought you would go away if you knew..." she says. " You are still my boss, a fling it's a thing a relationship is another... I was afraid you wanted to use your power for black mail or something..." I say. She kisses me, I hug her and press her against me.
She breaks the kiss surprised, " We are going to have our own kid, we can't shy from showing her our 'normal' relationship" I say to her. She smiles.
Months pass, after switching to another department, I still had lunch with her. One day she looks sad at me. She pushes me into an empty meetings room. " Woah! Not here, can't it wait until we get home. I don't want to get fired!" I say chuckling. She grabs me with sadness as tears begin to pour down her eyes.
" I bled this morning... I... Managed to get to the vet before coming here... I-I... I had a miscarriage..." I interrupt her with warm, tight, hug. " Please don't leave me!" she says deepening her tears. I kneel in front of her, " why would I do that?" I say while wiping her tears from her cheeks. " We can stop pretending to like each other, our... Mistake... Is gone" she says.
I get up and go to the door, angry. " James...?" she asks. I close the door behind me.
As I walk home, I can't stop but see her saying that over and over in my mind. " 'pretend', 'mistake' ? What gives her the right to say that!" I kick a rock, " I didn't pretend anything... It wasn't a mistake for me..." I look at the flower shop, some tulips were on display...
That day at... The party...
" You like my dress?" she says, " Tulips right?" I say. " yeah, it's a shame I couldn't find any around here..." she smiled, " I would love to wear some in a flower crown but they were off season..." she says. " That's a shame, it would look cute on you" I say.
I get home, I find her at the door looking at me. "I thought... You weren't coming home today..." she says as she hugs me. " I got you something" I say while giving her a pack of seeds. " We can plant them together, see them grow together" I say. " Tulips?" she asks, "yes..." I say before kissing her forehead.
" I haven't been pretending anything... I was kinda glad we had our own kid, it wasn't our mistake. I looked forward to her. I did get mad... Because... I love you Stefanie" I say to her. She kisses me, " I-I love you t-too" she says embarrassed. We smile, blushing at each other.